deserved

Qin Huai is very good, I was the one who was wrong, I was just thinking wildly, I should have helped his career, not become his burden.

Qin Huai didn't explicitly express his dissatisfaction with me, but I could see his inability to do what he wanted from the brows that couldn't be stretched all day long.

I liked him very much the day he just came back. At that time, he was still wearing a formal suit, and there was a sweet smell of cake around him. He lifted the quilt, carried me from the bed to the sunny recliner, and put me on the bedside The cake box shook slightly, "Today you are allowed to eat cake as an exception."

"Oh." The sudden lack of a regular diet made my stomach ache, and the aroma of the cake lured me, so I raised my head, "Give it to me."

Qin Huai knelt down, opened the box, picked up a small piece of cake with his mouth, "I'll feed you."

I turn my head away.

Qin Huai swallowed my cake and said in a hurt tone, "You despise me."

"No." I quibble.

"Then turn around."

I obeyed and was given a mouthful of chocolate.

"Is it sweet?" Qin lightly touched my lips, laughing like a fox stealing fish, "Is it enough to drive away your nightmares?"

"Hmm..." In fact, dark chocolate is bitter...

As time passed, the fear of being dominated by nightmares disappeared, and I became erratic again.

I began to be madly jealous of that woman named "Han Linlin": I thought of her being blessed by everyone, standing on top of the world in front of people, and robbing my lifelong love.

They go to banquets arm in arm, date at a place where one meal costs me a month's wages, drink airlifted wine, listen to solo music, and accept the blessings of all Qinhuai's friends in a decent manner. unbearable.

"Ah Lin, where did you go to play today?" Qin Huai brought back our dinner, and as expected, he found me on the bed in the master bedroom. He lifted my quilt, brushed my hair, and pinched my face, " Come down quickly for supper."

"I'm not hungry." I turned my back on him.

"Get up." Qin Huai said, wrapped his arms around me, and dragged me out of the warm quilt, "Here's your favorite squirrel fish."

"I don't want to eat." I opened my eyes and saw him squatting/body looking for my shoes.

He put his hand on my feet and touched the soles of my feet: "It's so cold, just to add some energy."

"Stay away from me!" I looked at him angrily, and I felt disgusted when I thought that the owner of these hands had just gotten engaged and came back to coax me.

Qin Huai dared not speak out, so he could only smile stiffly with the corners of his mouth.

He was really annoying and I threw my fist at him in the face, but he easily stopped him on the way.He pulled me into his arms, Qin Huai's body was very warm, with the breath of summer.

In early July, the temperature rises suddenly,

City C entered summer in a few nights, and people took off their heavy spring clothes one after another, and changed into light skirts, shirts, shorts, and sneakers.Only Qin Huai is an exception. He lives in an air-conditioned room every day, so he is exposed to the sun for a short time and brings the sun to me.

His hands ran down my spine slowly.

"Too thin," he said. "If you don't eat, how can I have the heart to let you go out? We're going to the seaside for vacation during the summer vacation. What if the waves wash you away?"

"I'm not going out." I touched his neck with my chin, "Let me go."

"We've been together for so long, we've never gone out to play, and you don't like dating, Ah Lin, you always resist me like this... Where am I not doing well enough, please tell me, don't always abuse yourself, I would be very sad."

"Let go of me first." I don't want to listen to his sweet words.

"I really want to support you for the rest of my life... make you want to wait for me in the house every day, but you are always so sad, you don't want to." He patted my back, and something salty hit me On my face, the tip of my tongue flowed, "I'm sorry Ah Lin, I will ask for your opinion in the future."

Weeping is secret, afraid to see his painful appearance, so he struggled to break away from him, fled to the bathroom, sat on a temporary stool, doing nothing.

I still want to leave.

I can't rely on Qin Huai for the rest of my life.Probably we have never been a person in the same world. He has his responsibilities and obligations, his concerns, and his family.And not like me, alone, abandoning everything, just for a love that burns both body and mind.

He pampered me like this, and then came to break my heart, gave me wealth that I would never earn in my life, and put me in a cage made of shocking things.

I thought of the attitudes of the people around me: Ji Jingcheng probably thinks that I am a good object of pleasure, who can both please himself and hurt his opponents; Ji Jinglin must think that I am pitiful, and his successor is a foolish poor man with nothing, living a life abandoned by him Unhappy life; the embarrassing eyes and evasive behavior of my parents; the comments of the world; the contemptuous words of Qin Huai's mother; when I close my eyes, I can see Qin Huai's friends smiling at me; There are Lin You's gossip; Yu Jia's confusion and Li Mu's eyes of hatred.

No one is sure of my current situation, they will only advise me and coerce me: please leave him; he is so good to you, please accept his kindness, how difficult it is for him.

There was the manual razor I used yesterday morning on the sink. I picked it up unconsciously, pulled out its blade, and imagined that Qin Huai was holding it and looking around at himself in the mirror.

Unknowingly, the tiny blade has an unusual attraction for me.

I turned it over in my hand, imagining myself as a magician who can change the past, with amazing special skills, fetching objects from the air, crushing boulders in my chest... the reality is that I was cut shallow skin.

This is not a comfortable feeling, I bent down, poked the plush slippers that Qin Huai ordered in bulk, pulled its ears, and dirty the snow-white one to pass the boring time.

"What are you doing? Why are your shoes red?" Qin Huai asked with red eyes, he changed into his home clothes and went in to wash his face.

"It's nothing, I have a nosebleed." I clenched my hands, "It's all right."

Qin Huai did not doubt that he was there, and hugged me along my waist, "I want to see you all the time, I will arrange you to work in the company in a few days, don't you always want a job? "

I lowered my eyes: "I can't do your job well."

"You can learn slowly," Qin Huai said with a smile, "If you don't do well, I will punish you severely, lock you into the bathroom, and teach you to analyze your mistakes one by one."

"By the time we can still start an office romance, I can see you all the time."

"Then what about your fiancée?" I asked sourly, "What will others say about me?"

"We can go abroad to get married secretly. After a few days the company has stabilized. You first put on women's clothes and go on a date with me. Then when the time is right, lift up the skirt and give them a surprise." Qin Huai laughed, eyes rolled: "Speaking of which, it's been a long time since I saw Ah Lin in women's clothing."

His eye sockets were still red, but his eyes were piercing. Then he untied a ring from the rope on his chest and knelt down on one knee.

"I've wanted to propose to you for a long time. Silly Ah Lin, you still refuse to open the box of the gift, which really makes me angry."

He took my hand and wanted to give me a hand kiss.

"Then, Jiang Lin, are you willing to marry me?"

I couldn't speak, I could only stand there blankly, looking down at Qin Huai who was holding the ring in his hand, he looked at me encouragingly.

After a while, I murmured: "I don't know...I really want to, but...I'm afraid, Qin Huai, get up quickly."

I stretched out my hand, and Qin Huai held it tightly, and he touched something warm in my palm.

"If you like it, just answer 'I do'." Qin Huai hugged me, and separated my painful hand, "A Lin, don't be so cautious, just take it as your consent."

I trembled in his arms.

"Let's go down and eat fish," he said.

When we were downstairs, he put the ring on my ring finger: the ring was just right, it was a ring with a strange pattern, and the initials of Qin Huai's name were engraved inside.

Then, Qin Huai saw my blood-stained palm.

The short-lived happiness ended here, and Qin Huai was furious.