deserved

Qin Huai grabbed my hand roughly, he hurt me, I started to scream, the voice was shrill, it was terrible.

Everyone was looking at me with strange eyes, as if they were looking at a lunatic.

Qin Huai's face was very ugly, he let go of my hands, and covered my mouth instead.

"Shut up," he said savagely, "shut up, don't bark, be quiet, or—hiss—"

I whimpered helplessly in his palm, as he strangled the hair on my neck, I felt breathless and turned to bite his hand.

Qin Huai snorted, I tasted blood in my mouth.

Seeing that something was wrong, Ge Shu and Ren Yuzhi hurriedly pulled the two of us away with kind words and arranged us at the farthest ends of the sofa.

For a moment, the air was heavy as if filled with lead, only the sound of Qin Huai panting heavily and my sobbing.

"Qin Huai, let's deal with it." After a while, Ren Yuzhi pulled Qin Huai away from the gloomy face, and discussed how to wash his wound with soap and running water.

Ge Shu picked up the cold tea, picked it up, took a big sip, then put it down abruptly, "It's over, Qin Huai won't let me go this time, you usually don't bite him, after all, he treats you so well."

I dried up my tears, belatedly realized what I had just done, and suddenly became a little scared.But hearing Ge Shu's voice only reminded me of Qin Huai's cruel words.

I shook my head, kicked off my slippers, and curled up on the couch with my face buried in my knees.

"Qin Huai is a bit of a forceful person, so don't worry too much about it," Ge Shu pointed out, "he's been under a lot of pressure recently, and you know that his aunt is pushing him harder, so try not to make him angry."

I kept silent, if I had heard such words a few days ago, I would have believed them completely, and would have doubled my favor to Qin Huai.

It is too late now.

What he did in the past seemed ridiculous against the backdrop of the truth: Qin Huai never cared about me from the beginning to the end, I was just something he used for fun and entertainment, after all, I thought too highly of myself.

Ge Shu saw that I didn't answer, so he couldn't say anything more. He glanced at me, and then hummed a song contentedly.

Accompanied by Ren Yuzhi, Qin Huai smoked a cigarette before calming down.

He sat next to me again, with an unpleasant smell of cigarettes blowing over his face, which made people feel very uncomfortable. Qin Huai had this smell on his body after coming back from social engagements.

He hugged me and unfolded my curled up body. I held my breath against the bad smell and looked at him expressionlessly.

He brought the hand that had been washed by clear water for a long time before my eyes, the tooth marks on it were clear, "I'm getting more and more courageous, huh?"

I let out a soft "heh" and turned my head.

Seeing that I didn't know what to do, Qin Huai's emotions that had finally calmed down were provoked again. He pinched my chin and forced me to turn my head, "Is this your attitude? Jiang Lin?"

I closed my eyes, not wanting to look at him.

The stopped tears came and went, and ran out of my eyes, and I couldn't hold it back.I know it's ugly, but it hurts so much.

Qin Huai should have laughed at this time, I thought, after all, he would be very happy every time he made me cry.

But unexpectedly, Qin Huai was still very unhappy.Maybe because his friends were still there, he couldn't show his perverted side. In short, his behavior was abnormal. He even reached out to wipe my tears and kissed my eyes.

I was so ashamed by him, and Ge Shu next to me even whistled.

"Don't cry, act like a fool." He sighed and said, "Jiang Lin, be obedient."

I don't know if I should muddle along and drown in his tenderness; but I know that Qin Huai has been telling me about my stupidity, and I am really even more stupid.If he treats me well, will I love him more?Why doesn't he treat me better?What's wrong with me?

He took my hand and examined it carefully.

My fingers have distinct knuckles and wrinkled belly, which is a sign of vitamin deficiency, while my nails have already been neatly trimmed by Qin Huai, and there is nothing abnormal about them.

Nothing.

Qin Huai was a little embarrassed, this farce seemed to be directed and acted by himself, he coughed, and could no longer ignore his friends who were staring on the sofa.

I snickered, watching Qin Huai make a fool of himself in front of his friends, I was finally not so sad, um, according to the body, it was almost joyful.

"Jiang Lin? Qin Huai? Which Jiang Lin? The one I thought of?" Ge Shu widened his eyes and asked in surprise.

I turned my head to look, he lost the aloof demeanor just now, and became stupid instead.

Qin Huai gave him a gloomy look.

Ge Shu was dumbfounded, "Ah... this..."

He patted Ren Yuzhi hard and shut up.

"Hey, Qin Huai, don't be so fierce." Ren Yu smoothed things over, "Stop scaring Xiao Lin about such a small matter."

"Ah, that's right." Ge Shu came back to his senses and hurriedly helped, "Don't treat him too badly, I mean, he, uh... is still very good."

Qin Huai snorted.

Ren Yuzhi looked down at his watch, and hurriedly said: "Ah, it's noon in a blink of an eye, and we won't be staying soon. You are busy, let's make an appointment for dinner another day."

"Then I won't give it away." Qin Huai was absent-minded and didn't hold back, his eyes were fixed on me.

His friends departed mellowly.

Looking at Qin Huai's ugly face, I felt that a catastrophe was imminent.

"Happy? You want to fool me? Huh?" Qin Huai said.

"No." I lowered my head, trying to escape.

"Tell me, here or upstairs?" Qin Huai said.

"What? I do not get it.

"Then let's go here, there is no one else." Qin Huai said.

"But... yes, you are very busy, we only..." I couldn't believe it.

"No, you're thinking too much," Qin Huai said playfully, "It's just a body check, or do you want to do something else?"

"what?"

"Sit down."

Okay, I'm just for fun, do you still care how many scars I have?

I close my eyes, humiliated and pained.

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