I heard you want to let me down

Spring Drunk is a good thing.Clear as amber, sweet in the throat.The most important thing is that after being drunk, even if you sleep for thirty years, you still think it is just a dream full of lightness and warmth.

Rong Jin felt the scent of sweet wine surrounding him all the time, and a drowsy sleepiness welled up.He listened to Gu Ruzhuo babbling behind him about the course of his travels abroad, looked at the corner of his mouth slightly, and closed his eyes little by little.

As if there was a breeze blowing on the face, bringing a slightly itchy warmth, Rong Jin walked through the overwhelming peach blossom forest in his dream, and saw the sprouts sprouting on Jingming Mountain, the ice gradually melted, and the sound of ding-dong running water sounded again, Accompanied by the chirping of birds and insects.

From the early morning sun rising, to the warm noon, and then to the silence of the night, he looked up and saw the vast starry sky shining.

Stepping through the slightly warm running water with bare feet, Rong Jin looked at the hazy and pink cloud-like sea of ​​flowers in front of him, and took two steps towards it, as if he wanted to go and have a look.

However, Rong Jin stopped in a daze, thinking, his child seems to have returned.Let's go next time.

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Rong Jin supported his head and sat up, rubbing his temples.

My head didn't hurt, but I was very dizzy.He still remembered that he seemed to be walking towards a boundless sea of ​​flowers, but now that he opened his eyes, the sea of ​​flowers had long since disappeared, and what came into view was a very familiar room.

Gu Ruzhuo has lived here for ten years, and this room is full of his personal atmosphere.The furnishings of the room are very simple, without complicated decorations, bamboo bed, dark quilt, blue bed curtain, his usual pen, ink, paper and inkstone, carving knife and seal are placed on the table, his clothes and books are placed in the bamboo box.

Rong Jin found himself lying on Gu Ruzhuo's bed.

Rong Jin laughed.This bed is not spacious, he sleeps here, where does Gu Ruzhuo sleep?Could it be possible to sleep outside all the time?

He got out of bed, lazily stretched his numb limbs due to drunken sleep, yawned, and released his perception while walking outside.Sensing around outside, Rong Jin frowned slightly, he found that Gu Ruzhuo is not in Jingming Mountain now.Could it be that he went out to practice again so soon?

Is he sleeping too long?

Rong Jin bent down, looked at the grass that was half an inch higher than before, and finally confirmed that he had only slept for half a month.Rong Jin stood up in depression, comforting himself, probably just went down the mountain to buy something.It's not that I don't have this little patience, and I can't wait for half a month, so let's go again.

Rong Jin found a tall tree branch to sit on, and his senses were released to cover the entire Jingming Mountain. He was eagerly looking forward to Gu Ruzhuo's return, and deeply experienced the waiting and sadness of an empty-nest old man.

After waiting until midnight, Rong Jin finally felt the familiar aura approaching Jing Mingshan.

Gu Ruzhuo rode a horse and galloped all the way into the boundary of Jingming Mountain.As soon as he got off his horse at the boundary marker, he saw Rong Jin standing beside the boulder.He froze immediately, took a step back unconsciously, and said after a while, "Are you awake?"

Rong Jin originally wanted to ask Gu Ruzhuo where he was and why he came back so late, but before he could open his mouth, he smelled blood on Gu Ruzhuo's body.His expression was calm, and he didn't show any emotion: "Go and wash it first."

Gu Ruzhuo whispered, "Yes."

Rong Jin looked at Gu Ruzhuo's figure walking away quickly, and sighed.Gu Ruzhuo's horse, who stayed where he was, walked up to Rong Jin's side, and hugged Rong Jin's hand intimately with his big head.Rong Jin raised his hand accordingly, and patted its head just as the horse expected.The horse, which was a little tired, became cheerful and lively.

After a while, the horse ran into the forest, returned to its herd, found a gap in the hustle and bustle of everyone, closed its eyes and fell asleep peacefully.

Rong Jin walked slowly towards the depths of Jingming Mountain.When he returned to the hut, Gu Ruzhuo was already there.

The boy was sitting on a large flat stone near the wooden house, wearing a middle coat, his long hair was wet behind him, and the thin clothes on his body were all wet.Sensing Rong Jin's arrival, Gu Ruzhuo raised his eyes to look at him. Under the moonlight, his eyes were as gentle as ever, but with a trace of uneasiness and confusion that was rarely seen in the past.

Sitting beside him, Rong Jin asked casually, "Why don't you steam your hair dry?"

Gu Ruzhuo watched Rong Jin's expression carefully, and finally relaxed after a while.His eyes were slightly bent, and it was rare for him to be coquettish and vaguely say: "I'm too lazy to do it."

Rong Jin turned sideways, brushed Gu Ruzhuo's black hair inch by inch with his fingers, from the scalp to the tip of the hair, Gu Ruzhuo's hair dries quickly and slowly.

Rong Jin looked at the moon in the sky, it was already late: "Don't you want to sleep?"

Gu Ruzhuo shook his head: "Sir, please talk to me for a while, I'm afraid I won't be able to sleep."

Ever since Gu Ruzhuo got up in the middle of the night to practice and slept outside for half the night, Rong Jin has always paid attention to this matter and stipulated that he must go to bed early on time.Gu Ruzhuo later grew up, but he always consciously abided by the rules Rong Jin set for him, and rarely violated them.

Rong Jin patted his leg and motioned Gu Ruzhuo to lie down.

Gu Ruzhuo was confused for a moment, but when he understood Rong Jin's meaning, his face turned red all of a sudden.

During the first few days when he arrived at Jingming Mountain, he often woke up at night because he dreamed about his mother, and couldn't fall asleep.After Rong Jin found out, she guarded him for a few days, let him sleep on her lap, and every time he woke up from a nightmare, he would gently pat his back, or massage his scalp, to coax him to sleep. He falls asleep.

However, it was only a few days since he came here, and he quickly forced himself to adapt and fall asleep alone.Moreover, he is so old now, not the five or six-year-old kid before.How can this be?

Rong Jin didn't care about the complex emotions in Gu Ruzhuo's heart. Seeing Gu Ruzhuo standing still, he simply stepped back, pulled Gu Ruzhuo's shoulders, and easily pushed him down on his lap superior.

With a slight movement of Rong Jin's fingers, the comb in the room flew out of the window and landed in his hand.He combed Gu Ruzhuo's hair slowly, smoothing out the tangled knots in the hair.In order to carry out He Tianning's warning of "not turning children into trash", Rong Jin seldom did these things for him after Gu Ruzhuo got older.But today, Rong Jin really wanted to comfort him, but didn't know what to say, so he chose this way.

Gu Ruzhuo's whole body was like a rigid stone, motionless.Rong Jin patted him on the shoulder: "Are you a rock too? Lie face up."

After a while, Gu Ruzhuo turned over and lay down obediently, with his eyes tightly closed.It just looks like the whole person is tense.

Rong Jin didn't force her, just combed his hair gently, and said calmly: "She won't blame you. The person she loves the most is you."

The corner of Gu Ruzhuo's mouth twitched, but he didn't laugh: "That's not necessarily the case."

Gu Ruzhuo paused for a moment, as if it was because of Rong Jin's comfort, he finally mustered up the courage to speak quickly, his voice trembling a little: "If she knew that I would do this now, she might regret that she lost her life to save me. Grandpa and grandma will probably regret loving me back then."

"Actually, it's okay not to take revenge. I know, maybe my mother doesn't necessarily want me to take revenge. She has always loved that man very much. But I," Gu Ruzhuo clenched his fists, "I am after all, and I can't get over it."

He smiled self-deprecatingly: "I heard that man scold me today, saying that I would really bring disaster to the Gu family. I suddenly felt that what the Taoist said might not be wrong. Maybe I was really unlucky. Grandpa and grandma died young , my mother died because of me, and now, I have disabled my father's hamstring with my own hands. Maybe I am just unlucky and will bring tragedy and disaster."

"Do you really think so?" Rong Jin became serious when he heard the last sentence, "Do you think what the Taoist said is correct?"

Gu Ruzhuo avoided Rong Jin's gaze, and said softly, "I don't know."

Although Rong Jin rarely mentioned the Gu family's affairs with Gu Ruzhuo, since he raised Gu Ruzhuo, he knew about the Gu family's affairs: "Your grandfather died of a relapse of an old injury, and the age at which he died was already It can’t be regarded as an early death of the human race. Your grandmother died of illness because of her husband’s death, which was a severe blow.”

"Don't forget, because of the framing by your concubine, your father concluded that your mother was unfaithful and wanted to drown her to death. Later, he heard what the Taoist said, so he thought you were unlucky and wanted to burn you to death."

Rong Jin straightened out Gu Ruzhuo's hair one by one and let it go, with a calm tone: "She did die to protect you in the end. But she didn't die because of you. Your father is the culprit of all this. Today's The end is also his own fault. If you kill him because of past hatred, it is not too much; if you let him go because of past friendship, it is not considered weak."

"Gu Ruzhuo, I'm a little disappointed in you. It's not because of any choice you made, to take revenge or not to take revenge. It's because you made a choice, and not only did you fail to obey your heart, but also because this choice has shaken you and doubts. Your mother fled all the way, never left you, took you to flee to Jingming Mountain, and her last wish is that you can grow up well."

"She protects you, and I raised you, not to make you give up on yourself and put an 'ominous' hat on yourself." Rong Jin straightened his hair, and said in a stern voice, "Get up, since I can't sleep, go to you tonight Kneeling in front of the mother's grave."

Gu Ruzhuo got up and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

Rong Jin stood where he was, waiting for Gu Ruzhuo's figure to disappear in the night forest, when a voice suddenly appeared.

He Tianning showed his body, and his tone was helpless: "It's obviously a tofu heart, why do you say such things?"

Rong Jin closed his eyes, and was a little impatient: "I can't hear what he said, and I can't see his lack of ambition. Lao He, why are you here at night?"

"Let me see if you're drunk and sober. Who knows, I just ran into you and taught someone." He Tianning persuaded him, "Why be so strict, he's only 16 years old, and he's still young. To be honest, his temperament It’s not considered weak anymore. Think about what you were doing when you were 16 years old? You don’t know which little mound it is. You also know how much he cares about you, saying these words, isn’t it like stabbing him in the heart with a knife?”

After hearing He Tianning's two words, Rong Jin regretted what he just said.He took a deep breath: "Lao He, sit and lie down wherever you want, I'll go and see him first."