God, please be gentle with me

It was already eleven o'clock in the middle of the night, and the sky was full of bright stars. The day was really clear, but Mr. An was in a really bad mood.

He stood in the courtyard with his hands behind his back and looked at the starry sky outlined by the eaves, like an oil painting.

"Grandpa." A slender young woman in a silk dress stood under the eaves not far from Master An.

"You're here." Master An didn't turn his head, but he knew it was his eldest granddaughter An Rui from the voice.

An Rui is 11 years older than An Jiyu, and her grandchildren belong to the "rebellious" category.She doesn't like studying. She dropped out of school in her second year of high school to play motorcycle racing. She had a car accident on a mountain road, broke her leg, and lay in the hospital for half a year.Later she wanted to be a doctor again and returned to

Studying in high school is considered a prodigal son.

But Master An knew that An Rui's turning back had something to do with An Jiyu.

It was she who first noticed the change in An Jiyu's personality. The little angel who loved to pester Rui Rui became less interested in playing games and eating.He even fell in the yard, broke his knee, and blood flowed into his socks, but he didn't respond, as if someone else fell.

People around said that the master's education had worked, and the young master had become a brave little man.

But An Rui felt that his younger brother had become a puppet without a soul, and his eyes were not bright at all, so it was heart-wrenching to watch!

No matter what she said about what was wrong with Xiaoyu, no one listened to her, and thought that such a young child could have something on his mind.

In order to cultivate his grandson's physique, the grandfather did not easily call the family doctor to see him. This made An Rui anxious. She went to the Children's Hospital for consultation in order to understand her brother's condition.

Through the patient explanation of the pediatrician, she learned that there is another disease called "children's depression" in this world, which requires long-term hospitalization if it is serious.

An Rui was very anxious after hearing this, and took the information about childhood depression to educate his grandfather, but his grandfather thought that he grew up like this when he was a child, and there was nothing wrong with him.He also said that today's children are so delicate that they can't do anything well. They are all spoiled by their parents. He won't spoil his precious grandson like this. Everything he does is for the good of An Jiyu.

Grandpa also accused An Rui, saying that she was a typical example of being spoiled by her parents.He didn't read well, and spent his whole day running wild with a bunch of gangsters, disgracing his family.And this so-called "children's depression" is something An Rui made up, lest the world will not be chaotic.

An Rui went back to school in a fit of anger, and said that she would apply for medical school and aspired to be a pediatrician.

While studying hard, she paid attention to her little cousin's movements. The little cousin gradually developed from being indifferent to the outside world to not sleeping.

Grandpa still forced him to learn some Mathematical Olympiad for toddlers.

There is a bucket of fish and a group of cats in the question book full of cartoon pictures. The question is how many fish the kittens can get. At first glance, this math problem is very simple, but after careful calculation, it uses the math formula of the first grade of junior high school. up.

Can a five-year-old understand such a complex algorithm?Even if the little cousin is talented and can calculate it by himself without relying on formulas, it is enough to torture people.

And no noise, no crying, no negotiable confinement if you do something wrong, how can there be such a tossing education method?

Compared with his grandfather's teaching methods, Spartacus is gentle, because he only abuses his body, while his grandfather abuses both physically and mentally!

And the people around were applauding grandpa's education method, and said that the young master has the style of a general, and he is not surprised by favor or humiliation, which really made An Rui mad.

until that day.

An Jiyu fell down a slide and fell hard. His face, arms, thighs, and calves were all bruised and wounded. The nanny fainted immediately after seeing the whole little bloody man.

Grandpa immediately called a family doctor. After an examination, the family doctor said puzzledly, "Judging from the injury, Master Xiaoyu doesn't seem to have the awareness of self-protection."

The implication is that this young master is a bit self-harming.

"It's impossible! He just fell accidentally." Grandpa denied it.How could the little grandson fall down on purpose?However, Mr. An still asked the children's doctor to watch over his grandson until the abrasions on his face, arms, and calves were all scarred.

But the wound healed, and Xiaoyu's spirit has not recovered. He didn't eat much before, but now he is almost on a hunger strike, and has a high fever.

Grandpa panicked at this point, pulled the doctor and asked repeatedly, what should I do, isn't it because of evil spirits?

The doctor had no choice but to say clearly that the young master didn't look quite right, but it had absolutely nothing to do with being possessed by evil spirits. He should go to the psychology department of the Children's Hospital to take a look. This was beyond the scope of medical treatment he could be responsible for.

In the end, An Jiyu lived in the psychology department of the Children's Hospital for half a year, and his condition kept coming and going, and he never got better. The doctor commented that An Jiyu was a child with excellent qualifications in all aspects, but he endured The heavy pressure that shouldn't be endured at this age has also resulted in a psychology of self-denial.

Whenever he is reprimanded by his grandfather, such as miscalculating a question, he will not consider whether the question is too difficult or whether the requirements given by his grandfather are too high, but thinks whether he is not smart enough to make his grandfather angry. He always denies himself, and he begins to feel self-loathing, which makes him very painful, which is why he has a series of self-harm behaviors of hunger strikes.

As long as An Jiyu realizes that it wasn't his fault, he can still correct it, but it's better not to send him to grandpa.

After knowing the doctor's order from the pediatrician, the grandfather regretted it. He really liked this grandson, otherwise he would not have put him by his side and focused on nurturing him.

When An Jiyu was discharged from the hospital and returned to his parents, An Rui went to visit him several times, but his condition was still not stable. It took a year for An Jiyu to integrate into the lives of his peers.He became the kid who loves to laugh and play again.

When An Jiyu became an idol star and appeared on big and small screens and was highly sought after, An Rui was both proud and worried. The schedule of artists was upside down, the competition was fierce, and the pressure was extremely high. Ji Yuhui "relapsed from the old disease".It's not that it must be depression, but psychological problems such as anxiety and panic caused by stress can also make people suffer.

Of course, An Jiyu has grown up now, and is no longer the sensitive and helpless child he was when he was a child, but deep in An Rui's heart, no matter how tall, strong, and handsome An Jiyu is, Still that little, extraordinarily lovable little cousin.

This is also the mood of most parents. No matter whether the child is five years old, 15 years old or 35 years old, in the eyes of parents, the child is always a child and needs their care.

Fortunately, An Jiyu has been doing very well since his debut. Even if there were rumors of same-sex scandals and scenes of being besieged by media reporters, he still handled it freely. He even called her specifically to ask her to help persuade his grandfather.

An Rui still remembers that she "teasing" An Jiyu on the phone and said: "It's really strange, you are such a troublesome person, you would think of asking me to persuade grandpa, you are not afraid that grandpa will quarrel with me when he is excited, and will delay you instead." hind legs."

"You have to try." An Jiyu said, "Sister, as long as I have a way to go, I will not let it go."

Thinking that this cousin would choose to sign a contract to debut because it was too troublesome to reject the agent, but now he is willing to do all kinds of troublesome and trivial things just to be with that classmate Zhao Bin.An Rui knew that An Jiyu had met his destined person.

Although it was different from what she had imagined, it was him and not her, but the happiness of the cousin came first. An Rui knew that if the cousin didn't really like her, he would never give so much.

What are these worldly visions?Life is your own after all.

"I know what you want to say, don't you think I'm old and antique, but I can't ignore this matter." When An Rui was thinking about the past, Master An kept talking, talking about a lot of things in the family , "An Jiyu is the grandson, and he will inherit the An family's ancestral business in the future. How can I let him fall in love with a man?"

"Grandpa, you also said that this is a relationship, not a marriage." An Rui smiled slightly, "Xiaoyu is only 20 years old, is there any young man who hasn't been in love several times now? They are in love now In terms of energy, aren't you afraid that after breaking them up forcibly, Xiaoyu will become the same as when he was a child?"

An Rui thought about these words for a long time and decided to say them after repeated deliberation.

Grandpa's mind is not bad, but he is extremely stubborn. He is the type who "doesn't hit the south wall and doesn't look back", and he will give up only when he fails completely.

Right now, persuading him to let go of An Jiyu will only cause negative effects. It is better to help him change the direction of thinking and tell him that things are not so absolute, so that grandpa will be so shaken.

Although An Jiyu asked sister An Rui to try to persuade grandpa, but An Rui knew that An Jiyu regarded her as a rescuer, and she could not disgrace her mission.

I didn't think about An Rui's words before finishing, but Master An fell silent instead, not the kind of silence of "what you said makes sense, let me think about it", but it has some meaning.

An Rui had never seen this kind of sudden "silence" of grandpa. It can be said that when Xiaoyu was sick, grandpa always jumped in anxiety instead of remaining silent.

This made An Rui feel uneasy, thinking to herself: Could it be that I really stabbed Lou Zi and hindered Xiaoyu?But looking back at what I said, there is nothing wrong with it.

"Xiao Rui, since you mentioned that matter, let me explain it clearly." Master An's tone suddenly changed, it was no longer that angry and hated his grandson's disobedience, but calm And heavy.

"Yes, Grandpa." An Rui also changed her apologetic tone and listened seriously.

"It's just because of what you said, that's why I can't agree with the two of them being together." Master An said in a deep voice.

"Ah?" An Rui felt that she must have heard it wrong. This grandfather, who always pays attention to "the relationship between men and women, and the world of yin and yang", is not because of "comrade" who is trying his best to oppose it?

"You heard me right." Master An continued, "In the year after Xiaoyu recovered, I secretly went to see him in elementary school. He was playing basketball with his classmates on the playground, and his smile was so bright. That's when I was shocked. I feel that I haven't seen my grandson smile like that for a long time, and at that moment, my heart hurts and I feel extremely regretful. The most important happiness of a child was forcibly deprived by me."

An Rui blinked, but said nothing.

"I can't turn back the flow of time. I can only make up my mind that no matter what happens in the future, I must keep this innocent smile. So no matter what Xiaoyu wants, I will do my best to satisfy him, as long as he is happy. Of course I I also know that these "responsiveness" are just to make up for the guilt in my heart, and for Xiaoyu, the harm will always exist."

Although Mr. An is old, his voice is very strong, but now his tone reveals vicissitudes that he can't usually feel. Deep in his heart, he has never been able to forgive himself for hurting his grandson's heart.

"Xiao Rui, I don't object to him falling in love. I'm still worried why he doesn't bring a girl back, or go to a movie with a girl. He looks so good-looking and reads so well. Well, there's no reason why I can't find a girlfriend. I always wonder in my heart, will Xiaoyu... still think about his childhood, so he doesn't want to fall in love." Master An sighed, "Don't care about these things I can't help but think about whether it is in line with the past, and the more I think about it, the more I feel guilty."

"Grandpa, Xiaoyu is fine now." An Rui comforted softly.

"Even if he's really fine, I'll never get over this hurdle in my heart." Master An touched his chest lightly, and then said, "When I heard that he was in a relationship with a boy, I would always have a hand in my pocket." With a bottle of Jiuxin Pills, I'm afraid I'll just go there in a hurry."

"Grandpa, you have to relax." An Rui quickly persuaded.

"How can I be relieved? Think about it, there are many young people who commit suicide because of breaking up. Some are lucky enough to be rescued, and some just leave their parents and relatives behind. It's a sad relationship. However, Xiaoyu also chose the most insecure love partner. Whether it is a boy or a high school student, no one is sure. In case their relationship falls apart in the future, Xiaoyu is too sad to get out, What if I'm sick again? This is Xiaoyu's first love."

"So you are worried about this." An Rui's thinking direction is completely opposite to that of her grandfather. She thinks that opposing An Jiyu's relationship may have a negative psychological impact on him, while her grandfather thinks about the future, not just the parents in front of him. Agree or not.

"Xiao Rui, there is marriage between a man and a woman, and there will be children. A happy family can maintain the long-term stability of a couple. Two men... are called comrades. What is there between comrades? Love? Love is this This kind of thing is too illusory, can you grab it with your hands? It’s a paper wall, you can’t rely on it!” Master An said seriously, “Today, the two of them can love to death, regardless of the world. What about tomorrow? No children , no marriage, no family, it means there is nothing that can guarantee their long-term togetherness, they can't last long at all. Xiaoyu is a very simple child, how much he pays for love today, he will succeed for this love tomorrow Doubly painful...he can't get out."

An Rui understands that, Grandpa wants An Jiyu to talk about a stable relationship that can enter the marriage hall, get married and have children.

Grandpa was right, my cousin was very simple, the more he invested in this relationship, the more he would be hurt in the end.

An Rui suddenly felt that she was happy to see her cousin's relationship from the very beginning, was she too optimistic?After all, she didn't know much about Zhao Bin, just because An Jiyu liked him very much, she thought that Zhao Bin must be good.

An Rui came to persuade her grandpa, but when she was reminded by her grandpa, her position wavered. Although she would not immediately persuade An Jiyu and Zhao Bin to break up, she also had the hope that An Jiyu would think about it again and not be impulsive. .

"Xiao Rui, it's getting late, you can stay here tonight." Master An also saw that An Rui wanted to talk to An Jiyu, and she felt very distressed for this cousin.

"Okay, Grandpa, you should go to bed early too... Then I'll go down first." After An Rui finished speaking, she left full of thoughts.

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