Declare war on depression, against day and night

"Shen Rang, are you a human or a monster?" Bie Ming asked.

This is a very level question, and it was so heavy that my mind suddenly went blank.He felt the temperature around his body gradually rise, fine sweat emerged from his forehead, and his blank brain was swept by a raging fire, turning into a pile of scorched and collapsed ruins of houses.

Am I a human, or a monster?

Shen Rang was expressionless, still looking up at the sky, and replied lightly: "You don't need to ask me, I want to ask myself, now I am a person, a monster, or neither a person nor a monster. monster?"

"What... what do you mean..."

"It means literally."

Bie Ming lowered his head, and secretly scolded himself for being stupid and stupid in his heart.But the words have already been asked, and no apology will help.Don't be at a loss for a while.

Shen Rang withdrew his gaze, stretched his legs lazily, crossed up again and looked at Bie Ming: "It's not you who is neither human nor demon, why don't you speak?"

"I..."

Shen Rang said: "I used to be the same as you. I was born and raised by my mother. I know that magic is just a way to deceive the eyes, and spiritual power spells are only seen in movies and TV dramas. Then I died, and I died very thoroughly. My whole body was burnt and fragrant. It should be It's him, I'm alive again, floating in mid-air, watching my body being sent to the fire again, and incinerated. It was me who was incinerated, and I am sure that I am talking to you now. Me, I'm sure too."

There may be wise people who can foresee their own death, but those who saw their own death or their cremation process with their own eyes, don't think about it, Shen Rang should be the only one who knows.

He is often alone.

To do such a thing alone, to be in such a daze alone, to stay alone in a small, dark, closed room, wrapped in a thick quilt, thinking about what is the easiest way to die and what kind of pain can be avoided .

Looking back on that time now, Bie Ming already finds it unbelievable and hard to agree with his stupid thoughts.

Not to mention Shen Rang who can often recall his own situation after death.

The atmosphere between the two was really weird, the longer the silence, Bie Ming felt like he was sitting on pins and needles.Bie Ming, who has never been able to observe and adjust the atmosphere, took the initiative and silently assumed this responsibility. After thinking for a while, Bie Ming suddenly had a flash of inspiration: "By the way, what kind of gemstone are you looking for?"

Shen Rang glanced at Bie Ming: "You don't need to know."

Bie Ming: "..."

This person, once the topic is out of the scope of what he wants to say, not only the number of words that come out of his mouth decreases, but even the tone of his speech becomes cold and cold.

"People need to cooperate. If you want to find from me what you've been looking for, you have to tell me what you're looking for. You can't just tell me you're looking for gems, I There are no gemstones, and there is no jewelry gold, you need to tell me what kind of gemstone it is, what its characteristics are, and what its purpose is. In this way, maybe I can think of some clues.”

While talking, Bie Ming lowered his head deeply, without any confidence between the lines, as if there was an inscription screen on the tip of his toes.

These are not words that can come out of his mouth, what people need to cooperate with each other, people need to communicate with each other, these are not words that he can say.These words are what the people around him who care about and support him said to him. Lin Lu told him, Jiang Erge told him, Natsume told him, Mao Shishi told him, you have many thoughts in your heart, even if it is just one Just a little bit, tell me, so that I can understand you better and get along with you better.

Shen Rang was so well-behaved that he seemed dull, he just listened to what Bie Ming had said, and didn't refute him, and didn't let Bie Ming persuade him further, so he said everything in detail: "The nine gems I'm looking for , is the condensed crystallization of the divine power of the creation god. The mountain god and the gold god are missing, and the relationship between the nine factors that balance nature is destroyed, so it must be found."

Should I believe Shen Rang's story?

From the birth of the earth to the emergence of life to the present, there are no mentions in the books and the Internet that there are so many gods balancing various factors, and there are no news reports that some gods have disappeared, and some gods have evaporated from the world.It seems hard enough for everyone to live their own life, and no one wants to care about God's life.

If you don't believe in Shen Rang, it is tantamount to denying all his hard work from the beginning of his search journey to the present, and at the same time denying the existence of Shen Rang in this time and space, and the "he" in Shen Rang's mind The presence.

After all, they came here to find gems, didn't they?

It is the Nine Square Gems that link them together.

Bie Ming gradually convinced himself to believe in Shen Rang's efforts, in the existence of the Nine Square Gems, in the disappearance of the two gods, and in the balance of natural factors.After thinking for a long time, Bie Ming finally asked: "If you can't find everything, what will happen?"

Shen Rang shook his head: "I don't know, no one has seen such a scene, and those who have seen it may have been dead for thousands of years. If he can't find the nine gems, he will be angry, maybe... maybe we will all die."

"Ok?"

Bie Ming was in a trance for a moment, whether the failure to find the nine gemstones would lead to the destruction of the world, or if "he" was angry would cause the world to perish...

Shen Rang curled up his fingers and stared at his nails. They hadn't been repaired for a long time, and some of them were long. There were a little mud stains between the ten fingers, and there were a few white scratches on the nails of the index finger, middle finger and ring finger. Said: "What is the color of the gem of the mountain god? It may be the same color as the earth, or the same color as the forest."

"Mountain God, who knows. Maybe it's red, something no one has seen before, and no one can imagine it." Bie Ming felt that there was no point in chatting any longer. Sitting is even more awkward, "Anyway, I'll help you find that gem. After all, if you can't find it, you won't go."

After Bie Ming finished speaking, he put his hands on the ground, stood up and walked towards the living room.

He really felt that he was not suitable for the task of stirring up the topic and adjusting the atmosphere, not only because his ability was not up to the mark, but also because he was the one who should be driven. He really couldn't bear this awkward atmosphere.

I finally understand those classmates who come to me once or twice, and then don't want to talk to me anymore.Don't think angrily.

No one is a born chatterer, and no one likes to chatter in awkward situations.It’s like the reason after giving to someone is to get the same response from the other party. What the speaker wants is not the quiet and awkward atmosphere, but the one who can respond to his words, or even chat happily together. people.

If someone is willing to talk to you with a smile and tell stories when there is nothing to say, except for the salesperson, it must be because he likes you very much.

Shen Rang also stood up, using the nails of one hand to pick off the plaster remaining in the nails of the other hand, followed closely behind Bie Ming with a distance of two or three steps, but his eyes were not always It stopped on Bie Ming.

Don't sigh: "The conversation between us is over, why are you still following me?"

Shen Rang said: "Before I came, he asked me to follow you every step of the way, saying that the gemstone was on you."

"The gem really doesn't belong to me."

"On yourself."

Bie Ming felt that he really didn't have the talent to communicate with Shen Rang, so he just waved his hand and said it's up to you, as long as you are happy.Shen Rang didn't seem to understand the slight disgust and reluctance in Bie Ming's words at all. He lowered his head and picked the mud under his nails, and said "oh" absently.

It's sunny outside.

When I was on the balcony just now, the bright sunlight shone on my face and body, making it very warm.

Why don't you go out for a walk?Bie Ming stood where he was, and whispered to himself in his heart.

Don't understand, Shen Rang naturally didn't move, the two of them were stuck in the living room like crazy, like scarecrows in the field.

If you stay in the room all the time, no matter where you are, Shen Rang will follow behind you.This put a lot of pressure on Bie Ming, leaving only his very spacious big house suddenly narrowed, as if he couldn't get away from him.

On the night before Mao Shishi left, he told him over and over again that when the sun was good, he would call Natsume Ruzhou to go out for a walk, run, and exercise.Let the sun outside shine more, and let my feet that don't walk very much kiss Grandpa Earth more.

When he went to Dr. Lin Lu alone to receive psychological counseling and treatment, Dr. Lin Lu gave him Hakoniwa treatment again. What kind of world he created at that time is forgotten now.It's just that Dr. Lin Lu suggested that if his body allows, he should go for a walk in the park and do some outdoor activities when the sun is shining.

Lin Lu said: "The sun from 10 am to [-] am is the most suitable for outdoor activities. If you don't want to go out, you can also try to shine indoors in a place with bright light for [-] minutes or an hour. This is the most simple, convenient and feasible sunshine. Therapy. It is best to cooperate with exercise therapy, take a walk or walk backwards in a place with fresh air and sufficient sunlight. This can stimulate and massage the soles of the feet, and make the left and right hemispheres of the brain alternately excited and inhibited."

Sometimes Bie Ming couldn't understand what Dr. Lin Lu said, and felt like he had eaten teething gum that he couldn't digest anyway.

He didn't follow up with the questions. In short, whether he could understand or not, it was all for his own good. It was all for exercise to strengthen his spiritual will, weaken and suppress the depression factor flowing in his blood.As long as Bie Ming knows, these things are good for treating his depression.

Bie Ming took off the coat hanging on the wall hook, turned around and asked Shen Rang: "I want to go outside to bask in the sun, will you go?"

Without raising his head, Shen Rang said, "I'll go wherever you go, don't ask me what I mean."

"Alright, alright."

Han Chaomu returned home after celebrating the New Year here, but he hasn't come back yet, maybe he has gone to find another house or dormitory outside.Not long after Mao Shishi and Qi Ge left, Xia Mu Lizhou also went back because of some unexplainable situation with Fengshen.The bustling big house suddenly changed back to the time when he was the only one at first.Shen Rang came at this time, but the house became extremely narrow.

Now is not the most comfortable and most suitable time of the day for the sun. The weather near the evening is cool, the sun is not very sunny, and it is a bit dark.

Even though he is alone now, don't think about it, he is no longer the original Bie Ming who can only hide in the castle's many checkpoints.In the face of sudden changes in his life, he is no longer startled like a rabbit, he can already calm down as much as possible to deal with many things.

"Shen Rang, you came to me alone, you don't know anyone, you don't know anything, do you have someone on your mind right now?" Although Bie Ming didn't like to talk to Shen Rang very much, at the moment, he still held back. I couldn't help asking.

Shen Rang followed Bie Ming quietly, and did not answer Bie Ming's question. Bie Ming thought that Shen Rang had lost him, so he quickly turned around: "Shen Rang?"

"I guess, the gem of the mountain god should be hidden in your eyes?"