Monkey and Feather

On a certain day in a certain year, the weather: cloudy

This is the first time I keep a diary, and it was taught to me by a girl from the mortal world.Hehe~ She didn't even know Ben Gong's identity, it's so funny to think about it.

She said that writing down what was on her mind would make people feel better.Is there really such a thing?

But why, when I think of you and pick up the pen, my heart is still empty.I tried to use these vulgar words to fill the gap in my heart, but the more I filled it, the more my heart ached.

On a certain day in a certain year, the weather: overcast

Today, as always, you are on my mind.Sometimes I think it's ridiculous, you are so ugly, why I can't forget you.

Is it because everything I want can be easily obtained?

I thought about whether I can't get you, that's why I'm so persistent.

I have never failed like that, even when facing that person, I am always superior.But you make me feel worthless.

I searched all over the world to replace your stuff.But they all failed. The whole world is not as good as your smile.

But that smile was not for me, but it still made me intoxicated.

So, I hate Fairy Liuli.

But now, I regret it.Because, now I can no longer see your smile, even if I just look at it secretly. . .

The weather on a certain day in a certain year: light rain

That girl is a liar, a big liar!She said that writing a diary can make herself feel better, but why, the more I write, the more tears I shed, and the more I miss you?

In the wine pool, I specially brewed for you, your favorite wine.Its fragrance permeates the heaven, but it cannot keep your heart.

I can't think of a way but to use this to lure you.I think, if I love what you love, maybe you will care about me.

Maybe you think I'm a slutty woman?Heh~ Maybe, you haven't seen my sad side.

That's right, the high-ranking queen has attracted the attention of all.Holy, arrogant, noble.How could it be like ordinary women, sad for love and cry for love?

No one will believe it, no one will see it.Only when I hide, when I am alone, will I burst out completely.

Then, when they are in front of people, they have to pretend to be the Queen Mother in their hearts. . .Ridiculous, sad.

The weather on a certain day of a certain month in a certain year: Moderate rain

I don't know when, I fell in love with rainy days.This is all I can do, the only thing that can comfort myself.

This is the weather when I first saw you, seeing the rain, as if you were still waiting for me in the rain.

But you didn't look at me.Among the tens of thousands of big Luo Jinxians, you are the only one who has no interest in me, even if you are the closest to me, even if I still have the pollen of the butterfly lotus on my body.

If the most charming pollen in the world can't fascinate you, what else can make your heart flutter?

But you make my heart beat.

For hundreds of millions of years, I have felt that I am no longer a woman. I will not have the love and hatred of ordinary people, but only a title erected by people's morality.

Sometimes, I also really believe that this is my job, I am this day.

It wasn't until I met you that I realized that I am nothing, I am just looking for an excuse to live in my empty shell.

The weather on a certain day of a certain year: heavy rain

I know I'm crazy, I'd even give up your heart for your body.

I drew a lot of pictures are you.But the paintings are all spent, soaked in tears.

I, who haven't dreamed for millions of years, also long to meet you in my dream.

Even, I secretly sent someone to go to the underworld to catch the worst nightmare, just to give me a dream of having you.But no one can help me realize this dream after all.

I have asked people to create many masks according to your outline.I let them all wear it, and I want them to be you, to be you in my heart.

There are many, many things I do for you.

The more you can do, the harder it is to be satisfied.

I only hate that I am not a lowly maid, but I have to endure a life that is a hundred times, a thousand times lower than a maid.Just because there is one you missing.

The weather on a certain day of a certain month in a certain year: Thunderstorm

Is it because I can't give up the position of Tianzun, so you don't want to choose me?

But you know, this is my vocation, I sacrificed my freedom as a "human" for this world, I have no choice...

The weather on a certain day of a certain month in a certain year: wind, rain, thunder and lightning

If I become like Fairy Liuli, will you take a look at me?

You all know how I feel about you, but you pretend to ignore it.Even if I turn her into a ghost fire, you still have to stay with her, right?

Hehe, why don't you hate me, why do you see me, and when you talk about me, you are still the same as the first time, with an expressionless and respectful face.

I took everything from you!Why don't you seek revenge on me! ?

No matter what I do to you, can't make you care about me?Even if it is hatred, as long as it can exist in your heart, I will be satisfied.

Why are you still so indifferent and so calm?

What exactly do you want me to do? !Tell me what to do to get you back to me! !Tell me you bastard!

The weather on a certain day in a certain year: sunny

Hehe~ I have a solution, kill.

You wait for me~ I will never let you forget me again...