Frost and wind sometimes exhausted - black hole fan

"Can you tell me what happened?"

Lin Jiyue raised her tired eyes to look at him, the bloodshot eyes cast a dark shadow on her eyeballs.It seemed that a serious illness just experienced had taken away the elegant temperament from her whole body, leaving only a skinny body.

She remained silent, took out a bottle of red wine from the cabinet next to her, and poured herself half a glass. The dark liquid seemed to flow down her throat and into her soul.

"Go back." She seemed to sigh.

Nie Mingyu felt that she was drawing a gap to separate the two of them in different worlds.For the first time, he felt that he didn't know her at all.

"Tell me." He heard his own voice soften and low.

"It has nothing to do with you." Her tone was very much like his.

"Yes," he said firmly, "you don't have to trust anyone—except me."

"Why?" She seemed to be too tired to speak, her originally straight spine was bent into a bundle of sorghum, her head was drooping heavily, and her messy hair formed a posture of piles of vines.

Nie Mingyu picked up the white book that was placed on the coffee table just now, and took out the letter paper sandwiched between the title page and the cover.In her hazy vision, his figure came with a double shadow, and put the old yellow paper in front of her eyes.

Those familiar words danced and flickered like elves in her eyes, evoking her distant memory. Gradually, the scene in front of her became clear, like waking up from a dream.

"You..." She was speechless.

There is something lingering in the air that no words can express.Lin Jiyue understood what his actions meant, and the page of letter just lay between the two of them, and a layer of mist filled her eyes.

She recalled how she was leaning on the old cabinet, thinking about what to write, and sharpening the pencil to a regular point in a daze.

From dawn to dusk, and then to the end of the long-lost month, I rushed to the red star bicycle with a string of ringing bells, solemnly handed over the letter to the uniformed messenger, and then drove away one by one.

"Tell me." Nie Mingyu's voice sounded again.

She closed her eyes, and two clear tears flowed down her cheeks.

1980 spring.

This spring has come very pale, and there is not much atmosphere of removing the old and welcoming the new.Lin Jiyue was walking in the alley, the cold wind beat her face, and there was a broken red strip hanging from the branch of an old tree.

When she walked to the door of the house, there was clearly a group of people laughing in the room, noisy, with adult men's voices in the middle, she roughly guessed something, and walked in with some reluctance.

"Yueyue is back."

In the room, there are the grey-haired but energetic Granny Lu, a dark-skinned man with ordinary looks, and her mother who is sitting upright.

Mother is dressed very well today, with neat clothes and a hairpin she bought at an unknown time. She sits stiffly, with a shy expression on her face.

Lin Jiyue ignored them and walked straight into the room. She heard the adults talking about her behind her back, and Granny Lu said, "This child is just shy, don't take it for granted."

In a few days, her mother got married for the second time. She married the dark-skinned man and had a simple wedding ceremony in a red dress.

For half a month, Lin Jiyue stepped on a few strings of firecrackers and blasted cannon coats all over the ground. No one swept them. They were gradually swept to the side of the road by the wind, faded their color, and disappeared after a heavy rain.

The marriage between the man and his mother was set up by Granny Lu in the east of the city. It is said that although the family business is not prosperous, the person is down-to-earth and willing to work.

What's more, my mother is a second-marriage, with an oil bottle, and being able to marry a healthy, single man in his prime is a big deal--Grandma Lu said.

My mother has been tired and scared all these years, and the lonely woman longs for a shelter.Lin Jiyue didn't hate her stepfather, but she didn't like her either.No man can compare to his father.

My father is elegant, considerate, and romantic. Even when he first learned that he was going to the countryside, he smiled and said to the sobbing Lin Jiyue: "Let me teach you a few ancient poems about parting, old rules, don't tell others. "

Don't turn your intestines like a wheel, every moment is tens of thousands of weeks.

Seeing the two-wheeled gallop, the worry in the heart increases.

In ancient times, there were mountains and rivers, and in ancient times, there were also cars and boats.

The car and the boat carry the farewell, and the movement and stop are still free.

Today, the boat and the car, and force the sorrow of separation.

Knowing the situation in a moment, don't be a little bit prepared.

That man was very kind to his mother and Lin Jiyue at first, he could be called considerate, and when he went out, he often brought gifts that his mother didn't expect.Occasionally, he brought the gadgets to Lin Jiyue to tease, and what responded to him was a cold face.

What does that man do?Granny Lu said that he was earning decent money outside, and told his mother not to worry, they would never be able to starve their mother and daughter.He himself vaguely said that he was working as a helper outside, but he didn't mention what it was.

Lin Jiyue's dislike for him originated from the early summer of that year.He and his mother slept in the big room, and made the bed creak all night long. She slept in the small room next to her, and when she couldn't sleep, she counted the stars outside the window.

When will the Milky Way in the silent night pave a bridge and send her to her father's world?

The man gradually let go of his warm pretense, and began to enjoy his mother's service calmly. His violent temper first appeared when his mother didn't cook his favorite meals—snarled like a wild animal.

The man came back later and later, claiming that he took over the job and was very tired every day, so that his mother could go to bed first and didn't have to cook supper for him.Mother still insisted on waiting for him to come back for a few nights, and then went to bed early.

For a vague time afterwards, Lin Jiyue vaguely heard the noise he made when he came back, as if he was looking for food.After she was woken up, it was difficult to fall asleep. She lay on the bed and waited for almost half an hour, but the movement still hadn't disappeared.

Then the door of her room rang, and Lin Jiyue woke up suddenly, completely out of sleep.

Someone came to her bed silently, reached out to her quilt, and groped around through the fabric and thin cotton.Lin Jiyue didn't dare to speak out, it was the first time in her life that she felt the meaning of "humiliation".

In this house, a devil is expanding. It walks into her room every night, using its ugly claws to invade the girl's body, becoming more and more daring and presumptuous.

On a summer night when cicadas were singing and restless, the devil roughly tore off the old lock she had put on the doorknob, and committed crimes amidst her howling.

The next day, she numbly walked out of the room.The men at the table ate and gorged as usual, and the mother didn't even look at her.

As if nothing happened.

She stared at her mother silently tidying up the house, examining her like a god. This woman was so cowardly that she didn't even have the courage to look at her.

At that moment, she pronounced the woman a sinner.

She is greedy for a little comfort, and would rather endure the life of violence and pigs and dogs.She is a second-married woman, a widow with an oil bottle, and her new marriage is her only reliance, so she can sacrifice anything——I don’t know when, this woman who used to be her father’s wife has degenerated into this.

The man's true face was finally revealed. His relatives forced him to quit gambling for half a year, and found him a wife so that he could live a good life.He didn't want to marry a second-hand guy, he felt bad luck, but fortunately, that woman was obedient and willing to do anything.

It didn't take long for him to live a stable life. He felt tired and went to the casino again, and he didn't come back until he was exhausted from gambling every night.Tired of the old woman's loose skin, he came to the room of the oil bottle on a whim, and then became addicted.

He still drinks and plays cards, how can he not drink.If they were drunk, they would whip people with a belt; if they were not so drunk, they would untie their waistbands.

When he was bragging with his gamblers on the street, he talked about his second-hand second-hand daughter, who was very seductive with her tender appearance, and he fell in love with the goblin.The hooligans who chatted with him all praised him for being lucky, and mother and daughter eat everything.

A certain girl who has always been jealous of Lin Jiyue heard the rumors from nowhere and spread the news in the school.One day, a boy blocked Lin Jiyue in the corridor and asked her how many times she was slept on.

The story of Lin Jiyue hurting her classmate was reported to the teacher. The teacher felt that such an unclean and troublesome student had damaged the face of the Holy School, and used this as an excuse to expel her.Because she didn't want to see her rogue stepfather, she asked her to take a notice back.

On the evening of the day when she was expelled, Lin Jiyue was walking on the empty playground, and the sound of reading aloud came from the teaching building.

Under the brilliant sunset, all life in the world is growing happily. Her misfortune is a foreign object that disturbs the harmonious melody.

?Lin Jiyue crumpled up the withdrawal notice and threw it into the ditch, watching it become black and stink.She didn't shed a single tear, she just made a decision in her heart.

? Like countless people who really made up their minds, she was calm and calm.

She used the money she had hoarded for a long time to go to the pharmacy and asked for a bottle of rat poison. The shop owner asked her if she also hated rats. Recently, her relatives ate half a piece of watermelon that was eaten by rats, and she died in hell. Things are the most abominable, not to mention spoiling things, and spreading diseases.

Lin Jiyue smiled and said, yes, it gnawed on her homework, and the teacher didn't believe it no matter how she explained it, so please ask the shop owner to give her the latest rat poison, it must work.

The store owner readily gave her a bottle of new medicine, and wished her homework would not be ruined again.