The ten-year trace of the soul of chess

What happened after Zuowei disappeared...

Zuo, for.

It's like being in a long struggle.

Light lowered his head and stopped looking into Liang's eyes.

He was silent, and Liang waited for him quietly.

He was uneasy, and Liang squeezed his hand tightly.

Maybe a few minutes, maybe ten minutes later, Hikari finally raised his head to look at Ryo: "Taya, do you still remember that day in Dogenzaka, Mr. Kawai talked about my going to Hiroshima?"

"I was looking for Sato... I thought that as long as I went to Toranojiro's hometown, I would be able to find him."

But in the end, he wasn't anywhere I went.

I still lost him...

I want to make the atmosphere of the conversation as less oppressive as possible.

Just tried to hook the corners of his lips, but failed completely.

After those words just now, the computer seemed to freeze suddenly.

He just looked at Ryo so apologetically, and then, at a certain moment, he seemed to hear a voice saying, go on.

The person in front of you deserves everything you can tell about Zuo Wei.

The fingers curled up slightly unnaturally.

After a pause for a few more seconds, Hikaru seemed to finally obey his heart, and slowly opened his mouth: "Zoe... he seldom talks about himself. I used to think he was very powerful, but until I watched dozens of games of Toranojiro stay behind." Only then did I realize that Zuowei is a genius. There are so many people who want to play against him. Mr. Taya is. Mr. Ogata is. You are too. But what did I do? I only You only want to play chess by yourself, but selfishly deprive you of the right to play chess with Zuowei."

"At that time, I thought, as long as he comes back, I will never play Go again. He can play as much as he wants! I will let him play for hundreds or thousands of games!" Guang looked at Liang, his emotions slowly I got excited, but halfway through the sentence, the excited expression on my face completely collapsed, "But he just disappeared. That guy clearly told me that he was going to disappear, but I didn't take it seriously at all. I even When Zuo Wei disappeared, and when he disappeared, I don’t know if he said anything to me.”

"That sucks, doesn't it?"

As if hearing an extremely ridiculous story, Guang Zhaoliang smiled self-deprecatingly, but his eye circles were a little red.

It was such a bright and cheerful smile that made Liang feel pain like a needle in his heart.

He wished he could interrupt the light immediately and directly press the light into his arms.

But at this moment, he knew that what Guang needed most was to confide and vent without reservation.

After a while, he listened to the light and continued: "Taya, have you experienced it? There is such a person, whether you like it or not, you get along with him day and night every day, and he has seen everything you look like. You think you will always Can’t get rid of him. But suddenly one day, he disappeared without warning, and you can’t find him anywhere. There are only long paragraphs and his memories flooding in. You have a lot to say I want to tell him, think about when he will come back, I must beat him up, or quarrel with him, but I never have the chance to speak again."

"That feeling, do you understand?"

On the wall clock on the wall, the minute hand goes from "3" to "7".

In the air, Guang's almost restrained voice could be heard intermittently.

Pressed in my heart for so long.

Guangyuan thought that he had forgotten the pain and helplessness when Zuowei left, but it turned out that it was just a layer of ashes under the past. With just a light blow, it revived and made a comeback...

It hurts.

My heart hurts like it's about to burst.

"Zoe, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Unable to control it any longer, large streams of tears rolled down from Guang's eyes.

At this point in time, all the regrets poured out like a flood gate.At first, she shed tears silently as if suppressed, and then she cried bitterly as if she couldn't bear it.

Feeling PV's shoulders trembling violently in front of his chest, Liang's face seemed to be covered with unspeakable pain.

Even though he had thousands of words to comfort Guang, at this moment he could only hug him tightly with all his strength and pat his back lightly.

"If you want to cry, just cry."

After a few minutes, the crying gradually died down.

Guang smiled at Zhao Liang with some embarrassment, took out a tissue and blew his nose.

When Guang finally calmed down, Liang said, "Guang, Sai means a lot to you, and I don't deny that. When Sai disappears, you will suffer, regret, and even let yourself be depressed. I can do all these things too." Empathy. But Hikari, this is your life, not Sai's. You only have one life, and there is no rebirth. You have every right to dominate your own life. Sai's disappearance is not your fault. It has nothing to do with you. You can even Said, without you, there would be no Sai."

The light looked bright, but said nothing.

Liang wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes: "Do you still remember the 'Millennium Project' we talked about in the Go club?"

Light nodded.

"I don't know what Sai's mood was like before he disappeared, but I think he will be glad to meet you. Because you are the only witness that he has ever appeared in this world. For a chess god, invincibility is the best. Lonely. He taught you Go, and disappeared from your life. But what he left you, will always exist. You are his successor, not the executioner who made him disappear. Light, put down the burden, you will Go faster and go further."

For a long time, the guilt for Zuowei's disappearance was like a poisonous thorn, deeply rooted in Guang's heart.

But Taya's words today were like enlightenment, and Guang suddenly felt that the thorn he planted with his own hands could finally be pulled out.

"Well, it's... all right."

When he looked at Liang again, the haze in Guang's eyes had been swept away.

He leaned closer to Liang, and kissed Liang's lips lightly.

Liang lightly caressed Guang Guang's side face, and said again: "Guang, don't think I'm indifferent. I hope you will always be happy. But several times, I heard you crying and calling Sai's name in your dreams..."

"Well, no." Guang said, reaching out to hug Liang, and patted him on the back.

After a while, as if thinking of something, he let go of his hand, and Guang stared at Liang suspiciously: "So, Taya, are you jealous? I called Sai's name in the dream?"

Liang froze for a moment, propped his forehead and thought it was a little funny.

But after thinking about it, it seemed like this, so he said calmly: "Well, there was. But now I am more grateful to Sai. If there is no Sai, we will not meet; if there is no Sai, I will not After chasing you, there will be nothing that happened after that."

The two parallel lines that did not intersect originally, seemed to be hooked lightly by Sai's fingertips, and there was an inevitable point of intersection from then on.

Suddenly, I wanted to do something for Sai.

Liang embraced Guang, and asked softly, "Guang, have you considered organizing Sai's chess records into a book?"

Light was startled slightly.

"The only ones who know that Sai exists are you and me. But if Sai's game records are recorded and printed into a book, they can be passed down forever. Although the world will never know Sai's true identity, they will always remember that there was once a Sai on the Internet. A legendary chess player whose ID is Sai..."

Afterwards, it seemed that Liang said something else, but Guang could not hear clearly.

When Liang explained his thoughts, he just looked at him steadily.

It's like being poured a cup of tea soup in my heart. After the bitterness passes, there is endless sweetness.

The world is so big, but it happened that I met Taya.So so good Taya.

What he didn't think of, Taya actually thought of it for him...

After some words, he didn't hear Guang's answer, so Liang asked again: "Guang, do you think this is okay?"

After a while, as if he just came back to his senses, Guang's eyes suddenly lit up: "If I want to print it into a book, what should I do? First of all, it is the chess record. First, I must prepare the game record, right? To whom? Can I find Mr. Amano?"

He sat up straight, feeling a surge of hot blood rushing straight to his forehead.

"Guang, Guang." Liang called out several times in a row before Guang quieted down.

Liang lightly held Guang's hand, and discussed as if coaxing: "Let's go step by step, starting with the chess record first, and I'll help you sort it out, okay?"

It was said that Guang was like an excited little animal, Chong Liang kept nodding his head.

When nodding, the soft hair also swayed, and Ming Liang couldn't help but want to rub the messy hair.

So he boldly asked Guang: "Can I... mess up your hair?"

"???" Guang tilted his head, looking puzzled.

It's not that I haven't touched it before.

As if seeing the confusion of the light, Liang blushed slightly, smiled faintly, and then said: "A long time ago, I saw Mr. Kawai rubbing your hair so intimately, I was very envious."

"... Huh? What you envy is very special, Taya." Although he was teasing, Hikari felt unreasonably uncomfortable in his heart, as if the distance between them was suddenly widened, but because of this Taya, who is entangled in trifles and troubles, makes him feel very cute.

Sighing silently, Guang finally grabbed Liang's hand and covered his head with it: "Please."

Liang slightly opened his eyes wide, full of childlike joy in his eyes.

He tried to rub his bald hair first, and when he saw that the light was not unpleasant, he stepped up and gently scratched his bald hair.

"Taya, you're really—" Feeling the gentle touch of Liang's fingertips running through his hair, Hikaru couldn't help poking the dimple on Liang's lips, "It's so cute!"

Having grown up so big, it was the first time someone said she was cute, and it was from a lover's mouth, Liang's cheeks flushed instantly.

The red-faced Taya-kun more and more aroused Hikari's desire to bully, he called softly: "Taya."

"Ok?"

"Can you let me have a bite?"

Before Liang could answer, Guang rushed forward and took a bite on Liang's neck.

Immediately there was a clear tingling sensation on the skin.

But not heavy, very light.

"Hight, are you a vampire?" Seeing that Hikari was about to lose his balance, Liang quickly hugged Hikari and rubbed his messy hair with a smile.

Guang just hugged Liang's neck, rubbing against Liang's shoulder.

Feeling that the little deer bumping in my heart finally calmed down, I raised my head and said to Liang: "Taya, let's continue the review."

Deep in everyone's heart, there may always be several unknown pasts.

These pasts, they may make you cry, they may have weighed you down.You look up at the sky, but like a person about to drown, you can't see where the exit is.But when one day you really choose to face them, you will find that the pain in your heart is healing little by little, and your heart is actually stronger than you imagined.

Although he stopped in the qualifiers for the throne battle, in the next few months, Hikari passed all the major title battles with a strong momentum.

And Liang, after wandering around several times, finally stood at the gate of the celebrity title challenge.

The same is between Youxuan.

Three months ago, Hikari was narrowly defeated by Ogata Seiji here; and three months later, in this long-history game room, Taya Ryo, as the youngest eighth-dan Go player in the history of Japanese Go, won the The right to challenge the Celebrity Title Battle—according to the latest promotion system of the Chess Academy, those who have won the challenge right to the Celebrity Battle will be directly promoted to the eighth dan.

Liang knew that Guang would definitely watch his chess match.

When he walked out of the Youxuan Room and faced the light, Liang was inexplicably nervous.

As if seeing through Liang's thoughts, Guang deliberately said with emotion: "Ah—it was so hard to catch up with you, but I didn't expect to be left behind by you again."

Because of the lessons learned from the past, Liang was a little worried at first, but after hearing Guang's words, he became more uneasy as if his guess had been confirmed.

"Taya, in your eyes, am I that narrow-minded?" Having enjoyed enough of his lover's funny expression, Hikaru suddenly stopped, "There is a saying, I never said it to you, right?"

Staring into Liang's eyes, Guang paused and said, "I'm proud of you."

Between him and Taya, it was like a game with only two people.So what if Taya surpassed him for a while.As long as he is still playing chess and keeps moving forward, he will definitely be able to stand shoulder to shoulder with Taya again.

"And one day, I hope I can also be your pride."

When the lights came on, the bright neon lights illuminated the serious face.At this time, Guang was no longer the young man who fell into panic when he heard that Liang had advanced to the seventh stage, and his brows were more determined and tenacious.

In the midst of people coming and going, Liang stared at the light silently for a long time.I want to say that you have always been my pride.And I was afraid that Guang would feel perfunctory.I also want to say that I have been watching you.Before the words came out, he was denied by himself.

A short sentence, after several twists and turns between the teeth, Liang finally said: "If you have the ability, just catch up, Shindo!"

As if knowing that Liang would say that, Guang smiled knowingly, then leaned into Liang's ear, and asked in a low voice: "Are you ready to accept the gift, Ta, Ya, and Jun?"

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The first draft was written on 2017.5.15

2019.1.6 Read it again, I feel that my writing is horrible, please make a small repair>//<~~