Thinker in the entertainment industry

Li Taemin's voice trembled so clearly that Zheng Zhiyong, who had been distracted and focused on the conversation before, noticed it.He finally started to look straight ahead, but saw the red in Li Taemin's eyes.

A sour feeling suddenly burst out in the throat and quickly spread to the nasal cavity and chest cavity.

"Do you remember?" Zheng Zhiyong tried his best to make his expression look a little more relaxed, "Then do you still remember that I was already uncomfortable before, and I would go back if I didn't have allergies."

"If you don't have a cold and you get an allergy later on, wouldn't you go back?"

Regarding this question, Zheng Zhiyong was silent for a while, and said: "If I don't have a cold, I should taste the taste of buckwheat soon, and then spit it out immediately."

Zheng Zhiyong didn't understand why so many coincidences and accidents happened unknowingly back then, leading to today's situation.

Li Taemin obviously felt similar to Zheng Zhiyong, he was silent for a while, and said: "If the allergies hadn't happened, I hadn't quarreled with you, and you hadn't come to apologize to me, the time for you to go back would have been much earlier. won't come across..."

He couldn't go on.

Zheng Zhiyong didn't know how to respond to this assumption for a while, and remained tongue-tied for a while, Zheng Zhiyong finally laughed helplessly: "Why do you think so."

"Why don't you think so."

Zheng Zhiyong's breathing stopped for a while, as if someone was stuck in his throat, making him unable to make any sound for a long time.

"It's different to take the initiative and not know the result in advance."

Zheng Zhiyong could only answer like this.

"I was the one who started all of this," Lee Taemin remained unmoved, "Even if you have forgiven my actions that night, you can't change the fact."

No one can imagine Jung Jiyong’s mood better than Lee Taemin. During the two years they practiced together in SM, they were almost inseparable when dancing. For Zheng Zhiyong, it is easy to empathize with Zheng Zhiyong, just put yourself in it.

What would it be like if I couldn't dance?

What would it be like if Jung Jiyong couldn't dance?

He remembered that when he first joined SM, he was practicing all kinds of basic movements in the practice room by himself. Zheng Zhiyong pushed the door in. After a brief self-introduction, Zheng Zhiyong showed an expression of enlightenment on his face: " Ah, I know, the ones selected on the weekend are very good, SM hasn’t recruited someone from the weekend selection for a long time.”

Zheng Zhiyong, who is still a beautiful girl because of her late development, warmed up and continued, "I remember your strength is dancing, so I will see you often in the future, because I am also a dance lover", and it was over. Zheng Zhiyong, who was simply warming up, stood at attention, bowed forward and saluted, then straightened up suddenly and looked at Li Taimin, his tone seemed to be joking, but his eyes were very serious, "In the future, please take care of me——"

Such a person may not be popular, but it must be difficult to hate.What's more, Li Taemin, who just joined the company, would not refuse to have a good relationship with a senior with outstanding strength.After getting along further, I found that the tempers are quite compatible-to put it simply, they are easy to get along with, and they are naturally harmonious when they meet together, and they become more and more inseparable from Mengmeng.

"Is this an action made up by my brother?"

"Well", Zheng Zhiyong folded his arms in front of his chest, watching Li Taemin finish the dance according to his instructions, "How is it?"

"Even if I can't make my debut in the future, I can still take the choreography route."

"Don't curse me", Zheng Zhiyong couldn't laugh or cry, "If I can't make my debut, I won't be in the mood to choreograph a dance and watch others dance."

Li Taemin quickly changed his words: "After retiring, I can be a choreographer."

"It's not too bad." Zheng Zhiyong faced the mirror and tried a few more moves, "I think this is much more reliable than an actor's sound. My acting skills are at most a strong vase that won't break after a few drops. Ten beats is enough, choreography is still very insufficient, but with more than ten years of experience, there is still some future, come on, Taemin, do it again to me."

Li Taemin did as he did, but this time, Zheng Zhiyong also moved.

"Is this movement coordinated?" Li Taimin quickly saw the way.

"Yes, the struggle between two people is obvious together, isn't it?" Zheng Zhiyong's eyes brightened, "I don't know why, but when I think of the cooperation of multiple people, I feel it."

"Are we going to find a few more people in the future?"

"It's a bit difficult, even if it's a junior who is older than me, it's not easy to handle."

Li Taemin was embarrassed: "So brother, you are looking for me because it is easy to handle?"

Zheng Zhiyong coughed dryly, and calmly moved to the door of the practice room: "I'll buy today's drink." Then he ran away.

"You..." Li Taemin's words were stuck in his throat when the door was closed, "I want to ask the choreographer if you want to bring me along, and I don't want to blackmail you," he said to The door panel said to himself, and then burst out laughing with a "puchi", "But if you don't drink, it's not worth it."

At the very beginning, Li Taemin had some admiration when facing Zheng Zhiyong. A senior with outstanding strength, seriousness, hard work and good personality is worth looking up.After getting too familiar, Lee Taemin's confidence also increased along with his level of strength, and he turned to treat Zheng Zhiyong half as a friend and half as a brother, but the recognition and appreciation did not weaken because of this, but increased day by day. After the news that sm was going to promote a boy group again, Li Taemin was thinking, either Zheng Zhiyong made his debut in this group, or stayed in the next group as the leading member, other than that, all the results must be shady!

He didn't expect that the reality would be so difficult for him to accept.

It was difficult for him to accept that Zheng Zhiyong fell into the dust in such a dramatic way as "disabled in a car accident" when he was about to spread his wings and fly high. He bears the rumors by himself, and refuses to even tell the truth to himself. What is even more difficult to accept is that it is himself who indirectly caused all this to happen.

"Why don't you say that you kept silent just to get revenge on me? Isn't it more plausible? I don't have to think about how much responsibility I have to bear. You have already taken revenge."

At the end of Li Taemin's speech, his voice was already trembling.Thinking of Zheng Zhiyong's high spirits in his memory, Li Taemin felt his heart ached almost to burst.

How...how did it become like this?

When the body was almost frozen into ice cubes by the January cold wind, the brains of the two barely cooled down.

"I didn't realize that you are still very talented in music creation."

"I didn't realize it in the past, and I was so scared of being tormented by the handicap. Later, Brother Zai Fan and the others wanted to be self-reliant, so they took me to try it."

"Would it be better if I found out earlier?"

"I think so too."

The two were relatively silent, but the atmosphere changed quietly in the silence. After saying what they kept in their hearts, when it was time to play freely, their mentality became much calmer.They are all in their 20s, and their experience is far richer than that of their peers. It is impossible for the situation of turning upside down because of a few soba noodles outside to happen again.

Instead, they have understood each other's thinking.

"I didn't expect to see you like this." Zheng Zhiyong said sincerely.

"Do you think I'm selfish and willful in your eyes? After knowing the reason, I still only think about the things you didn't say at that time?" Li Taemin asked rhetorically.

Zheng Zhiyong shook his head quickly: "No, I just think...you don't need to think about yourself that much."

"Then what do you think of yourself?" After Li Taimin finished speaking, he turned his head and gave a wry smile, "I didn't realize that we are quite similar in this point, so ask for trouble."

Obviously, those who were hurt chose to forgive, but I couldn't let go of what I did wrong in the first place.

"It's not necessary." He looked at Zheng Zhiyong and said.

For Li Taemin, apart from his looks, the person in front of him has little similarities with Zheng Zhiyong back then.Even though he only heard some things from Kim Heechul and said a few words after meeting, he could feel the earth-shaking changes in Zheng Zhiyong.Zheng Zhiyong used to be full of "vitality" and "hope", but now Zheng Zhiyong is hard to find that kind of indomitable spirit. The passage of time has made Zheng Zhiyong's temperament gradually restrained. Compared with the lively youth, the current Zheng Zhiyong is obviously gentler and calmer, but it is too much, not like a young man in his early twenties, but it makes Li Taemin feel the looming "uncertainty" behind this. thing.

But there are some things that haven't changed.

Li Taemin remembered that Zheng Zhiyong's voice was so hoarse and piercing that it was unbearable to hear it when he first entered the period of changing his voice. Not going in a dire direction.It was at that time that Lee Taemin accidentally witnessed Jung Jiyong sitting on the floor of the practice room, quietly burying his face in his knees.

Li Taemin was startled: "Brother, what's wrong with you?"

Zheng Zhiyong raised his head, "It's okay", he said softly, "Take a rest".

"You rest like this?" Li Taimin didn't believe it.

Zheng Zhiyong showed an expression of "I really can't do anything about you": "I'm worried that my voice is a little melancholy, okay?"

This is of course a reasonable answer. Leaving aside the condition of Zheng Zhiyong's voice, Li Taemin is quite worried, but there is still a problem: "Melancholy? I..." I didn't see it.

These days, Zheng Zhiyong has been a little quieter and less lively, but this level can be understood as "the voice is at its most dangerous time, so we need to calm down." Li Taimin didn't feel any obvious low pressure.

Zheng Zhiyong obviously thought of what Li Taemin didn't say, "Taemin", he smiled, and said softly in his hoarse voice, "I'm a very emotional person, and I don't have many negative emotions in SM, so You don't think".

"Brother is acting sad now?" Li Taemin asked seriously.

"Ok?"

"If this happens again in the future, I'll know."

Zheng Zhiyong had black lines all over his head, "Yes, I'm worried about it," he pointed to his throat, "but I can't let my emotions affect irrelevant people."

"Then just hide in the practice room alone?"

"Who is hiding, didn't you come in?" Zheng Zhiyong glanced at him, stood up, moved his sore feet and knees, "However, if I'm really in a bad mood, I might control the situation." Can't stop, now that you know it, if you accidentally encounter it in the future, please be more considerate?"

Li Taemin was still young when he met Zheng Zhiyong, even if the life of a trainee would make him more mature than his peers, he was not mature enough to use his already tense energy to explore the inner world of a teenager the point.Some things, he gradually thought about them in depth and gradually figured them out later.

Zheng Zhiyong is a person with rich emotions. At the same time, he will use his reason to control himself, so as not to let his negative emotions affect others.But this kind of control is not successful every time. For example, on the night when Zheng Zhiyong had an accident, he became nervous because of the nervousness hidden in his heart about his debut. After eating buckwheat noodles, he lost control of his emotions and was furious at Li Taemin.

However, even though there will be times when emotions get the upper hand, when he calms down soon, Zheng Zhiyong will still think and judge his own behavior, and he will not avoid his existing mistakes very much.After he lost his temper with Li Taemin, even if he still thinks that Li Taemin did something wrong, Zheng Zhiyong will turn back and apologize to Li Taemin for his actions.

There is nothing wrong with Zheng Zhiyong's character in most cases.But... the physical damage and mental blow caused by the car accident were too great.

This is the truth. At that time, all kinds of negative emotions had an absolute advantage. Zheng Zhiyong didn't think about the impact his disappearance would have in the future. Zhiyong comforted himself with "it's too late" as an excuse, and continued to bury his head in being an ostrich.

However, after time passed, even if he still couldn't fully let go of the dramatic changes that year, it didn't affect Zheng Zhiyong's judgment on himself and others:

His silence was wrong.

Lee Taemin is not responsible for his current situation.

On this point, it really hasn't changed at all.

Zheng Zhiyong didn't turn bad, it's just that the situation is too special, there's no way to stop him from being emotional, it's just...

It's just a trick of good fortune.

These thoughts seemed to hover in Li Taimin's mind for a long time, and it seemed that it was only a moment.

"Brother Zhiyong." He said.

The initiative was put into his hands by Zheng Zhiyong, and Li Taemin felt that he needed to use him carefully.Not only for Zheng Zhiyong, but also for himself.In one point, Li Taemin found that he and Zheng Zhiyong are very similar - the requirements for himself are higher than those for others, especially when the "others" are people close to him or have been close to him.

Li Taemin once brooded over Zheng Zhiyong's disappearance, but after knowing all the truth, those things are no longer important.Zheng Zhiyong bid farewell to dance, got a college degree, learned to rap and write songs, Li Taemin stayed in Shinee for nearly seven years, Korea and Japan have gained a firm foothold, and the rumors have long since dissipated over the years, what they lost back then , is lost forever, and nothing can be retrieved.Letting myself and Zheng Zhiyong not continue to be influenced by the past has become the only thing I can do now.

He thought what to do.