The ten-year trace of the soul of chess

In the cafe, light music is still continuously circulating.

When they were about to reach Liang's ears, they were automatically blocked without exception.

The bright world returned to a state of silence.Just like before knowing the light.He was like an elegant and delicate statue, sitting motionless in the booth, all the joy, anger, sorrow and joy on his face were gathered together in those seemingly empty dark green eyes.

It wasn't until the hot chocolate in front of him was completely cold that he seemed to come back to his senses. After drinking the cold drink in the cup in one gulp, he picked up his bag and walked slowly towards the cashier.

It was rare to go home early, and after exiting the subway station, I made a detour to the supermarket.

Walking in front of Linlang's shelves, Liang paused slightly when he passed the biscuit section.

He went to the aisle and picked up a package of grain digestive biscuits marked "digestible."There was nothing unique about the packaging, but he stared at it for a long time as if obsessed.

A picture involuntarily spread out in his mind——

On a certain day in the past, perhaps in the afternoon, Guang stood in the same position as himself at this moment.Perhaps not very familiar with all kinds of biscuits, he paced back and forth helplessly like a irascible little lion.After looking around for a while, he suddenly stopped, reached out and took the pack of digestive biscuits from the shelf in his hand, hesitated for a while, and put it in the shopping basket.Maybe one pack, maybe two packs.

A smile bloomed quietly on the corner of Liang's lips like a flower blooming.

The digestive biscuits that Light chose were not the best tasting among similar products, but Liang took two packs and put them in the shopping basket without thinking. , is enough to become irreplaceable and unique.

A little further in, Liang weighed some beef in the raw and cold section, so that he could go back and make beef burgers for Guang.

While picking fruit in the fruit area, two young people's voices sounded beside him.

The boy said: "I want to eat mango."

The girl said: "Oh, this one is not cooked yet, put it back quickly!"

Immediately, there was a crisp thumping sound.

There was a lot of movement, Liang slightly turned his head to look over.

I saw the girl took a mango, squeezed it, and sniffed it again. This action was repeated several times, and finally picked a few mangoes and put them in the shopping basket, and then dragged the boy with a sassy girlfriend style. gone.

Liang smiled slightly, and looked away.When he glanced at the mango, he suddenly remembered that Guang had said before that he wanted to eat mangoes, and that he must eat mangoes that had been peeled into mango flowers.

In fact, there were mangoes among the fruits my mother gave me last night, but before I could peel them, I had no chance...

I didn't feel it before.

This time when he was walking back with his things, Liang suddenly felt that the road he should be used to had become extraordinarily long.

Everywhere is like a shadow of light.

"Taya, wait for me, I'm going to buy a copy of The Legend of Zelda!"

He once bought game discs in the video game store next to him.

"Taya, do you want to try it? The sea salt ice cream here is super delicious!"

He once said that the ice cream at the shop not far away was delicious.

"Taya—I can't walk anymore."

Right next to the second lamp post on the left, where Kwang used to stand, complaining aggrievedly that he was hungry.

And that intersection ahead.

Light once nearly collided with a passing car...

Ryo shook his head disappointed in himself.

My head is full of light and things related to light.

Even today when I was playing guide chess, I lost my mind several times.It's not at all like his usual work style that distinguishes between public and private.Although the other party must not have noticed it, he was quite flattered that he took the initiative to explain beyond the time limit.

Liang smiled again, but there was undisguised bitterness in the smile.

I can no longer touch my lover intimately.

His name can no longer be called by the Light.

You can no longer take everything for him for granted.

Only then did Liang seem to have a sense of reality.If one day, I really let go like this, and there is really only a single relationship between "rival" and "roommate" between him and the light, it is so embarrassing and unbearable——

Just last night, after he said that sentence, Guang was quiet for a long time.

Light has always been unable to hide his words.

If he questioned himself directly, or even fired at himself, Liang would not be surprised.

But the light is quiet.Jing Deliang suddenly became flustered in his heart, wishing to take back what he had just said immediately.

But it was too late.

After a long silence, he saw the light move his body slightly, and turned to face himself.

He asked Liang softly: "If one day I feel tired, then what? You plan to let go, right?"

Liang was speechless.

He asked again, his voice still soft: "Taya, is this what you mean?"

The moment Guang opened his mouth, Liang only felt a "buzz" in his head.At that moment, he really panicked.

He wanted to say something, but fell silent.

What should he say?Tell the light, no, I didn't mean that.But he clearly thought that way at the time, and said that, and there was no ambiguity.

In the end, he just looked at the light and faced each other in silence.

In the silence, his hand was gently held by the light: "Taya, can you imagine... what it will be like when we really separate?"

Bright:"……"

Guang laughed: "I can't either. Then, let's try."

Liang suddenly raised his head.

Guang continued: "It is limited to one month. From this moment on, we are just 'rivals' and 'roommates', and there is no relationship other than that."

Liang looked at the ingredients he bought, hesitated for a moment, and then called Guang.

He thought that as a roommate, he could at least ask if Guang would come back for dinner today.

But there was no one answering the phone.

He thought to himself that the light might be busy.So, I sent him a text message.

Still no reply.

Liang's heart wrinkled slightly.

Most of the time, he chooses to cook at home, just to let Guang eat healthy and nutritious food.Although the taste is not as delicious as in the restaurant.

After waiting for a while, the phone still didn't move.

Liang glanced at the wall clock, it was five forty.

He put aside the idea of ​​cooking for the time being, and walked to his bedroom with his mobile phone.After making his own bed, when he passed Guang's room, his footsteps paused, but he still couldn't resist pushing the door open.

As expected.

A rolled up quilt.Pajamas thrown casually over the comforter.

Because the window was not opened for ventilation in advance, the room was filled with a turbid smell that had been stuffy all night.

Liang lowered his head and glanced at the boundary drawn by the invisible space of the door, just like the boundary line between him and the light at this time.

As a roommate, whether it is possible to pack pajamas and make the bed for the other party out of good intentions, Liang repeatedly decides the appropriate scale in his heart, but this skill is obviously much more difficult than playing chess.

After hesitating for a few seconds, Liang still walked into the room.

The first thing you do when you walk into a room is to open the window.Fresh air floods into the room at once, forming a pure natural fresh air system.

After wandering around beside Guang's bed for a while, Liang finally bent down, took the pajamas that Guang had replaced, folded them neatly, and put them on the pillow.

After doing this, the phone finally responded.

Liang picked up the phone, thought for a while and asked, "Are you coming back for dinner today?"

On the other end of the phone, Liang heard some noisy voices: "Oh, I'm playing chess with Gu's family today, and I'll come back after dinner with him."

Liang's throat moved, and he said softly, "I see."

Putting down the phone, he glanced at the empty place beside him, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "Hehegu eats, I eat air..."

He once said to himself that he could no longer lie to Taya.

But they are just a normal relationship now.But even he himself didn't know, it was obviously a lie, why did he take such pains to make it up in such detail.

Are you afraid that Taya will become suspicious?

I just sat at the bar and looked at the menu, then raised my hand and asked the waiter to come and order.

He himself couldn't explain why he insisted on going to the restaurant alone to abuse himself without eating the hot dishes and meals cooked by Taya at home.

Maybe it was because of the phone call from Sachiko Kobayashi.

Under the bombardment of his persistent calls and text messages, when he called for the fifth time, Sachiko Kobayashi finally answered.

Hikari nearly jumped when he heard her swearing at Taya on her own initiative.For a few seconds, he was so angry that he almost wanted to refute, why do you scold Taya, what right do you have to scold him? !But with his current position, he really has no right to make any excuses for Taya.As a result, when he hung up the phone, he didn't even ask what Sachiko Kobayashi had said to Taya.

All he knew, Taya said, was that he was a little tired recently.

Having been with Taya for so long, he has never heard the word "tired" from Taya.He was obviously so tired last night that he couldn't even stand upright, and he just used the word "recharge" to perfuse himself.But he was able to tell Kobayashi Xingko without hesitation that he was a little tired.

For a moment, I couldn't tell what it was like.Sometimes he felt as if he was possessed by a little girl, and his mind was too sensitive.

Guang pressed the corners of his eyes and said to himself, we are just rivals and roommates now.

He tried to use this sentence to hypnotize himself, but every time he said it, it seemed that he took it seriously.After seven or eight times, the pain in my heart hit overwhelmingly, as if I had really separated from Taya.

But he has no regrets.

When he said the one-month limit last night, he made up his mind to continue this game—perhaps, in Taya's eyes, this farce is no different from a game.He could feel his own weight in Taya's heart.It is precisely because he knows that as soon as Taya realizes that something is wrong with him, he will immediately put away all his feelings for him and cruelly let this "like" wither, so he has to do something.

He couldn't stand Taya always putting himself so low in the relationship between the two of them.That is not love at all, but just a one-sided contribution.

This kind of giving makes him feel anxious and makes him feel uneasy.

He had told Liang several times, but to no avail.

He had no choice but to make a bad move.But Taya readily agreed to his almost unreasonable request.

Therefore, in this game, no matter how unbearable he is, Taya must press the button to end the game at the same time.

As for what to do in case of self-defeating?Light never thought about this question.

After finishing dinner hastily in the ramen shop, maybe because of the rich soup, I just feel a little thirsty.

On the way home, he stopped by a nearby convenience store.When he opened the freezer and touched the cold Coke bottle, a sense of guilt suddenly surged in his heart - Coke was also very fortunate to be among the top three on the fasting blacklist that Taya customized for him.

But this sense of guilt lasted only 0.1 second before it disappeared.

Walking to the door of Room 203, Guang habitually raised his hand to knock on the door.After a moment of reaction, when I lowered my head to search for the keys in the schoolbag, the door opened from the inside.

Still holding the half-drunk Coke in his hand, Guang subconsciously hid it in his schoolbag.It doesn't make sense, but that's what it does.

"Ah, that..." Guangchu stood at the door, suddenly feeling a little embarrassed.

Liang opened the door and gave way to Guang: "Come in."

Guang opened his mouth and wanted to say, you don't have to wait for me.I also felt that it would be a little embarrassing if I was being self-indulgent.

He just nodded and went into the house.

Despite the speed of light hiding, when he opened the door, Liang saw the Coke bottle in his hand at a glance.Just as Guang entered the door, he frowned imperceptibly behind Guang.

But he can't say it, and he doesn't have the right to say it.

Until I dragged my shoes and stepped on the living room, the familiar conversations in the past did not sound.

--I am back.

--Welcome back.

No more.

It seems to be true, just ordinary roommate relationship.Even the most common greetings are also stingy.

Guang's heart seemed to be hit by some blunt instrument, and it hurt a little, but the pain was not obvious.

He paused, put his schoolbag on the ground casually, and walked towards the kitchen.

Liang walked back to the living room after the light, watched the light enter the kitchen, and then heard the sound of the refrigerator door opening.

After putting the Coke in the freezer, Guang looked up at the cooking counter and was slightly taken aback.

He leaned on his crutches and moved closer.

It was finally clear that it was empty.

In the sink, there is not a chopstick or a bowl.Even after Taya washed the dishes and put them all in the cupboard, the walls of the sink were not dripped with water, so the quick-drying ability was too amazing.

Guang did not give up looking through the trash can. The kitchen waste was just collected this morning, but Taya did not deliberately separate out the garbage bags for the food waste at night...

Taya, he didn't eat again!

As soon as this idea was born, it quickly filled his brain and made his mouth full of cola taste bitter.

He walked out of the kitchen and asked uncertainly, "Taya, have you eaten yet?"

A few steps away, Liang replied flatly: "I've eaten, just eat something outside."

His tone was still so calm, as if he was stating a common thing.

But in the living room at that time, there was only a circle of orange ceiling lights turned on, the light was too dim, and Taya's expression could not be seen clearly.He usually can't figure out Taya, even if he is lying, he can't tell the truth from the fake.

Guang's chest heaved a few times, and at that moment, he suddenly regretted it.

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Friday night at ten o'clock