Thinker in the entertainment industry

In fact, Zheng Zhiyong was not unprepared for such a scene.Kim Heechul has a gay friend named Yong Junhyung, a gay friend named Simond, and Zheng Zhiyong is not very smart, but if he doesn't expect that he will be discovered by old acquaintances one day... that is either too naive or stupid.

Zheng Zhiyong is neither naive nor stupid.So even though he lost his mind for a moment because of being too surprised at the beginning, it didn't take long for him to recover his normal thinking ability, and he even felt a sense of relief.

Yes, a relief.

"I have heard that your movement is a little inconvenient."

The underground of nightclubs is mostly used for performances and fun, while the upper part is a place for drinking and partying.Kim Jaejoong and Kim Heechul, who had been prepared for a long time, took the calm but silent Jung Jiyong to a corner and sat side by side opposite him.Then, Kim Heechul spoke.

Zheng Zhiyong nodded, his reaction was not that he didn't want to speak, but that he didn't know what to say.So Kim Heechul continued: "Would you mind telling us what happened?"

"Car accident, I was not feeling well that day, I was going home, on the way... a car accident", Zheng Zhiyong took off the hat on his head, revealing that handsome and expressionless face, with a captivating voice on stage , but at this time it was as dry as a string stretched to the limit. "The injured part is below the waist, and the leg is the heaviest. After the operation, the left leg is six centimeters shorter than the right leg...that's it."

Zheng Zhiyong generally reported the tragedy that happened to him that night seven years ago, and after that, he let out a long breath. Both his facial muscles and his voice were much better than before. A little more relaxed. "In the past, I didn't want people to know. The aomg people didn't tell me. However, sooner or later, I will tell you." He said, "Just like everything I have done, I can't escape it."

Under the dim lights of the nightclub, Zheng Zhiyong's face was clean, delicate, well-defined but not too sharp.Seven years hadn't brought any fundamental changes to his appearance, both Kim Jaejoong and Kim Heechul could recognize him immediately.

However, the appearance has not changed much, but the feeling is completely different.Seven years ago, Jin Zaizhong and Zheng Zhiyong were more familiar, and the experience at this time is even more profound.Zheng Zhiyong's aura has changed. It doesn't mean that he has changed from a child to a young man, nor does it mean that he has faded from childishness and become mature. Such changes are common and nothing special.What Jin Jaejoong saw was that Zheng Zhiyong, who was calm and young with a little restlessness in his youthfulness and vigorous ambition in his liveliness seven years ago, has completely disappeared. Behind the maturity and maturity is an imperceptible lack of confidence.

Kim Jaejoong thought he could understand why there was such a change.In fact, before sitting here face to face with Zheng Zhiyong, he and Kim Heechul guessed the truth of the matter based on the information they got from Yong Junheng and Simond.But when Zheng Zhiyong told the truth himself, Kim Jaejoong didn't know how to speak for a while. His leg was seriously injured. It's literally disabled.

"It's not that serious. I still walk well. If I don't know, no one will think in that direction." Zheng Zhiyong wanted to know what the two seniors were worried about. The obstacle is that I was used to worrying about it before, and I couldn't change my thinking."

But there is no way to dance anymore.Kim Heechul added silently in his heart.Even though he had made some psychological preparations before, when he really faced Zheng Zhiyong, he still had an indescribable complexity in his heart: "At that time, you disappeared without a word, and we all thought something must have happened, but this result... ..."

"If it wasn't a very serious matter, I probably wouldn't have escaped so embarrassingly." The two people on the opposite side had some scruples when speaking because they had to consider their own feelings. At the time I...couldn't accept the reality."

"Now?" Kim asked.

"I accepted the status quo, but I don't know how to look at myself at that time", Zheng Zhiyong said, maybe because a stone finally fell to the ground, although it hurt a little, it was still within the acceptable range. At that time, Zheng Zhiyong showed a strange calmness, "I know, I did something outrageous because of selfishness."

Zheng Zhiyong, whose family members are all standard "human spirits", and who had been in contact with smart children as a child, has been in a state of self-doubt for a long time.His personality is very emotional, and his hobbies are also different. If you use traditional standards to measure his ability, Zheng Zhiyong's performance is not outstanding, but Zheng Zhiyong cannot be said to be a mediocre person, whether it is talent or character, He all has shining points. It can only be said that he is a genetic mutation and looks a little crooked.Zheng Zhiyong is not unaware of this, but the reality is too unfriendly to him. Zheng Zhiyong's attempts when he was a child have all failed, until he discovered dance.

It's not easy to encounter something that I like innately and not hold back... Zheng Zhiyong left a deep psychological shadow when he wanted to learn an instrument before but found that he was seriously handicapped.

Zheng Zhiyong, who entered SM, is like a fish in water. He is very focused when he wants to do something, and has a strong memory. He is not very talented in dancing, but his body and brain are quite coordinated. It is said that it is a rapid progress, but there is a sense of accomplishment that I haven't seen for a long time, which in turn increases the motivation, and this is a continuous virtuous circle. Zheng Zhiyong, who has become a popular candidate for SM's next generation of dancing kings within two years after joining the company, is undoubtedly proud of himself of.She has one of the best looks, her singing skills are not top-notch, and she will never be scolded, her performance in acting class can be classified as high-end, and her talent in sophistication is mediocre, but her education over the past ten years is not in vain. No one ever said anything about him.What is even more gratifying is that Zheng Zhiyong discovered that the identity of "artist" can make the "personality" that has caused him a lot of troubles before is no longer a big problem.

After all, human beings are social animals, and the situation similar to "heterogeneous" still has some influence on the young Zheng Zhiyong.

Therefore, in the impression of everyone in SM, including Kim Heechul and Kim Jaejoong, Jung Jiyong has always been positive, lively, optimistic, and high-spirited—this is the truth.

However, everything was destroyed by an unexpected car accident.

The severe pain directly caused Zheng Zhiyong to lose consciousness, and after waking up, his lower body was unconscious.Zheng Zhiyong was injured in many places below the waist, and the bones of his left leg were terribly broken. Great modern medicine has allowed some injuries to recover to a level that does not affect normal life, while others can no longer be recovered .After the operation, Zheng Zhiyong had to face a left leg that was six centimeters shorter than before, which was so unfamiliar that it didn't seem to belong to him.

For Zheng Zhiyong, this is not just a simple "ninth-level disability" on paper. The sweat he has shed in the past four years, as well as various plans and assumptions for the future, are all due to this. reduced to nothing.The worst situation Zheng Zhiyong imagined was not being able to make his debut in SM. He was sweating profusely in front of the mirror in the practice room. When he opened his voice and sought improvement little by little, when he read his lines in front of the mirror and thought of the request of the acting teacher to "shake women's hearts like the second boy in an idol drama", he and the trainees who played well together When talking about everything, from modeling design to stage arrangement, when he was quietly fantasizing, looking forward to, and planning the future alone, he never thought that he would be forced into the world just before his dream came true. hell.

There is nothing better than going straight from the top to the bottom.

"I used to be very confident. I wondered if my self-confidence was self-important for no reason given the situation at the time."

"I can feel it, although you are refraining from being too obvious," Kim Jaejoong said.

"Yeah, how beautiful I was at the beginning, but it was so unacceptable later on," Zheng Zhiyong said, "I don't want to face the facts, and I don't want people who have seen me in the past to see me in a down-and-out state again." I don’t want to just gloat, I don’t want to accept sympathy, that’s all.”

Injured and disabled, the blow to Zheng Zhiyong is immeasurable.The bright future I thought about before has become a broken dream, and the direction needs to be found again. However, when I think of the question of "what to do in the future", I will think of the past and the nightmarish accident again.The weakness of Zheng Zhiyong's character was also exposed at a glance at this time. He once told Kim Jaejoong that he was emotional rather than weak. Yes, Zheng Zhiyong was able to find what he should do and work hard to do it.Therefore, Zheng Zhiyong, who became disabled, did not lie on the bed all day, hurting the spring and autumn. He seriously rehabilitated, studied hard, and strengthened the foreign language seriously, because it is likely that he will rely on it for food in the future. However, other than these, Zheng Zhiyong is almost left with "sad spring and sad autumn".

——His rationality is only enough to support him to do the most basic "what to do".For the rest of the time, Zheng Zhiyong was completely dominated by his sensibility, immersed in sad and depressed emotions, unable to extricate himself.

How dark that time was, one can imagine without Zheng Zhiyong's detailed description.Both Kim Heechul and Kim Jaejoong have experienced ups and downs in the entertainment industry for many years. I don't know how many downs and blows they have experienced. They have no experience or understanding of Zheng Zhiyong's affairs, and it is not easy to make unreasonable comments.Zheng Zhiyong readily admitted his weakness, he is a glass heart, hard, but brittle, leaving a few white marks at most when he was scratched with a knife, but the car accident was a hammer, which shattered with a bang, and became The sharp glass shards all over the ground pierced him bloody, and he couldn't get it back no matter how hard he tried.

"Fortunately, you're doing well now," said Kim Jaejoong, "I've heard your songs before, and they're very good. Be patient and you'll come out sooner or later. I didn't expect you to be so talented in composition."He remembered Zheng Zhiyong's serious hand injury when he learned to play a musical instrument.

"Oh, thank you," Zheng Zhiyong said to Kim Jaejoong with a wry smile, "I ran into Brother Jaebum by chance five years ago, out of sympathy, he wanted to try to give me a hand, isn't Brother Jaebum... blocked, right? It’s not easy to find foreign aid for production, so I did it myself, and I also tried it, only to find out...it would be great if I found out earlier.”

If when Zheng Zhiyong was in SM, Zheng Zhiyong had an interest in creation and discovered his talent in this area, then when something happened, he would not be in a desperate situation overnight and have a mental breakdown.From 2007 to 2010, after three years of decadence, Zheng Zhiyong clearly saw how weak he could be. His self-confidence was wiped out, so that now when he wanted to change his path and start again, He doesn't have the courage to make up his mind anymore, so he can only leave everything to his "feeling", or let people and things he can't control push him forward.

"He used to have a little bit of trouble, but his four years in SM went so smoothly." When he went out, Kim Jaejoong sighed endlessly.I thought I had solved the problem, but the good life suddenly turned into a bubble. The gap was too big, and Zheng Zhiyong was crushed all at once, "If it were me..." I was born with a particularly ill-fated life experience. Kim Jaejoong, who has been watching Changhong's Japanese drama, thought for a while, "I will be decadent for a while, and I'm afraid I will find a channel to vent my anger, but it won't be that long."

"Like that time when you hurt your leg and troubled Jung Ji Yong?" Kim Heechul said.

Kim Jaejoong pushed him angrily, he was in such a bad mood, and Kim Heechul saw his self-willedness for a while, black history, black history.

"However, isn't Zheng Zhiyong the same, because he looks too ugly, so no one wants to see him, and he doesn't want to know about anyone's news. The thing about Li Taemin is really..." Jin Zaizhong wanted to find a word to describe it, but found that It seems that my vocabulary is not enough, "sincere".

Unsurprisingly, Kim Heechul gave him a blank look: "If you don't read enough, don't use words indiscriminately."

"Then you describe it?" You haven't read a few more books than me.

In the end, Kim Heechul was also in trouble, he hesitated for a long time, but finally he could only give up: "I don't know, it's all excusable, and it's not strictly innocent. Jaejoong, tell me, should I tell Li Taemin? I think He'll find out sooner or later."

"Then why did you tell me?"

"At any rate, he knows the facts. If he got the news from other channels, he may have some misunderstandings. You can see that Zheng Zhiyong actually cared about what he did at that time. It would be great if he could reconcile." Kim Heechul said.

"I didn't realize that you and Zheng Zhiyong have a good relationship before." Jin Zaizhong said in an inexplicable tone.

"It's not how good the relationship is. I'm... looking forward to it. I really want to see what he will look like now that he has changed his path."

So I don't mind a little push - anyway, seeing Zheng Zhiyong like this also needs a push.

Kim Jaejoong fell silent for a moment.

"I want to take a look too."

After a long time, he said.