I heard you want to let me down

After typing the last data, and pressing the button to send the report, Gu Yu sat on the chair, watched the report was sent successfully, and lowered his head to light a cigarette for himself.

He used to drink occasionally, but he didn't smoke, because Rong Jin was in poor health and couldn't smell the smell of smoke.Now it's reversed. Alcohol will affect the indicators of the physical examination, which will affect the frequency of his missions in the outer domain. Gu Yu has long since given up.Tobacco is of course not very good for the body, if possible, Gu Yu still wants to keep the original appearance, the appearance that Rong Jin likes.But he really needs some reassurance.

He went out this time and stayed in space for more than three months, traveling a total of twelve planets.After returning from space, I went to this office to give an exploration report without taking a rest.Physical and mental exhaustion came up more and more intensely, and more importantly, the kind of loneliness and despair that were enough to drive people crazy.He needs this spiciness and the mental numbness after a while, so that he can calm down.

His addiction is actually a bit big, but he doesn't dare to smoke too hard, and only smokes one when he really can't stand it.

After smoking a cigarette, he rubbed his face. Feeling empty in his stomach and floating on his feet, he opened the glass door and prepared to leave for the cafeteria.Someone called out to him.

"Ayu."

Gu Yu turned around: "Captain, I just sent the report."

This is his officer, Ping Hua.Originally, the scale of the Exploration Bureau is very small now, and there are only three teams in the Fifth Legion. In the past two years, a few have resigned, and they simply merged into one team. Ping Hua is the general manager and captain of the team. .

Ping Hua's expression was very serious: "I'm not here to ask you about this matter. I want to know that you have been outside for three months this time, which has exceeded the maximum time limit stipulated. How do you explain it? Why are you ignoring my message?" A return order to go out?"

Gu Yu knew that Ping Hua was a very nice person, and he only cared about him when he asked this, and he would not punish him because of this, so he couldn't help but apologize: "I'm sorry, Captain."

Ping Hua waved his hand: "Don't apologize to me, you apologize to yourself. Those rules are not set blindly with your eyes closed. They were summed up by many seniors. You drove the aircraft in the outer domain for three consecutive months, What if a genetic disease occurs? You don’t even have a supply station, so you’re not afraid of accidents!”

"Captain, I have a measure."

"I can't see where your sense of proportion is!" Ping Hua interrupted him bluntly, "I know you have good physical fitness and are a top student at the First Military Academy. Once you get here, you have to listen to me. You are not allowed to go on missions for at least a month. Let me live on the land of the Federation for a while, "

Gu Yu was silent for a moment, then nodded: "Okay."

"Ayu, I don't care what you want to do, but once you die, you can't do anything, do you understand?"

Gu Yu said softly: "I know."

Pinghua's expression calmed down, appearing happy and gentle: "By the way, Ayu, go out quickly. Someone is looking for you. I'll ask that lady to wait for you in the reception room."

Gu Yu walked into the only reception room of their sub-bureau, and looked at the people waiting for him in surprise: "Ma'am, why are you here?"

Mother Rong stood up and smiled: "You heard from your leader that you haven't eaten yet, let's go."

This was the first time Gu Yu saw Rong's mother in reality after that incident happened.The clues that have been shown in the video are more serious and shocking in reality.Mother Rong has always been a very beautiful woman, she is always delicate and elegant, with a kind of gentleness and calmness that is always treated kindly by life.But now she has lost a lot of weight, and her complexion is pale and haggard.

They went to a nearby restaurant and simply ordered food.Gu Yu answered Rong's mother's questions cautiously, all of which were trivial things like how things are going recently.There was no mention of his space voyage, or of the hopeless and hopeless search-and-rescue results.

Rong's mother picked up food for him: "The last time you went back to Capital Star, why didn't you go home?"

Gu Yu has been at the border all these years.He only returned to Capital Star once, to take the exam.It wasn't the final exam of the First Military Academy, but he applied for the qualification certificate for alien field exploration and research personnel.

In addition to the soldiers, the exploration team must also have scientific researchers. After all, the task of everyone going out is to investigate and record the basic situation of the outer planets.Even if the exploration team is useless now, there is still a form.If Gu Yu had that qualification certificate, he was originally a soldier, and theoretically he could go on missions by himself.He did succeed in persuading Ping Hua.

Gu Yu whispered: "I have no face to see Madam."

Mother Rong turned her face slightly, and there was a flash of water in her eyes: "Let's eat."

Rong's mother had already eaten, and she only watched Gu Yu eat.Gu Yu ate in silence. He had been taking nutritional supplements for three months outside the federation, and he really couldn't stand it anymore.

When Gu Yu put down the chopsticks, Mother Rong said softly, "Ah Yu, I came to see you because I want to tell you something."

Gu Yu nodded, quietly waiting for her to speak.

Facing Gu Yu's calm gaze, Rong's mother didn't know how she felt.Her eyelashes drooped slightly, and her gaze finally fell on the edge of the table without any ups and downs: "Ayu, there is no service period for the Expeditionary Team. You have been in there for three or four years, and there is nothing to justify leaving. You are still young, no matter If you want to continue studying, or if you want to re-enlist in the army, it’s all in time. Or go back and find an ordinary job.”

"My current job is very good, stable and well paid."

Mother Rong said softly, "Ah Yu, forget it."

Leave here, leave the exploration team, and stop having illusory and ethereal illusions.Because it is a drug that quenches thirst with poison, using a little bit of sweet, hope that you will never get, forcing you to never have peace, trying your best again and again to squeeze out the little remaining hope, and then it is shattered.This process will exhaust all your mental energy step by step until it completely kills you.

Mother Rong is not a very rational person.When Father Rong first proposed to stop the search and rescue, she slapped him twice and smashed everything in the house.But she didn't want to admit it anymore, after endless tears and anger, she already believed in her heart that Rong Jin was dead.And Gu Yu's life has just begun, he shouldn't have buried everything in the lonely star field with no one in it.

Gu Yuming didn't speak, he just looked at Rong's mother quietly, but Rong's mother's calmness was suddenly broken.Her voice choked up: "Ayu, people can't float in space forever. It's okay. It's really okay. Enough."

Gu Yu only asked softly: "The Rong family is going to withdraw the search and rescue team, isn't it?"

She cried too many times at the beginning, and her eyes were so sore that it was difficult to shed tears.But now, she clearly insisted that she didn't want to cry, and she had already prepared herself mentally before coming here, but when she heard the news being repeated, her tears still flowed down her cheeks.

Gu Yu didn't say anything more, he always respected Rong's mother, especially after he was with Rong Jin, he regarded her as his other mother.If possible, he didn't want to cause her any harm.

Rong's mother wiped away her tears in embarrassment, but it didn't help at all.In the past few years, the family members have been careful to talk about Rong Jin as little as possible with her, and she has always avoided, avoiding talking about him, avoiding thinking about him.But today, she knew that she had to face these, because the pain of the person in front of her was no less than hers.

The young man in front of her is the child she watched grow up, the lover chosen by her most beloved youngest son, she hopes that he will have a good life: "Ayu, I know, you have always felt guilty and guilty Ah Jin went to Haijixing to see you. But this matter is really not your fault, it can only be said to be fate. If, if Ah Jin was still alive, she would not want you to be alone for so many years in the Federation Drifting in the outer star field."

Gu Yu was silent all the time, Rong's mother let the tears wash away her makeup, she said softly: "Let that matter pass, A Yu, start your new life, forget everything in the past. You will find that it is not so Difficult. In this world, there are still many meaningful things that you haven't tried yet."

She even forced a smile, the smile was heavy and bitter, but she managed to show a light and teasing appearance: "I heard that the daughter of the commander of the third division fell in love with you at first sight, and bought enough roses to fill the entire Exploration Bureau. To show love, but in the end her father sent troops to arrest her?"

"That child is very good. If you like it, you can try to fall in love. Our Rong family should be worthy of getting married with their family."

Gu Yu listened to her quietly, until all her words were over, staring blankly at the table speechlessly, the tears that had stopped just now flowed down again.

Gu Yu shook his head and stood up. He was always calm: "Ma'am, what has been supporting me in my wandering in the interstellar world has never been morality, guilt, and responsibility."

"Space rays, never-ending search and loneliness, none of that will destroy me. But if I do stop, then I probably won't be able to live."

……

Rong Jin had no idea that his backyard was on fire, and his dearest mother was trying to persuade his wife to remarry.Walking in the mountains, he threw out the silly rabbit that had jumped into his arms by the ears, and muttered, "Are you a stupid rabbit? Fortunately, I don't want to eat a stupid rabbit like you. I'm afraid I will become stupid too."

Having lived here for several years, Rong Jin finally confirmed the kindness this mountain forest treats him.

Rong Jin didn't have much psychological burden on eating meat.In his view, there is no essential difference between eating meat and eating plants.They need supplemental nutrition.But he didn't eat those stupid ones that bumped into his arms by himself, and felt sorry for him.

Rong Jin passed through layers of thick green, and saw the familiar cave over there from a distance, and before he reached the entrance of the cave, he heard cheers from over there.

"Brother Ah Jin is back!"

A child crashed into his arms like the silly rabbit before, and Rong Jin patted his head.This is the youngest child among the dozen or so of them, and he is only ten years old now.

They have lived on this deserted planet for four years.During these four years, they have not received any news related to the Federation, nor have they found any traces of human civilization on this planet.They left the rescue cabin, and began to try to get away from the ubiquitous human technology that they used to live in, and settled down on this desolate star by themselves.After several transfers, they finally found a stable foothold, made some defensive tools, and settled down like this.

In the turbulent and tortuous life, the old man passed away three times one after another, but the survival rate is already very high.Miraculously, their base has never been attacked by a large beast.In fact, it was a very incredible thing that they landed safely, and the desolate star that they landed on was just suitable for human survival.

What Rong Jin can do is to collect their ashes properly, and if there is a day to go back to the Federation, he will take them back.

In fact, no one mentions the federation anymore.

Holly also just came back from outside: "Where did you go again?"

Rong Jin nodded.

Holly was silent for a moment, throwing away the wood she carried back.In fact, she has deliberately stopped mentioning the life-saving capsule since a long time ago. This is also the attitude of most people. Only Rong Jin is left to tinker with it every now and then: "Could it be that you really think that you are a little bit of a three-legged cat?" Kungfu, can you fix that thing?"

Holly looked at her most trusted partner sadly from the corner of her eyes: "Even if you are really lucky and can fix it, we have no star map, no navigation, who knows where the Federation is. With a broken rescue capsule, can we go back? "

Rong Jin shrugged: "No matter what, let's practice first and then talk about it. When I can really make him move, I will consider the specific issue of going back."

Holly thought about it too.As far as he is learning and selling, and he has been figuring out the technology, he probably can't even repair a lamp in the Federation.The ghost knows whether the life-saving capsule can be moved in this life, and there is no need to think so far.

Her face was complicated: "I really admire you. Now, you are still thinking about how to go back."

Rong Jin picked up the wood that Holly threw on the ground with a sad face, and staggered towards the firewood pile: "I can't help it, I'm afraid I won't go back, my daughter-in-law keeps crying. Let the biology students repair the plane, the professional It’s too much for a man.”

Holly chased after him, snatched the wood from Rong Jin's arms, and glanced at his thinner arm with disdain: "Give it to me. Omega don't do this kind of work."

Living here, there are not so many inhibitors for him.Without inhibitors, we live together all day long, and we can't hide this kind of thing.Fortunately, there is no alpha in their team.

Rong Jin was chased away by Holly, telling him not to make trouble, so he had no choice but to visit Uncle Wu.Uncle Wu sat in the compartment dug out of the cave, weaving a straw mat in his hands, and looked at Rong Jin who walked in with a smile: "Xiao Li came back with you? Why don't you talk more?"

Rong Jin sat beside Uncle Wu: "Uncle Wu, I'm a family man, don't always push me to make mistakes. And people don't look down on me."

Rong Jin retorted, and Uncle Wu didn't say anything more, because he was thinking about another very important thing: "A Jin, is your estrus coming soon?"