Disadvantage

It's been two days since we started eating meat, and Jiang Xuchen is a little bit of a taster, but he didn't go to the end that night.

It's not really because Wen Xingyu told him to get up, but because of Wen Xingyu's... physical reasons.

Hearing Wen Xingyu complain about his poor skills, Jiang Xuchen fell silent.

He poked Wen Xingyu: "But didn't you feel quite comfortable that night?"

Wen Xingyu raised his foot and kicked over: "You have lost all five senses? Why do you care about my life if you are so fucking comfortable... Yes, you are right to say that it is unfair, I will not make you grin It's not fair! Hurry up, take off your pants and get down, I want to be on top!"

Jiang Xuchen put his arms around him, with a bit of grievance that was intentionally revealed and not usually seen at all: "It's the first time, I have no experience, just try a few more times, I'm very good at learning and comprehending."

"Heh." Wen Xingyu snorted softly, "By the way, what did you say just now that you have experienced many battles? Who? Me???"

Jiang Xuchen was silent.

Wen Xing and frowned: "Where did you get this illusion?"

Jiang Xuchen was taken aback: "Illusion?"

Wen Xingyu looked at him quietly.

Jiang Xuchen didn't really want to discuss this topic.

No one wants to have a discussion with a crush about how close they are to an ex.

In Jiang Xuchen's memory, he had met twice...Wen Xingyu and Wen Xingyu's current incumbent, a lonely man and a widow in disheveled clothes were in the same room.

The first time happened when they just finished the college entrance examination and they were going to go abroad.Jiang Xuchen remembered that the boy was Wen Xingyu's hook-up from the city's Academy of Fine Arts, and he was Wen Xingyu's third term.

As for the first love and the second, Jiang Xuchen once mentioned it casually and insincerely, but Wen Xingyu seems to have forgotten it long ago.

The third boy didn't know how he met Wen Xingyu, anyway, it was a routine confession, dating, and breaking up.

During Wen Xingyu's relationship with the third term, Jiang Xuchen went to Wen Xingyu because he wanted to go through the formalities together.

In broad daylight, the curtains in the studio were closed and the lights were dazzling. When Wen Xingyu came to open the door, Jiang Xuchen glanced inside and saw the third one who was wearing pants and naked to the top with his back to the door.

Then there is the term before dating Jiang Xuchen.Jiang Xuchen went to Wen Xingyu's place to find him. Wen Xingyu was wearing a bathrobe, while his predecessor only wore a towel.

The term "experienced in hundreds of battles" is definitely an exaggeration, but from Jiang Xuchen's point of view, once is the same as a hundred times.

The person he likes has done the most intimate thing with someone else, and he is so jealous that he loses shape.

"I ran into it twice." Jiang Xuchen concluded.

Wen Xingyu didn't answer right away, squinting his eyes and recalling the so-called third and former predecessors.

It's a sin, he really can't remember the other person's appearance.

Whether others misunderstood it or not, Wen Xingyu didn't really feel anything, he would mention it on purpose, just out of doubts about Jiang Xuchen's statement.Now that the confusion is cleared up, Wen Xingyu has no urge to explain.

Not a big deal.

However, when he looked up, Wen Xingyu found that Jiang Xuchen didn't seem to think so.

Jiang Xuchen was expressing his emotions unabashedly.

The sourness was so strong that Wen Xingyu could notice it without using his brain.

Frowning, Wen Xingyu asked, "Why do you show such an expression?"

Jiang Xuchen twitched the corner of his mouth: "I thought about it, there was a big problem in our previous relationship. I don't like to show emotions, and you are an elm. It seems that we are very harmonious, but it is not what a couple should be. There is a way of getting along with each other. The things in your bones can’t be changed overnight, and I don’t want to and I don’t have the qualifications to force you. So I can only change it. I will show you a complete analysis of myself, and you only need to share a little bit with me. Good eyes."

Wen Xing and pursed his lips in silence.

Jiang Xuchen's words still had a certain impact on him.

After a while, Wen Xingyu tilted his head and said in a very light tone, "Frankly speaking, I don't remember the looks of the two you mentioned. But other than that, I remember very clearly."

Jiang Xuchen: "Then?"

Wen Xing and Dao: "The person I have always been with, the one who has tolerated me the longest has only just passed three months... Oh, that doesn't include you. Okay, I’m not very picky, but it doesn’t mean I’m not picky in other aspects.”

Wen Xingyu felt that what he said was clear enough, but Jiang Xuchen looked like he didn't understand, and still stared at him with piercing eyes.

Wen Xingyu frowned, a little impatient: "The one in the studio was painting at the time, although I don't understand why he asked me to paint a portrait of him when he was naked. As for the one at my house, It rained heavily on our date, and we both got soaked. Did I make it clear?"

Jiang Xuchen said with a smile: "Well, it is clear. But there is one more thing that is not clear."

Wen Xingyu looked at him lazily.

Jiang Xuchen asked: "You didn't refuse just now, but you didn't agree either... What kind of relationship do we have now?"

Wen Xingyu was so annoyed by Jiang Xuchen's inquisitiveness that he stood up from the sofa suddenly and was about to go upstairs.

"It doesn't matter, stranger, don't bother me."

Jiang Xuchen followed up the stairs step by step: "If you don't deny it...then, boyfriend, please give me your advice."

Wen Xingyu: "Get lost."

The next day, Jiang Xuchen took his luggage and moved directly into Wen Xinghe's house, staying there as a boyfriend.

Wen Xingyu found that Jiang Xuchen talked a lot more, he still looked deserted when he was outside, but his expression changed when he came back to his home.

As for the fact that Jiang Xuchen lived in his house, Wen Xingyu felt that it was acceptable, except that he had a strong sense of human presence.Anyway, he doesn't hate this person, so instead of pushing and entangled, it's better to follow the trend.

Moreover, since the two of them lived together, Jiang Xuchen had packed Wen Xingyu's breakfast and dinner, and Wen Xingyu was also happy to have a leisurely time. He went to the company once a day, and stayed in the small Buddhist hall for two hours when he returned home.

Jiang Xuchen was worried about Wen Xingyu's dislike of his poor skills, and used the spirit of academic research to check a lot of information, and then from time to time, he took Wen Xingyu who was in a good mood that day to practice.

how to say……

Well, rapid progress.

Jiang Xuchen also took Wen Xingyu to re-do all the things he did during the last relationship, but this time the feeling was very different, Wen Xingyu could clearly feel Jiang Xuchen's emotional changes.

For example, it turned out that Jiang Xuchen would feel horrified when watching a horror movie, and asked him to recite Buddhist gatha to listen to it.

For example, Jiang Xuchen, who always drinks coffee every morning, actually likes sweets very much.

……

Wen Xingyu had never noticed these qualities of Jiang Xuchen before.

Jiang Xuchen is very serious in carrying out what he said at the beginning - to show Wen Xingyu a complete analysis of himself.

Repeating similar behaviors and preferences in front of Wen Xingyu day after day can always be engraved in Wen Xingyu's memory.

Facts have proved that it is true.

Later, Jiang Xuchen took Wen Xingyu to ride the Ferris wheel.At that time, it was already the autumn of the next year, and Jiang Xuchen pressed Wen Xing and him in their seats to kiss each other.

"I love you." This sentence has almost become Jiang Xuchen's mantra.

Wen Xingyu suddenly became more confused.

In addition to being confused, he even felt a little bit guilty.

In fact, the past six months have been pretty good, and Wen Xingyu thinks it will be pretty good if he and Jiang Xuchen go on like this for the rest of his life.

But... Wen Xing and asked himself, Jiang Xuchen wanted his sincerity, but he probably couldn't give it.

How can he give something to others that he can't find in two lifetimes.

So when he returned home that day, Wen Xingyu looked at Jiang Xuchen and said bluntly, "Don't waste yourself on me."

Jiang Xuchen paused: "What do you mean? Break up?"

Wenxing and nodding.

Jiang Xuchen said with a smile: "You have talked so many times in the past, I should be the first one you said to break up?"

Wen Xingyu tilted his head to look at him.

Jiang Xuchen went on to say: "Although it's an honor to be treated specially by you, don't even think about breaking up. If you dare to break up, I will dare to pester you to death. Let's see who is more patient."

Wen Xing and shrugged: "If you don't know, you can't. I'm not the one who suffers."

Soon Wen Xingyu felt that he had said something wrong, and was pushed up and down by Jiang Xuchen on the bed, and was forced to call her husband, which was a big loss.

"Honey," Jiang Xuchen whispered in his ear, "I love you to death, Tegouren."

Wen Xingyu just scratched him, wherever he touched his hand, he scratched hard.

10

Time to enter winter.

Jiang Xuchen suddenly said to Wen Xingyu: "Come home with me this weekend, my parents want to see you."

Aunt Jiang is a good friend of Wen Xing and his mother Wen Ya. Wen Xing and he have met Jiang's aunt many times before, and are also very familiar with Jiang Xuchen's parents. Hearing this, he said indifferently: "Okay."

Seeing that he agreed so readily, Jiang Xuchen pursed his lips and said, "I mean, my parents want to see my boyfriend."

Wen Xingyu was stunned for a while, before saying: "Is it necessary?"

These words made Jiang Xuchen's heart pounding.

"Are you unhappy being with me?" Jiang Xuchen asked.

Wen Xing and Frank shook their heads.

Jiang Xuchen: "If I didn't make a mistake, if I didn't say break up, would you break up with me?"

Wen Xingyu paused for two seconds before shaking his head hesitantly.

Jiang Xuchen went on to say: "So you are also willing to stay with me for the rest of your life...In this case, it is naturally necessary to meet my parents."

Wen Xingyu felt that he was about to be caught up in Jiang Xuchen's logic.

"No, that's not right." Wen Xingyu said, "You told me two days ago that your parents are urging you to get married. If I go back with you, your parents will most likely mention it. At that time, only It's going to be ugly, it's not necessary."

Jiang Xuchen's fingertips trembled slightly: "You don't want to marry me."

Wen Xingyu staggered Jiang Xuchen's gaze, and said, "I told you, I am an unmarriageist."

"Yes, but that has nothing to do with meeting your parents. If you don't want to get the certificate, then we won't get it, but my family should meet anyway. When parents talk about marriage, we can just deal with it..."

"I can't handle it."

"Then I'll..."

"Jiang Xuchen, you..." Wen Xingyu was momentarily at a loss for words.

Jiang Xuchen felt uncomfortable.

Even if he had already guessed that it would be like this, even if he had voluntarily done it from the beginning, it would still be uncomfortable at this point.

"Actually, in the final analysis, it's just because you don't love me." Jiang Xuchen took a deep breath and said, "No matter how much I do, it will make you feel guilty and move you, but you still don't love me."

"I knew what kind of temperament you are from the beginning, and I also know my own personality very well. So when I found that I liked you, I used my reason to cut off the sign. But I kept pinching... I still like you, but I just couldn't bear it. Later I couldn't help it anymore, and I confessed to you... You really agreed, and I guessed that you would agree, but I couldn't be happy, because it meant that I was no different from other people in your heart. "

"We are obviously together, but I am even more sad. I don't know how to treat you. I don't want to go on like that anymore. I thought about staying away from you... I said break up, and you readily agreed. Since then At the beginning, I told myself that I can give up."

"But I still love you." Jiang Xuchen looked at Wen Xingyu, a little sad, "I don't know what's good about you, but I just love you. I thought if I changed, we would be different... In the end, It's just what I thought."

Jiang Xuchen didn't know what he was talking about.In fact, emotionally, like Wen Xingyu, he stumbled and didn't know where to go.

Was this confession just because Wen Xingyu didn't want to meet his parents as his boyfriend?

no.

Or rather, not just because of that.

The stronger the emotion, the greater the expectation.Jiang Xuchen had waited too long and too much, and suddenly couldn't stop at this moment.

Jiang Xuchen said: "...I'm not good enough, I can't give you enough sense of security, I can't make you believe that we will be together forever.

11

Wen Xingyu's expression was a little dazed, Jiang Xuchen was silent for a while, then suddenly raised his hand as if recovering, and rubbed Wen Xingyu's head.

"I'm sorry, I scared you." Jiang Xuchen smiled, "You treat me as having a convulsion, and you should let me be self-willed once in a while, right?"

Wen Xingyu remained silent, subconsciously grabbing the wrist of his other hand with one hand.

The pulse was beating fast.

It is the same as the state of his heart that he feels now.

"Good night." Jiang Xuchen had already said.

After Jiang Xuchen finished speaking, he went upstairs.

Although most of the time, two people are in the same room, but there is also a separate room for Jiang Xuchen in Wen Xing and here.

Although he knew that Jiang Xuchen must have gone back to his own room, Wen Xingyu was subconsciously not used to seeing anyone in the master bedroom when he went upstairs.

There was only a momentary strangeness, Wen Xingyu quickly suppressed it, took his nightgown and went into the bathroom.

What Jiang Xuchen said tonight had never been said before, and Wen Xingyu had never asked him when he started liking him, but when he suddenly heard that it was a long time ago, Wen Xingyu's first reaction was...here up.

It's over for him and Jiang Xuchen.

Jiang Xuchen finally couldn't stand him anymore.

Jiang Xuchen said these words, not only to confide, but also to say goodbye.Wen Xing and subconsciously received such a message.

It's actually quite good...Wen Xingyu sank himself into the bathtub, and after a while, he poked his head out for a change of breath, and went back and forth several times.He thought that Jiang Xuchen was finally freed, and he could go back to the kind of life he had imagined at the beginning—to die alone, to adopt a child in middle age, and not to let the Wen family have no successors.

Lie on the edge of the bathtub, warm and dazed.

That night, Wen Xing and the rare insomnia.After lying on the bed for two hours, he barely managed to feel sleepy.

When I woke up the next morning, there was no trace of Jiang Xuchen in the house.

Jiang Xuchen took away all his belongings.

Sure enough.

People like Wen Xingyu are only suitable for dying alone.

Wen Xingyu walked around and took a piece of bread from the refrigerator.After dealing with breakfast, Wen Xingyu decided not to go to the company today.

I knelt and sat in the small Buddhist hall all morning, ate at noon with the vegetables in the refrigerator, and copied Buddhist scriptures all afternoon.As night fell, Wen Xingyu looked at the writing under his hands and became much calmer.

So far, the full stop is complete.

Dust to dust, dust to dust, the Yangguan road and the single-plank bridge are no longer related to each other.

12

If Wen Xingyu was to tell what his obsessions were in his two lifetimes, the only one who could go was Wen Xingyu.

After Jiang Xuchen left, Wen Xingyu stayed in the company permanently, and went to the small Buddhist hall when he got home. Although life was simple, Wen Xingyu felt that it was quite fulfilling.The weight that goes in the opposite direction from the company's rising efficiency can be said to be proof.

Within a month, Wen Xingyu found that he had lost ten catties in weight.

It's nothing more than ten catties, but most of the ten catties missing are reflected on the face and arms, which is very problematic.Those who didn't know thought that Wen's was going to close down and couldn't eat anymore.

Apart from eating more, Wen Xingyu didn't take this matter to heart.

There is no collective heating in winter in the south, but there is heating in Wen Xingyu's house, so the quilt he covers at night is relatively thin.Unexpectedly, the electricity in the house was cut off that night, and the heating stopped.

Wen Xingyu fell into a drowsy sleep, subconsciously wrapping himself in the quilt as much as possible.

As a result, the next morning, Wen Xinghe had a fever.

His head hurt from the fever, Wen Xing and supported him and went downstairs to find the medicine box. While turning over the fever medicine, there was movement at the gate.

Looking back, the door has been opened, and Jiang Xuchen is standing at the door with his suitcase.

Wen Xingyu wondered if he had a hallucination, and he still had to call 120, so as not to pass out immediately.

He got up to get his phone, but he staggered and almost fell down.

Wen Xing and dizzy, and then lost consciousness.

Opening his eyes again, Wen Xingyu found that he had been sent to the hospital.

The person guarding the hospital bed was Jiang Xuchen.

It was not an illusion.

"Are you awake?" Jiang Xuchen asked, "Is there any other discomfort?"

Wen Xing and his lips and tongue were a little dry, he looked at the kettle beside the bed.

Jiang Xuchen got up and poured him a glass of water, and then rolled up the hospital bed so that Wen Xing and Ke Ke could drink it easily.

Seeing Wen Xing and drinking water slowly, Jiang Xuchen was a little bit annoyed: "It's not like you have lived alone before, why did you make yourself like this after not seeing you for a month? If I just went back , you will be burned into a fool."

After Wen Xingyu finished drinking the water, he followed his words and asked, "Why are you back again?"

Jiang Xuchen said unhappily: "I'm guilty | cheap, I can't forget you, I worry that you have been spoiled by me for a year, and you don't even know which clothes to wear." After finishing speaking, Jiang Xuchen sighed lightly again, "I persisted for a month. I used this time to think about it calmly. I think my life is probably in your hands. You can watch it...at least until you find the person who can open your heart. Let me stay with you, okay?"

Putting down the cup, Wen Xingyou stroked his knuckles and said, "I seem to have found it."

Jiang Xuchen choked.

Wen Xingyu said again: "By the way, can I still visit your parents? As your boyfriend."

Time stands still, space stagnates.

Jiang Xuchen was stunned for a moment, followed by ecstasy.

"Yes! Of course!" Jiang Xuchen squatted slightly, looking parallel to Wen Xing and sitting on the hospital bed, and said, "But don't worry, I'll wait for the day when you are really ready."

You are willing to take a step towards me, and I am already ecstatic.

As long as you are willing to take a step towards me, I have the confidence to cross thousands of mountains and rivers.

-Finish-

The author has something to say:

OK, finished writing~

Passionate short story, write whatever you think of, let yourself go, the whole painting style and plot are a bit off from the idea in your mind at the beginning, only to find out that it has nothing to do with the name of the article after writing, the second part of the copy can be used as I watched it in the small theater 【……

So Quiet Mimi changed the name of the article, and the copywriting and cover will be fine~

Although it is a bit off track, but I have basically written out the dog blood that was always bubbling in my mind before, happy w