[Japanese Edition] Love at First Kiss] Female Supporting Struggle

Naoki Irie's home is located in an upscale residential area in Setagaya, Tokyo.Because he wanted to provide the best living environment for his beloved woman, Rujiangzheng, whose career was just on the right track back then, gritted his teeth and bought a house here with a loan.

This was a very correct decision, because only ten months later, the land price in Tokyo seemed to be on a rocket, and it rose to an astonishing price while everyone was stunned.

At that time, Japan seemed to be caught in a hysterical real estate carnival, and nothing was a more correct choice than investing in real estate.

A lot of money flows into the real estate market, and a large number of companies invest in real estate—no matter what their main business is, the underworld also invests in real estate, and people with a little spare money also invest in real estate. Even those who have no money still have to borrow money from banks Buying a suite, it seems that if you don't buy a house, you will suffer a big loss.

Even gangsters can easily get loans from banks as long as the purpose is to buy land.

Housing prices will never fall, everyone firmly believes that.

"With Japan's economic growth, Tokyo will become the financial center of Asia." "Japan is a small island country with scarce land. With economic development and urbanization, Tokyo's housing prices will only become higher."

Everyone firmly believed in such a set of logic, and the whole country fell into the frenzy of real estate.

By 1990, the price of apartments around Tokyo alone had exceeded the average annual salary by ten times.Not to mention the construction of a family with a yard like this, the "studio apartments" that have arisen due to real estate speculation have become a luxury that most hard-working people cannot afford.

Therefore, whenever Machiko Irie felt that he could not do anything for her husband, Masaru Irie would comfort her like this, "It is all thanks to Machiko that I can now have such a house in Tokyo, where every inch of land is expensive. If not For the sake of Machiko, I would never have made up my mind to buy this house with a loan anyway, so please don’t say such things again.”

From a working class in a small city to a petty bourgeois in a big city, entering Jiangzheng has achieved intergenerational changes in class. From a social point of view, this is a good thing. The flow of classes is conducive to social fairness, but for For people who are in this kind of change, leaving their original family and original environment does not bring them all happiness.

Whether it is Zheng Irie or Machiko Irie, they are constantly adapting to the discomfort brought about by this change.

However, if Masaru Irie is actively welcoming and even yearning for this change, then Machiko Irie is just a passive recipient of this change.

Unlike Zheng Irie, who is eager to break away from her original class, struggles desperately, and finally realizes her own class leap by relying on her education, Machiko Irie is satisfied with the world she lived in before, but because of love, she has to enter a completely strange world.

Although Irie Masaru did his best to provide his beloved woman with the best living conditions within his ability, but it was not what she wanted.

A better life, a higher social status, more money, these things that most people yearn for, are not the most important things in Machiko Irie's heart.

Machiko Irie is a simple person who fantasizes about a warm and lovely world, a world of sincere affection and close family.The world may be ordinary and trivial, but in her view, it is full of joy of life.

But the world she imagined was completely different from the world she lived in in reality.When she first moved to the community, she also hoped to be friends with other women her age here, but in the end her hopes turned out to be disappointments.

In this community, most of the people living in this community are ordinary families born in small places like Masaru Irie and Machiko, a group of people who have realized their own destiny changes through academic qualifications during the rapid economic development after the war.

They live in abundance, but also in anxiety.

Because I climbed up from the bottom, I don't want to fall down anyway.

They desperately came to Tokyo from a small place, and from the struggling working class to the middle class of their dreams, they tried their best to stay in this world.

As a generation that relies on education to change their destiny, they believe in the power of education.Because there is no social relationship, only learning can change their destiny.

But Japan's education system seems to want to set up obstacles for these lower-class people who want to climb up. Although the best universities are national, the public middle schools and elementary schools that provide basic education seem to be just for children. The place to go is mediocre, except for cultivating the children's team spirit and sense of responsibility, there is almost no knowledge necessary for further education, so middle-class parents have to spend a lot of money to send their children to high-quality private schools.

Although they don't have to go to work, the middle-class mothers here don't have much free time for themselves.In order for their children to enter a good school, they have to devote a lot of energy to their children's education and guidance from the age of three or four.

They need to keep learning new parenting knowledge, take their children to various cram schools, help their children improve their homework as much as possible, and collect information about the teaching quality, enrollment rate, and admission requirements of surrounding schools.Accompany your child with homework and provide logistical support at all times.

Of course, they also have leisure and social activities, but their social partners are mothers of children of the same age as their children, which are often called "mother friends".

They discussed parenting, their children's education, and their education.All in all, the housewives here don't have that much time and mood to play those "children's tricks" with Machiko Irie.

The Japanese like to cuddle, not only for students, but also for adults.The out-of-group Machiko Irie became the target of bullying by the "mothers" in the community, and Naoki Irie naturally became the target of the children in the community.

This is completely different from the life Machiko Irie imagined. She has no way to adapt to the surrounding environment, let alone change the outside environment, so she hopes to change her home into what she wants.She couldn't play with her friends, so she had to play alone.

So, Machiko Irie continued to wear her favorite Lolita clothes, dressed Naoki Irie as she liked, and lived a dream life in her own world.

Everything was good in this kind of life, but suddenly one day, when Naoki was in middle school, Machiko found that he started to resist. He refused to wear the girl's clothes she prepared for him, refused to take pictures, and even refused to be with her again. say.

His heart seemed to be closed by a thick wall, his expression became cold, Machiko began to feel flustered, she didn't understand why.

She guessed that it might be because she let him wear women's clothes, but what's the matter?She felt it was a bit of a fuss.

Machiko wants to restore the joy in the family, but no matter how hard she tries, it's in vain.

Irie Naoki talked less and less, and went to the room every day after returning home, and he was hardly seen at home except when eating.Every time I talk to him, the words "um" and "ah" are always gone.Only when facing Hiroki, Irie Naoki could say a few more words.

Her husband comforted her that it was only because of the rebellion period.But Machiko was not reconciled, she felt that Naoki was getting farther and farther away from her, she was very scared, she didn't want to do this, but she didn't know what to do.

The house has always been very quiet, there is no lively atmosphere, no noise caused by family trivial matters, everything is so quiet that Irie Machiko flustered.

During dinner, Masaru Irie did not come back because of overtime work, and there were only Machiko and his two sons at the table.

Machiko worked hard to liven up the atmosphere.

As usual, Naoki Irie didn't say anything, just ate with his head down.The youngest son, Yushu Irie, seemed to want to say something, but because he wanted to learn from his elder brother, he also tried his best to control his emotions. Except for the occasional conversation, he bowed his head quietly to eat at other times.

"I've finished eating, let's go back to my room first." Naoki Irie left the table first.

"I'm done eating too." Irie Yuki followed his brother to put down the tableware.

The dining room was quiet again, only Machiko was empty, the expression on her face became disappointed, she got up silently and cleared away the dining table.

Although Machiko Irie didn't understand, in fact, Naoki Irie's reaction was not surprising.If she can be more conscious, read some children's education books, or even communicate with other mothers, she will know that things that she thinks she can't understand are things that have been extensively studied in children's psychology. The problem.

Psychologists refer to Naoki Irie's daily life as an adversarial childhood experience, or ACE for short. ACE is childhood trauma.For Irie Machiko, the word "trauma" may be too serious, because she is not malicious, and she just wears women's clothing, which is not a big deal in her opinion.

But in fact, for children, trauma is not all physical, and not only earth-shattering events can become trauma.When he "feels" humiliated or humiliated by his parents, or feels that the family doesn't support each other, it becomes traumatic.Even if it is nothing more than a throw at a child or a casual joke in the eyes of a parent, as long as the child feels hurt, it becomes a trauma.

As for Irie Naoki, he was indeed consciously hurt by Irie Machiko.For Irie Machiko, women's clothing is just a joke and a trivial matter, but for Irie Naoki, this is humiliation, and it has lasted for more than ten years.

In real life, ACE is everywhere, but some of them can be realized, and many traumas may not be realized in their lifetime, but these unfortunate childhood experiences affect their behavior all the time.It can be said that every choice they make is influenced by their childhood experiences.

Childhood trauma puts children under tremendous psychological pressure.A physiological response to stress that triggers adrenaline hormones.The classic response to adrenaline is "fight or flight."

For Irie Naoki, the cause of his high tension is his mother, whom he is always avoiding, whether he realizes it or not.He is also afraid of conflicts and disputes. Regarding the demands of his mother or other people, no matter what his true thoughts are, his first reaction is always to avoid conflicts and choose to be patient, hoping to escape conflicts.

This is not surprising. For weak children, the first reaction to conflict is to run away.But if you escape in a hurry, you may choose the wrong path.

If Naoki Irie chose to steal at the HMV video store that day, maybe he would succeed, and he might be discovered by the clerk.But no matter which one, it may become a psychological shadow for his life.

What kind of path will his future take?Irie Naoki didn't know, but it definitely wouldn't be what he wanted.

So he thanked Reiko Matsumoto for letting him not choose to steal.

So is his feeling for Matsumoto Reiko love?Naoki Irie still doesn't know.

But he can be sure that it was definitely not the first time they met, he was not hit by any romantic love at first sight, he was just attracted by her firm, uncompromising personality that was completely different from his own.

And when he started observing her, the more he got to know her, the more fascinated he was by her firmness, her confidence, her courage, her unwavering integrity.

For Naoki Irie at this time, Reiko Matsumoto gave him hope and courage to fight.

It sounds like a cliché that a person is touched by another person when he is shaken, and then regards him as his spiritual support.

But for Naoki Irie, this is indeed a reality.Maybe it's like her last name and his first name, Matsumoto (松本) and Naoki (直树), N must be closely followed by M.Hamlet must always have Horatio next to him to prevent his delay, and Irie Naoki must be by Matsumoto Reiko's side to be firm.

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