I heard you want to let me down

It was cold and windy outside, and the darkness seemed to swallow people up in an instant, but the small room was warm, and the fire occasionally made a "crackling" sound.This house is like an isolated island, isolating all the mundane and troubles, and because of this person around, it becomes ambiguous and warm.

When Gu Nian kissed her, it was really just on impulse.He originally wanted to take his time, to test slowly, to approach Rong Jin slowly.If Rong Jin also showed a little liking for him, he would be able to taste a little bit of sweetness.Maybe it was because the atmosphere tonight was so good, Rong Jin was extraordinarily gentle under the light of the fire; maybe it was because Rong Jin came to him in such a hurry at such a late hour, which gave him courage.

At first, he only dared to gently rub Rong Jin's lips, for fear that Rong Jin would feel uncomfortable and abrupt, but Rong Jin didn't push him away.He was ecstatic in his heart, tentatively licking Rong Jin's lips, Rong Jin also slowly loosened his jaw.

The two kissed for a long time, from the gentle temptation to the slightly hasty plunder, and finally they hugged each other.Gu Nian was not willing to put his whole body on Rong Jin, nor was he willing to let go of Rong Jin, so he turned sideways, lay down beside Rong Jin, and then gently put his arms around his waist, holding Rong Jin's whole body. Take it into your arms.

With Rong Jin's eyes closed, Gu Nian couldn't see the expression in his eyes, but saw that his ear seemed to be a little red.

Rong Jin was actually a little dazed, and didn't understand why things were developing so fast.Obviously, he had made up his mind before, to fight hard for a long time, first to test whether Anian could accept boys, and then pursue quietly.Just now when Gu Nian suddenly held his hand, Rong Jin felt his heart beating fast and couldn't help talking nonsense.Why in the blink of an eye, even second base is hit now?

He remembered what Gu Nian said when he was kissing him, "I can't keep my innocence anyway", and he coughed lightly: "Actually, you don't have to give up on yourself like this..."

Gu Nian rested her head on his shoulder and laughed muffled.

Rong Jin immediately shut up, wishing he could get into the cracks in the ground, thinking that he might have lost his mind just now.

Gu Nian put his arms around him and said with a light smile, "A Jin, I am very happy today, you came to find me."

Rong Jin tried hard not to look so shocked: "I brought you out to meet my friend, but I lost him, how can I explain? Liu Yi will have to beat me to death."

Gu Nian stuck to him, smiled in his ear and asked, "Is it just because of this? I don't believe it."

Rong Jin's voice sounded so anxious at that time, but after seeing him, his eyes lit up immediately.He didn't believe that Rong Jin didn't have friendship with him.What's more, they are willing to let him kiss.Anyway, I like him a little bit.

Rong Jin felt that his face was burning badly, pushed Gu Nian away, then sat up, and added a few sticks of firewood to the stove.

"It's fine. A Jin, you don't have to promise me anything." Gu Nian sat up and hugged Rong Jin from behind, "I don't need you to be responsible for me."

"You like me a little bit, so let's do it like this, okay?" Gu Nian's voice was a little uneasy, "If you haven't figured it out yet, you don't need to tell your family. I don't mind."

Rong Jin silently added a branch, and said after a while, "I have already told my family about it."

"Why don't you have to be responsible?" Gu Nian was uneasy, but Rong Jin calmed down from his embarrassment and shyness. He felt sore in his heart, and teased him pretending to be relaxed, "Our Anian is also serious and innocent. My son, I have kissed and hugged, and now we have to spend the night together, how can we not be responsible?"

Gu Nian tightened her hand: "A Jin. If you don't want to settle down, I'm fine. You don't have to worry about me."

Rong Jin was very glad that his back was facing Gu Nian now, he felt that his face must be very red now: "Our Rong family, there is no such thing as sneaking around and making friends with others. Either stay together and go home with me to meet my parents; or forget it. "

Gu Nian did not expect that Rong Jin was really willing to make such a promise to him, he was incoherent: "I, can I see you?"

If it is still not obvious that Gu Nian actually likes him, then Rong Jin's eyes will also grow white: "A Nian, you like me too, don't you?"

"Yes."

It should be a ecstatic thing that the person you secretly like also likes yourself.But in this sweetness, there is a shadow of uneasiness and anxiety.Rong Jin really wanted to ignore everything, just look at the person in front of him, only talk about love with him, and not think about those identities and future, but he couldn't.

He sometimes wonders, what is he struggling with?Anyway, he is also a foreign visitor, isn't his mission to be nice to Gu Nian and help Gu Nian?He didn't forget that Gu Nian's identity is the protagonist, and his mission is the mess.

Gu Nian will leave sooner or later.As for myself, when Gu Nian returned to China and "abandoned" himself, I would probably have completed the task and leave this world.At that time, what kind of national hatred and family hatred, and subsequent development, has anything to do with him?For him, there is a matter of today and no tomorrow, so why worry so much?

But he can't.He loves this person named Gu Nian, and he also cares about the relatives and friends of this body, as well as the countless ordinary people in Shao Kingdom who have been guarding the Rong family for many years.

"I also like you, Anian. I am willing to take you to see my parents, and I am willing to give you the sincerity and promise of being alone in this life. But Anian, I have a question to ask you first."

Gu Nian was in a good mood: "You ask."

Rong Jin looked at the fire, the flames reflected in his eyes, covering up his original emotions.He said softly, "A Nian, do you hate Shao Guo?"

Rong Jin actually knew that this question was inappropriate.They have only just been together, and to be honest, it is estimated that they are still in the dangerous trial period in modern times.He still wants to get along with this person, and he really shouldn't step on this kind of minefield.Thinking about it in his own shoes, at this stage, Gu Nian has almost nothing and is inseparable from Shao Guo, Rong Jin felt that it was impossible for him not to hate him.He should hate too.

Gu Nian didn't expect Rong Jin to ask this, he closed his eyes: "What if I hate?"

Not without hate.His initial impression of Shao Guo was that beautiful and flamboyant woman.She came thousands of miles from Shao country and entered his father's harem, and then there were conflicts again and again.His mother is not domineering, but she is not weak either, so she naturally wants to defend her own interests and reputation.That woman's wrists were not very superb, and she had no choice but to be favored. How many times she was framed, loopholes, how many times the truth was in front of her eyes, but she was turned a blind eye by that man.

His mother couldn't bear it anymore, and fought back a few times, and then fell out of favor completely.The father, who had been kind to him and had high hopes for him, became increasingly indifferent to him. After the woman was diagnosed with pregnancy, he actually set out to frame his first wife himself, just to force his growing son-in-law to leave the country willingly.

At that time, Gu Nian was already 14 years old, already considered half an adult.The Kingdom of Chen has always valued the heirloom, not to mention that Gu Nian is famous for his talent and benevolence. Everyone believes that at the coming-of-age ceremony, he will ascend to the position of prince.Exiling the queen's son, such a ridiculous thing, if Gu Nian hadn't accepted the order willingly, the emperor would not have driven him away so easily.The tree falls and the monkeys disperse, and the people who tend to be in power are gone, and most of his confidantes come to ask Gu Nian why, it is about the innocence of his mother, Gu Nian can't give an explanation, so his confidantes' persuasion is fruitless, and they leave one after another angrily, only Liu Yi Alone, followed Gu Nian all the way to Shao country.

He was exiled, he was not acclimatized on the road, and almost died of illness.The guard got the emperor's will, no matter how Liu Yi bribed and pleaded, it was useless, he just kept on going, and didn't dare to stop for a moment.At that time, he was lying alone on the carriage, not without hatred in his heart.

Gu Nian laughed at himself in his heart, even if he said he didn't hate, Rong Jin wouldn't believe it: "What if I hate? Rong Jin, you want to get rid of the trouble first, kill me?"

Although he had expected it, Rong Jin still felt a chill in his heart for a moment: "I won't kill you, Anian, but I will stop you."

If you hate Shao Guo, I can't let you go back.

Gu Nian gently put his arms around Rong Jin: "I hated it before, but I don't now. Ah Jin, I didn't do it to coax you. I used to not only hate Shao, but also the emperor of Chen."

"But now, I don't hate anyone anymore, because winners and losers have always been like this. I can only blame myself for getting to where I am today."

If he could understand this truth earlier and stop having those weak fantasies and nostalgia for that man, he wouldn't be caught off guard.Shao Guo didn't owe him, and that woman didn't owe him either, because in the field of power, the weak preyed on the strong, and it was life and death.

Rong Jin's heart did not relax at all.

Winners and losers have always been like this.On the day when Gu Nian becomes king, one can imagine what will happen to the defeated bandits.

Rong Jin broke away from Gu Nian's embrace, his voice trembling a little: "A Nian, I know that Shao Guo has something to do with you. But this is my home country after all."

Gu Nian looked at Rong Jin's back with dry eyes: "What is Ah Jin worried about? I'm so down and out now, and I still have to rely on Ah Jin to make ends meet. Even if I feel unwilling, what can I do?"

Gu Nian was really cautious.These days, whenever Rong Jin is free, he will stay with Gu Nian.After getting along for so long, Rong Jin never found any real clues.Gu Nian looked as if he had really resigned to his fate. He might be a little bit unwilling, but he still recognized the reality and obediently became a proton in a foreign land.

But Rong Jin knew it was not like this.I haven't heard of any book where the protagonist is willing to be a proton for the rest of his life.Gu Nian looked tepid, but there was arrogance in his heart.He is talented, has a heart, he used to be so proud, everything is at his fingertips, he is only one step away from the crown prince of Chen Kingdom, how can he be willing to be mediocre all his life?

Gu Nian definitely wants to go back.And if Gu Nian wants to go back, he must have his own influence.Apart from Liu Yi, there must be other people under him, but they just kept it secret.

Rong Jin really wanted to ask him, is it okay not to go back?Just stay in Shaoguo, I will protect you and prevent anyone from bullying you again.Whatever you want, whatever you want, whatever I have, I will give you.Can you not go back?

He knew how absurd and presumptuous these words were.Let alone whether Gu Nian is willing or not, even if Gu Nian is willing, why should he give up everything for him?But these thoughts are still circling in his mind.Why does falling in love make people so weak?Why did Gu Nian have such an identity?

Gu Nian hugged him again: "A Jin, let's not talk about this, shall we?"

Rong Jin suppressed the burden on his heart, nodded: "Okay."

Anyway, that day hasn't come yet.Just let him be weak for a while.