[Entertainment BTS] 100 confessions and 99 rejections

The itinerary this time is to go to the United States to see a jewelry brand's red carpet and party.

I was invited as a spokesperson for Asia.There is also a photo shoot arranged in the United States.

The five-day schedule is full, and I don't know why, but I always feel uneasy.

I always dance very fast, and my sisters all laughed that I was too nervous or too tired.

I always feel that this has nothing to do with being nervous or tired.

I felt this way from the moment I got off the plane to when I was about to board the plane back home.

"Sister," I grabbed my sister who was about to check in, "Let's change to the next class."

"Oh Mo, why, I don't want to see your man sooner." My sister smiled, "Hurry up, stop making trouble."

"Let's change the flight," I shook my head and grabbed her, "I'm serious."

I just feel tired and dizzy, and my physical condition doesn't allow me to move forward.

"What's the matter?" Seeing that my expression was wrong, my sister asked me, "What's wrong with you?"

The rest of the staff surrounded me together.

"I don't know," I clutched my chest, "I danced so hard, I don't know why."

"Stop joking..." My brother was helpless, "If you want to change the ticket, you have to go through the formalities, so let's stop making trouble?"

"I'm not making a fuss," I frowned, "May I go and take care of it? You guys rest, and I'll treat you to dinner."

They looked very incomprehensible, but they still listened to me.

To be honest, I really don't understand myself.

I took them to a meal that wasn't pleasant, and everyone was tired, but they still had to accommodate me.

When we were about to finish eating, the airport suddenly broadcast a message repeatedly.

We didn't pay attention to it at first, but then the accompanying translator, who was the best English among us, turned pale and stood up suddenly.

We watched her carefully check things with her mobile phone, and we all looked at her.

She trembled all of a sudden, looking at me in a panic, "The plane crashed just now, and it caught fire in the air not long after flying."

I thought I heard it wrong, no, everyone thought they heard it wrong.

"..." The translator swallowed, "All flights have been postponed. We need to stay here for one night today, and the airport will arrange it."

"Really?" The manager brother was already stunned, and said to himself, "How could such a coincidence happen."

The eyes of the sisters turned red, and they were afraid of the consequences if they waited just now.

It's not easy for me to say something unconscionable like "It's fine as long as you're fine", I just kept touching the ring on my hand.

Because we had just changed our booking, it was postponed again, and it took a lot of time to pick up the hotel services provided by the airport.

Anyway, as long as you stay for one night, it's okay to make a living.

"Hurry up and go through the formalities first." I seemed to be the calmest person, "There are too many things to do."

All our flight media reporters knew about it, and there were people who wanted to take pictures the next day.

If I don't get in touch in time, the fake news of my "accident" will immediately spread throughout the country.

But for a while, many people are in the state of needing to go through the formalities.

Everyone is sending messages, the signal at the airport is very poor.

Even after completing the procedures, when I got on the airport bus, the information was not received well.

We had no choice but to contact the person in charge in the United States first and ask him to inform the Korean company that we are safe.

A short message has been passed on for so long, and everyone is concerned.

Into the hotel, connected to the wireless network.

Barely able to make voice calls, everyone is reporting to their families that they are safe.

After calling my parents, I called Jung Ho-seok.

Immediately connected.

"Hello? Hello? Is it Can'er? Can'er?"

As soon as I got connected, I heard his voice, asking questions non-stop.

"It's me," I smiled helplessly, trying not to let him hear my fatigue.

"..." I heard his rapid breathing, then fell silent, followed by a whimper that I tried hard not to hear.

He cried.

...

Speaking of which, I have hardly seen our Haoxi cry.

"Oh, don't cry, I want to cry when you cry," I glanced at my sisters who were crying on the phone, "I don't want the last person in this room who didn't cry to disappear."

I tried my best to pretend that nothing happened, and made fun of him.

He was still crying and not speaking.

"It's a pity that we can't see the way we want Nim to cry." I opened the window to let in the air, and adjusted my emotions. "I can probably get on the plane tomorrow, and I can arrive almost the day after tomorrow."

"I'll pick you up," he said.

"Don't come, there are probably a lot of people," I advised him, "You stay at home, right, what's your itinerary?"

"Ah! The itinerary is not as important as you!" He was angry at me, and was silent for a while, "Wait for me."

"Okay," I replied softly, "I'm super strong, I just want to see you a little bit."

"Wait for me," he said again.

Before I answered, the signal reception was not good, so I forcibly ended the call.

"It was Yin Can who saved us."

I don't know which sister said something.

Everyone should.

"I'm not a magician, I don't know so much," I smiled, "Don't think so much, go to bed quickly."

"My sisters will stop scolding you and treat you better," another sister said.

"My God, you guys said that a few years ago," I pretended to be helpless, "Hurry up and go to bed, I'm so sleepy."

In fact, I didn't fall asleep. Everyone probably thinks a lot.

I thought about what would happen to them if I wasn't here anymore.

People who like me are fine, and so are people who hate me.

Mom and Dad will definitely be immersed in the pain of life, and so will friends.

My Haoxi must be in pain too.

But no matter who it is, they will eventually choose to escape the pain and continue to live.

Everyday without me, life without me.

...

What if I wasn't there in the first place?

Without me.

So what are they like?

Will it be the same as the life they continue to live out of my shadow?

Is Haoxi still the same as now?

There are a large group of people who love him, but I am the only one missing.

I seem to be able to imagine that I am standing among the group of fans in the audience.

Just like the previous concerts, he performed as hard as usual and waved his hands to be cool.

Running all over the field, seeing me is like air, or like an ordinary fan.

Even waving, that is, the special smile for me is missing.

...

I do not want.

This is cruel to me.

"Don't think about it," a sister said suddenly. Although the voice was very small, I still heard it.

I don't know if it's for her or for me.

But thanks to her words, I stopped thinking about it and fell into a deep sleep.

Had a dream without me.

Dreamed of how they continued to live.

Nightmare.

...

The next day I waited until the afternoon to board the plane back home.

In the early morning of the third day, we arrived safely at the South Korean airport.

There are as many fans and media reporters as imagined.

I didn't have any expression to smile at them, greeted them shallowly, and immediately rushed to the car that picked us up.

Not far away, I saw Zheng Haoxi leaning against the car door, looking anxiously at the phone.

"Haoxi!" I paused, let go of the handle of the suitcase, took off the mask, and shouted at him.

The sisters laughed and helped me carry the suitcase.

He jerked his head up, staring at me as if he had woken up.

I ran towards him.

He also ran towards me.

I used both hands and feet together to support him.

Bury your head on his shoulder.

He hugged me so tightly, I could feel how fast his heart was beating and how much he was shaking.

This is different from the hug we had when we met after we made it public.

In the face of life and death, love seems so insignificant.

Therefore, we must cherish everything we have now.

I could feel him crying again, and I was crying too.

The two of us hugged and cried together, and he hugged me to the ground after a long time.

"I have also cleaned up the house, and I have worked hard, and I have worked hard to do everything," he said incoherently, "I can't lose yours, it's not fair to me."

I nodded.

I know, this is really unfair to you.

"...go home," he said to me, touching my face.

"Okay," I smiled, "let's go home."

Go home and stop thinking about it.

You are by my side, what am I afraid of?