Thinker in the entertainment industry

Zheng Zhiyong didn't feel any heart-piercing pain, it took him a few seconds to realize that the "she" that Jin Junsu said was An Xiyan, and then he came back to his senses, coped with it and was still talking to him Kim Junsu.

Don't let Kim Junsu discover his feelings for An Xiyan.This is the decision Jung Jiyong made based on his intuition when his rationality was almost destroyed by the news of An Xiyan's love.

Then he hung up the phone.

"I'm sorry," An Xiyan said, "I also feel guilty about this matter, and I can't think of how to tell you for a while."

"It's okay, it's right to be cautious." Zheng Zhiyong forcefully forced a smile, and then he realized that the smile was too forced, and quickly remedied, "I seem to be used to being regarded as a reliable person... ...You tell me you feel guilty, is it okay for him to hear it?"

"He knows. I always thought that I should put my career first, and I said so publicly on the show. Then I was with him... I started to hesitate."

"It's not easy to make this decision, is it?"

The answer is obvious. An Xiyan watched Kim Junsu's musical with her mother, and her seriousness about this relationship is obvious.

When my career is on the rise, I choose to fall in love with a popular male idol who is famous and has many fans. What a big determination I have made.

"Yes, in our respective career situations, some people say that our personalities are not very suitable." Speaking of this, An Xiyan suddenly changed the subject, "

But... "Up and Down" became very popular suddenly, and I haven't fully gotten used to it yet, Junsu hyung gave me a lot of strength."

Now An Xiyan is not short of money, opportunities, and love. She has deviated from the promise she made to herself a few months ago. There must be something special about this relationship.

"You don't need to explain to me. At that time, you couldn't imagine what would happen next, like... I didn't expect you to know each other and get together." Zheng Zhiyong lowered his hat and walked a little faster than usual , He was half a body ahead of An Xiyan from the beginning to the end, "Be careful, this is my advice to you", his voice was much lower than before, with a deliberate seriousness, "As a friend".

"Thank you."

There is no problem with dialogue.Every word that Zheng Zhiyong uttered is what an honest and kind friend would say when faced with such a thing. The friend will be shocked, comforted, and warned, but will not be lost or sad.

Zheng Zhiyong did it.

Afterwards, Zheng Zhiyong recalled that at that time, he had pushed his acting skills to the limit, and he was easily fooled by the fact that he was not very emotional. , neither An Xiyan nor Kim Junsu found anything unusual.

But for how long he can last, Zheng Zhiyong can't guarantee, he really wants to find an excuse to leave, and calm down: "You take this opportunity to go on a date, or you still have to meet your parents, why did you call me over?"

"Didn't you see "you" on the music source list?" Jin Junxiu was in a good mood, and Zheng Zhiyong's resentment only made him laugh even harder, "And I'm with Hani, and you have produced a lot Strength."

"What?" Zheng Zhiyong's voice was not loud, but his eyes almost popped out, he was really frightened.

"We were introduced by a friend. When we had nothing to say at the beginning, we just talked about people we all knew." Seeing Zheng Zhiyong's face getting darker, Jin Junsu immediately pretended to be cowardly, "Don't worry, I didn't say anything bad about you. You have nothing to say bad things about, right?"

Zheng Zhiyong: ...

"By the way, and, do you still remember the 'gift' you gave me on Valentine's Day?" Jin Junxiu said again.

Valentine's Day present……

Zheng Zhiyong's already stiff facial muscles were even more unable to move at this moment.

"The chocolates given by the fans, I will give it to you, and you will pass it on to Brother Junxiu." An Xiyan heard Jin Junxiu talk about the cause and effect, and she found it very interesting, "So, Zhiyong, you are still the one who hooked up."

"Can you stop saying this in front of people who are still single?"

Zheng Zhiyong failed to match this sentence with a joking tone and a gentle and interested expression like he did before, and his tone was harsh. If you listen to this sentence alone, you will definitely be angry the meaning of.

But he left a deep impression on people in the past. What An Xiyan worried about was that Zheng Zhiyong would feel bad because the two were clearly friends, but she had not talked about their love for so long. Now this matter, She preconceived that Zheng Zhiyong would not have any negative emotions, so it was still just a joke, "I'm sorry", she clasped her hands together, apologized to the expressionless friend, and then looked at her boyfriend, "Shall I disappear first? "

What does it say on the Internet?It is a crime to abuse a single dog.

"If you disappear first, what will I become?" Zheng Zhiyong's voice is still a bit stiff. In the past, when he spoke, the volume of his voice fluctuated and changed, just like the sweet melody played by a top-level piano. Now if the voice is still a piano, The finger must have smashed the cover on the keyboard, and there was pain in the stiffness, "I'll go back first, and don't ask me to watch when we are dating."

"You want to watch the premiere? It's a pity that something happened in the middle of last year, isn't it?...I know, if Zico wasn't a judge, you might have gone...No, I have to practice again...Oh, thinker!" Gray chatted on the phone He was so happy, but when he looked up, he saw Zheng Zhiyong who floated in without knowing when, and he was startled by his silent appearance like a ghost, "When did you come in?"

"Just now", Zheng Zhiyong's indifferent tone made his answer look very insincere, "Where's Brother Zai Fan?"

"Bathroom," Gray said.

"Zhiyong, why are you here? Is there something wrong?" Jay Park, who had solved his personal problems, just came out at this time. Seeing that Zheng Zhiyong's back was a little bent, he suddenly had a bad feeling in his heart. This feeling was intensified when he noticed the bloodless lips showing from under the brim of the hat.

"Yes", Zheng Zhiyong raised his head and gave him a smile that was uglier than crying, "I'm sorry, I have to trouble you again."

Zico once said sourly that Song Minho only looked for him when he was sad, and that he would look for po from his friends of the same age if he wanted to play. Now Zheng Zhiyong finds that he is not much better than Song Minho. He and Park Jae Fan's personality and hobbies are far apart, and he often can't play together, but when he encounters a problem, he will subconsciously go to Park Jay.

——Except for Jay Park, he is not sure who will understand his strong sensibility and unique way of thinking. Maybe there are such people, but Zheng Zhiyong does not want to take risks.In this matter, he was stingy with giving credit.

"I'm broken in love," he said, "No, I should have a crush on someone, but I dare not let her know." After taking off his hat, Zheng Zhiyong revealed his dull, even slightly red eyes, "Today I know she already has a boyfriend".

"Why don't you dare to confess?" Park Jay Bum asked.

"She's an artist," Zheng Zhiyong said, "It's too risky for a female artist to fall in love with a rich second generation who is disabled but not accomplished."

""First Love of the Twenty Generations"?"

Zheng Zhiyong nodded.

Park Jay Fan looked at Zheng Zhiyong's bleak and resolute silhouette, and for a moment didn't know what to do.

"You really made my place a lot wider, Zheng Zhiyong," Park Jae-bum pointed to his chest, "I didn't think much of that kind of soft-hearted man who thinks all day long."

He spent the first 18 years of his life in the United States, and he was not influenced by the subtle culture of Asia. In his youth, he spent all day as a b-boy with a group of black friends, and he was contaminated with a lot of street habits. To use a popular saying on the Internet In other words, Jay Park is a "straight man with a capital letter". If Zheng Zhiyong's appearance was really miserable at the beginning, he might not have had much patience.

But after getting acquainted with him, Jay Park had to admit that even though Zheng Zhiyong's personality and hobbies did not meet the general standards of a "man", his character and principles made it impossible not to respect him.The truly outstanding quality has nothing to do with a person's gender, origin, age, or status, but lies in the motivation and result of what he does. This is what Zheng Zhiyong said to him. After meeting enough people, Jay Park admitted that this statement was correct.

Although he grew up in a culturally diverse environment, Jay Park still felt that Zheng Zhiyong's existence gave him a deeper understanding of what "diversity" is.

"If, I mean, if you could go back to the beginning, would you still do it?" Jay Park asked.

Zheng Zhiyong was silent for a moment: "I don't know."

Knowing the risk to An Xiyan but still doing it, this violates Zheng Zhiyong's principles.

Jay Park was not surprised by such a result. Zheng Zhiyong knew how casual he was in things that didn't touch the bottom line, and how stubborn he was in things that crossed the bottom line. He understood very early on.

Crush love but dare not confess, until the person you like has a boyfriend, even if there is a chance to do it again, it is still difficult to change.It sounds a bit exaggerated and even funny, but that is indeed something Zheng Zhiyong would do.

Park Jay-fan, who thought he wouldn't be like this, didn't make a comment, and Zheng Zhiyong, who was almost jumping out word by word, seemed to finally open the conversation at this time: "I want to understand a lot of things...after knowing Aftertaste."

There was too little time for Zheng Zhiyong to react in the theater of the musical, and he didn't have the energy to think about other things, but now, Zheng Zhiyong has connected the memories together.

Before falling in love with An Xiyan, the chocolate that was repeatedly sold on Valentine's Day, the "return gift" given by Kim Junsu in exchange for tickets, what Li Qiguang said that day.During the collaboration with "you", An Xiyan said, "In order not to be discovered by dispatch, you must always be very careful."Kim Junsu suddenly invited himself to watch "Death | Note", on the day "you" was released.

Countless accidents and coincidences have caused the current situation. Kim Junsu and An Xiyan may think it is fate, and even think that Zheng Zhiyong is like a "mascot" who unintentionally connects them.And Zheng Zhiyong just felt powerless - more than half of the intersection between him and An Xiyan was won by himself, who would want to promote the fate of the woman he likes with other men!

Zheng Zhiyong doesn't believe in fate, and he still doesn't believe it until now, but An Xiyan and Jin Junsu are already together, and he can't change this fact no matter what he thinks.

Even though he came to confide, Zheng Zhiyong did not mention the names of An Xiyan and Kim Junsu. Except for the fact that An Xiyan is an artist, he had to say, and he concealed all the other information he could.

Anyway, whether he knows this or not has no effect on Park Jay Bum, he just expresses deep sympathy for Zheng Zhiyong: "Zhiyong, you... are you sorry?"

It sounds too cruel to promote something from the side.

"It's okay", Zheng Zhiyong's answer was beyond his expectation, "I have more regrets, but if I continue to think about it, I will feel much better because of it."

In the afterglow of the setting sun on a summer evening, Zheng Zhiyong, who pressed his forehead to the window glass, was desolate and dejected, but he was still clean without a trace of hostility: "My feelings for her are still at a very selfish stage... Maybe it should be like this now.”

He squeezed his lips tightly, trying to hold back the steam rising in his throat.

"I haven't asked you why you fell in love with her." Jay Park patted Zheng Zhiyong's back lightly. "You don't secrete hormones very much. Didn't you say you might be asexual before?"

Zheng Zhiyong forced a smile: "I just said that I am not a lower-body animal, and you know the reason, bro."

"Tell me, why are you tempted?"

"First of all, it must be because she is a good person, loves life, has healthy hobbies, is determined, will do well in what she wants to do, and is smart, that kind of true wisdom, not sticking to unnecessary places", Zheng When Zhiyong said this, he also felt that the previous description was too general, "Oh, there is more important thing, the sense of identity".

Although when I saw a real person, I felt that Ahn Hee-yeon was beautiful everywhere, cute and beautiful everywhere, even when Ahn Hee-yeon opened her mouth and closed her eyes and cried silently in "ahyeah", Zheng Zhiyong could look at the video Smiling like an idiot.But if you really want to list the reasons, Zheng Zhiyong can also say one, two, three.

After all, he is not very affected by hormones.

"I don't think I'm a very bad person, but I can't expect many people to fully agree with me." Zheng Zhiyong turned around and put a hand on Park Jay Bum's forearm. A brother with a completely different style of painting, he is not sure who among the people he knows will fully agree with him, "It is not easy to meet someone who doesn't care about gender stereotypes."

"I need approval. I believe she will agree with me. This is the fundamental reason." Zheng Zhiyong still lowered his head and spoke at a gentle speed, sounding like he was analyzing calmly. "However, her difficulties, I don't know about her distress, or I ignore it."

"I didn't hurt her, so there is no regret. It's normal to fall in love with someone out of satisfaction."

"However, if you only think about my principles, my harvest, and my needs, such feelings should not be called 'love'."

Zheng Zhiyong pulled the corners of his mouth as hard as he could, revealing a smile that was not much better than crying.

"What's your plan next?" Park Jae-bum asked.Before and after the camera, he is often shown as a bohemian "bad boy". Even if there are difficult things, he will crush him with a face of "I don't care". At this time, he shows a rare, quiet, serious and solemn look.

No matter how many disagreements he has with Zheng Zhiyong, understanding and respect have never been broken.

"Maybe I won't like her anymore, maybe I still like her, maybe I'll go a step further later, to the stage of 'love'... So I don't know what to do about it for the time being, as for the others."

Zheng Zhiyong straightened his back again, his forehead still had red marks from being squeezed, and his eyes were also red, I don't know if it was because of exhaustion or something else.

"Infinite challenges, I will do well."