deserved

My parents handed me over to Qin Huai very reassuringly. They were still downstairs greeting each other, but I had already walked away far away.

I found that I was wrong, what is the happy place in my hometown, time and time again, I have broken my heart here, I have been escaping from here, and only when I am helpless will I entrust it with the illusory temperature it brings me.

The sun is hidden in the clouds, and the weather is gloomy, just like my desperate heart.I stopped and walked aimlessly, and Qin Huai always kept a certain distance from me.

I walked through the streets and alleys, looking for their shadows in my memory.The sky is getting darker, and the clouds are gradually covering the sky, which is suffocating.

There is no fun in this world, it's just stop and go, and then return to the original point.

After a long time, there was rain falling, drizzle and slanting wind, a gentle scene.The rain hit my face, itching, I wanted to smile, but I couldn't raise the corners of my mouth.

Qin Huai caught up, wrapped my body with his coat, and asked me softly what I would like to eat.

His voice is so beautiful, for a moment, I was even willing to give up everything for this, and just stay with the voice forever, but Qin Huai is Qin Huai after all, he broke my heart, but he pretended that none of this happened.

I didn't answer, only my stomach was howling, and he pushed me into a small roadside shop. Since it was not yet noon and it was raining, there were very few customers here.

There are few varieties of steamed buns, so Qin Huai had to order four drawers of meat buns, plus side dishes and soy milk.

Qin Huai is probably used to being the noble son of City C, and he can't stand the temptation of the small steamed buns in the market. He has already dealt with his share while I was still dealing with the third steamed stuffed bun.

Living in a small town has made me a picky eater, and my expenses are mainly on renting a house and eating fish.Xiaoqian once said that I am easy to raise, and only need a small amount of vegetables and a fish to survive the whole winter. I frowned at the smelly meat stuffing, and this expression caught Qin Huai's eyes.

"You can just eat the bun skin, eat it quickly, we have to rush to the high-speed rail station."

I'm sorry, so I can only swallow it pickily and look at Qin Huai's face from time to time.

At first he was still watching me, but after 5 minutes, Qin Huai breathed steadily and fell asleep alone.

His face was buried in his arms facing the greasy table.Qin Huai has always been a person who loves cleanliness, but now he is in such a situation, it's really ridiculous.

I put down the steamed stuffed bun and pulled his hair lightly. He fell into a deep sleep and didn't wake up.

I should just leave, start from the small town, go to the ends of the earth where I want to go, this is a great opportunity, but I did not take action, because I am not sure whether Qin Huai will find me again, go to Harassed my parents, my friends, made bad things about me.

I decided to stay. Living alone is not perfect. When I am alone, the boundless loneliness will swallow me. I used to have a nocturnal cat, but now I have nothing.

I stared at Qin Huai bored, seeing that he had slept for a long time, the diners coming and going, the boss's yelling, and the friction of tables and chairs couldn't wake him up.

When Qin Huai woke up, the train had just left, and the phone's brain was screaming in despair, so I gloated.

He was so embarrassed, with red eyes open, unkempt, wrinkled suit, and an unpleasant smell of buns.

He was probably a little confused, and he regained his sanity when he saw me.

I handed him the cold soy milk on the table, and he drank it in one gulp.

He cleared his throat and got mad at me and asked me why I didn't wake him up, which is ridiculous, and it's not like I wanted to leave.

"I'm sick." I said coldly.

"That's just an excuse to bring you out of the house." Qin Huai said, "It's not true, don't worry about it."

"You told them to bring me back?" I asked.

Qin Huai didn't answer me, he stood up and went to pay the bill, but unfortunately I had already paid.

He took my hand and took me away, and we took the bus to the county.Qin Huai took my ID card away when I bought the ticket and never returned it.

I put my face on the car window, looking at the distant scenery, I was filled with emotion.

Qin Huai pulled me back and kissed me. We were still on the bus, and my neighbor's aunt was across the corridor.

She let out a cry of surprise, but it couldn't relieve Qin Huai's drowsiness. He was half asleep, his warm breath sprayed on my face, and there was a jolt, and his head rested on my shoulder again. I frowned uncomfortably.

I don't know how long the peaceful days can last, looking at his handsome face, I really want to ask him: Did he choose me, only me, and no one else will be involved in my life?

We returned to City C, and I moved into Qin Huai's house in the city.

Compared with when I left half a year ago, there is not much change here. When I came back, my game notebook was still in the place where I left it. There were a lot of egg tart skins in the kitchen, and even the shower gel was put in the usual place. superior.

Just like before, Qin Huai showed me around the whole house, and reminded me that the sandbags on the balcony of the bedroom had been replaced, and I could come and go from the study at will, no need to sneak around.He also placed a photo album in the best place in the study. I watched him carefully pull out the photos he brought from my house, put them in it, and then flip it over from the other side, showing me photos of me and him,

If I had been treated like this before, I would have been complacent, but now there is no disturbance in my heart, I just nodded as a matter of routine, then turned and left.

I was kept in captivity in the house, and even when I went out, I had to have Qin Huai's approval and full supervision.

He is very busy, working day and night, having opportunities with friends and friends, and then going home to toss me, and we have very few opportunities to go out.

He was afraid that I would escape, so he handcuffed my hands to the head of the newly changed bed every night when he slept.The first few days I resisted, struggled like hell, cursed at him, bit and kicked him in the most vicious words I could learn.Qin Huai can always suppress me, he is indifferent to my pain, he just keeps repeating that it is for my own good and wants me to calm down.

"Take a deep breath," he said, "and close your eyes, and I'm right here with you."

I calmed down, it wasn't his secret words that worked, it was just because I was bored, there was nothing wrong with meekness, I gradually learned to listen to his words and adapt to my current life.

I closed my eyes under his gaze, and paid attention to his breathing rhythm. When he was fast asleep, I would sit up and stare at the dark void, tracing the outline of the darkness. I would not fall asleep until I was exhausted and my body could no longer hold on.

Qin Huai would wake me up on time at six o'clock in the morning, untie the shackles on my hands, and let me spend the whole day adjusting my life.

"Ah Lin, don't look at me like that," he looked into my eyes, poked into them, and then looked away unbearably.

Qin Huai said that my eyes are big, like bright black grapes, when they dim, he will lose the whole world.

I know that he is just flattering me properly, I dedicate everything to him, let him kiss my lips, grab my hair, and interlock my fingers.

He brings me vulgar little presents and promises me that he loves me only in his life.

I don't want to ask where Ji Jinglin and the boy who kissed Qin Huai many years ago have gone. I am selfish and sensitive, and the monster in my heart wants to swallow everything.

I took all the things Qin Huai sent, and threw the door into the storage room after he left, without looking at it again.

My body is so normal, but my heart is dead.

In this way, there is nothing wrong with it.