I heard you want to let me down

It's not a very comfortable posture, but it may be that they have been separated for too long, and the two are hugging each other with their limbs intertwined, and neither of them wants to separate.Different from the hasty and intense hug just now, this kind of skin-to-skin kiss does not contain any desire, it is just very calm, as if a little tired, but also feels very at ease, and wants to smile.

To be honest, even in the years when they fell in love in Shaoguo, they didn't experience much peace and peace of mind.

At that time, Gu Nian's face was gentle and elegant, but Rong Jin could vaguely feel the depression and preoccupation behind his back.As for Rong Jin, he was laughing and laughing, but he was actually mentally prepared for confrontation and separation one day.None of them thought about staying together forever, maybe they thought about it, but it was only in an unrealistic dream.

Then a decisive and bleak farewell.For three years, Rong Jin lived a poor life in Changyan Gorge, but it was not so easy for him to live in a rich and prosperous town full of dangers.When they meet again, it is another time of thinking and testing, one is guilty and dare not press, the other is cowardly and just wants to escape.

Until this moment, holding this person in my arms, I can finally breathe a sigh of relief.

Rong Jin felt in a daze that they seemed to have returned to that small wooden house in the mountains.There was no love between them, and there was no romantic and beautiful atmosphere.The moon was dark and the wind was high, the cold was threatening, and there were not even a single star.They were in a very small, empty log cabin, with a not-so-warm stove, wrapped in worn-out bedding left by the predecessors.

The material conditions are poor, and the spiritual atmosphere is not very good.At that time, Gu Nian was tricked into the wilderness for a piece of nephrite, and Rong Jin sulked at him because of this.The two led the horse, one behind the other, neither of them spoke.

They have had many more romantic and beautiful moments together.The afternoon with the sound of birds; the dusk when the sky is full of clouds and clouds; the trail with the warm sun slanting;

But they were kissing in that cabin and couldn't help it.

Because at that time, the small wooden house was halfway up the mountain, and in the dark night, it was like an isolated island, which could make people temporarily let go of all anxiety and worries.

But at that time, it was only temporary, unlike now, all words were spoken and all resolutions were made.If this is the case, then presumably, no matter what happens, we can always be together.

Rong Jin lay on the ground for a while, feeling that Gu Nian must be uncomfortable like this, and wanted to get off him and sleep back in his own position.

He just moved, but Gu Nian grabbed his arm and said in a low voice, "Let me hug you for a while, okay?"

Rong Jin half supported his body: "Aren't you tired?"

After such a long fight, Gu Nian should be the one who put in more effort, and then he rubbed Rong Jin's waist and hugged Rong Jin all the time, so he must feel tired.

Gu Nian pulled Rong Jin back: "A little tired. But I like this."

Rong Jin felt his face was a little hot, but he still obediently lay down on his stomach.They just hastily settled on a ten-year agreement. In fact, there are still many details to be considered and discussed, but they have tacitly avoided this topic at the moment.

Now that the most important decisions have been made, it doesn't matter when those details are said.Why take up the present time?

They hugged each other, only talking as they wished, saying what they thought of, without boundaries or purpose.

Rong Jin lay on top of him, and suddenly murmured: "Do you remember the hairpin you gave me earlier?"

Gu Nian thought for a while: "The one carved from white nephrite jade?"

Rong Jin let out a "hmm".It was actually the first thing Gu Nian gave him, the pair of bracelets before could not be worn out after all, but Rong Jin wore that jade hairpin most of the time.

"I," Rong Jin paused, "when I set off for Changyan Gorge, I went in exile. My mother packed the package for me, but she only dared to pack a few clothes and hid the clothes inside. A few banknotes, and none of the objects and accessories I was used to. Especially the ones I was wearing at the time, they were all left in prison, and if I want to look for them now, I’m afraid I won’t be able to find them back.”

Gu Nian tightly held Rong Jin's hand hidden under the quilt: "It's okay. I'll engrave it for you again. If Ah Jin wants to wear it, I still have it here. I have also engraved a few over the past few years."

Although when I carved it, I felt that I would never see Rong Jin again in my whole life, but Rong Jin probably would never wear these hairpins that I carved out one after another, sitting on the porch late at night.Occasionally, I would also think, has someone else engraved it for Ah Jin?Can the girl Ah Jin married carve hairpins?Or, what An He said back then, tall, thin, fair, bookish, and good at carving hairpins, is he now the one who carved hairpins for Ah Jin?

But even so, it will still be engraved.When I think of Rong Jin, I will engrave it.When all the crises and busyness come to an end, he always thinks about Rong Jin.So in the past three years, my craftsmanship was not good, I was careful and clumsy, and I carved several pieces.

Gu Nian didn't say this.He didn't mention those difficult nights to Rong Jin, and he didn't mention the situation and mood in which he carved those hairpins.

But Rong Jin immediately thought of it.He closed his eyes and leaned on Gu Nian's chest, he could hear the thumping sound inside.He had to huddle under the quilt before he dared to ask the question he had been wanting to ask since the reunion: "Did you have a hard time these three years? Sad?"

Gu Nian's answer was quick: "No."

Rong Jin smiled wryly.

Gu Nian paused for a moment, probably knowing that no one would believe this kind of statement, so he changed his words again: "Indeed, sometimes. But in fact, I am not very sad. Because when we are together, we are more happy."

"The sadness at that time is nothing compared to the happiness of being together. When I feel uncomfortable, I will think about the time when we were together before."

How sweet it was.Basically Rong Jin would come to him every day, sometimes through the door, most of the time over the wall.They sat side by side on the porch, had seen wind, frost, snow and rain, talked about endless and meaningless topics, or simply talked, and they would kiss together.

Even if it hurts like a knife at this moment, but thinking about what I got in the past, I probably can't help smiling, and feel that everything is worth it.

"Ajin, the joy and happiness you have brought me is far better than sadness and sadness, more than a thousand times and a hundred times."

Rong Jin closed his eyes tightly: "Are you a fool?"

Gu Nian really laughed like a fool: "A Jin, I feel so happy."

Hearing Gu Nian's vaguely childish laughter, all sorrows and regrets were defeated, Rong Jin couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth: "Why are you happy?"

Gu Nian really has a lot to be happy about tonight.The person he had been chasing after, eagerly, pitifully, was finally willing to face up to this relationship, and fell into his pocket as he wished.

But what Gu Nian said was not anything that Rong Jin thought of: "I'm very glad that you can think that way. Really, Ah Jin, I like that you think more about yourself."

His voice lowered slightly, and he said softly, "If what happened three years ago happened again, I would probably go crazy."

Rong Jin knew that what Gu Nian was talking about was not his "ruthless and unrighteous" abandonment of himself.What he meant was that Rong Jin had no flaws on his face, he was calm and composed, and everything was fine, but he turned around and calmly accepted the fate of exile or even a more terrible fate.Going to go for three years, if it wasn't for Liu Yi, maybe ten years, maybe a lifetime, Gu Nian would not know.Maybe Rong Jin is dead, Gu Nianyuan is thousands of miles away, and he still thinks that Rong Jin is living a happy and healthy life, so he comforts himself with this imagination.

Just thinking about it makes Gu Nian shudder.

Now, Gu Nian has already guessed that Rong Jin knew about the incident in Shao Guo's capital.

"You took the risk of leaving Beijing for me; and you decided to go back for the Rong family. I know that these are what you think you should do and must do. No one can stop you. But sometimes, I also look forward to Be selfish."

"If, because of Shao Guo, or because of my begging, you even agreed to such a thing as entering the palace as a concubine, I might feel very jealous or very painful."

Rong Jin raised his head and climbed up, the two kissed, and lightly licked the corners of each other's lips.Between kisses, Gu Nian intermittently said: "If you can't be selfish to the Rong family and Shao Guo, then be selfish to me."

"You say you're selfish, but it's not enough. Ah Jin also likes me. If you want me, just come to me. Don't worry about what you're afraid of or what you're worried about. Just tell me and let me come to you with confidence. solve."

Kissing and kissing, Gu Nian couldn't help it anymore, turned over and pressed Rong Jin down.His kiss was no longer as warm and peaceful as before, with a hint of ambiguous eagerness: "As I said, Ah Jin just lie down, and I will serve you and please you."

Rong Jin kicked him away while he still had some strength.Are you kidding, I finally took a breath and came over, still making trouble, are you going to sleep until the day after tomorrow?

Aggrieved, Gu Nian leaned over, buried his face in Rong Jin's quilt, and hugged him with the quilt: "A Jin."

Rong Jin wrapped up the quilt by himself with a blank expression, ignoring the big one that was crawling around on him: "You said it, let me be selfish."

"I want to sleep now."

Gu Nian stopped, and said for a while: "...Oh."