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Qi Siming scooped up some sweet potatoes with a spoon, and suddenly stretched them out in front of Ling Yan, "Here, ancestor, open your mouth."

Qi Siming's joints are distinct, and his hands look very powerful.

He didn't seem to have done such a thing to anyone before, he held the small spoon very unskillfully, rolled the mashed sweet potato with yogurt, and touched Ling Yan's lips in a loose but dense way.

Ling Yan was taken aback. He didn't know what to think of, and his face turned red.

Qi Siming raised his eyebrows and looked at him happily, "I've been feeding like this, you don't want to eat?"

Qi Siming is a man who is reckless and flirts all day long, especially in the past few weeks, he really wants to carry on the flirting to the end.

A typical example was a few days ago, when Ling Yan came to class wearing sneakers, he secretly untied the shoelaces and tied them to the legs of the table. Talking about the idea of ​​solving the problem, Ling Yan didn't stick out his foot and almost fell to the ground.

Facts have proved that Qi Siming can't live with his own crimes, and Ling Yan asked to change seats in class. If the math teacher hadn't trained Qi Siming like his grandson in a fit of anger, and then tried to mediate, Qi Siming probably would have With the face, the smile, and the careful coaxing, I can't come back after many days.

Qi Siming's bullying is real bullying, but taking care of her is also true caring.Ling Yan even forgot which day it was, he happened to be passing by the basketball court, and a ball hit him from behind, it was Qi Siming who rushed out to help him block the ball, in fact, Ling Yan didn't know that time at all, it was the girls in the class who told him afterwards Yes, it is said that Qi Siming ran back and said to a few people in the school team, "Can you take a look at it, and you dare to take pictures of the valuables in my class?"

What is Qi Siming's mentality? In fact, he himself can't say well.

Probably similar to discovering a new continent, he felt curious and wanted to wander around this virgin land, preferably tossing and tossing, but he didn't know what he thought about this land, if Qi Siming knew that Ling Whatever dream Yan had a few days ago, he probably wouldn't tease him with sweet potato yogurt.

In the early morning of December 12th, that is, two days ago, Ling Yan did not suffer from insomnia for the first time, but his sleep quality was just the same. He slept lightly and had continuous dreams, but the dreams that day were different from usual. He woke up with a start. At that time, the dream was intact, and every frame was like a slow motion playback of a movie, so clear that it made him shudder.

He dreamed of Qi Siming.

On an unfamiliar big bed, Qi Siming leaned against the head of the bed and casually smiled, while he lay naked and buried his face between Qi Siming's legs.

He didn't do anything else, he was giving Qi Siming oral sex.

For a 14-year-old boy, this scene was still too restricted, and Ling Yan woke up in shock.

He bent down to hug the little demon from the ground, pressed his hot face against the smooth metal outer wall of the little demon, and swallowed unconsciously.The little demon detected that he was in an agitated mood, played a calm and melodious ballad, turned his little head and asked him what was wrong with a standard electronic voice

Qi Siming has always felt that Ling Yan likes him, which is true, but this understanding is a bit off.

The truth is, Ling Yan didn't realize his liking at all.

He is still too young, confused and at a loss for emotional instincts, coupled with years of mental torture, he will not think about this matter at all, he only thinks that Qi Siming is good, and he is very grateful to him, many times, it is simply his own brain Before he could react, his face started to turn red.If no one tells him, it's called heartbeat.

And this faintly visible affection, without even saying hello, suddenly broke through him in the form of a dream in an ordinary night, the curtain was lifted, and finally showed the face of the first love.

Ling Yan was terrified.

Not only because he realized that he fell in love with the same table, but also because he was impacted by the picture in the dream.

In this era, children's sex education is very mature. It's not that he doesn't know how to make love between men, but he has always firmly believed that oral sex is dirty: how can you touch that place with your mouth?Don't you feel sick?Don't you feel humiliated?

Ling Yan thought back bit by bit in panic. He was paralyzed on the bed, and he was completely stunned. His ears were full of noise, but his own heartbeat could be heard inside.He was horrified to find that he didn't seem to reject being with Qi Siming like this, and was even a little excited. This kind of desire was distinct, as if blood was about to seep out of his body, and he wanted every drop to drip on Qi Siming's skin.

After he realized how he was feeling, Qi Siming, the goddamn, brought the yogurt dessert to his mouth two days later, coaxing and persuading him to eat it.

Oh shit.

Ling Yan's heart almost jumped out, so he could only swallow it in one gulp.As for the taste, don't ask him, he didn't taste it at all.

On Thursday night, Qi Siming connected to the psychological counseling center remotely as usual.

In fact, Qi Siming has been looking for a professional psychological counselor for some time. Although he often acts on intuition, he also knows that some things must respect professionalism.

In the beginning, I found Dr. Yuan purely out of the mentality of protecting himself. Although he had no concept, he could also imagine that the negative energy field emanating from a mentally ill patient would have a certain absorption and devouring power. Originally, he was just He wanted to learn some emotional isolation and digestion skills, but later, for some unknown reason, he learned basic communication skills with patients with mental disorders, and even asked for a depression self-test form from the original doctor.

He had to admit that communicating with Ling Yan was very tiring.

Although the young man was good at patience and didn't have any obvious negative and extreme behavior in front of Qi Siming, Ling Yan obviously didn't like socializing and talking.He tried to take Lu Jian to dinner with Tan Qing and Ling Yan. Although Ling Yan didn't know them well, one of them was smooth and the other was kind. Adding him, three silvers and one bronze, it didn't make sense to let the dinner table stand cold.It's just that he was still too optimistic. During that meal, Ling Yan didn't say a word except for the necessary answer.

After the meal, he quietly asked Ling Yan why he didn't talk, and he frowned and said that he didn't like what they were talking about.Because of the girl Tan Qing, there were a lot of entertainment topics during that meal—the safest and easiest topic to talk about, a newly developed resort, the latest smart bracelet, new movies and The extramarital affair of a certain official that is so popular nowadays is actually nothing. Who doesn't talk about it?

But Ling Yan just wasn't interested. He found these extremely boring, and felt that these ridiculous things were not worth talking about at all.

"Then what don't you think is boring?" Qi Siming was a little annoyed at the time, "Is your technology and political news?"

Qi Siming knows what he likes to watch. Ling Yan's Utopia's communication and entertainment functions are basically wearable, and the channels for him to keep in touch with the outside world are fixed and unpopular.He has read the things Ling Yan likes to read. They are all long-form in-depth reports and scientific research special issues. The timeliness is slightly poor, but the objectivity and professionalism are very strong. He communicated with many people. After all, people with different backgrounds at the dinner table could not tacitly talk about "the niche function of Emacs browsing pages" and "the samarium energy crisis facing the country".

But Qi Siming felt a little regretful when he said this. He and Ling Yan might be able to talk to each other, but no matter how good a friend is, they shouldn't be sarcastic about each other's preferences.

Ling Yan was really aggrieved when he heard the words, he thought for a while, and said slowly, "Boring is a very subjective word, can't I be honest--I think you are boring, and you also think I am boring, which means that it is not the same. Humanoid, why do you insist on bringing us together at the same table?"

After that meal, Qi Siming should get rid of Ling Yan and return to his lunch group.

The best circle he played in, there were sons of several big consortiums, and there were jewels in the cultural and entertainment circles. Although they were all indifferent, at least they would smile and talk to others.

Qi Siming felt that he must be a ghost, and decided that he would only have lunch with Ling Yan in the future.

He also communicated with Ling Yan, hoping that he can take the initiative to deal with mental illness. If he is afraid of leaving a record on Utopia, he can help him find a doctor for consultation in his name.In fact, at that time, Doctor Yuan had been persuading Qi Siming that psychotherapy required face-to-face communication with patients.

But Ling Yan's reply was very ruthless. He said no need, he felt that he was in a good state, and asked him incomprehensibly, "Do you think I'm doing well? You have a list of good and bad, and there is According to public standards, if I have a mental disorder, I should be crossed out, right?"

And he mentioned some human rights groups in a veiled threat, saying that if those doctors are not afraid of being troubled, then he can introduce them.

Those words were originally offensive, but Qi Siming felt that they were special.

Dr. Yuan also told him that most patients with mental disorders observe the world from a perspective that ordinary people have never thought of, so they do things that we cannot understand, and they have perspectives that we have never thought of. Because of these, they will have very different personalities and behaviors.

But Qi Siming found it interesting.And he always felt that those people who can become miracles must have taken a different path from others, and they did something that violated the rules and went beyond common sense, which made them unique.

Chasing hot spots, chasing hot styles, talking in front of people, it looks cool, but in fact, it is not difficult at all, as long as you are willing, you can do it, you can get talking points, and gain a sense of security in communication.

The cooler ones should actually be those things that are more difficult to do, avoid the soap bubbles that change day by day, and focus on your real interests, which are dull or even boring to ordinary people.After all, such loneliness is another kind of bravery.

And it's not that Ling Yan really doesn't talk, Qi Siming also enjoys eating with Ling Yan.

Most of the time, as long as Qi Siming is persuasive, he will always say something, even though he doesn't understand some things, he has to secretly check what Lingyan said while eating several times.Ling Yan will also talk about his family situation. Ling Yan's father works at a high level in the Congress, and his mother is in the Utopia Management Committee. There are many unreported news or news that have not attracted attention, and he will unintentionally reveal them in the chat .

"How is he feeling recently?"

On the screen, Doctor Yuan was wearing a white coat to communicate with him about Ling Yan's condition.Qi Siming was leaning on the swivel chair with four screens in front of him, one of which was playing remote video.

"His test scores dropped a lot last time. The final exam is coming soon, and he feels more anxious than before. Every day after class, I have to do the questions and read books with him. If I do other things, he will get angry. If someone talks to me, he will be angry." more angry."

Qi Siming frowned, but he couldn't tell whether that expression was troubled or sweet, anyway, it was weird, "Oh, yes, he even made a math exercise book for me to do."

"He made it himself?"

"Correct."

"Can you pass me a copy?"

"Of course." Qi Siming passed on a copy, pretending to be affectionate for fear that this highly educated doctor would not understand, and explaining to others in a serious manner, "He said it was an analysis based on the final exam questions of the past ten years, and the test points Calculated according to the high, high and low frequency, and then unfolded the same question types, and finally predicted three sets of papers... Tsk, this kid is very good, and he can do this kind of thing with great effort."

The algorithm model marked in small characters in the electronic exercise book is very rigorous. It is hard to imagine that this is a project that a 14-year-old boy or a patient with a severe mental disorder can complete independently. The doctor marked several key points with a capacitive pen. It is unavoidable, but overall, the situation is better than the previous week. You can insist on supervising his medication and urging his healthy work and rest... Well, I still want to remind you again that depressed patients have negative rumination thinking, and may get worse in exams. The more obvious the symptoms are recently, if he says something negative to you, don't listen to him, don't have empathy, I don't want another person to be drawn into negative emotions, you can just change the topic and interrupt The other person thinks, tell him something interesting."

Qi Siming smiled, and tapped the desktop with the capacitive pen in his hand, "Doctor Yuan, you don't have to worry about me, I'll be safe, you can let me do a stand-up comic right now."

At the end of the call, the other party asked Qi Siming to persuade Ling Yan to communicate with him. Qi Siming suddenly thought of something, and mentioned a human rights organization with a long prefix to Doctor Yuan, and then asked, "What kind of organization is this? There is very little information."

The pretty woman on the opposite side suddenly raised her eyebrows, as if she was very surprised to hear the name from Qi Siming's mouth, then she smiled, "It's nothing special, you know my job is not easy to do, although the society as a whole hopes Patients with mental disorders receive treatment, but there are always some weird groups who trouble you, saying that you deprive patients of happiness and free will."

Qi Siming paused, didn't express any opinion, and closed the communication.