Rong Xuan

——"It's just that the second brother has to die now."

My name is Sima Kun, and I am the youngest of the sons and fathers of Prince Qingxu’s mansion. I was born on the embarrassing day when the last day of Wanshou’s 31st year and the first day of Jingchu’s first year alternated. Maybe This is God's will, God destined my birth to be a mistake from the beginning.

I am a woman, but my mother sent a letter to my old father who was guarding the Chengguan far in the north, saying that she finally added another son to the Sima family.

As a general of the Northern Frontier Army, my father is considered to have a son again when he is old. He was so happy that he immediately gave me a name and a word, and he didn't even worry about whether I would survive safely in the end-after all, four out of ten babies Five will die from various diseases before the age of three.

My father named me Kun, after the character Yuanzhi.

Those in Kunming, from the day to day, are for all living beings in the world, and they have the meaning of future generations. The original is the foundation, the well-being is the blessing, and the original well-being is the great achievement of gathering the world's happiness and safety. You see, my father gave me the birth What a great blessing.

And myself, as my father expected, I was born in the Hou Mansion where the bells and lanterns abound, and I was the youngest in the family. In the city of Chang'an, which is hundreds of miles away, there is no one who can surpass me or stand shoulder to shoulder with me.

In my memory, I have always only had two elder sisters. The elder sister is the adopted daughter raised by my father's wife, Mrs. Jiang, and the third elder sister is the only concubine in the Hou's mansion. I always don't understand why my There are only eldest and third sisters in the family, and there is no second-ranked person.

When I was six years old, I was studying in Fengxian Academy. During the archery class, I had some quarrels with Jiao Chongqing, the third son of Anping Houfu, because of an arrow that missed. He scolded me and my mother. He scolded me. My mother and I are villains who occupy the magpie's nest and should be put in the sky prison.

I don't know what doves occupy the magpie's nest, but I don't allow him to scold my mother who loves me the most in the world, so I hit him as a matter of course.

After class that day, Jiao Chongqing called his second brother, who was three years older than me, and beat me up hard to avenge him.

That was the first time I was beaten since I was born. I returned home with a bruised nose and a swollen face, crying and begging my mother for an older brother.

"Why does Jiao Chongqing have a second brother but I don't? Why do I have a big sister and a third sister but no second brother? I also want a second brother! Mother, you can give Kun'er an older brother. Kun'er wants an older brother." ..."

The mother who always loved me and loved me and spoiled me beat me that time.

In one day, I was beaten twice by the grand son of the Qihou Mansion, and even my mother beat me harder than others!I feel like my world is falling apart.

And the word "brother" has naturally become my taboo in front of my mother, but I still want to have an older brother. In this case, when my father is stationed in the northern border all the year round, my elder brother will teach me horseback riding and archery at home. I supported me when I was bullied. If someone supported me, others might not dare to scold me for occupying the magpie's nest. I have parents but no parents to teach.

Maybe it was my sincerity that touched the Immortal Da Luo in the sky. In the same year, that is, when I was seven years old, that is, in the sixth year of Jingchu, a Second Young Master actually came back from Duqihou's Mansion!

In the Hou's mansion, almost all the servants in the front yard were beaming, cheering and jumping for joy, running around telling each other.

"Second Young Master is back! Hurry up to greet him, our Second Young Master is back!"

"The Second Young Master has won a big battle in the northern border! The Second Young Master has returned from victory!"

I was originally studying in my own yard in the inner house, when I suddenly heard the noise outside shouting that the Second Young Master had returned, I immediately dropped the book and ran out, even forgetting to put on my shoes.

Really, when I was six or seven years old, I have never seen any inappropriate behavior by the servants in Duqihou's residence. I saw the passionate side of them gathering and cheering.

——They were celebrating, celebrating the return of the Second Young Master in victory!

In fact, I have secretly heard the old mothers and servants in the mansion chanting the title "Second Young Master". They always gossip with each other in places where no one is around, such as "I don't know how the Second Young Master is doing now." "And so on, I don't know why my mother didn't want me to mention this mysterious second brother, but that day, the second brother came back unexpectedly.

I followed the servants to the front yard. The four doors of the Hou's mansion were wide open, and the court was splashed with water to cleanse the yard. Amidst the hissing and hissing, I was the first to see a tall and burly figure walking in from the main entrance.

This is my father. He is nine feet tall, burly and strong. He wears a marching armor and a broadsword with no trace on his waist. He walks steadily into the gate of the house. The scarlet windbreaker behind him is blown by the wind as he walks. Jiao, just like the fairy general in the sky in the storyteller's mouth, really majestic!

As my father strode into the gate of the mansion, I stretched my neck out, and finally saw a young man in Zhuxuan armor.

This young general looks to be many years older than me. He is slender and looks a little thinner. He is not as burly as his father, but he is also wearing a Zhuxuan armor and a Wuhen waist knife. A few steps behind my father, neither far nor near.

This young general's brows were distant, his dark eyes darkened, and just looking at him made people fear for no reason.

"Haha! Why is the lonely child hiding behind the pillar?" The father who walked into the courtyard saw me hiding behind the pillar at a glance. He took off the waist knife and threw it to his followers. He picked me up and lifted me up high: "Let Daddy do a lift to see if Kun'er has gained weight hahahaha..."

My father's hearty laughter instantly resounded throughout the front yard. I always liked being held high by my father. When playing around, those undisguised yearning and envy appeared in the eyes.

What I don't know is that the flirting with my father that I can easily have, as well as the infinite favor I get from my father, seem to have never been possessed by this young general.

"Kun'er, Daddy is here to introduce you!" My father hugged me, turned his head and pointed at the young general, his gentle voice turned around with the majesty and seriousness of a soldier in the army: "He is your second brother." , Sima Xuan! Sima Yuanchu!"

I was overjoyed, I put my arms around my father's neck, and shouted "Second Brother" excitedly and shyly on his shoulder, but the second brother turned his head and just said to his father, "I'm tired!" , go back first" perfunctory words, and then walked towards the east courtyard, from the beginning to the end, the second brother didn't even bother to look at me.

"Daddy," I felt aggrieved, "Second brother doesn't like me?"

Dad squeezed my face with his rough fingers, and walked towards the inner courtyard where my mother was, with a gentle smile: "No, your second brother just doesn't talk much, and he brought you a special gift when he came back this time. As for the gift, I think it will be given to my Kun'er at dinner tonight..."

"Really?" I danced happily in my father's arms: "Kun'er has a second brother, Kun'er has a second brother..."

But the truth is not what my father said. Although the second elder brother really doesn't talk much, he really doesn't like me.

Later, when I grew up and learned some things by accident, I gradually understood why when I was a child, people called me a dove and a magpie's nest, and why my mother was a damned traitor.

——Although my mother Zhao loves me with all her heart, she doesn't hesitate to let others poke her back and talk about her abuse of her stepson, and she doesn't allow my second brother to be in the Hou's mansion.

At first, I just thought that my mother would not allow my second elder brother because my second elder brother was not her own son, but after seeing my mother treat my eldest sister so kindly, I realized that my mother did not allow my second elder brother to stay in the house, it was only because my second elder brother was not only young He was made a marquis based on his military exploits, and the second brother was born to his father's first wife, the real eldest son of Du Qihou's mansion!

Later, something happened to the Cao family, and the second sister-in-law was implicated and went to Hezhou. The father who made great contributions was not only worshiped by the Tian Family as the Grand Marshal of the Northern Frontier Army, but also awarded the title of king with a different surname!Since then, the Sima family has achieved the Tao!

My mother didn't know what to do with the second brother, but she forced my father to find an excuse to throw Mrs. Jiang's memorial tablet out of the ancestral hall, and then asked for an order to make me the prince's son!

The second elder brother had a big fight with his father in the small study of the palace, and their father and son broke up...

And my father seemed to be obedient and loving to my mother from then on, but in fact there was already a discord in his heart.

After his father was awarded the title of prince, he did not return to the northern border, but was left in Chang'an by the Tian family, and stayed in the palace.

I didn’t know about the seemingly incompatible relationship between my parents until I was 12 years old. In the summer, one afternoon, I felt that the weather was too hot and I didn’t want to practice martial arts. Few people go to the Shuiqi Building to enjoy the cool and sleep late.

The Shuiqi Building is my mother's place, she usually stays in it alone, today she went out to have a banquet, so I slept in here with peace of mind...

I was woken up by a strange, intermittent sound. I was greedy for the cold, so I fell asleep on the low couch under the window behind the screen. I looked up for the sound. There is no lamp in the room, the windows are open, and the fine moonlight shines in, which does not hinder my vision.

The sound that resounded in the room was the melodious sound that I had heard in the Pianyun Pavilion—I sneaked away to the Pianyun Pavilion with some aristocratic children to play, and I heard the sound of men and women having sex with my own ears.

Suddenly, some inexplicable emotions of shame and excitement arose in my heart. I guessed, could it be that the love between my parents made me bump into it?

Not surprisingly, I really saw two overlapping carcasses on the unobstructed bed, but what struck me most was that the one lying on the bottom was my mother, and the one riding on her was my mother's body. Personal envoy Qin Baihe!

I tightly covered my mouth with both hands to keep myself from exclaiming - I haven't seen this kind of thing between a man and a woman, but I couldn't accept that my relatives were like this for a while. ——I curled up and tried to shrink myself into the corner of the wall, but I couldn't prevent my mother's heart-wrenching words from knocking into my ears word by word!

"He hasn't touched me for more than a month. There's a fire burning in my heart that can't be extinguished. Lily, help me..."

Since then, I have never been to the Shuiqi Tower again. To me, this huge Qingxu Palace has suddenly become a terrifying monster that eats people.

I was terrified.

That night, I ran out of the palace alone from the dog hole next to the back door, and wandered around the bustling Zhuque Street for a long time. Penny.

The night was getting deeper and deeper, and I never went out alone. I was lost, and I couldn't even tell the difference between east, west, north, and south.

The patrol battalion patrolling the street saw me as a young man dressed in extraordinary clothes and alone, so they went up and asked whose family I was a child from. They said that the curfew was about to come on the street and told me to go home quickly.

I didn't want to go back to the place that suddenly became dirty, and I didn't know how to face my parents, so I reported my identity and the name of my second brother. I sent it to the Jinglinghou Mansion of my second brother.

It was really late, I thought I would disturb the second elder brother, but I didn't realize that the second elder brother had just returned to the Marquis Mansion from the Ministry of Criminal Affairs.

I lowered my head, not daring to look at the second elder brother who was wearing a red official robe, I held onto the hem of my coat tightly, for fear that the second elder brother would wave his hand and let the guards take me back to the palace.

"Come in," the second elder brother seemed to stare at me several times, and suddenly said in a hoarse voice, "Next time, don't run around alone again."

I am ecstatic!

After I followed my second brother into the Flower Hall of the Hou Mansion, he called me to eat together for the first time. Although I knew that my second brother didn't want to see me, I was really hungry, so I had no choice but to sit down and eat with my second brother with a shy face.

The second elder brother poured a glass of wine and asked me, "Can you drink?"

I looked at my second brother in a daze. Although I am not young, I still don’t know how to drink. There are two main reasons. will reveal their identity.

And I was in a daze right now, but I didn't expect the second brother to ask me this.

It may be that my reaction was too stupid, but the corner of the second elder brother's mouth curled up, and he laughed very quickly: "Could it be that he hasn't eaten wine?"

I bowed my head in shame, wishing I could bury my face in the bowl.

An ordinary celadon wine cup was placed in front of my eyes, and it contained only a little wine that covered the bottom of the cup. I took a sip, and immediately coughed due to the strong alcohol smell, and even coughed up tears.

The smile on the second brother's face became brighter.

In the past few years, I have heard countless times about the brilliant military exploits that my second brother made in the northern border. I didn't want my second brother to look down on me, so I picked up the wine cup and suffocated the wine in one gulp.

As a result, I was choked to tears by the little sip of strong wine, and I almost cried for my father and mother.

The second elder brother patted me on the back, and finally laughed heartily: "This is the most authentic burning knife in the northern region. It's so fierce, it's unbelievable. How dare you, brat, be bored hahaha..."

I was probably intoxicated by the burning knives and alcohol. Hearing the hoarse voice of the second brother and feeling the warm palm of the second brother patting me on the back, I couldn't control my depressed mood for a while. He hugged his second brother and cried aloud.

I was afraid that my second brother would push me away, so I hugged him tightly and didn't let go, and I was not afraid of death, and made a lot of straightforward and convincing accusations against him.

"You are my elder brother, why do you always dislike me? Parents are the ones who do wrong. What is wrong with me? I like my elder brother so much, but my elder brother hates me so much. If the second elder brother insists on saying that Kun'er is wrong It all boils down to the fact that Kun'er shouldn't be reborn under her father's lap!"

Crying and crying, I really knew that I was wrong. I apologized to my brother and admitted that I shouldn’t have robbed my brother’s father. I begged my second brother not to hate me like a stray dog. Brother's indifferent and cold eyes, I knew I was wrong.

I really know I'm wrong...

The enemies on the battlefield gave my second brother the nickname "Sura". The folks said that my second brother is a cold-blooded god of war, but only I know that my second brother has always been a warm and gentle person.

The people in Jinglinghou's mansion are very kind, my mother sent people to look for me to go back, but I didn't want to go back, so they helped me get rid of those people one after another without bothering me.

On the fourth day of living in my second elder brother's residence, I met my second elder brother's close attendant Sui Liusheng outside his study.

"Your Majesty is very boring staying in the Hou's Mansion." Liu Sheng pushed open the door of the study room, turned around and waved to me, "Come here, Majesty, I will show you some interesting things!"

I shyly followed Liu Sheng into the study of my second elder brother. There was no decoration in the study, but there were many books and bamboo slips. The only decoration on the opposite side of the desk was a portrait. I took a second look and found that This painting is not an ornament—the masked woman on the painting is my second sister-in-law Cao Yuanrong.

My heart was filled with mixed feelings.

"What is this, sir?" Liu Sheng took out a wooden box out of nowhere, and it looked quite heavy. He put the box on the ground, squatted there and waved to me: "I promise that my son will like it very much after seeing it." !"

I walked over curiously, took a look at Liu Sheng, followed his example, and squatted in front of the box with my clothes on.

The heavy wooden box was opened, and I looked down into the box, seeing novelty toys and all kinds of pocket weapons.

"These are all birthday presents bought by the master for the son, but it's just a coincidence that I haven't been able to send them out every year." Liu Sheng smiled regretfully, and he reached out and took out a small wooden horse with varnish on it and handed it to me. :

"This is the year when the son was born, the master specially learned from the carpenter in the army, and then made it by himself. It took a long time to finish it. The master originally wanted to entrust the prince to you when he returns to Beijing at the end of the year to report on his duties. Bringing it back, I didn’t expect that the military would suddenly be under martial law in those few days, and the master couldn’t see the prince.”

According to Liu Sheng, when I was born, my second brother who was far away in the north was only ten years old. When I was ten years old, I didn't even have the patience to write big characters, but my second brother actually made me a wooden horse.

I slowly took over the unattractive handmade wooden horse, I dare to swear, this is the ugliest toy wooden horse I have ever seen since I grew up, but I hugged it, fell to the ground, and cried uncontrollably up.

At this time, the second elder brother came back by coincidence, he walked over and kicked Liu Sheng, "What are you doing, why did you make him fall to the ground and cry?"

Liu Sheng spread his hands and explained: "The little one is just afraid that the prince will be bored in the house, so he took out some toys for the prince to play with."

The second elder brother raised his foot and kicked at Liu Sheng: "Play with a toy and make people cry, Sima Jinchuan, you're fucking itchy again!"

Liu Sheng, who was called by his name, avoided his second elder brother with a smile, put the official document on the table while yelling, and fled out with his head in his arms.

"Liu Sheng came back from the frontier army with me, and it might be too much to play around with." The second elder brother picked me up from the ground by the collar of my back, and kicked my clothes with his toes indifferently. A wooden box full of toys: "Don't be angry with him. Brother will help you clean him up later. Just take these things home and play with them. If you don't want them, you can throw them away. Put them here to take up space."

I hugged the ugly Trojan horse and cried harder.

As I said, the second brother is the best brother and the best person in the world.

In fact, I didn't dare to expect my second elder brother to treat me as well as my own younger brother, because my mother, Princess Qingxu Zhao, never let me get close to my second elder brother, she was the one who gave birth to me and raised me Mother, I cannot completely ignore her.

In the 16th year of Jingchu, I was criticized and imprisoned for murder. My father, elder brother and elder brother-in-law tried every means to get me out. The second elder brother even risked his life to save me!

I was rescued, but what kind of facts did I see when I returned to the palace?

——I was imprisoned in front of me, and my mother transferred all the property in my hand to a distant cousin of hers, and even the dirty things done by some of her distant relatives outside in the name of the palace And got shoved on my head!

My mother was afraid that people around me would come out to prove my innocence, so she simply sold everyone in my son's east courtyard to traffickers, including the maid Qingping who grew up with me and my long-term follower Cunye.

My father said that my mother became insane because she couldn't bear the shock of my imprisonment, and told me to be filial to my mother in the future.

My heart is like soaked in Coptis chinensis, and I can't vomit the slightest pain.

Later, I was forced to participate in the change of imperial power. I witnessed with my own eyes how today's Zhao Qingyuan ascended to the Ninth Five-Year Supreme step by step at the last moment, and I also witnessed how the second brother could not turn back step by step.

On the afternoon of the day before the night when the abolished prince Zhao Xuanxuan started the uprising, the second elder brother came back to the palace alone.

I was arranged by my father to hide in a hidden place in the study, and watched my second brother negotiate with my father. I knew that according to the standpoint at the time, my father and the Northern Frontier Army in his hands still belonged to the Loyalist faction.

The conversation between the second elder brother and his father was not very smooth. The father had a violent temper and the second elder brother had a stubborn temper. Not surprisingly, there were some disputes between the two of them.

After a fruitless quarrel, the second elder brother lowered his eyes halfway, put away the sharpness that was almost born in his eyes, and replaced them with a depth that few people have seen.

The second elder brother spoke with a usual hoarse voice: "My son has been like this in this life, and the only one who can pass on the blood of his father is Kun'er. Dirty is incomparable, if you can fight for a stable future for Kun'er, you will not be afraid of another hundred or ten lives in your hands, and you will not be afraid of entering some kind of Shura hell after death."

The furious father was still unmoved, and the second elder brother finally lifted his robe and knelt down: "Father, Kun'er has been pure and kind since she was a child, kind and gentle, and she never even scolded a servant who made a mistake, father! It's just for Kun'er's sake, so I beg you to stop!"

Later that night, the abolished prince Zhao Xuanxuan forced the palace, Baoxin Wang Zhao Qinglai met the abolished prince in the name of King Qin, who knew that Baoxin Wang wanted to wear a yellow robe after breaking into the palace, and was finally rushed by the empress Cao Yizhi The Jingan King Zhao Qingyuan who rescued him led his troops to take down...

In this hunt after the mantis catching the cicada and the oriole, the second elder brother played a too important role. Later, King Jing'an Zhao Qingyuan successfully ascended the throne as the great treasure. I know that the second elder brother/will become a threat to the imperial power in the future !

It's just like Cao Kezhi, Duke of the first rank Fuguo, was the same as Emperor Jing Zhao Yujing!

The matter has come to this, my second elder brother, Sima Xuan, Marquis of Jingling, must die.

The second elder brother was a smart man, he judged the situation, seized the opportunity, and chose to take advantage of the chaos to die voluntarily.

The second elder brother had a life of hardships. Although he and the second sister-in-law also had a bumpy journey, fortunately they had a good result in the end.

Today's son, Zhao Qingyuan, had a five-year agreement with my second elder brother. They agreed that after the second elder brother's fake death, he would not be allowed to leave Zhongzhou for half a step within five years. .

From the education I received since I was a child, I can understand what the Tian family did. Before he became the son of heaven, he might be able to say anything, but after he became the son of heaven, after he possessed absolute lofty power and status—the biggest thing he had The original intention is to build a great harmony in the world.

There are not many people in the world who know about my second elder brother and his wife’s feigned death, and even my father doesn’t know the truth. The second elder brother’s “death” has dealt a great blow to my father, and his reaction is indeed the same as that of his old master. As expected by Emperor Jing Zhao Yujing, it can be said that he was devastated.

As a father, my father has always been very strict in front of my second brother. I have rarely even seen my father be kind to my second brother. I used to believe my mother's words, and even thought that my father really didn't like my second brother. But I was wrong.

When my father sneaked into the ancestral hall in the middle of the night and cried bitterly holding the memorial tablet of the second brother, when my father wiped the tablet little by little and called the baby name of the second brother, I realized that the appearances I saw were not real of.

My second brother died of illness, my father was disarmed, and I was incompetent, and although Huan'er was appointed as the prince of Jingling County, he was young after all, and the world's attitudes and people's hearts were always cold. Watching my eldest brother-in-law Wei Jingting struggling outside!

If that's the case, it's fine, but we are willing to live in peace, but others always want to make things worse.

In the winter month of the first year of Guanxi, a sudden heavy snowfall made his father, who was in the grief of losing his son in old age, sick. That night, his father suddenly had a high fever, and even convulsions and fainted. Shi Xiaotang uncle Sima Ren was not in Chang'an City. I took my father's post all night and went to the imperial medical office to ask for an imperial physician, but, hehe, they kept pushing each other, and in the end no one was willing to come to treat my father!

why?

Because my father was disarmed and returned to the farmland, and my second brother passed away unfortunately, our Sima family has no leading man!

Looking at the old father on the sickbed, looking at the helpless Huan'er and Qing'er, I completely gave up the idea of ​​confessing my daughter's identity to my father, and decided to stir up the pillars of the Sima family, at least to end my father's life. At least take care of Huan'er Qing'er to grow up!

I was also personally related to the family of the great minister of the cabinet, Deng Shichang. I looked through the military books left by my second brother, and used a tactic cautiously to retreat and advance. Finally, I asked to marry Deng Shichang's eldest granddaughter, Deng Qingyu.

On the day we got married, Sister Qingjia told me that when I was imprisoned, apart from my father and second elder brother running around for me, the girl from the Deng family often begged her grandfather to help me mediate.

Sister Qing Jia ate the wine, and she pulled my wide sleeves that I liked to wear, and told me repeatedly and earnestly, asking me to cherish the person in front of me.

I perfunctorily dealt with Sister Qing Jia, I knew that Sister Qing Jia was doing it for my own good, but I couldn't face Deng Qingyu with peace of mind.

Just like what my second elder brother said to me when he persuaded me, although Deng Shi Herring looks ordinary, she is indeed a very virtuous and kind girl.

After I got married, I seldom saw her again. I entrusted the two palaces and relatives to my elder sister and elder brother-in-law to take care of them, and I lived in a mountain house specially prepared by Qinglian Temple outside Changsu City for scholars and students. , to prepare for Guanxi's four-year Enke exam.

I did not return to Chang'an City for two full years.

On the New Year's Eve of Guanxi's fourth year, I ate some New Year cakes sent by the monk and master, and then I sat under the lamp to study as usual. In the middle of it, it seemed that someone knocked on my courtyard door slowly.

I live alone in a small courtyard, and no one will disturb me on weekdays. I glanced at the door of the house suspiciously, thinking that I had heard something wrong.

The sound of firecrackers outside became more and more lively. I squeezed the space between my brows and put down my pen to go to sleep.

At this moment, someone knocked on the courtyard door again. I was alert, so I turned off the light, took the Wuhen waist knife that my second brother gave me back then, and walked out of the room in the dark.

New Year's Eve was also a snowy night, and there was a strong wind and snow in the mountains. I slowly approached the gate of the courtyard, but accompanied by the howling northwest cold wind, I heard a faint voice, it was a woman.

"Are you really not here? What about these things... Oh, it's so cold... Why is the wind here so cold..."

This voice is not particularly familiar to me, but for some reason, I actually thought that this person was Deng Qingyu, and when I opened the courtyard door, sure enough, the person standing outside the door shivering non-stop was her Deng Qingyu Miss Deng!

Seeing it was her, I felt a little bit of joy after guessing who the visitor was, and more of it was a burst of anger for no reason—I didn’t even know that the reason why I felt angry was because I was worried. Deng Qingyu's safety.

"Why are you here!" I lowered my face, and my tone was slightly displeased.

But she just stood outside the door where the wind and snow were raging, smiling warmly at me in the cold night.

She hugged the package in her arms: "It has been snowing too much recently, I'm here to send some new cotton clothes for the son to replace."

"Please take it yourself, my son. I'll leave now and don't disturb your purity." She took a few steps forward and stuffed the heavy package to me, then turned around and walked into the snowstorm again.

I stood there and hesitated for a while, and finally ran out and chased her back—the wind and snow were too heavy, and the mountain road to go out might not be easy to walk, hmph, and I don’t know how she came here alone!

I don't mean anything else by keeping her here overnight, but I really only have one bed here, and there are three quilts, but the wooden bed that is not spacious obviously cannot fit two quilts side by side.

It's past time and it's time to settle down, but she is standing under the lamp with a cup of hot tea in her hands, looking a little embarrassed.

I took out the spare quilt from the closet and spread it on the mattress—I admit that I was afraid that Deng Qingyu, who was born noble, would not be used to the hard wooden bed. Although I married her mostly for the purpose of taking advantage of it, I I don't want her to be wronged materially because of me.

"The conditions are not good, so I have to squeeze." I climbed into the bed and got under the quilt first, turned inside, leaving only the back of my head for her: "I sleep well and won't move around, so you can rest assured. "

She remained where she was, motionless.

I found a step for myself: "If you're not sleepy, I'll go to bed first. It's cold in the quilt, so just treat it as me warming your quilt."

I said this on my own, without looking back, and I didn't know how Deng Qingyu's cheeks blushed because of what I said casually.

I don't know how long it took, just when I was about to fall asleep in a trance, Deng Qingyu finally lay down rustling.

In the middle of the night, it was the second time I shared the bed with her after we got married. I was afraid that my identity would be discovered by her, so I slept carefully while clutching the skirt of my jacket. Although Deng Qingyu was a little cautious at the beginning, after she fell asleep But it was very different, she seemed to be too cold, shivering and leaning towards me in her sleep.

I have never been afraid of the cold since I was a child. It was like a small stove in winter. Deng Qingyu found a heat source and kept squeezing me. That night, I slept for about two hours from beginning to end.

However, this is not a big deal. After dawn, I found that the road out of the mountain was blocked by the heavy snow last night, and it was not completely blocked.

"Did you come here by yourself on New Year's Eve on purpose?" I asked her, "What good does it do you to be trapped here? This is good, you can't get out!"

She lowered her head, looking very guilty, she murmured for a long time, and she actually wanted to say goodbye to me and leave.

I'm really afraid that too much contact will make her discover something she shouldn't. I haven't entered the official career yet, so I can't just cut off the support of the Deng family. The chief minister of the cabinet, I can't take risks.

Fortunately, the wind and snow stopped today. At noon, Deng Qingyu stepped on the snow and walked out, so I locked the yard and followed.

She was walking ahead, and her walking speed was not fast. After countless falls along the way, she finally walked out of Qinglian Mountain before sunset in the afternoon.

"Thank you for sending me here, my son." Outside the inn at the foot of the mountain, she stood in front of the carriage of Prince Qingxu's mansion, her cheeks, ears and nose were flushed by the wind in the mountains, and she bid me farewell: "Your Majesty, take care."

I didn't know what to answer her, so I just looked at her quietly, I turned my head and told the coachman to take the concubine Shizi back home, and then I planned to go to the inn to rest for a night.

I just didn't expect that when I turned around, Deng Qingyu suddenly ran over and hugged me from behind.

In public, this move is really not very appropriate.

I subconsciously wanted to break her hand away, but I tried once but failed.

"I just miss you a little bit," Deng Qingyu said in a low voice, "I know that my son has important things to do, but I just couldn't bear it and came to disturb you on my own initiative, please don't hate me, my son. It won't be anymore... I will remember the smell on Shizi's body."

After all, she turned back and got into the carriage.

I seem to have a lot of things I want to say to Deng Qingyu, but I can't utter a single word when I open my mouth. I know this woman's love is deep, but how should I continue this love so that she won't hurt her heart?

The answer is no solution.

Forget it, I sighed, and when the wheels of the carriage were about to turn, I jumped into the carriage.

If I hadn't suddenly opened the car door and got in, I'm afraid I would never see Deng Qingyu hiding in the corner of the carriage and crying secretly.

I understand that life is difficult for her alone in the palace. Although I asked my father to protect her more, she wants to live under the hands of her mother-in-law and my mother. No need to guess. I know that although she is the eldest daughter of the Deng family, she suffered a lot of grievances after marrying into my family.

Once a woman marries, she will be an outsider to her in-law's family and a guest to her natal family from now on. If I, an "official", are not by her side, she must have suffered a great grievance and suffer alone.

She seemed to be frightened by my sudden appearance, covering her mouth and choking, not daring to cry anymore.

I finally went back to Chang'an with her, to Prince Qingxu's mansion.

"My son finally returned