Black Moonlight's Self-Cultivation

Yu Bai covered his mouth, the blood on his arm dripped continuously, and his eyes seemed to be stained with blood.

"How could I not want to kill you? Ashura died, father died, all because of you..."

He muttered to himself, half of his face was stained with blood, his eyes looked crazy like he was possessed, Brother Ming's heart trembled, but he still didn't say any words of comfort.

On the other hand, Xiaolu rushed over like a cannonball, hugged his leg, and asked sharply: "Is what that person said just now true? He said that I am Asura's child, and Asura is my father, right?" ?”

He originally thought that he was a child without parents, and he didn't expect that kind of love, but why did they all die when he learned that he had parents?

Yubai stroked his head with bloody hands, and said in an apologetic tone: "I'm sorry, Xiaolu, you may not only have me as an enemy who killed your mother, but also an enemy who killed your father."

Xiaolu waved his hand away bitterly, and said loudly: "I know, my mother abandoned me and she didn't recognize me, and I have never met my father, I have no feelings for them, and neither can they Leave traces in my life. Yubai, you are too self-righteous, you want to use me to achieve your goals, I tell you this is impossible."

As that man said, Yubai hated him for killing Asura, so Yubai would take revenge on that man.

Yu Bai asked softly: "You think so?"

The little child's face was full of anger. He seemed to be irritated, and his voice became sharper.

"I was rescued from the narrow dog cage in the orphanage. You know the reason why I was locked there. Although I am a monster, I am valuable to you. Isn't it because of this The reason? You don't love me, that's why you killed Miss Jiang against my will, you didn't allow me to cry for her, I disobeyed your will so you broke my hand. You only endowed me Pain, all you can give me is pain, I hate you, so I swear, I will let you get nothing from me..."

The title he called out subconsciously was still "Miss Jiang". That woman was his rare warmth during that time. She would play with him and tell him stories. So many children circled around Miss Jiang. , but he knew that Miss Jiang was special to him.

He accidentally saw Miss Jiang, and when they looked at each other, Miss Jiang's eyes were incredibly gentle, and then she pressed her finger to her lips and gave a soft "hush".

He was very happy, this was a secret between him and Miss Jiang.

As long as Ms. Jiang comes, he is very happy. Not only there are many delicious snacks and fun toys, but Ms. Jiang also plants flowers, dances and makes small handmade items with him. He works so hard to show Ms. Jiang his best For example, he can brush his teeth, wash his face and make quilts by himself, he is willing to help others, he is humble and polite, he will help teachers take care of other children who need help, and he will show a bright smile no matter what happens.

Even an illusory hope is better than nothing.

There is someone who will watch me, so I can work harder, smile hard, live hard and want to change my future, even if it will be difficult, I don't want to give up.

Narrow and dilapidated small wooden beds, endless fights among children, severe beatings and scolding by teachers, stomachs that are always hungry, and countless low-pitched sobs at night... This is the real reality in an orphanage. everything.

He never liked the life in the orphanage. The world above his head was so small. All he did every day was just to have enough food. Children without the protection of their parents are like this. The desolation of being abandoned in the bones.

It's not fair, he thought.

The world he sees from the limited books is different from this. The books say that children have parents, and parents will give children a warm home. Little children are cared by their parents with both hands, and they are the happiest people.

Is he not happy just because he has no parents?

Ordinary children will never know how lonely and helpless they are when they are abandoned, just like a flower that was supposed to grow in a greenhouse but is rudely discarded in the wilderness, it may wither, or it may grow again. There will be no showy flowers.

And these abandoned children have been looking for, longing, loving and being loved all their lives.

He felt that he would not like others, but he was sure that he liked the most special Miss Jiang.

However, he accidentally heard the conversation between Miss Jiang and the dean. Miss Jiang said that she was his mother and wanted to adopt him. Hearing this shocking secret, his first reaction was to run away.

Later, the dean came over and told him that he was about to be adopted by a very good family.

It is estimated that there was some problem with the adoption procedures, which delayed several days, and these days were enough for him to think wildly for a while.

The most beautiful Miss Jiang in his heart has become two people, one is his favorite and most beautiful Miss Jiang, and the other is the mother who abandoned him.

In an instant, his world fell apart...

If Miss Jiang, who was kind to him, was his mother, then it was the root of all his misfortunes, and it would be so ironic to be kind to him.

Mom, what a strange name...

Strange enough to make him cold, strange enough to take away the last bit of warmth he had, the false illusion was shattered, but his heart could never go back.

Then came his awakening. He was called a "monster" and was locked in the iron cage where he used to raise dogs. What he would face was unpredictable, maybe death.

He cried all night out of fear. He was unwilling to be burned to death or starved to death, so he finally said "Take me away" to the person who dozed off all night outside the cage.

That is his choice.

The one who led him away was another man with a calm face and eyes colder than a knife blade.

And from this moment on, his fate has changed, and everything in the past has nothing to do with him anymore.

Then, Yubai took a fancy to him and said he wanted to adopt him. The man who brought him back had an indifferent expression on his face, and threw him to Yubai like a piece of trash.

Yubai can’t say good or bad to him, he dresses him in girl’s clothes, feeds him delicious food and makes him sleep in a big comfortable bed, Yubai calls him “Little Green” and stubbornly buys him green ones all the time little skirt.

He could bear all of this, and he still found a reason for himself. He was wearing a girl's skirt, and the person who wanted to take him back would definitely not know him.

Until Yubai killed Miss Jiang...

He also went to the pier on the day of Ms. Jiang's sea burial. He cried and shouted to get off the car. At that moment, he really realized that Ms. Jiang had left this world.

Only then did he fully understand that his love for Miss Jiang and the resentment he thought he had towards her were all his emotions towards his "mother". He would be sad to be abandoned, but the blood bond in his nature still made him fall in love with her. This woman who abandoned herself.

People will easily compromise with the person they like. In this world, even if there is only one person who can make him give affection, then he will not be lonely.

If possible, he is willing to exchange everything he has, even if she cannot be happy, at least she can live well in this world.

She is gone, so where will his heart rest?

He understood too late...

"Feather, I hate you..."

Yubai looked at the child crying hysterically, and finally said: "You are too weak, your hatred is too small for me, I can choose to turn a blind eye."

Xiaolu hated and feared him, but Xiaolu also couldn't do without him.

He thought, Xiaolu is the same to him, or he is to Shen Jialan, they are actually the same, whether it is hatred or other reasons, they are already closely linked.

……

Shen Jialan came alone when he came, and when he left, a cheeky guy came to rub the car and brought a big dog with him.

It seems that as long as he disagrees, that guy can show a look of being abandoned, squatting on the side of the street with his dog and being surrounded by people.

Shen Jialan finally nodded.

Dino happily got into the car with his darling dog, Shen Jialan couldn't help but think about it, wondering if this big dog sheds a lot of hair.

Dino seemed to see through his thoughts, and quickly said: "Garfield doesn't shed hair, don't worry!"

"……Oh!"

Along the way, when Shen Jialan was driving, Dino kept looking for something to say, just like a chatterbox, and fully expressed to Shen Jialan the joy of reuniting after a long absence.

However, in Shen Jialan's view, this guy has no image in front of him.

Just like now, a person and a dog in the back seat are making out with each other from time to time. Even if Garfield's fat body is curled up, it is a huge mass. Dino is lovingly "hands and arms" against it, touching it from head to tail tip, and then from the tip of the tail. touch the chin...

"Are you really opening a gallery now?"

Shen Jialan's guess is that this guy is trying to sell dog meat, anyway, he doesn't look like a serious business person.

Dino put his arms around his dog, smiled obsequiously at Shen Jialan, and said, "No, the gallery is just a front, Lan, don't you know exactly what I do?"

Shen Jialan smiled and said, "It's easy to say, I will remember to patronize your business in the future."

Dino's mouth seemed to be smeared with honey, and he said, "Lan, who are we with whom? As long as you ask Lan, I will provide you with people and goods for free, and I will also give them to you for free."

So, this is buy two get one free?No, this is directly being taken advantage of.

"Just waiting for your words."

"... Lan, are you deliberately trying to take advantage of me?"

"You delivered it to your door yourself, of course I'm not being polite, don't take advantage of the bastard."

Dino nodded as if he had been taught, and said happily: "I know, you people in country Z don't like being bastards, so you like to take advantage."

Shen Jialan really couldn't refute this.

Dino happily moved his big head from behind and said, "Lan, I said I wanted to pursue you, but you haven't given me an answer yet!"

Shen Jialan said casually: "I haven't made any promises to you, don't be too sentimental."

"However, when I confessed my love at the beginning, I would never accept the reason you rejected me."

Shen Jialan still forgot about this incident, so she asked, "What did I say at the time?"

"You said you wouldn't lift it."

"what?"

Wait, he has the impression, it seems that he himself really said such a thing.

With a hurt expression on his face, Dino said, "It's fine if you don't accept me, why do you find such an excuse?"

Shen Jialan said calmly: "I didn't lie to you, I really won't lift."

Dino said with an expression of "you are really lying to me", and said, "I already know, you are in a relationship now, and the other party is still a man, have you told him that you don't want sex?"

"of course not."

"Look! You are really lying to me."

"Because my problem of not lifting has been cured."

Dino said sadly: "Lan, I wish the gentleman who fell in love with you good luck, although he is already very unfortunate to meet you."

Shen Jialan snorted, and said, "Since it's unlucky to meet me, why are you rushing to post it?"

"Because I love you..."