Monkey and Feather

Although I am very different, I still can't completely forget my first love.Uh... before going to that game world.

For some reason, I mustered up the courage to reply to the text message, one word: good.

I was surprised by my behavior, and regretted it after replying.

What happened to a girl like me who has always felt inferior?This... This is not a joke.

"There's nothing to be afraid of, just do what you want! You've died many times!"

"Ah! Who is it?!"

I was so frightened by the sudden sound that I almost dropped my phone on the ground.He hurriedly looked around, but apart from a few scattered passers-by, he didn't find anyone talking to him.

But that voice sounds very real!And it sounds familiar.

"Who was talking just now?!" I shouted again, but still no one answered.

"Damn it, it must be the sequelae of that horrible world. Sigh~ let's go home and have a good rest. Don't scare yourself every day."

Frightened by this, I lost my anxiety about going to the wedding, and actually had a little more inexplicable anticipation.

......

My mom doesn't look right at me!

Of course, she must have never seen her daughter dressed up like this before, she really looks like a woman, and she is still very beautiful.And this is all thanks to a book friend of mine on the Internet.

"Xiao Yu, you...are you feeling unwell? How about I take you to see Dr. Chen?" My mother looked serious and worried.

Dr. Chen is a psychiatrist, and he prescribed many of the medicines I took.And in order to help me treat depression, he often hypnotized me, and he came to treat me very intimately.

"Mom, I'm fine. I'm going to a friend's wedding today."

"A friend's wedding?"

My mother looked at me with a dubious expression, which made me feel uncomfortable.It seems to be saying: When did you have friends?

"Stop talking, I'm leaving first!" I was afraid that she would continue to question me, so I hurriedly ran out of the door.

...

Weddings, big weddings, I've only seen them on TV.

It seems that Kai's dream has come true, he became a rich man.

But I, on this occasion, seemed out of place.At this moment, I timidly hid in a corner on one side, watching elegant handsome men and women walking past me, without daring to take a breath.

"Follow me!" Accompanied by a familiar voice, a hand grabbed me.

Of course familiar, this is my first love, my ex-boyfriend, Kay.

His strength was still great, but I didn't resist and let him pull me and run.

Running through a not very long corridor, he led me through a door, then held my hands and stared at me.

"Rain~"

Bastard, this bastard called me by my name. One word made me feel weak for no reason.

Maybe it's because of his bright eyes like before, like eyes that want to see through everything.

For a moment, it seemed to be back under the dim street lights of the campus.That night, he took my first kiss away.

Although this is nothing in this era when no one cares about the first night, but at that time.No, until now, I have always cared.Therefore, if it is not pure, you can only go to see a psychologist.

"I miss you so much, Xiao Yu, do you know? I have never been happy without you." Kai's voice trembled slightly, and tears seemed to glisten in his eyes.

I try to be as sane as I can, which has never been my thing, but for some reason today, I feel like I can.

"The bride is beautiful." I said lightly, trying my best to keep myself calm.

"I'm sorry, it was my fault at the beginning, it's my fault for always wanting to stand out." Kai's expression suddenly became gloomy as he spoke.

"It's okay, congratulations, now you have achieved your dream."

I talk a lot, but when I say it, I feel very comfortable in my heart.

"I was wrong, Xiaoyu. Although I have more money than I can spend, I am not happy. Do you know why?" He grabbed my arm tightly, and it hurt a little, but I still didn't resist.

I kept silent, trying my best to look at him calmly.

"Because of you! You who have been with me for five years since I was poor!" The more he spoke, the louder he was, the tighter he grabbed me.

It hurts, and my heart hurts.

"Money and influence brought me only temporary happiness, but you left me with eternal pain, Xiaoyu, I found that I really can't live without you,

I have been living in regret all these years, and I have always wanted you to come back to me.But I have no courage, I am afraid to face you, afraid that you will reject me.

But today, I have no way out, I don't want to marry a woman I don't love, I want you, Xiaoyu, to be my bride! "

"Crack!!" This was a lightning strike in my head.

I'm really confused, this is really the plot of Nima's TV series!And I even shed tears with him.

Painful, but with a long-lost sweetness.

I think of my lonely and tasteless school life. He brought me a little happiness and drove away most of my loneliness. Except for my mother, really, he was the best to me before.

After self-study every night in winter, you accompany me home, and then walk back alone, the cold wind is howling, you always bring the gray scarf I made for you.

Every afternoon, I do my homework alone in the classroom, and you are the one who brings me hot water and meals.You are stingy, but you are always unwilling to ask for my money, but you always try to cheat other students of their money.

You are just poor, you are afraid, I am not afraid!But why did you become so fast?You said that successful people are always fickle, but you also said that you will not change for me!

But you lied to me for five full years!Five years!

In the end, without even saying goodbye, you disappeared, left me, and went to other girls.No, other women, you had a great time.

I found out that you were taken care of by different people.They say you live well, I haven't tried it, I tried your mouth/job, it's really good, you can tell lies loudly, and spit out lotus flowers.

And it was the promise you said that caused me to stay in the hospital for more than a week because of my wrist cutting, and I became everyone's laughing stock.Heh~ Thank you for making my depression worse.

"If it's over, let him pass. I wish you a happy wedding."

I let the tears run down my cheeks and turned to leave.

"Xiaoyu! I know you still care about our past relationship, I can let go of everything now and go now! I will take you away now!

Go to a world where there are only two of us, and I will spend the rest of my life loving you and atone for my sins! "Kay pulled me, weeping, I could hear clearly, a lot of people gathered outside the door, whispering.

He really for me?Don't care what these people think?So stupid, this kid is so stupid.

I stayed where I was, my mind was in a mess, he was so sudden, I would be lying if I said I didn't care at all.

I've never been in a relationship, or even spoken to a guy a few times. Except for 10086.Kay is the only man in my life who has ever been with me.

I... my defenses are really about to collapse. I really, maybe only a little bit, still love him.

I turned around and tried to smile, but couldn't.

"Kay, my heart hurts~"

"Yu, I'm sorry, this heart will be guarded by me from now on! I won't let it hurt any more!"

Said, Kay hugged me tightly in his arms, I didn't resist, but cried more fiercely, reluctant and unable to let go.

Forget it, love you again.

However, I forgot that I am a simple person and also a mental patient.

The author has something to say:

My friends said I was too boring and I should be more gregarious.

Hmm~ I thought I was always gregarious.