The ten-year trace of the soul of chess

"Ta, Taya?" Liang's hand was so strong that it hurt so much.

But as if realizing what Taya would say next, Hikari just stared at him fixedly.

Then, he heard Liang say, "Guang, can you stop? I don't want...to continue..."

In the past few days, the boulder in my heart finally fell to the ground.The bare lips moved, but he didn't utter a single syllable.

"Guang, I was wrong." Liang lowered his eyes, and lightly brushed the back of Guang's hand with his thumb, "In the future, no matter what happens, I will never let go of your hand. Even if it makes you feel painful, let you If you feel pressured, I will hold you tightly. So, the 'January appointment' ends here, okay?"

Liang spoke very softly and slowly, the cautiousness in his tone pierced Guang's heart, but his expression remained indifferent.

He heard himself ask Taya coldly: "But Taya, if one day, because of our affairs, you... can no longer play chess, will you regret it?"

Can no longer play chess...

Liang had never thought about this question.

But when all the obstacles are placed on the same scale as the light, he knows so clearly that the overwhelming one will always be the light.

Liang touched Guang's face, and smiled faintly: "Isn't there still you? As long as you are by my side, there will never be such a day. Guang, I already... don't want to experience this feeling again."

Hikaru's heart seemed to be rubbed by people in every possible way, and it was very uncomfortable, but he still looked at Liang with a blank expression: "Taya, it's hard, isn't it?"

Light bit his lip.

"Seven days. Taya, I waited for seven days, and you are finally willing to say this." Guang smiled, but showed a bit of embarrassment, "These days, I have been thinking, when did you say it, and what did you say in your heart? What do you think? I bet myself that you will definitely stop this... trial within a month—at least, I don’t think it’s just a game from the beginning to the end. But if the month is over, you still I don’t dare to think about this question at all, what should I do if I don’t ask to stop. This feeling of stepping on the ground is empty, Taya, do you understand?”

Bright:"……"

Guang: "Taya, once some words are spoken, they can never be taken back. If I promise you that day, and when the day comes, I will be really cowardly, tired, and unable to hold on. Are you serious? Going to let go and pretend it's back to square one? Can you go back?"

Liang: "Guang, I..."

"Shut up and listen to me!" Hikaru interrupted him roughly, "Taya Ryo, I'm not a porcelain doll that can shatter when touched, I'm not as fragile as you think. Compared with the pressure outside, you can hide everything Look at me, don't tell me, want to carry everything alone, which makes me more worried and uncomfortable, how many times do I have to tell you these words?!!"

Guang spoke faster and faster, and almost roared out at the end of the sentence.

But after yelling, Guang suddenly felt aggrieved, and his nose became sour: "Do you think I'll be fine if you have to toss about such a 'role-playing'? I've been having a bad time these days, Ta Ya. I often wake up suddenly and eat a lot every day, but I still feel empty, as if a big hole has been dug in my body. If there are some things, I may have never said it before, but today I will just say it all at once. I I've never liked anyone before, and I don't know what it's like to like someone. But I know, I treat you differently from others. Hegu and Yijiao are my friends, but I won't treat you What other thoughts do they have. But when I see you, I want to kiss you, hug you, and when I can’t see you, I’m full of your business. You’ve already occupied this place, Taya.”

Guang poked his own heart with his hands: "You think I'm just a whim when I'm with you, don't you? When I wake up, I may pat my ass and leave at any time, don't you? Taya, you put me What do you think, and what do you think of yourself? If I hated you, I would never take the initiative to go to the Go club, let alone take you to grandpa’s house and talk to you about Sai. What is homosexuality all about? I used to I don’t know, and I’ve never researched it.”

"I just know that I like you. It's the kind of liking that my body will react to when I see you. Although you are stupid, stubborn and like to get into the horns, I still like you. I feel very relaxed and comfortable with you. Because it is You, because you said that the person who likes me is you Ta Ya Ryo, so I am willing to turn myself into a 'fag', 'pervert', 'gay' in other people's mouth! Because I want to be with you all the time, I want to be with you Let's live together. Is that enough? Is it enough?!"

As Guang spoke without panting, he felt that the double image in his vision became more and more obvious.

"So, Taya," Hikari's expression softened, and he tried his best to smile at Ryo, "Don't try to close the door that is open to me."

He clenched Liang's hand tightly: "One day I'm tired and can't hold on anymore, I will definitely tell you. But that doesn't mean I regret it. I just hope you can hold my hand tightly and let me lean on you behind me Damn. Did you understand?"

"..."

The surroundings suddenly became quiet.

Almost at the same time that Guang's voice fell, Liang pressed him into his arms, wishing to integrate him into a part of his body.

The towel that originally covered his bald head slipped down slowly and curled up quietly at his feet.

In a place where the light can't see, that young man who always looks so calm and calm, his eyes are so red that he seems to be bleeding.

"Of order." Ryo kissed Hikari's ear, and whispered in his ear over and over again, "I'm sorry, Hikari. I was wrong, I'm sorry..."

Facing Guang who gave his heart all to him, Liang had no choice but to remain calm.Maybe that night, when he said that sentence, he subconsciously hoped that Guang could answer him in this way, that he could give him a hand.

Guang buried his face in Liang's shoulder, and hugged him back: "Taya, these few days, I suddenly want to understand something."

Liang smiled lightly: "What?"

Guang hugged him tighter and tighter: "I like you. Even if you are just a 'roommate', I still like you. Although I have grown up so much, although there are many things I regret, but in the matter of 'falling in love with you', no matter how important No matter how many times I come here, I won't regret it."

Liang was slightly taken aback, and suddenly felt that he could no longer selfishly let it be trapped in his heart.

Some emotions are like a tsunami, quickly overwhelming him.

So he called softly: "Light."

"Huh?" Light looked up at him.

"Light." Liang said again.

"What's the matter?" Light smiled.

"Light, light..."

"I'm here, I'm here." Hikari's eyes were bent, "I didn't realize you were so childish, Taya."

Ke Liang's expression was extremely serious, but also extremely gentle.

He supported Guang's waist, as if he was brewing something.

For a moment, he looked at the light, his lips slowly opened and closed.

He finally said, "I love you."

"What..." Guang suddenly opened his eyes wide, his voice trembling slightly, "You, you..."

"Shinto Hikaru, I love you, I love you." Ryo looked straight into Shinto's eyes and said word by word.

Guang was stunned, and his eye sockets turned red uncontrollably.

He finally heard this sentence.

It is no longer unfamiliar Chinese, no longer the long silence in front of the bathroom, and no longer the implicit "the moonlight is so beautiful".

He finally heard Liang say to him in his native language, I love you.

He bit his lower lip tightly to make himself less emotional, but he still felt his lips trembling.

He tried his best to open his eye sockets, trying to see Taya's smiling eyes more clearly, but the more he opened them, the more sour they became.

Liang looked at Guang tenderly, without needing to say a word, he had already understood the other party's thoughts.

Holding the back of Hikari's head with one hand, he lowered his head and kissed his lover's lips.

Guang also turned his head slightly, and kissed Liang back, his hands involuntarily wrapped around Liang's neck, pressing against his chest.

Liang's breathing suddenly became rapid and chaotic at this moment.He hugged Guang tightly, pressed between Guang's teeth, first gently touched his lips and tongue, and then kissed him deeper and deeper, as if he wanted to plant a cloud of fire in his lover's body...

seven days.Seven full days.

But even if they are tightly entangled with each other at this moment, the emptiness brought about by these seven days of alienation still cannot be resolved.

They kissed all the way, and retreated from the living room to the door of the bedroom. Along the way, they seemed to bump into the legs of the sofa and the coffee table, and they had no time to take care of it.

Liang's slender fingers penetrated into the light pajamas, groping back and forth on his back.When the legs and feet of the two hit the door of the master bedroom, Liang wrapped his arms around Guang's waist, pushed the door open, and pushed Guang directly onto the bed.

Hearing Liang's heavier breathing, Guang laughed silently, raised his hand to touch Liang's face, and gently placed his hand on his chest.Even through the clothes, he could still "hear" the fast and powerful beating of his heart.

"Taya, are you... nervous?"

Putting his hands beside Guang's ears, Liang's chest heaved violently.

Looking tenderly at the lover below/with a flushed face, the delicate kisses fell like raindrops again, from Guang's forehead to his eyes, lips, and collarbone...

The moment he buried his head in front of Hikari's chest, Hikari's body tensed invisibly.

Guang's reaction made Liang almost unable to restrain himself, and leaned down again, he gently brushed aside the bangs blocking Guang's eyebrows, and asked softly, "Guang, can I?"

……

When he was carried into the bathroom by Liang, his whole body was soft.

When Liang's fingertips poked back, Hikaru instinctively straightened his body: "Taya, what are you doing?"

Liang bowed his head and kissed his forehead, and explained patiently: "If you don't clean it up, you will have a fever."

Guang's face turned red all of a sudden, and he put his hands on Liang's shoulders, and finally he no longer resisted so much.

The hot water wet the two of them, and Guang leaned softly on Liang's body, feeling lazy and relaxed all over the body.

I didn't feel this way before, but now that the two of them are crowded together, I suddenly feel that the shower room is a bit small.

"It would be great if there was a bathtub." Guang chuckled, his voice seemed to have a hint of drunkenness, "You can soak your whole body in the water."

Liang hugged him tightly and kissed his ear: "Guang, what kind of home do you want?"

Guang's head was dizzy, and he said without brain thinking: "It doesn't need to be too big, just have you. If possible, it's better to have a bathtub, a double-door refrigerator, and put a lot of food. I like your house very much. The chess room, the verandah, and the courtyard..."

It may be that the dense water vapor can help sleep, or it may be due to excessive exercise. Just talking, the voice lowered a little bit.

When did he leave the bathroom, how did he get back into the room, when did he change into his pajamas, Guang had no idea.

When I opened my eyes again, it was already the next morning.

As soon as he turned his head, he could see the person next to the pillow, his hands still hugging him tightly.

Guang couldn't help but relax the movement of turning over, even breathing carefully.

The reputation of the noble son of the chess world is not in vain.Ta Ya's eyes are narrow and long, the bridge of his nose is straight, and his thin lips are clearly lined.Waking up early in the morning is often the time when a person's face is the sloppiest, but Taya's cheeks are still clean and fresh.In the twilight of the morning, the stern look of the sunset was gone, and the quiet and peaceful sleeping face made people feel soft.

Looking at the face he had seen countless times before him, Guang had to admit that his heart was still moved...

As a professional chess player, a strong memory can sometimes cause some small troubles.

When the memory of yesterday was revived in his mind little by little, and when Liang entered his body, the feeling that the two of them seemed to be integrated into one body, at this moment came to his heart clearly again, and Guang suddenly felt a little at a loss.

Even though he was at a loss, he couldn't help but want to take another look.

Guang looked blatantly, suddenly Jian Liang opened his eyes, was caught off guard, and hurriedly turned around.

"Good morning." Liang tightened his arms and dragged Guang into his arms, "Are you blushing? Your heart is beating fast."

Hearing a faint laughter behind him, Guang was inexplicably annoyed, but still muffledly said, "Morning."

Liang turned the light back, first kissed his hair, as if it wasn't enough, then kissed the corners of his eyes.Everything last night was like a mirror, so beautiful that it was unreal. It was not until now that he hugged Guang in his arms and felt the temperature of his body, did Liang finally confirm that the light finally belonged to him completely.

At this moment, the indescribable joy came up like a tide, and finally merged into a sentence that lingered in my ears: "Guang, I love you."

Guang Beiliang was so sticky that he was a little bit disgusted, but when he heard Liang say this sentence again, the little bit of temper just now disappeared in an instant, and he only contemptuously said in a slightly reproachful tone, "Taya, are you an idiot?"

"Well, it's an idiot." Liang rubbed his lighted face lightly, "Because all my luck and wisdom were used to meet you."

He just didn't speak, but felt a sudden dampness in his heart, while he disliked his lover, but at the same time, he liked the tender time when the two of them were lying together like now.

Holding Guang in his arms, Liang seemed to be hesitating for something, and after a while, he asked softly: "Guang, do you feel uncomfortable? Did I...did you hurt you last night?"

Guang was stunned for a moment, and roared almost blushing: "Can you stop talking!!"

In fact, except that the waist and thighs are a little sore, it is not as uncomfortable as imagined.On the contrary, Taya seems to be scruples about her own feelings, always cautiously restraining herself.

Guang felt a little sorry in his heart: "Well, Taya..."

"Ok?"

"You yesterday..." Before the question was finished, Guang's face was already flushed.

Realizing that Guang wanted to ask something, Liang hugged him, and whispered in his ear, "It's very comfortable."

Light:"……"

This person...why can he stay offline like this! ! !

Guang struggled a few times in Liang's arms, and when he hit something, he suddenly stopped moving: "Taya, you..."

"Hush..." Liang kissed Guang Guang's forehead, "Do you want to sleep again?"

Light shook his head lightly, stayed quiet for a while, and poked his head out of Liang's arms again.

"Taya." He called out.

"Huh?" Liang replied lightly.

"Yesterday, I asked you if you can't play Go, will you regret it? In fact, you have never thought about this question, have you?"

Liang laughed, and said honestly: "Well, I never thought about it." He leaned into Guang's pajamas, rubbed Guang's back, and pressed lightly on his spine.

As if he was afraid of thinking too much, after a moment of silence, Liang said again: "But even if you really can't be a professional chess player anymore, if you want to play chess, there is still a way."

"for example?"

"For example... pulling you down." Liang laughed again, "I will keep pestering and harassing you."

"I didn't realize that you are such a Taya." Hikaru also laughed.

After laughing, he paused, and Liang asked Guang, "Do you want to Sai?"

Light suddenly fell silent.

Liang hugged him distressedly, and kissed the tip of his nose: "In a few days, I'll take you to meet Sai, okay?"

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Continue next Saturday.

2017.5.10 Minor revision, added a little plot~

2017.8.31 Correct typos, minor repairs~