Declare war on depression, against day and night

The picture disappears in a blink of an eye, the once luxurious mansion has become ruins all over the ground, the joy that used to be heard everywhere is now separated after the end of the song, after so many years of wasting and depression, no one knows anyone, and no one has ever seen anyone again.

But his eyes kept following Mao Shiyi.

See him ups and downs in the sea of ​​life, see him being trampled and submerged in the sea of ​​people, see his handsome and extraordinary face being forced to become old and desolate under the knife of time.See him step by step, step by step away from me, see him step by step, step by step away from me...

Don't wake up, wake up peacefully.

Even though there was a lot of reluctance in my heart, I still woke up calmly as if I had accepted this humiliation.Like a death row prisoner who already knew his fate, woke up in the prison, and saw the prison meal that he couldn't swallow but would not change.

He saw the woman again, holding the oil-paper umbrella as clear as water, standing in front of the window, bending down to look at him.

She was crying and pouring out her love and hatred: "In my previous life, I was a pure lotus in front of the Buddha. Because I couldn't bear the loneliness of Yuntai, I was greedy for a little bit of mortal fireworks. That's why I have this scene in this life." Traveling in the world of mortals."

Bie Ming closed his eyes, the sunshine made him lose the sense of security brought by the darkness, even with his eyes closed, he could still feel the brilliance of the sunshine alone.

It's been one night.

What is Mao Shishi doing now?Watching Feng Shui in other people's houses, or holding other people's children to escape from the claws of monsters?Or become old and desolate, step by step, step by step away from yourself?

Bie Ming asked: "He left you, what do you do?"

The woman stood up straight, and her face was covered by the oil-paper umbrella, leaving only her delicate lips and chin: "Someone is watching at the intersection, just to wait, a figure that can accompany you, and comfort the lonely soul."

"But that was your best age..."

"But for one person, for a true love, even if you waste your life, you are willing."

"He doesn't want to take you away." When Bie Ming asked her, he was also asking himself.

After a dream last night, he seemed to have merged with the soul of the woman in front of him.He didn't go through those unforgettable events, but he could understand her lovesickness accumulated over the years.In the end, she was just a singing girl, and when a disaster was imminent, no one was willing to take her away. Only he regarded her as a confidante, but he couldn't take her away either.

She put away the oil-paper umbrella and held it in the palm of her hand, pear blossoms brought rain: "And this beauty, is she really afraid of getting hurt, and would rather freeze her feelings than wander around the world with her lover?"

It was a question, and she didn't give an answer.

But the answer was already clear in the hearts of the two of them.

Most of the "people" who came to find me asked me to help them find them.The shadow is for Yinmao, and the official document is for Duan Fangjian... Don't think about it, but still ask: "Do you want me to help you find him?"

"The dream at that time was so beautiful, even melancholy and regret were romantic." She shook her head, "Afterwards, a pair of lovers who once vowed to each other went to their respective fates with grief, and were confused by the fleeting years. Whereabouts are unknown." After a pause, he continued: "Life is short, but life is long. Decades have passed by, but countless winds and frosts have condensed...I don't remember much about the past, but I dare not Easily forgotten."

"You don't want to find him and ask him why he refuses to take you with him?"

"Everyone's life is a mystery, and I would rather they leave with the answer, than expose their life to the world, so that the world can see clearly. It is compassion not to expose other people's secrets , leaving endless imagination, is tolerance.”

The woman disappeared again.

Bie Ming still didn't understand what was the meaning of her coming to find him.Until now, I still don't know her name, her origin, and everything about her sweetheart.She seemed to come here just to say these words, not for anyone but for herself.

Today is also a day when Mao Shishi is not around.

Bie Ming sighed for a long time, then went to wash up, and left the empty and depressing room.Natsume Rushou sat reading on the balcony next to the living room, and on the small table beside him was a pot of scented tea, which was the salted cherry blossoms he had given to himself.

After simply eating breakfast, Bie Ming sat on the sofa in the living room in a daze for a while, then turned on the TV, and turned the volume up to one notch in order not to disturb Natsume Kusune who was studying.I didn't have anything in particular I wanted to watch, so I found a variety show that left the city, returned to nature, and chatted and cooked with friends.

It's all Mao Shishi's fault.

He forcibly dragged himself out of the small dark room on the second floor, forced himself to have breakfast, lunch, and dinner with him, forced himself to go to bed early and get up early, forced himself to accept sunlight and moonlight...

He has no way to return to his original way of life.

Don't you all say, "Whoever pollutes, he governs; whoever develops, who protects"?Why did Mao Shiyi leave himself after dragging himself away from his previous life?Does he want to shirk his responsibilities?Does he only enjoy the right to dominate everything, and doesn't care about the troubles caused to people since then?

"Someone is watching at the intersection to wait. A figure that can accompany you can comfort the lonely soul."

I keep watch at the intersection, also to wait.Waiting because of loneliness, waiting for the figure that can be accompanied, and following that figure after waiting.Instead of being lonely because of waiting, not waiting to comfort loneliness, waiting for that shadow, waiting for him to come to me in the end.

Otherwise, my waiting will be meaningless.

The waiting process is bloated and boring.But I'm waiting.

Bie Ming started to feel sleepy watching the show, but he didn't want to go back to his room, just like he was paranoid when he didn't want to leave his room.Maybe Mao Shiyi had finished his work and was on his way home, so he would open the door for him.He wanted to be the first person Mao Shiyi saw when he got home.

When he woke up again, Bie Ming was lying on his own bed.Opening his eyes, he found that the room he and Mao Shiyi had turned into a pond full of lotus flowers.He could hear the gurgling water and see the carp under the lotus leaves.

The woman was sitting by the bed, her delicate cloth shoes were on the bed, her trousers were rolled up, her feet were soaking in the pond water, she was smiling happily, still holding the oiled paper umbrella in her hand.

Bie Ming asked, "Don't you want to go find him?"

She replied: "The remnant lotus does not need us to use any means to mourn its glorious years, because only the lake water can give it the eternity it wants."

"I want to find him."

"A person has only one life to live. Once you come to the world, you should taste love, hate, and resentment, so as to live up to this one life." Her eyes looked at a pool of clear water in the room, the oil-paper umbrella was put away, and I don't know when there was more fish food, she swayed, she laughed, innocent and innocent like a girl who just came out of the boudoir, "This is the Jiangnan where leisure is grown, it seems that just a little rain can seduce people's thoughts; It can make people cry; a note is enough to grow lovesickness."

Bie Ming shook his head, he began to dislike this woman.

Because of that dream, Bie Ming felt that she was himself, that he was her, so he unswervingly followed her footsteps on the road of lovesickness.But now he is getting impatient with her, why, why didn't he follow him closely then?Is he unwilling?Even if he doesn't want to, what's wrong with him?

If I were you at that time, no matter whether he was willing to take me to live a life of poverty, I would follow him regardless.Where does he go, where do I go.It doesn't matter if he doesn't want to see me, I want to see myself.

I can win the person I like, and I want to follow him.

Although I am quite timid, when something happens, all I can think of is to ask Mao Shishi for help.But there is no way, this is Mao Shiyi who forcibly squeezed into his own world from the outside. It is even more difficult to let him break away from the world he has identified.

Aren't people created equal?People who are both physically and mentally healthy can choose their own posture to pursue love, so a person like him who is still trapped in a cell with mental illness such as "depression" can't say what kind of feelings he has for a person, but can only express his love. Is it due to the emotional ups and downs caused by abnormal mental activities?

"If possible, I don't want to wait, I still want to be by Mao Shiyi's side."

"Maybe I'm a little overwhelmed, but I'm still full of fear of the outside world. When I think of what kind of monsters there will be on the street, I tremble all over. I can wait in the room, it's safe here , but also very scary. In my opinion, I would rather face monsters and goblins than bear this helpless and unrequited love."

It was Mao Shiyi who made him what he is now.

He didn't have the so-called possessive desire. For him, apart from a small room and enough darkness, there was nothing in the world that could attract his attention.Now it seems that everything can attract him.Whether it was the monster he was afraid of, or the brilliance outside the window, with the company of Mao Shiyi, everything aroused his inner curiosity.A little scared, I want to try everything.

When a person lacks emotion, there will always be a person or an item to fill his heart.

Bie Ming was talking, the woman seemed to be immersed in the fun of feeding the fish, for a long time she didn't talk to Bie Ming, nor did she reply to his words.Bie Ming pretended that he was talking to himself in the air, and asked a casual question without any hope of replying.

Unexpectedly, she turned around and smiled at him, saying: "When the golden wind and the jade dew meet, they will win the countless people in the world."

Yeah?As long as we meet once in the vast crowd, is it enough for a person to wander in the world for several years with this thought?Bie Ming couldn't agree with such a sacrifice, but he couldn't help admiring the woman in front of him.

He chewed what she said, and suddenly tasted something familiar from it.

Except for Qin Guan's poem, he seems to have read the other sentences in some book.

Bie Ming took the mobile phone on the bedside table, searched on Baidu for what she said, and found that they all came from the same book without exception.Also, she never said a sentence that didn't belong in the book.

Is this woman an illusion of the book, or the author who created her likes the sentences in the book, or she can only express her thoughts through the sentences in the book... Such conjectures are no longer available. confirmed.Because after meeting this time, Bie Ming never saw this light green woman again.In the end, she didn't leave her name.

Maybe what a person's name is is not important to her at all?

The important thing is that this person has existed, the important thing is that this person has cultivated his own heart garden, and the important thing is that this person has trampled on his lovesickness.

"In my previous life, I was a pure lotus in front of the Buddha. Because I couldn't bear the loneliness of Yuntai, I was greedy for a little bit of mortal fireworks. That's why I have this worldly journey in this life."

The author has something to say: what the girls say in it is all excerpted from Bai Luomei's book "A Cut of Time in the Song Dynasty".There can be many explanations for her origin, and it depends on everyone's understanding.What I want to say is, if I infringe my copyright or what, please criticize me tactfully!I will change it.

Happy new year.