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"Even so... In your opinion, is this our fault?" Yan Chongsong asked through gritted teeth.

Mrs. Yan said: "I have tried my best to be patient, because I told myself that half of the blood on these three children is my blood, and they are not necessarily beasts like their father... But, you tell me Me, why do you want to hurt Tongtong!? She never hurt anyone!"

Yan Chongsong said: "She didn't hurt anyone!? Then what did she do to Chonghe!?"

But Yan Chonghe behind him suddenly pushed his elder brother away and said, "She never hurt me...all of this...is just a trick of fate."

Yan Chongsong shouted: "Chonghe..."

Yan Chonghe said: "You don't have to do this, brother. Although I don't have a father, but many times, brother, you are like my father... I have no regrets."

Then he suddenly knelt down to Nan Junliang, and said with tears: "Don't hate me. I don't really want to harm your parents, I just...be obsessed with ghosts. Your father is a good man, and he still wants to ease The relationship between your mother and brother is that the devil lives in my heart, and I have harmed them."

Nan Junliang couldn't say anything.

His face was pale, and he took a step back instinctively.

After a while, he asked, "Auntie and Xilin..."

Yan Chonghe said: "Ding Lin and I agreed to get married, and Xilin is not my child. But I have already arranged them."

Nan Junliang never dreamed that he exposed all this and finally got such an unacceptable truth.Sure enough, Yan Chonghe was ready to surrender before, and the police came to the door after a while and took him away.

Yan Chongsong failed to stop all this in the end.

Nan Junliang was dazed, standing there at a loss, not knowing what to do.Wei Lingzhu asked someone to pack up her things, and it was rare for her to come over and whisper something softly to Nan Junliang, and said, "How could my uncle do such a thing?" But she asked Yan Ximin to accompany Nan Junliang.

Yan Ximin didn't know how to comfort Nan Junliang at all.He raised his head and wanted to hug each other, but he lacked the courage.After a long time, he had done enough mental construction before he suddenly hugged him and said, "Don't be sad."

Nan Junliang replied, "Thank you."

Nan Junliang didn't sleep well that night. When he got up at dawn, he found that the light in the studio was on.After he walked over, he found Mrs. Yan standing at the door of those secret rooms, looking at something.

She seemed to have noticed the movement outside, and when she looked back, she found that it was him, and beckoned him to pass.

Nan Junliang hesitated for a moment, but finally walked over.

Then he saw a group photo.

Mrs. Yan said: "She is your real grandmother, Lisi, whose English name is Lisi, which is actually the abbreviation of Elizabeth. She passed away very early, and she was still young when she died. At that time, your mother was just born, and she was a Little big doll. She loves your mother so much, but she has to leave her."

"We are cousins. The situation in my family is very complicated. My parents don't love each other, but because of the combination of interests, probably because of the influence of family relations. I have been very indifferent since I was a child. I knew I was abnormal at that time. , but I don’t know how to make myself normal.”

"And Liz...she is the fire of my life."

Nan Junliang sat there, listening to Mrs. Yan tell a long story.

Sitting there, although she was old, she still had an outstanding temperament, and it could be seen how she was a peerless beauty when she was young.In fact, this is indeed the case. Each of the two girls in the photo has a beauty that seems to be preserved in history.

The young Mrs. Yan loved her cousin deeply, but she never let her know.She was forced to get engaged to a man when she was found to be sexually inappropriate.She struggled desperately, but to no avail.Being raped, restricted from moving, forced to give birth to a child, and gradually resigned to fate.

Until Li Si died, because she had been raped all the time, she couldn't even see her cousin for the last time.She almost went crazy afterwards, as if she wanted to die for Li Si, she did not hesitate to go on a hunger strike and self-mutilation.Later, there was really no other way. They brought her news of Lisi's daughter and allowed her to visit.

As a result, she never came back.

Abandoned her husband and child, never to return.She seemed to run away for her life, staying in her hometown like a foreign land forever.

Mrs. Yan said: "When my parents passed away, I didn't go back either. They wrote and scolded me, saying that I was heartless and heartless. I didn't care. Because I knew it at a very young age. A hearty person. Your grandmother is my heart, my liver, all my feelings and nostalgia."

"As long as I carry the memories of He Lisi, I can always live alone like this."

"So even if your uncle scolds me, I don't care. But how dare... how dare..." She said this, her voice trembling, but she never said the second half of the sentence.

Nan Junliang knew that what she wanted to say was, how dare he hurt Tongtong?

No one mentioned Nan Zhixing.Whether it's the uncle or the grandmother of his maternal grandfather's family, to be honest, they are extremely selfish people. They all love their mother, but they are indifferent to his father's death.

Nan Junliang sighed.

He asked: "In this case, why did my mother cut off relations with my grandfather's family?"

Mrs. Yan was silent for a long time before she said, "Because she can't accept all this."

Nan Junliang thought, which part can't be accepted?But in terms of his mother's character, it seems that any part may be difficult to accept, so this question is also redundant.

He asked again: "Then my mother and third uncle...is this the same thing?"

This time Mrs. Yan remained silent for a longer time.After a long time, she said, "I don't know anything about the relationship between them. When Chonghe was first picked up, he always quarreled with your mother. But soon their relationship became very good... It's a very good relationship." Brother and sister. I don’t even know when they were better, but when your mother left home, he suddenly ran to me and said..."

"He will hate me forever."

How long is a lifetime?

Nan Jun thought coolly.

Who can hate whom for a lifetime?

But Yan Chonghe hasn't let go yet, right? More than 20 years have passed, how many 20 years can a person have?That was even longer than Nan Junliang's short life.

He suddenly understood many things.

For example, Ding Lin's attitude towards him, and what Yan Xilin said at that time.These two people... should know everything, at least they know much more than him.

After dawn, Nan Junliang considered finding time to contact Ding Lin, but found Yan Chongsong blocked in the hall.

Nan Junliang's whole body tensed up.

Yan Chongsong looked at him, but smiled wryly.

He said, "Junliang...do you hate me?"

Nan Junliang said: "...Uncle, you are... hating me and my mother?"

Yan Chongsong laughed at himself and said, "What right do I have to hate you? In the final analysis, it was Chonghe who harmed your family. Your mother has never been sorry for us, even if she can barely say that there is... More responsibility is not on her. She It was just a kid back then.”

Nan Junliang said: "But things like feelings... are unreasonable, aren't they? So you still hate my mother a little bit."

Yan Chongsong was silent for a long time, did not answer this question, but said: "Do you hate Chonghe?"

Nan Junliang shook his head: "I don't know."

Yan Chongsong said: "I don't hate your mother...I just want to protect Chonghe. He has had a hard life. When my mother left, Chongbai and I were already a little old. We know everything, so we also I know... she will leave sooner or later."

"She never hugged us or smiled at us. If she didn't torture herself to death, she would probably leave the house. In fact, I would rather she go, no matter what... she is my mother."

"But Chonghe...he was different. He was too young at that time."

In fact, from Yan Chongsong's point of view, his father loved his mother deeply, although everything later was a little different.Everyone has their own desires, and his parents are no exception.

If you take a step back, maybe the sea and the sky will be vast.It's a pity that some people just got into the dead end and couldn't take this step back.

This stubbornness, after all, comes down in one continuous line.

Even if he and Yan Chongbai didn't have maternal love, they still had a youthful period when they were loved by their father.But Yan Chonghe didn't have anything...he just looked at his father, stepmother and younger sister's family, and then pulled Yan Chongsong and asked:

"Where's mom?"

Where did my mother... go?

Stepmother abused three brothers while his father turned a blind eye.He was not very obedient to his stepmother, but it was okay, at least he never beat her... But he was not as careful as he was with his mother, trying his best to please her.

When his father beat An Kaili, Yan Chongsong once felt that he was like a devil.He used to think that his father was a typical domestic violence man, but later he realized that they were still different.That wasn't in his father's nature, but just an outburst of desperation after he couldn't get what he wanted.

Mrs. Yan asked Nan Junliang: Is it a mistake for a heartless person like me to live in this world?

Not loving one's own parents, nor one's own children... Is this a sin?

And Yan Chongsong said to Nan Junliang: "I don't know whose fault it is, but Chonghe must have done something wrong. He himself chose to pay the price for what he did. But, don't hate him. "

Nan Junliang didn't know whether it was important for him to hate Yan Chonghe or not.He couldn't represent his mother.

He just thought, why does this world have so many unavoidable things?So much helplessness?Human feelings...is it the most hurtful thing in this world?

The barrage was crying, Nan Junliang walked into his room, held the phone for a long time, and then called Ye Qingge.