[Comprehensive] Seeing a male god is wrong for life

After Su Mengzhen died, he was buried in his hometown.

The person in charge of this matter was Yang Wuxie, there was no pomp and circumstance when he was buried, only a few relatives, friends and subordinates came together, the scene was quiet and mournful.For many years since then, the place has been very quiet, with only a few faces coming and going.

In the tenth year, a woman in light green clothes came here.

She is no longer young, even though her face is still youthful, the temperament around her has already exposed her age.Young people will not have such a demeanor, just as fine wine always needs time to ferment, her demeanor also needs time to settle.

But she is still a flower in full bloom.

This is a completely unfamiliar face, those who often come to see Su Mengzhen will not know who she is if they are here.If the person buried here came back to life, he would definitely be able to recognize him.

The passage of time cannot prevent a man from recognizing the one he loves.

"I always hear such sweet words these days, Mr. Su." The woman in the light green dress bent down and placed the basket of white chrysanthemums in her arms in front of Su Mengzhen's tomb. "Oh, I forgot to mention... You probably don't remember, I'm Yingniang." She said softly. "Back then...you liked to come to me to buy flowers."

The one who can definitely be recognized is the sweetheart, not the flower seller who met by chance.

You won't remember me.Cui Yingniang thought pessimistically, but she couldn't let herself give up those thoughts in her heart.She remembered the little boy who would come to her to buy flowers from time to time in her heart for many years, but she regretted that she had not been able to see the little boy when he grew up... and she didn't know if she could recognize him.

In the end, I still missed it, and there was no chance to make up for it.

Cui Yingniang held her skirt and sat down in front of Su Mengzhen's tomb, and she didn't mind that the new skirt would be stained with mud.She took out a few bottles of wine from the basket, poured a bottle in front of Su Mengzhen's tomb, opened a bottle, and took a sip by herself.

After taking a second sip, Cui Yingniang continued to speak.Her voice is very soft, and when she speaks, she is calm and gentle: "I have a younger brother, and I found someone I like a few years ago. Well... I only found out about it after I went back. Yes, it's just that the girl doesn't like him, and it's only after all these years of hard work."

"Things gained through hardships will be cherished even more. This principle is also applicable to my junior brother. He and that girl have been struggling for so many years, and after they have cultivated it, they will naturally be very harmonious... I should do it for you." They are happy."

"But I don't think I can take it anymore."

"I am really happy for my junior brother, but every time I see them getting along in harmony, I always feel pain in my heart, and I want to find someone who is close to me." But the person she admired is dead, this It became empty talk, so a bit of tingling was unknowingly mixed in the blessings to the junior and younger brothers.

Frustrated people who have lost their love interest can't control their burning thoughts when they see a happy couple. Fortunately, Cui Yingniang still has a bottom line, and these thoughts are only limited to occasional thoughts-this occasional time. No ideas put into practice.At most, I feel that I can't watch it anymore.

Want to escape, want to escape. "This kind of thinking, if other people know about it, they will probably be laughed at? It doesn't matter if you say it in front of you..." Cui Yingniang said, "Although you don't like to talk, Mr. Su, you are very good at keeping secrets. In the past When I was young, I wanted to tell you many secrets hidden in my heart, but it's a pity..."

She took another sip of the wine, and a little flowed out because she drank too quickly, and she choked when she swallowed it.After coughing for a long time, tears welled up from the corners of his eyes. "It's a pity that I was too timid back then, and I didn't even dare to say a few more words to you."

In fact, Cui Yingniang is not really shy and timid, she just treats Su Mengzhen like this.Girlish feelings are always poetry, and it is actually quite normal for a girl to become shy in front of someone she admires in her heart.

She had mustered up her courage many times, and when Young Master Su came to buy flowers, she wanted to talk to him a few more words, but when the time came, she didn't dare to say more.Except for the normal conversations such as "what flowers do you want to buy", "how many do you want", "what color do you want", all the extras are locked in my heart, and I dare not reveal them at all.

It's not that I don't want to say more, and it's not that I don't want to say more, it's just that I don't dare.

Cui Yingniang was really scared.Afraid of revealing her heart, afraid of making the young master she admired feel unhappy, afraid of never seeing him again, afraid of being known by others and being stopped by the elders of the master... She was afraid of so many things, so she only dared to pick out I gave him the best flowers that bloomed, and didn't dare to say anything, and then those years were wasted and passed by.

Young Master Su is leaving too.

Cui Yingniang still remembered that young master Su came to her place to buy flowers that day before he left, some apricot blossoms.When paying the money, Young Master Su mentioned that he was leaving inadvertently. She responded with a smile, and blessed Young Master Su, saying that he had a bright future and would turn bad luck into good luck... What was Young Master Su's attitude at that time?Well, I remembered, Mr. Su smiled at her back then.

The handsome young man is also very good-looking when he smiles. If he doesn't smile often, it is enough to be called amazing.Cui Yingniang fell into this smile without any resistance, as if she was drunk.

While half drunk and half awake, Cui Yingniang heard Young Master Su say, "Yingniang, my name is Su Mengzhen."

My mind went blank.

Cui Yingniang was unable to react for a while, forcing her composure had exhausted all her energy—so the opportunity was just missed, and by the time she finally calmed down, Su Mengzhen had been gone for a long time up.

Of course there is annoyance, and of course it is all directed at myself who is not up to date.Just in time to see her elders making fun of her for being so easily tempted, Cui Yingniang blushed slightly, but remained silent.

Emotions are the most unreasonable things in this world. If there is no reason for emotion, how can we tell the truth?If I had to say it, it was just that the sky was too dark and the rain was too heavy that day, and the thunder came at just the right time—it just lit up Su Mengzhen's eyes and made her see the coldness beating in his eyes. flame.

My heart skipped a beat.

I didn't know it when I fell in love, I only knew it was normal at that time. "Now that I think about it... it would be great if I could find out sooner." Cui Yingniang murmured in a low voice.She had already drank half of a bottle of wine, and an abnormal blush had already appeared on the cheeks of the overwhelmed woman. "If I could find out earlier, I would have been able to muster up the courage earlier, pay attention to you earlier, and understand you earlier..."

Find you earlier.

Maybe... it can save you, so you don't have to die.

Everything is possible, the easiest and most difficult thing in this world is exactly what if.Cui Yingniang laughed lowly, feeling that she was really stupid.

If you miss it, you will miss it, no matter how you fix it, it will be irreversible... What else, what else?

It took her 25 years to be an ordinary woman with no power to lay a foundation for her future in martial arts, and another five years to learn how to protect herself.She spent all these years on martial arts, but in the year when she finally succeeded, she was full of emptiness, longing to find the young master whom she had admired in her youth.

What do you want to do?At the beginning, I just wanted to see each other, "But I never thought that we would look like this when we meet again." Cui Yingniang traced the writing on the tombstone with her fingertips, and stayed on the three characters Su Mengzhen. Especially for a long time.

Cui Yingniang knew that Su Mengzhen was not in good health. After all, when they first met, Su Mengzhen suddenly fell ill.But she always thought that if Su Mengzhen could live for a long time, he would definitely be able to find a doctor who could cure him...but this was just what she thought.Everyone will die, "but I always hope that you can live longer."

In fact, there are not only a few words that I want to say, there are many things that have not yet been said, but... "I won't say." Cui Yingniang's hand finally fell down, and she raised her face, regardless of the wine on her lap. The wine from the overturned bottle wet the skirt, "Even if you don't say the words in my heart, you will always know, right, Young Master Su?"

Cui Yingniang's voice was so soft that it disappeared as soon as the wind blew.She didn't care, she would feel much better after she said it... She only said so much when she drank too much and her mind was not clear.Cui Yingniang drank less alcohol, and her capacity for alcohol was not good. Just half a bottle of such a small amount could make her flushed and drunk.

It may be that she has been depressed for too long, it may be that she feels better after venting, or it may be that the wind here is too gentle. In short, after Cui Yingniang was drunk, she fell asleep.

This sleep was not very long. It was already some time after noon when I closed my eyes, and the sun had not yet set when I opened my eyes, and the red clouds had not yet appeared in the sky.Her head was still a little dizzy, Cui Yingniang closed her eyes and practiced her mind for a few days, and suppressed all the discomfort.

However, she leaned on the tombstone and stared at Su Mengzhen's name on it, and remained silent for a while, with a gloomy expression, as if she was insane.

After a long time, Cui Yingniang sighed faintly.

"I had a dream, Young Master Su." She said softly, "In the dream I was standing on the bank of the river looking at you, I folded a lot of pear blossoms and wanted to give them to you, but the river is too wide, I can't reach you, Those flowers all fell into the water."

"You disappeared too."

And when I woke up, I still saw your tombstone.

It is said that dreams and reality are opposite, but why... you disappeared in the dream, and even outside the dream, I can no longer see you?

"I picked white chrysanthemums for you... I'm sorry, Young Master Su."

Cui Yingniang murmured softly.

She closed her eyes tiredly, and finally shed tears.

postscript

During Qingming, Yang Wuxie came to burn incense on Su Meng's pillow again.

This is his long-standing habit. If he cannot come due to errands on Qingming Day, he will make up for it later, and he will never be absent.There were relatively few things to do today, so Yang Wuxie didn't push back the time, and the day came.

Yang Wuxie found that she was one step late.

There is a basket of white chrysanthemums in front of Su Mengzhen's tomb. The flowers are in full bloom, and even the petals are still stained with morning dew, which looks extraordinarily beautiful in the sun.

There are also two bottles of wine beside it, looking at the bottles, you can tell that it is the time-honored Lihuabai in Hangzhou, Yang Wuxie remembers that the owner of his house likes it very much.The landlord has a lot of diseases, and these diseases do not allow him to drink alcohol, but there is always no problem with the smell.

He also saw a small note on Su Mengzhen's tombstone.

Yang Wuxie stepped forward to take a closer look, and found that it was a poem written on it.

It has been ten years since I buried the sword and walked on the song, and the fragrance of red sleeves disappeared.

The handwriting is pretty, with a strong posture, a little lonely and aloof, like an orchid under the moon, beautiful and self-aware.

"It's the landlord." Yang Wuxie said.He lowered his eyes and said again: "So it's the landlord..."

It turned out that the owner had been away for ten years.

It turned out that Jinfeng Drizzle Tower couldn't even keep the red sleeve knife.

He half knelt down, dug a deep hole in front of Su Mengzhen's tomb with his hands, and buried the famous crimson knife hidden in his sleeve in it.

The soil was filled again, and after stepping on it, all kinds of traces were carefully removed.

So everything went back to the way it was.

Yang Wuxie lit the incense.

The author has something to say: Yes, this couple is actually a two-way secret love + self-confessed unrequited love

so perfect missed

After each story is written, I have to sigh, but I am so sleepy at this time, so forget about this one.

The next one is ruthless.

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