you redeemed me

"Kudo Shinichi, where do you have the confidence!" when she said that.Kudo Shinichi lifted a piece of white cloth covering an unknown object placed in an inconspicuous corner, and the fluttering white cloth drew the arc of the waves, interfering...whose sight.

Miyano Shiho pursed his lips and looked blankly, it was...

During those two years three years ago, she was still in London.

It wasn't long after she gave birth to Kudo Imagawa. At that time, after she learned that the child who was born was pitifully weak and congenitally deficient, and even a small part of the toxins accumulated by her drugs remained in her body, her depression became more and more serious.

She knew that if she didn't have that selfishness, the child might not have to suffer so much.

When her heart hurts badly, she doesn't cry, she just falls in love with painting.

It’s just a sketch, Koizumi Hongzi helps her take care of the children, she sits in front of the window every day, drawing one by one under the soft warm sun in London, the three-story apartment, there are many scenery downstairs, each pair brings When the parents of the children walk by, she will draw such a distant figure that is about to go away. On the next painting, it is the same scene, but everyone has a frontal appearance, but the person on it It's Kudo Shinichi and her. That child is her cute and cute child who imitates Conan's drawing - her son.

In addition, she painted more of the small but vaguely recognizable child who looked like him.

Those who are asleep, those with eyes open, those who spit bubbles, those who bark their teeth and claws, those who are angry...

Each painting is written with her mood at that time, just like a vivid diary.

However, those paintings that cannot be known to others should have been locked by her as a secret in that apartment, the apartment she thought she would never go back to...

Hongzi Koizumi, I really did a crime to know you.

At the same time, in the unknown castle in the sky, commonly known as the rooftop, a woman with red hair and enchanting iconic beauty is leaning on the slender legs of a man who looks like Kudo Shinichi, with a calm and contented expression, wanton and flamboyant, with a pair of The beautiful eyes reveal a kind of calculation and blessing.

"Stop laughing!" A certain man was a little annoyed.

"Why? Are you jealous of me?"

"When you smile...I can't help...I want to kiss you!"

Here, those feelings, those repressed, depressed, and unwilling thoughts were reproduced in front of her and even this man, what kind of shock or bewilderment should it be?It is rare for her to have a blank mind for such a moment, and trivial memories are swept away by the sea like waves...

Stupidly, but still involuntarily got out of bed, barefoot, walked with difficulty step by step, and moved to the place that was once piled messily in the corner of the room, but now neatly framed in the exquisite white wood photo frame, a picture Next to a stack of dominoes, it was placed on a wooden frame, but the scrawled handwriting on each painting was properly exposed.

"It would be nice if I didn't give birth to him, I'm sorry."

"Why, everything I do is wrong."

"Why did we meet, it's like fate."

"Give me another chance, I actually don't want to become a community of destiny with you at all."

"Why, I can't be by your side, why is it not me who is by your side!"

"My childhood sweetheart..."

"Miss you, big detective."

"That kid can crawl, but he can only crawl."

"If it's this child, if it's my child and yours, would you want it?"

"Kudou, I can't afford you, but I thought, I thought, at least I can afford this child."

"Detective, I haven't given him a name. In my heart, I want you to justify his name... Just kidding, don't take it seriously"

"I really want you to see your son's unlucky appearance. He was really carved out of the same mold as you at that time."

"It's spring, the sun is out, and it's warm."

"You said, if we get married...the world will be in chaos."

"Detective, I miss you again"

...................

Her fingernails are very white, without the blood color that a normal person should have. They are slightly pale, and their fingernails are round. They lightly brushed the imprints of every day for two years, and the long-standing memories were instantly restarted.

She suddenly curled her right index finger into her mouth, biting her joints with her teeth, as if in this way, there was no such colic, the pain of being backlashed by memories.

There was a flash of light in Kudo Shin's eyes, and the man had already moved to Miyano Shiho's side, pinched her cheek, forced her to open her mouth, and replaced her fingers with his own, and the long-lasting voice was filled with a faint The vicissitudes of life are like the bell of a shrine, "How long are you going to be stubborn, and I admit defeat, okay?"

Kudo Shinichi, who surrendered, was hurriedly called downstairs, just because the aggressive Fei Mi came to the door, and Moori Kogoro, who was about to kill someone with a kitchen knife, had two mustaches and two mustaches staring at him. One eye stared at four eyes, the flames of war suddenly ignited, and the smoke filled the air. It was a place where the flames of war continued and lives were killed.

Forcibly pressed on the sofa by You Xizi, Mao Lilan, whose body was so thin that she was almost fragile, had reddish eye circles, but did not shed tears.

Seeing Kudo Shinichi go downstairs, she stood up vigilantly. As expected, Kudo Shinichi stopped, stood two meters away from her, and looked at her apologetically.

"I don't need to apologize, you just need to tell me, why...it's not me anymore, Shinichi." She has always been optimistic, positive, firm and persistent, she has never shown weakness easily, let alone give up easily, so, as a The woman she loves and abandons, she only asks for an understanding.

Kudo Shinichi looked at her, as if he wasn't looking at her, but was looking at and thinking about another woman through her body. Finally, he said, with an illusion from a long time ago: "She made me almost unable to see her again." The person who loves you, I once hated her, but at that time, what I didn't know was that I didn't hate her. Because of what, I don't know. "

He smiled, "There are very few things that I can't grasp. I even conceitedly feel that I can even guess people's hearts. I know that I met her. I am rarely caught off guard, or when I have nothing to do, but she always Let me do it, seven years old, it's actually hard, because it's really troublesome to pretend to be a child, but ah, since she joined, since she told me that she is the inventor of ATPX-4869, maybe you don't know, she It is the culprit who turned me into a child."

In his gaze, it was obvious that Mao Lilan covered her mouth in shock.

"From that moment on, I actually subconsciously felt stable and at ease. At least I had hope in my life. Maybe that's the case, maybe it's not true at all. She once said that it was fortunate that I was in despair with her. In fact, what I thought was that in that In days of despair, we have walked through sorrow side by side."

"Five years ago, I came back and she left without saying goodbye. I was actually very lost in my heart, and there was a vacancy in my life, but I didn't want to admit it. Finally, I saw her again five years later. At that time, it was actually faint. I feel that what is empty is full again." The corners of his eyes full of tenderness are like a mirror lake under the moonlit night, and the calmness is due to satisfaction.

"She is obviously gentler than many people, and obviously weaker than many people. She will be slightly annoyed when someone sees through the fragility of a certain part of her heart. In fact, she is not as strong-willed as she looks, but she is damn stronger. She doesn't want to admit defeat. Five years, I always inadvertently recall the state of tacit understanding during the time with her. I even feel nostalgic and don't want to forget. She left me, and I began to fear that those memories would gradually blur and disappear at last, just like Those three years were just a dream, a magical encounter..."

"Stop talking, I... I get it, I get it." She twisted the hem of her sweater, her eyes flickering.

"Lan!" Two voices, one from Fei Mi, and one from Mori Kogoro. When they listened to Kudo Shinichi's narration, they listened quietly, but couldn't help it when Xiao Lan's obviously insincere words Prevent.

Afterwards, Yukiko couldn't help calling Shinichi, she didn't know what to say next, how could she be so embarrassed, she looked at Kudo Yusaku as if asking for help, Kudo Yusaku coughed, walked over, hugged Holding his wife's waist, he whispered: "What are you struggling with, my wife will always have it."

Yukiko also lowered her voice and Yusaku Kudo bit her ear: "The key is that I am reluctant to part with both. Shinichi can only choose one, which means I can only give up one, and I don't want it."

The corner of Kudo Yusaku's mouth twitched, and he gave up talking to his immature wife.

"Lan, I was with her during the few days when I disappeared. At that time, I was injected with a drug, and I was half dead. This time it was not her fault, but she saved me again."

"I made excuses for myself when I felt like I didn't want to live because I couldn't even see you, I couldn't even see you, I thought it was time for me to finish, but she said to me:

You don't dare to see Lan because you care, the only thing you can't bear to see is her disgust towards you, and I'm just an audience you never care about your image. "

"At that time, I suddenly remembered that all my embarrassments were almost always watched by her, and then ridiculed by her cold smile, ridiculed by her that I have never been able to win a round, she always... ..." Kudo Shin paused, as if he was thinking about what to say, "One glance can see through my sadness."

"Then use those indifferent words to stimulate me, making me feel that I must never die in front of this woman."

"Actually, you can come and look for me. You really can. I won't..." She clenched her hands on her belly, and there was tension and grievance trying to hide in her charming pale face.

Kudo Shinichi looked at her, frowning.Sighing slightly: "Lan, that's the proof that I'm in love with her."

"I don't dare to see you, but I dare to teach her to see all my decadence. It's a habit, and it's... There is always a person in this world, you can spread all your embarrassments in front of her, this one People, never need your elegance, gentleman, or dignified and generous side, this person only needs you to show all the dark sides in front of him..."

Everyone in the room was too surprised to open their mouths, because the man said those words last moment, those things they ignored, those things that can be called evidence of love, it turns out that there is such a possibility...

In that almost eternal loneliness, there was a woman who was soft and gentle but seemed to be embracing the warm sun and said slowly: "When I was weak, I seemed to see through my heart. Although I was not reconciled, I was very happy. New one.

Now, I still can't see through your heart... Maybe this is the difference between me and her, maybe, maybe this is why you choose her! "

"No, I chose her not because of the tacit understanding between us." His eyes were firm and serious: "Lan, you are very good, but I...love her. I used to...want to protect you, even though you no longer need my protection , you are strong enough!

But now the only person I want to protect is her, whether she is strong or gentle, she is always inferior to you, so I will think selfishly, only I can afford her! "

"I've changed my mind, the one who loved you once will never come back..."

"Don't tell me I'm sorry, Shinichi, like this kind of thing, it's so beautiful, don't let the sad voice of sorry end it. Shinichi, I like you, I like you, I like you very much. If I can marry you, I want to I will live happily ever after."

"Lan...I..."

Xiaolan shook her head and interrupted him: "Listen to me, Shinichi."

"It doesn't matter if you can't, I can't force you to like me." She smiled playfully: "I'm still very happy, because of you, I learned to like someone, and you are worthy of my liking, which makes me very happy. I think Xiao Ai...she can be your wife, it's very good, she needs a piece of happiness, and you can give it to me. Xinyi, maybe one day, you will also receive a letter from me without your name wedding post."

The author has something to say:

This can be regarded as my understanding of love. Loving someone needs many reasons to support this love. Otherwise, what qualifications and confidence does a person have to make a promise to a person that he will never leave, if a person can’t give a reason , It’s just a kind of vain feeling, I always have the illusion of an excuse when I see it... I don’t believe it, I don’t know what the kids think about it