Green Bamboo Green - Blossoms on the Moshang

After going to work, Fang Qingqing still devoted herself to her work, but occasionally she would think of the meaning of her efforts, and then she immediately cut it off. She must persevere and work hard. She wants to be a reassuring person, and Have the ability to take control and take on something.

Having dinner with Wen Mo, Wen Mo asked her about her studies in Germany, and she also asked about the domestic rumors back then.When she came back, she could no longer notice anything unusual about the people around her, as if nothing had happened.

Wen Mo roughly told her about the situation at that time, and finally told her that now Cheng Jian's departure was interpreted at the group headquarters as an explanation for the delayed delivery of T30.

Fang Qingqing knew that this must be Cheng Jian's own intention, and she didn't want to really affect the cooperative relationship between the two parties, otherwise no one would let her take this responsibility based on that person's protection of Cheng Jian.

She didn't tell Wen Mo the complicated story, she just said that she would take over other projects when she returned to Germany.Wen Mo looked at her worriedly, but she just smiled and said that Cheng Jian would come back.

Work step by step, and then go home, eat, clean, and take care of the unknown, day by day, she actually feels a little muddleheaded.Sometimes I don't know what night it is, as if I am looking forward to a moon, but I can only wander alone under the moonlight.She began to write words again, sometimes writing about her mood, and sometimes writing short stories.

Occasionally, when she misses her very much, she will contact Cheng Jian. They have a seven-hour time difference, and they live completely different lives between black and white.Cheng Jian would comfort her and tell her to take good care of herself, but never mentioned when she would come back.

During Christmas and New Year, Fang Qingqing spent it alone. She didn't go to see Qiao Qiuyun, nor did she attend colleagues' gatherings. She just stayed quietly in Cheng Jian's house, with Unknown, as normal as usual. spend.

In January, Cheng Jian's birthday, she knew that Cheng Jian had taken away the jade seal in the drawer, and many of Cheng Jian's personal items were still here, including most of her clothes, her cosmetics, and her computer. I have been using it together, but the smell of Cheng Jian in the room has gradually disappeared.

She didn't know what kind of gift to prepare for Cheng Jian. Even if all the promises were engraved on jade, there would be a day of disappointment.Fang Qingqing went to the tattoo shop by mistake. She thought that if it was engraved on her body, it would never be lost.

When the tattoo master asked her what kind of pattern she wanted to tattoo, a movie she had watched with Cheng Jian came to her mind, she thought for a while, and said she wanted a word: Iwon'trememberanythingelse.

The master said that there are too many letters, so you have to hold back the pain.Fang Qingqing said, I am not afraid of pain.

In fact, it really didn't hurt much, and the master's movements were also very fast. When Fang Qingqing thought it would take a long time to end, she asked her if she wanted to see the effect.

Fang Qingqing looked in the mirror, at the position of the right shoulder blade, there were two lines of English letters in italics.She asked the master to take a photo with her mobile phone, and then she could see all the tattoos clearly. It was quite beautiful, but there was a slight swelling temporarily.

When she got home, she looked in the mirror again, and then she couldn't help but laugh.Is it too naive to do such a thing when I am almost 30 years old? Cheng Jian probably thinks so too.She didn't send the photo to Cheng Jian, but just sent a message of blessing.The more she cared, the more timid she became, and she gradually lost some courage.

During the Spring Festival holiday, Cheng Jian did not return to China.Fang Qingqing fostered Unknown Number in a pet shop and went back to her hometown alone for the New Year. Fang Ruzhen had a girlfriend, a cute girl next door.It is completely different from the strong or indifferent style of the women of the Fang family. They always smile softly and act like a baby when no one is around.Seeing Fang Ruzhen smiling happily, Fang Qingqing accepted this girl. Only those who are in love can make each other happy every moment like this.

After the new year, Fang Qingqing was 30 years old, and Fang's mother asked her cryptically if she was too busy at work, if she had made new friends, if Cheng Jian had gone abroad, would it be inconvenient for her to still live in someone's house, and so on.

Fang Qingqing wanted to tell them that she had a lover, and that person was Cheng Jian, but she was not sure whether she still had the right to say that Cheng Jian was her lover.

She just smiled and remained silent. Fang Yiyi blocked her twice, and asked her quietly in private what was going on between her and Cheng Jian.

Fang Qingqing said, I don't know.

In Fang Qingqing's fifth year of work, everything is done step by step. Meetings are held to discuss, analyze data, wait for decisions, implement them, and repeat the cycle.She seems to be able to see what her future will be like in the next few years. She works from nine to five every day. If it goes well, she will be promoted and raised little by little, and then stay at a certain position at a certain age, retire, grow old.

If it wasn't for something, if it wasn't for someone to accompany her, Fang Qingqing didn't know how long she could last in this kind of life.

She is unhappy and she knows it.It seems that Cheng Jian's departure took away all her cells that could be happy, and even the unknown could only give her a little warmth, and even the words she wrote lost her imagination.

Cheng Jian's contact with her gradually decreased. If she didn't take the initiative, Cheng Jian would hardly contact her.And her active strength is not available all the time.

In April, the two have been together for four years, and Cheng Jian has been away for half a year.Fang Qingqing sent a message to Cheng Jian. It was a photo of them in Australia. It was taken by the seaside in the sunset. Against the light, you can still see the smiles on their faces.

Cheng Jian's reply was still, take good care of yourself.

Fang Qingqing really wanted to say, I've done everything, but without you, I wouldn't be fine.But if she said that, Cheng Jian would think that she was a child making trouble unreasonably, so she just replied again: "Okay."

In May, Fang Qingqing's birthday, she received a text message from Cheng Jian.Then, there is no then.The two seemed to have nothing to say.

In August, Wen Mo, who had been transferred back to the Sino-German joint venture, called her to tell her that Cheng Jian had resigned from the German company a month ago.

Fang Qingqing was completely stunned. Cheng Jian resigned from the German company?Then why didn't she come back?where did she goWhy didn't you tell yourself?

Wen Mo also knew that there must be something wrong between the two of them, but he couldn't comfort her. Only they knew what to do about their relationship.

Fang Qingqing called Cheng Jian, but the call was answered after a while.

"Hello." A familiar voice came from the opposite side, as if a little tired.

"It's me." Fang Qingqing said subconsciously. They hadn't talked on the phone for a while, and occasionally contacted through WeChat.

"I know." There was a rustling voice on the other side, and then fell silent.

"Have you returned to China?" Fang Qingqing asked calmly, but she felt a little lucky about the answer in her heart.

"Yes." The opposite party paused for a moment, and answered her directly.

"Why didn't you return to Shencheng? Where are you now?" Fang Qingqing had too many questions to ask, but she could only force herself not to worry. Maybe she had some reason.

"I'm in Ningcheng."

"Why didn't you come back to me?"

"Qingqing, I need to rest for a while." Cheng Jian sounded really tired.

Fang Qingqing was almost desperate, she didn't come back to find herself when she returned to China, she was tired and needed to rest so she couldn't come back to find herself, if it wasn't for Wen Mo, wouldn't she even plan to tell her that she had returned to China?

Fang Qingqing felt her throat hurt, she took a deep breath, and then asked softly: "Cheng Jian, do I still have to wait for you to come back?"

After a while, I heard Cheng Jian's tired voice: "Qingqing, are you sure, are you waiting for me?"

Cheng Jian's voice was also very soft, but it seemed to make Fang Qingqing's ears ring.

She finally knew that she really hurt Cheng Jian.

"Cheng Jian, I'm sorry." Fang Qingqing choked up, she wanted to apologize for the harm she had caused Cheng Jian, although she had said sorry before Cheng Jian left, but at that time she was just because she shouldn't go to Shen Xiaoya, She thought Cheng Jian would believe that she still loved her.Now, she realized that because of her behavior, Cheng Jian could no longer believe in her love.

Cheng Jian heard the apology, but her heart turned cold. She thought that Fang Qingqing was apologizing for her problems, so she would not be waiting for herself.

If I'm not the one you're waiting for, then at least I won't be in your way.Cheng Jian pressed her heart and said softly, "Goodbye, Fang Qingqing."