deserved

I have often dreamed, and dreams have been my haven of escape from reality, the safest place in all of existence.It is independent of reality, but very real.Here, if you fall, you will feel pain; if you see old friends, you will be happy; if you have unpleasant things, you can choose to hide them in the deep part of the cabinet;

Dreams are the split of day and night, in which I have lived very different lives, and for a long time they have been disconnected.

Some people say that you think about it every day and dream at night, but I don't agree with it.After being separated from Qin Huai, my dreams gradually deteriorated, faded, weird, and lacked vitality.There is no sunshine here, only bad memories and a bitter future.Together they make up a twisted reality.Qin Huai is my ghost, he lurks in every dream of mine and never leaves for a moment.

Sometimes he is an evil spirit, opening his bloody mouth at the fork in the dark and deserted street corner, grinding his teeth and sucking blood, and eating me.He threatened me, threatened me, threw me into the bathtub, locked my hands, and watched me struggle feebly and gradually bury me.

Sometimes he and Ji Jinglin finally got married, and I was invited to attend their wedding, and as a sacrifice, I fell from the top floor of the tall European-style pointed building.The faces of the other people at the wedding were blurred, and the feeling of falling on the ground was terrified, and malice rushed towards them in a trance: it was Qin Huai's face, his contemptuous eyes, his poisonous smile, his pleasant voice, Into my ears: "Jiang Lin, you can't escape." "Jiang Lin, you can't escape." "Jiang Lin, you can't escape."

Sometimes he is still the old Qin Huai. When we first met, I was wearing a heavy doll costume and watched him walk past me proudly.I instinctively called to him to stop, but I couldn't make a sound; I walked forward, but the surrounding scenery was advancing rapidly, pulling me back; I wandered around No. 202 Crescent Street, and saw Qin Huai and another boy with soft limbs were glued together. Hurry to room 401.

What's more, I stayed in the small apartment near the university, embracing Qin Huai in the dark.We spent a good night together, physically exhausted and joyous for a long time.After it was over, I curled up in Qin Huai's arms and fell asleep easily.When he wakes up, he no longer exists, and the world is silent.

I was terrified as if dead.

I started to say to him every time I saw him: "Qin Huai, I love you."

He will only be surprised and contemptuous, as if looking at a clown.

I hugged him, kissed him, and buried my face in his neck.

In this way, Qin Huai's next pursuit will be even more cruel, and his contempt will be even more heart-wrenching.

"I hate you," he said.

I started to dread falling asleep.

The author has something to say: Qin Huai: Ah Lin, you just run away, if you can't catch you, I'm the loser :)

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Nijiamao: Thanks to the bosses for their perseverance (hide your face and escape)