Green Bamboo Green - Blossoms on the Moshang

Hearing the sound of the door being pushed open, Fang Qingqing didn't make a sound, she was still lying quietly, she felt someone came to her bed, but there was no movement, she still didn't open her eyes, and then felt a hand slowly Touch her face, cheeks, bridge of nose, corners of eyes, and then gently remove it.

Fang Qingqing felt that the man was slowly leaving the room, so she opened her eyes and asked softly, "You just want to touch my face?"

Shen Xiaoya paused, then turned around and looked at the person on the bed, although she couldn't see clearly, she still said to that position: "I'm afraid you will cry."

"I've grown up, so I won't cry casually." Fang Qingqing sat up and looked at Shen Xiaoya in the same darkness.

The two were relatively speechless, and they didn't know what to say, but they seemed to have a beast in their hearts that was about to get out of the cage, and the night gave the only sliver of courage.

"Tonight, can you not leave me alone?" Fang Qingqing's voice, she seemed to be a little hard to hear, but in the dark night, it tempted Shen Xiaoya who was also excited.

She slowly walked back to the bed, and then lay down on the bed she was familiar with, but beside her was the person who would be by her side in many midnight dreams.This time, for real.

The two looked at each other quietly, adapted to the dark light, and could see each other's eyes, as if there were sparks hidden in them, which would burn each other's souls at any point.

They don't know who approached each other first, they slowly kissed each other's lips, the hot and sweet breath seemed to make up for all the mistakes, they felt each other's taste and temperature bit by bit, when Fang Qingqing touched Shen Xiaoya's lips, When she was in the body, the different feelings made Cheng Jian's face instantly appear in her mind.That was her lover, she gave herself the best love, and they had promised each other for a lifetime with the rings they promised each other.

A tear fell down Shen Xiaoya's face, but it wasn't hers. She tasted the bitterness on her lips.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Fang Qingqing leaned on her shoulder and kept talking.

Shen Xiaoya didn't speak, she stretched out her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, and then slowly hugged Fang Qingqing tightly.

They can never go back.

Because they didn't understand at the beginning, they would only hug tightly.

Now they can't, so they can only hug tightly.

As time goes by, it's not me who is by your side, it's me who should say sorry.

Early the next morning, Fang Qingqing was woken up by a small stove. She was in a daze for a moment, thinking it was an unknown.He opened his eyes and saw that it was Emma, ​​lying on the quilt, looking at her with wide eyes.

"Qingqing." Seeing her wake up, he called her happily.

"Emma." Fang Qingqing also called her name with a smile, and sat up from the bed.

She separated from Shen Xiaoya, perhaps the only gift of fate was Emma.

"Did you come to play with me?" Emma nestled into her arms and asked with a smile.

"I'm on a business trip in Germany, not very far from here." Fang Qingqing didn't want to lie to her, and only told the truth.

"Oh." Emma was a little disappointed, and then said happily: "Then can you stay and play with me today?"

Fang Qingqing thought for a while and said, "It should be possible."

"I told Mommy that I won't go to kindergarten today." Emma was about to get out of bed as she spoke.

"Wait, are you going to kindergarten?" Fang Qingqing just remembered that Emma is more than three years old. She is not a little baby staying at home, but going to school. Did she agree too casually just now?

"I don't like going to kindergarten," Emma pouted.

"Why, isn't there a lot of children who can play together in the kindergarten?" Fang Qingqing remembered that Shao Yuan didn't like to go there at first, and later couldn't pick him up.

"The kid doesn't like me?"

"Why, Emma is so cute."

"They said I was a foreigner."

Fang Qingqing was silent, she didn't know how to comfort Emma, ​​in a foreign country, did Shen Xiaoya also face many of these problems, she thought about it, but couldn't feel it.

She hugged Emma, ​​shook her gently, kissed the top of her head and said, "Qingqing likes you."

"I like Qingqing too." Emma smiled happily again in a blink of an eye.

When she walked out of the bedroom with Emma in her arms, she saw Shen Xiaoya busy in the kitchen, and when she heard Emma's voice, she turned around and smiled as gently as ever.

"Did Emma wash up?" Shen Xiaoya asked.

"Neither Qingqing nor Qingqing." Emma dragged Qingqing to take the blame together.

"Then you all go to wash up quickly, and then have breakfast." Shen Xiaoya said to the two, her eyes met Fang Qingqing's, without embarrassment or sadness.

For a moment, Fang Qingqing felt that Shen Xiaoya was more like her family. Even if she couldn't stay together, she would always know that she was there.

Under Emma's command, the two went to the bathroom together and brushed their teeth together in front of the mirror. Emma laughed happily.

Shen Xiaoya stood in the kitchen, listening to the laughter, complex emotions flashed across her eyes, then she turned to see if the porridge in the pot was cooked, the steam was steaming, and the expression on her face seemed to be blurred.

During the meal, Emma and Mommy discussed whether they could not go to the kindergarten, but they were sternly rejected. They just told her that they would pick her up for dinner at noon.

Emma pouted, but obediently agreed, and then told Qingqing to play with her when she came back in the afternoon.

After dinner, Shen Xiaoya was going to send Emma to school, and Fang Qingqing also came out together, she didn't want to stay in the apartment alone. Emma's kindergarten is very close, all in the community, about 10 minutes' walk.She held the hands of Mommy and Qingqing, carried a small schoolbag, and ran around happily like a little squirrel. This was the first time that two people sent her to kindergarten.

After sending the little one to the kindergarten, they reluctantly hugged and said goodbye at the door. The two of them didn't return to the apartment. Shen Xiaoya took her for a walk to a nearby park and sat down on a bench.

In the UK in October, the weather is gradually cooling down, but today is a rare sunny day.The parks are all open, without walls and railings. People in twos and threes go to other places through the parks, and some people exercise and take walks in the parks.

"Last night, I'm sorry." Fang Qingqing said with some difficulty, maybe they shouldn't bring it up again, but she didn't want to be separated from Shen Xiaoya for a long time without saying anything.

Shen Xiaoya turned to look at her, smiled, and said, "No need to apologize." Before Fang Qingqing could continue to explain, she said, "What happened between you and Cheng Jian, do you want to tell me?"

Fang Qingqing leaned on the chair, was silent for a while, and then told Shen Xiaoya everything that happened in the past few days.

"What did Cheng Jian say?" Shen Xiaoya asked after listening.

Fang Qingqing paused for a moment, and then honestly said that she hadn't talked to Cheng Jian yet.

Shen Xiaoya looked at her, sighed and said, "Qingqing, you actually know what you should do, don't you?"

Fang Qingqing didn't speak, 'should' and 'think' are two different things.

Shen Xiaoya stopped talking, and the two quietly looked not far away. Someone was walking the dog and threw a frisbee, and the dog happily ran to catch it, then returned and handed it to the owner, and continued to play.Over and over again, never tired of it.There are simple pleasures in simplicity.

After a while, Shen Xiaoya said: "Qingqing, in fact, at the beginning, you didn't even give me a chance to choose, and you made your own decision." She didn't look at Fang Qingqing, her eyes looked into the distance, just like at the beginning When I was studying under the silk tree, I said calmly: "If you really grow up, don't escape, but learn to face yourself, including timidity, including self-esteem."

Fang Qingqing was a little shocked. During the time she was apart, she thought of the past and refused to talk about it again. She had countless reasons and feelings to conclude her powerlessness and grievances, but Shen Xiaoya told her, In fact, she could have had other choices at the beginning, but she let go of love because of her self-esteem and timidity.

Her heart was in turmoil, as if countless dusty past events were floating up, intertwined with her choices along the way or drifting with the tide, something gradually became clear in her heart, but her brain seemed to know that it would be injured, and refused to see clearly.

Shen Xiaoya looked at Fang Qingqing who was stunned, and also saw the gradually painful expression on her face. She raised her hand, wanting to hug her, touch her head, and tell her that everything will be fine.In the end, he clenched his hand tightly and said softly: "Qingqing, this time, don't let it go so easily."