Declare war on depression, against day and night

"In my previous life, I was a pure lotus in front of the Buddha. Because I couldn't bear the loneliness of Yuntai, I was greedy for a little bit of mortal fireworks. That's why I have this worldly journey in this life."

This is a light green girl, her white and slender hands are tightly holding the handle of the umbrella. The color of this oil-paper umbrella is like a clear lake, as blue as green.She was wearing a light onion-colored outer shirt with a darker blue-green color on the inside. She must be a woman who walked out of a distant ancient painting.With a little melancholy in his eyes, he looked moistly at the window with his clothes and curtains drawn.

She lowered her head deeply, lowered the oil-paper umbrella, completely covered her face, and walked towards the house with small steps, with a voice like a silver bell floating in the air: "If you want, come with me, Let's quietly finish reading Qingning's letter together."

The traffic on the highway came and went, setting off bursts of dust all over the sky.The girl didn't know how to look left and right, and went straight forward, taking small steps unhurriedly.

A red Santana came galloping, as if it didn't see this watery girl, and rushed straight away.However, the girl was like a phantom, a car passed through her body, and she was still safe and sound.

"Eleven, Gong Wenzheng and Duan Fangjian...are they still there?" Bie Ming looked at Mao Shishi's earring hanging on the cat tail hook, which shone silver in the sunlight outside.

Mao Shishi sat cross-legged on the ground, his eyes fell on the large empty cardboard boxes in the corner, and he smacked his lips aggrievedly. He hadn't drank "milk" all morning.Mao Shiyi tilted his head and sighed: "They left last night. While you and I were sleeping."

Don't make a sore nose, and the hand hanging by the side clenched into a fist: "Gong Wenzheng said that they will have breakfast before leaving, liar. Big liar!"

There are several things in a person's life that must be learned anyway, one of which is to learn to say goodbye and learn to accept it.

Parting can be cruel.

When one person gradually occupies a unique position in another person's heart, while they are enjoying the joy of their relationship, they will faintly worry about the day of parting.

On the day when we have to leave, the person who is going to leave must think in his heart that he must leave when the other party is not aware of it, so that the two parties do not have to face each other and cry reluctantly.But what the sender thought in his heart was that he must send that person off personally, and watch him go on the road of parting.

Who is right?

All for the sake of each other.

"Eleven, guess where they are now?"

"do not know."

"Guess what."

"Why don't you guess?"

"Then I guess, they must have just watched the sunrise, finished breakfast, and chatted while walking on the pedestrian street. They might say, let's find a good place to watch the sunset tonight." Bie Ming's pupil color was covered by the sun The light was very shallow, and the bangs were a little long. Poking the corners of his eyes, he walked up to the absent-minded Mao Shiyi and squatted down, with his palms on the back of his hands, "Eleven, what do you think?"

Mao Shishi just kept sighing, his eyes never moved away from the stacked boxes: "You say yes."

Bie Ming smiled, the smile was a little sour.

Did Mao Shiyi get angry because he was too noisy, or did he get upset by sticking to him all day long?

Sometimes it is easy to establish a friendly relationship with people, but the troublesome and troublesome thing should be how to maintain this relationship when two people become more and more familiar with each other.

For Bie Ming now, Mao Shiyi is simply the only god in the world, a god who will take care of him even if he loses his life, and a god who will let him guard by his side no matter what.He can't lose him, Mao Shiyi is his life.

Is it because of what, did he feel sad because of his reluctance for Gong Wenzheng and Duan Fangjian?Or did he feel disappointed by being too clingy to illusory emotions?

If you don't know the reason, how should you correct it?

But how should I ask, so as not to make Mao Shishi angry?

Don Ming's heart felt like a knife was twisted, but he still had to smile at Mao Shishi.He stood up, walked out of the room slowly, stared sadly at the back of Mao Shiyi sitting cross-legged on the ground for a long time, and then gently closed the door.

"Don't cry?"

Quickly and calmly wiped away the tears falling from the corner of his eyes, Bie Ming blinked and said with a smile: "Er Ge, do you want to go out?"

Jiang Erge nodded, and involuntarily moved closer to Bie Ming, looking deeply into his eyes: "Are you crying? Why?" Jiang Erge raised his hand to caress Bie Ming's face, but Bie Ming hid for a while , Jiang Erge had to put down his hand in embarrassment: "Did he bully you?"

"certainly not."

Bie Ming maintained Mao Shishi so well, even though his heart was bitter, Jiang Erge couldn't say anything.When the matter developed to this point, I had no one to blame, but myself for being too selfish, and forcibly pushing my lover's hands into the arms of others.

It's even harder to come back.

The atmosphere between the two was cold and embarrassing, Jiang Erge knew that what he did would be in vain.He smiled relievedly, and changed the subject: "I'm just going to go out for a walk, buy some New Year's goods early, and dress up the house, so that those of us who can't go home can have a good New Year together."

Bie Ming glanced at Mao Shiyi's room, as if he could look at Mao Shiyi sitting cross-legged inside through the wall: "I want to go too."

Jiang Erge patted him on the shoulder: "Go and wear something thicker."

"You wait for me."

"Of course I'll be waiting for you." Bie Ming's change was so obvious that Jiang Erge couldn't accept it, neither sad nor happy, "My dear... Bie Ming, you are much more cheerful than before, really Yes, I also laugh often. It’s good to laugh more, how good it is.”

Bie Ming held the doorknob, listened to Jiang Erge's logically confused nonsense, smiled shyly at him again, and then walked into the room and closed the door.

It was Mao Shiyi who made him what he is now.

very nice.

I will only make him become more and more reclusive, more and more melancholy.

Bie Ming put on his down jacket and scarf and came out, closed the door and bent down to pull the zipper in front of Jiang Erge, saying, "I don't know what to buy yet, do I need couplets?"

"You'll know if you go shopping," Jiang Erge looked at the spinner on top of Bie Ming's head, "Don't rush to buy, what should be yours will come to you sooner or later, if it's not yours, you can't force it, just treat it as shopping. gone."

Jiang Erge opened the door for Bie Ming. It's been a long time... It's been a long time since he and Bie Ming walked side by side so calmly.Some things in my heart want to say that this shopping may be a good opportunity.

But just after going out for a few steps, Bie Ming saw a woman in Hanfu standing not far from her door.She was holding a blue oil-paper umbrella, and her light onion-colored clothes fluttered like a fairy, and Bie Ming vaguely heard her say: "...a pure lotus in front of the Buddha, because he couldn't bear the loneliness of the cloud platform, he was greedy for a little bit of the world. fireworks. So..."

Bie Ming looked at the thin woman, her appearance was hidden under the oiled paper umbrella, but he could feel that this person was looking at him.He couldn't help stretching out his hand, palm up, as if he was feeling the raindrops falling from the sky.

But today, the weather is sunny.

Jiang Erge asked: "What's wrong?"

"Er Ge, look over there." Bie Ming pointed to the direction where the woman was standing, "Is there anyone? It seems that someone is calling my name, but my eyesight is bad, so I can't see clearly."

"No, no one is there. Did you hear wrong?"

Bie Ming laughed and said: "That's why I heard wrong. Let's go. I want to eat something sweet." It seemed to be coquettish, and it seemed to be talking to myself.

That girl was clearly standing there, almost no one could see it except herself.But Mao Shiyi can do it, he is just like himself.If he came out with him, he would be the first to see and distinguish between a human and a demon, and then block himself behind to ensure his safety.

Mao Shiyi understands himself, and he also understands Mao Shiyi, so they are destined to meet each other.

He is more and more grateful for his uniqueness.

Because of Mao Shishi, Bie Ming gradually had a new understanding of the "monsters" he saw.They are not human beings, nor can they be called monsters, and everything that is made of them comes from the hands of the novelists who created them.

No matter what kind of personality or experience, they are not under their own control.They also have their own thoughts, and they have a lot to say to the person who created them.

In fact, most of the time, they also want to strive for a life by themselves, instead of completely relying on the pen in the author's hand.The real author is not just the arbiter of other people's fate, he should respect the beliefs of the characters in his pen.

"Don't Ming, if I had actively helped you recover like Mao Shishi at that time, instead of selfishly wanting to turn you into a weirdo who only wants to talk to me, then we should be the ones who let everyone in the class know the most. Envious couple, right?" Jiang Erge walked forward slowly, and suddenly said, "I don't mean anything else, just asking."

Bie Ming thought for a while, and said: "I don't know, there's no way to be so accurate about fate. Besides, didn't you say that what should be yours will come to you sooner or later, and what's not yours will not be forced." Come. If we do not part for this reason, we shall part for something else."

Jiang Erge smiled wryly: "Don't Ming, you really have changed a lot."

Bie Ming also gave a polite smile: "Maybe."

"Can you tell me why you chose Mao Shiyi?"

Bie Ming said: "There are various reasons."

"for example?"

"He is very kind to me, he is willing to understand me, he is willing to accept me when he knows what kind of person I am, and he is willing to change me. Although he will not find words when the two of them have nothing to say, but he will never let my words end."

Jiang Erge didn't understand, the attraction he thought should be more unforgettable than this: "It's...it's that simple?"

"Yes, it's that simple." Bie Ming looked back at the girl, but they had gone too far away to see, so he looked ahead and said, "But it's not just that simple. You can cry, you can laugh, I can do whatever I want, feel at ease and happy, and won't be as scared as when I was with you."

"I don't understand, don't ming, I should have given you everything he gave you, why are you afraid when you're by my side?"

On the street stalls, there are outdated clothes and leather shoes removed from the mall on one side, and some handmade models, gold and silver jewelry of unknown authenticity and so on.Bie Ming stood in front of the jewelry booth, picked up a round earring with his index finger, and said, "Didn't you propose to break up with me?"

The silverware gleamed, but some of them had collected a layer of dust because they had not been sold for a long time.

"Look at it, silver is the metal closest to people, it can reflect a person's physical condition. Buy a Dai Dai, beauty, handsome guy, listen to the voice, it's real silver."

Jiang Erge stood behind Bie Ming, but felt that he was far away from him: "I don't know if you will leave me, I am a little worried, I just want to test it out... If I am not by your side, will you leave me?" Think about me, will you need me, will you only want my help."

"Er Ge, do you like me, or me who suffers from depression?"

Jiang Erge: "I..."

Bie Ming put down the silver earrings in his hand and said, "Mao Shishi didn't approach me because I was suffering from depression, nor did he approach me because I was only attached to him. He hoped that I could be side by side with him." Standing together, not being his little pet."

"I'll understand later."

"I have recognized Mao Shiyi in my life. No matter how he treats me, I will recognize him. He taught me kindness, so I hope you can meet such a person."

"Have you said these words to Mao Shiyi?"

Bie Ming said: "I won't tell him. I will never tell him these words. If he knows, he knows it. If he doesn't know, I just know it."

On the street with people coming and going, Jiang Erge hugged Bie Ming tightly, almost everyone would look at them, and many people were willing to bless these two people in their hearts.They thought this hug was a confession of love, but in fact, it was their own way of saying goodbye to each other.

In my previous life, I was a clear lotus in front of the Buddha. Because I couldn't bear the loneliness of Yuntai, I was greedy for a little bit of ordinary fireworks.Therefore, there will be this journey of the world of mortals in this life...

The author has something to say: What the woman said, "My previous life..." and "If you are willing..." are the sentences in Bai Luomei's "A Cut of Time in the Song Dynasty".What she said was excerpted from this book because of the role's needs.

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