deserved

They were well fed when I showed up.Push open the door, and the sound of lyrical music flows slowly.Qin Huai's unique thick and magnetic voice drilled into my ears. He was singing an old song about reminiscing about the past, which was sad and beautiful. I don't know if I can occupy a place in it.

There are a total of seven or eight people here, in different shapes, friends of Qin Huai who are troublesome, and a few are accompanying.

They chatted, played cards, and from time to time, I glanced at the fruits on the tray. Among them, Ge Shu, Ren Yuzhi, and Qin Huai's doctor friend were familiar.

Qin Huai was really celebrating his birthday: I don't know who came up with the idea, but he actually wore a crown made of fruit basket on his head, shining golden under the lamp.The corners of his mouth were slightly raised, and it was still covered with cream.

How stupid.

"Sit down," asked me to come over at the end of the song, and hugged me, "Don't be afraid, they are all people I know well, so don't be restrained."

Indeed.It would have been better if the men and women who conspired in it were ignored.

I glared at the boy next to Qin Huai who was trying to be courteous, he immediately jumped up, picked up the champagne tray with a bang, and the wine splashed all over the floor.

In an instant, all eyes were focused.

"Ah Lin, don't be so fierce." Qin Huai waved his hand to signal him to find someone to clean up, then pulled me into his arms.Seeing that everyone stopped what they were doing, he simply introduced, "This is Jiang Lin, you should all know him."

"Oh~" they said clearly.

Ren Yuzhi slapped Ge Shu and smiled evilly: "You won, Qin Huai is really charming, I am willing to bet and admit defeat, willing to bet and admit defeat."

Ge Shu ignored him, but greeted me instead: "Meet you again, Jiang Lin, how are you?"

They were all looking at me, blinding me, I should have been smiling, but I was terrified because I hadn't seen so many people in such a long time.

I shrank into Qin Huai's arms, smelling the nasty smell of tobacco and alcohol on his body, feeling his chest vibrating and making a magnetic sound.

"Okay, he's here, so don't scare him, keep this matter a secret," Qin Huai said, "Don't let the wind out."

"Old rules." Ge Shu threw a grape into his mouth, showing a cynical look.

Qin Huai adjusted his position gently, forcing me to open my eyes: "You should know Ge Shu and Ren Yuzhi, the one in yellow is Cheng Xin." He pointed to a man in a brown wallet with disheveled hair and dark circles People say.

Hearing this, the man sneered: "This is the authentic brown color, don't talk nonsense, Qin Dashouxing."

Qin Huai ignored him, "This is Shen Shiqi, he said to a handsome black-haired guy who came over," the youngest of us. "

"Seeing is better than hearing a hundred times," Shen Shiqi said, "the famous Jiang Lin."

Qin Huai probably gave him a glare, which silenced him successfully.

"The one with the short hair is Hezhou. You've met him before. Let him drink porridge from now on."

Hearing this, Dr. He stroked his half hair angrily, "Shut up, Qin Huai! Is that a new hairstyle, okay? I finally gave up working overtime to accompany you, and you actually said something."

"Old He, let me just say, your appearance must be scary, and you must have scared away many patients." Ge Shu said after hearing this.

"Of course not." He Zhou gave Ge Shu a disgusted look, "You are everywhere." He turned to Qin Huai again, and said earnestly, "I understand why your family, Jiang Lin, left. You tormented him over and over again, be careful Ah, and you too."

They started to laugh, I blushed, the doctor was kind, I felt good about him when I saw him again, I couldn't refute him, and I was too embarrassed to shrink into Qin Huai's arms again, so I could only nod indiscriminately.

"Don't talk nonsense, you scared him." Qin Huai said dissatisfied, and he kissed me on the cheek.

"Yo~ your face is blushing, so cute." He Zhou said.

My fondness for him disappeared without a trace, Qin Huai's cronies and friends must be in cahoots with him.

"It's alright, it's alright, don't surround him." Qin Huai said, and pulled me back into his arms again, "Everyone has been called over, it's time to let me go." He turned around to block the eyes of others , to me, "Have you had dinner yet?"

I shook my head.

Qin Huai glanced at his watch, "It's eight o'clock sharp, and I didn't have dinner. I'm obedient to my yang."

I looked at him with condemnation in my eyes, and it wasn't you who asked me to come out.

Qin Huai probably felt a little uncomfortable being watched by me, so he stopped entangled in this matter, "All right, I'll take you out to eat, what do you want to eat?"

I stretched my neck and crossed Qinhuai, and went straight to the half of the cake in the middle of the room, chocolate blueberries, and the sweet smell penetrated into my nose almost from a long distance.

"Cake," I whispered, "I've never had your birthday cake."

Qin Huai frowned, quite disapproving of this: Recently he believes in the way of health preservation and devotes himself to making up for all the nutrients I lack. He will only allow me to eat some unpalatable and bland food, which is simply my fault. Nightmare, he also sent another person every day, and took this opportunity to monitor my every move.

"Okay, I'll get it for you." Qin Huai said,

He was about to get up when the phone rang.

I didn't want to eavesdrop on his conversation, so I simply found a tray and a fork by myself, and feasted on Qin Huai's birthday cake.

……

I ate delicious cakes until I couldn't eat any more.The music in the private room changed its tune and became louder, mixed with excited ghost cries and howls: Cheng Xin and He Zhou's chorus.

I was dizzy from the noise, and felt a dull pain in the back of my head. I turned around and noticed that Qin Huai had disappeared in place.I simply opened my legs and went out to get some air, just to cut off the pointing and pointing of my friends.

Close the door, follow the elevator going downstairs, and take a stroll.When I came here, I noticed that there was a planned green park [-] meters away across the street, so I walked over and stopped in front of the willow tree not far from the artificial lake.

There is a lot of dew and a cool breeze here, and the sweet and creamy smell rushes up from my stomach belatedly.I choked my neck, bent slightly, and leaned against the tree.

The drooping willow leaves brushed my hair, the air was fresh, and as I walked forward, the situation gradually improved.

I found a clearing among the trees to do it. Among the shadows of the trees, through layers of shadows, I heard talking and laughing, and saw a thin and lovely shadow with an elegant and charming temperament.

How handsome he is, I thought vaguely.

Then I realized that everything was familiar: laughter is unique to Qin Huai, I will not admit it, he always smiles like this when he is happy.

The shadow is talking to Qin Huai, the voice is very soft, their voices penetrate into my ears in the breeze, I can't hear it clearly, but it is definitely Qin Huai, what "birthday, miss, recent situation, past, fortunately you are here .” I can recognize each word, but I can’t figure out what they mean together.

……

The moonlight is beautiful, and the street lamps emit a warm yellow light, like a dream. I can vaguely see their hugs, some people are crying, and they hug for a long time...the lips are close.

……

I have no idea!I do not understand!Don't ask me!I'm going crazy!By the time I realized where I was, I was sprinting without strength.

I keep repeating a name in my head and it pricks me like a needle.

Ji Jinglin

I stumbled and crossed the road, no matter how many cars there were, there was the sound of sudden braking, someone was cursing, I didn't care, I suddenly felt very uncomfortable, as if I was being torn apart.It's so uncomfortable... It's better to die.

I was something they made fun of, sad and ugly, they even made a bet that when Ji Jinglin came, I would be the funniest joke.

I have always known.

In an instant, I woke up from my dream. The time I stole was always fake and belonged to others. It could never belong to the sad Jiang Lin... I kept forgiving, denying, and deceiving myself until I almost lost myself.

I was tired from running, so I walked along the road, but suddenly I saw what happened last time: it was also on the street, Qin Huai watched me, kept silent, and had a panoramic view of my ugly appearance.

This time, such a thing will never happen.

Jealousy makes people ugly, so I waved my hand and stopped a passing taxi, telling him to drive faster and go to Qin Huai's home.

The plan was formed in my mind, it was very simple, as if I had rehearsed it thousands of times: I ran to the elevator, and took out a big backpack from the corner of the bedroom closet on the second floor; cash, certificates, random changes of clothes, necessary Medicines, chargers, razors, biscuits on the table; in just 15 minutes, I jumped into another taxi and headed to the station.

I didn't even look back at the house I've lived in for almost 8 months, but didn't stop for a moment.I don't know where I should go, but it's definitely not here, and I definitely don't want to face Qin Huai again.

……

The familiar ringtone woke me up from my contemplation, and I connected reflexively, and Qin Huai's distraught voice came from the receiver: "Jiang Lin, where are you?"

I said impatiently, "I'm on my way."

Qin Huai: "You went back? Why didn't you tell me?"

You didn't tell me either, so I said sourly: "I have an appointment with a beautiful woman, why call me over."

Qin Huai said indulgently: "Don't lose your temper, I just went out to pick up an old friend."

"Yeah, Ji Jinglin, what a special 'old friend'." I laughed, and there was no sense of joy in my voice.

"Calm down," Qin Huai comforted me, "Don't get mad when you hear Ji Jinglin."

Only pets can explode, but I'm too lazy to argue with Qin Huai, I just said: "I see, I'm on my way."

"Go home obediently, I have something else to do, don't make trouble, Ah Lin." Qin Huai returned to his usual manner.

Don't make a fuss, I thought, let's call it a day, who wants to see them kiss again, have fun, reminisce about the past?

But I didn't say it, I was just surprisingly calm.

A voice came from Qin Huai's side: "Then I'll hang up." Qin Huai sighed, "Don't do stupid things when I come back."

"Well, goodbye." I said.

The car arrived at the station quickly, and I went straight to the ticket office and chose a car that would leave 15 minutes later.The name is very strange, and I don't know where it will go, but the ticket price is very expensive, so it will be far away.

The train left the city very quickly. I was lucky. Since it was a weekday, there were very few people on the train, and there were only two people in the hard sleeper room.

I put my face against the window and watched the brightly lit city soon be swallowed up by darkness.The phone vibrated, and it was a WeChat voice message. Qin Huai's voice was drunk: "Are you home yet? Take a photo for me to prove it."

I couldn't bear to disturb his birthday, so I turned on the camera to take a picture of my sad face, and then replied softly: "I wish you good luck, Qin Huai, let's just say goodbye."

Once the confirmation message has been sent, I switch off the SIM card, mute the volume, and throw the phone aside.

In front of the window is still my face, which does not lose the innocence and carefreeness of my youth, but looks stupid, hopeless and ridiculous for no reason.

I wanted to cry, but I remembered Qin Huai's words that night under the starry sky: "Jiang Lin, can you please smile?"

Why is it bad?

Say goodbye to the past, be nice to yourself, I have a long way to go.

I opened my eyes wide, faced the car window, and showed a smile that was uglier than crying.

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The author has something to say: (small theater)

Qin Huai: Welcome back, Jinglin, long time no see.

(talk for half an hour)

Ji Jinglin: We are still only suitable for being friends, (laughs) Can I give you a hug?

Qin Huai: You can do whatever you want, I'm sorry for you, I'm really sorry.

Ji Jinglin: (Silence) It's okay, happy birthday, Huai.

Ji Jinglin: (Closes eyes, approaches, wants to kiss) Damn it, it smells like cream, open your eyes, what the hell is the tip of your nose?Why was the former male god so sloppy?It seems that the rumors are true.

Qin Huai: He is taller than Jiang Lin, not as good as Jiang Lin... His voice is wrong, strange, what am I thinking...

Qin Huai: You are well too, I wish you happiness.

(Exchange good person cards with each other)

Ji & Qin: Forget it, go back and drink.

……

Jiang Lin: Goodbye, Qinhuai.

Qin Huai: Come back to me.

Jiang Lin, turn off the SIM card and never see you again.

Qin Huai: Come back! !Jiang Lin, Ah Lin, Xiao Lin, Lin Lin, come back quickly!

Qin Huai: Don't waste your energy, you won't escape half a chapter!