The ten-year trace of the soul of chess

Taya suddenly became busy.

It seemed that after Guang's high fever recovered, his workload suddenly doubled several times without transition, and he couldn't even see each other on weekends.

At the beginning, I attributed this feeling to "post-illness syndrome" - when I was sick, I relied too much on Taya, so that during this period, except sleep, I spent no more than 2 hours with Taya for several days, and I felt that People seem to become strange, feel uneasy, and want to get to the bottom of it, but almost forget that before the identity of "lover", they are first of all two independent individuals.

Just thinking that similar "symptoms" will be relieved in a short time, I keep hinting to myself that it is just a psychological effect.

During Taya's absence, Hikari also assigned himself a task, and silently put on the agenda the study plan that had been shelved for a while.

He was originally a quick-tempered person, and he was always enthusiastic about everything he did in 3 minutes.I don't know if playing chess has sharpened his mind, or because what he did was related to that person. During the time of learning Chinese alone, Guang didn't feel boring at all. It was more like a slow fire and a slow fire. On the piece of paper marked with Roman accents, the second half of the sentence that has not been solved yet.It doesn't matter if it takes a lot of effort, he can memorize it over and over again; it doesn't matter if he can't remember it, he just needs a little more patience.

This kind of feeling of quietly brewing and never getting tired of it made Guang a little excited, but also with some anticipation, as if an invisible force was growing in his body like a new green branch.

But this situation lasted for nearly two months, and Guang felt a little strange.

In the early morning of Saturday, it may be that something is pressing in my heart, and if there is a slight movement in Liang, Guang wakes up.He didn't dare to open his eyes, so he could only hold his breath, letting his body relax as much as possible while Taya finished dressing beside him, and then let him lean over and kiss his forehead until the door was closed gently behind him, and after another After waiting for 5 minutes, I dared to sit up and stand barefoot by the window.

The window of the bedroom faces the main entrance of the apartment, so you can have a panoramic view of the people coming and going in the building.But maybe it was because he got up too late, he still couldn't catch the figure he hoped for in the backs.It was as if the heart had been hit hard by some blunt object, and it suddenly sunk in.

He felt that his "post-illness syndrome" seemed to be getting worse.No matter where Taya went, his calls would come as scheduled at noon.But the voice on the phone was too noisy, and it was still impossible to tell where it was.I also thought about finding a time to ask in person, but felt that the pressure was too tight, so I finally endured it and went back.

Later, the light seemed to find a way to divert attention.When Taya is not around, he will listen to an online Chinese class. It seems that if he learns a little more Chinese, he will be closer to Taya.

At that time, the sun was gradually setting outside the window.

The orange-yellow slanting sun spilled into the bedroom through the undrawn curtains, faintly outlining the shadow of light on the computer screen.

Perhaps because of the earphones, Guang did not hear the approaching footsteps.

Feeling someone hugging his neck from behind, Guang was slightly taken aback, and then recognized the person's identity from the reflection on the screen, clasped the other's arm, leaned back almost intimately, and rested his head on his chest.

"Taya." He called out in a low voice, with a lazy smile.

The screen of the computer in front of him is not locked, so the words on the screen break into Liang's eyes without hindrance.

"It's getting dark, why don't you turn on the lights?" He glanced at the screen, his heart agitated, but he didn't say a word about what he saw.

Guang couldn't help being a little disappointed, looked up at Taya behind him, hooked his hands around his neck, and with a little force on his hands, he brought Liang within close proximity to him.

Liang put his hands on the armrests on both sides of the swivel chair, looked deeply at the smiling lover, leaned forward, and kissed Guang's lips.

As soon as Liang came back, he still seemed to be carrying the cold air unique to the outdoors.

After Liang left the bedroom, he turned sideways and followed his gaze all the way to the living room.When he saw that there was no one around, he moved his shoulders and neck, as if he was extremely tired, and the doubts that had just been suppressed in his heart came to the fore again with the spring breeze.

Guang's character can't hide things, often with one look, one hesitating to speak, Liang sees everything through.

He didn't want to make Guang feel uneasy, so when the question was still fermenting in Guang's heart, he asked first: "Recently, besides work, there are indeed other things. Sorry, I can't tell you now. September, September at the latest, I will definitely bring the answer to you."

When Liang said this, his eyes were so serious, as if he had returned to the night when he confessed to himself in the hotel.

This liar who kept saying that he "can't speak" had already taken him seriously.

Guang was a little embarrassed for a while, so he could only mutter duplicity: "What are you doing, what does it have to do with me. I don't want to know..."

Although there are still many speculations, and he secretly scolded Taya no less than a hundred times in his heart, but after hearing this answer, Hikari really didn't want to find out what Taya was up to, as if what he wanted was never It's just Taya's frank and relative answer.

It's another Saturday.

Gradually getting used to weekends without Taya by my side, I packed my schoolbag and went out to attend the seminar.

During the seminar, Saeki abruptly mentioned that he met Toya in Chiba last Sunday.

Immediately aroused the gossip of everyone present: "What happened to Taya in Chiba?"

Saeki scratched his face with his index finger, his expression was a little subtle: "I don't know who he was talking on the phone at that time, his smile was very gentle, anyway, it's different from the Leng Bingshan he usually sees."

Everyone was astonished when they discovered the New World, and they all expressed disbelief.

On the surface, Hikaru nodded in agreement, but after thinking about it carefully, Taya did call herself last Sunday.

As the only insider present, He Gu glanced at someone playfully, coughed twice as if clearing his throat, and had the urge to ask someone for a confidentiality fee.

After that, the topic changed from Taya to Kazuya for some reason.It is well known that Wada's girlfriend is a female streamer Honinbo.He Gu suddenly became the target of public criticism.

"By the way, have you read the latest issue of "Goteki" (Goteki)[1]?"

Guang once again exposed his ignorance and ignorance: ""Gen's"? What is this?"

There was another burst of booing, and He Gu was so instigated that he had no choice but to explain in embarrassment: ""Qi's" may be the Go magazine that is the least like a Go magazine. Its cover usually uses female chess players from various countries as the cover, and there is no chess record on the inside page..."

Before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted by a troublemaker: "The most important thing is that this magazine is not released to the public, and can only be seen in designated chess theaters and post offices. It can be regarded as a rare item that is hard to buy. And Kobayashi Sachiko Became the cover girl of the magazine several times, and accepted many story interviews of the cover characters. But this is such a popular king..."

The voice is cut off here.

Guang looked at He Gu with a face of enlightenment, and was surprised to find that He Gu's face turned red at some point!Seeing that as the review of the chess game continued, the scarlet color faded a lot. When the discussion was over, when Guang Hegu walked to the subway station, Hegu's face turned red again as if he had changed his face.This time, even the ear bones seemed to be dyed red.

Guang followed his gaze without knowing why, and felt an urge to run away for a moment.

But as soon as he turned around, Kobayashi Xingko saw him at a glance: "Shinto!"

Thinking that Sachiko Kobayashi was the only one who knew about his relationship with Taya, he had an ominous premonition in his heart.She wanted to leave, but was held back by someone who valued sex over friends.

Light:"……"

During the stalemate, Kobayashi Xingko had already walked in front of the two of them: "It's been a long time, Shinto!"

Hikari always felt that Kobayashi Xingko's words were endless.

Sure enough, she added without a pause: "How is Taya-kun recently?"

Light:"……"

He really wanted to roll his eyes at Sachiko Kobayashi.And, why is he "Shinto" but Taya is "Taya-kun"?Am I familiar with you[2]?

Kobayashi Xingko completely ignored Hikari's cold eyebrows, and said to herself: "When will we have a foursome date!"

Guang didn't realize the four of them at once, and turned to He Gu beside him in almost astonishment, seeing that he also had an innocent expression of "I don't know anything", he was finally relieved.

Hikaru waved his hands tiredly, trying to stop Kobayashi Sachiko from thinking: "Well, Taya has been very busy recently, so..."

"Well, I think so too! And you guys are too eye-catching..." Sachiko Kobayashi's gaze paused on Hikari, "Why don't I go directly to the apartment you rented with Kazuya some other day?"

Seeing that he couldn't get in the conversation no matter what, Guang hung his head in frustration, so he had no choice but to push back, and then he would reply after confirming the time with Taya.

After returning from Morishita's house in the afternoon, Hikaru entered the door, and when he was about to drop his schoolbag, he suddenly slowed down when he saw the figure on the sofa.

He carefully placed the schoolbag on the side of the entrance as if holding a fragile object, took off his sneakers, and stepped on the floor of the living room without slippers.

Even though it was Yayoi in March, she stepped on the floor wearing only socks, and within a few steps, there was still a bit of chill under her feet.

As if he didn't realize it, Guang quietly walked to the sofa, and quietly looked at Taya who was leaning on the sofa.Maybe he was asleep, the loud noise when the door was opened just now didn't wake him up.

The bright lips were thinly pale, and there was no trace of blood on his face.The long black hair like satin also hangs down on the shoulders dimly as if it has lost its luster.On weekdays, Taya always hides all the tiredness on his face just right, his expression is always so indifferent, even when facing the light, he is almost harsh to himself and does not show the slightest bit.It seemed that only after he fell asleep could he see his true appearance, and then he told him silently that Ta Yaliang would also be tired.

Light touched his hand, the skin was frighteningly cold.

At that moment, Guang's heart seemed to be pulled.

He hurriedly turned on the heater in the living room, and went into the room again to cover Liang's body with a blanket. After finishing all this, a sense of powerlessness pressed on his back like a heavy cross.For a moment, he stood beside the sofa so helplessly, looking at his sleeping lover, his eyes were flushed.

It is his precious and precious person, how long has it been since he has not slept peacefully?How many things did he silently undertake in places where he could not see?

He is reluctant.But these, he does not know.

Guang deliberately pressed his breath very lightly and slowly, leaned over to kiss Liang's lips with almost trembling lips, and gently rubbed his lover's face like a feather with his fingertips.The person in front of me, I have clearly seen countless appearances of him, but every time I see him, it is as if I saw him for the first time.

When he wrapped his hands around Guang's waist, he was startled.But he couldn't escape, so he was taken to Taya's chest.

Guang's center of gravity was unstable, his left foot knelt by Liang's side, and his hands rested on the back of the sofa behind him to barely stabilize his body.

As soon as he lowered his head, it fell into the bright and deep pupils like ink.

Liang looked up at him, the tight skin on the side of his neck brought out his distinct jawline, but it was sharper than the previous few days: "Isn't it clearer if you look at it this way, huh?"

Guang touched his chin, and his breath gradually became a little unstable: "When did you come back? Why didn't you go to the room to sleep?"

The corners of Liang's eyes curled up, and there was a little bewilderment in his voice: "Are you feeling sorry for me?"

Light bit his lower lip and nodded.

"Guang, don't bite your lip, it will hurt you," Liang's fingertips lightly brushed Guang's lips until he let go, before hugging him tightly, "Guang, let me lean in for a while."

Afraid that Taya would be crushed, Hikaru hesitated for a while, and had no choice but to sit on both sides of his legs.

Almost as soon as he sat down firmly, Liang buried his head in Guang's shoulder socket: "Guang, your heart is beating so fast."

Light:"……"

He suddenly realized that his sitting posture was too ambiguous, but he seemed to have no other choice.After a pause, he finally raised his hand over Liang's shoulders and wrapped it around his neck: "Taya, I don't want to see you so tired. Is there anything I can do for you?"

Liang raised his head, kissed Guang's Adam's apple, and said softly: "I want you to stay in my present and future."

Guang opened his eyes wide, did not speak, but hugged Liang even more tightly.

At this moment, words seem to lose their color.

Only hugging is not aggressive like intimacy, not vague like eyes, just like a trickle of meandering water, which does not require much movement, but keeps nourishing the river bed.

Just embracing each other like this seems to melt everything into a tacit understanding.

The author has something to say:

[1] "Aker's": There is indeed this magazine, and the main audience is young Japanese female Go lovers.Taiwanese female chess player Hei Jiajia once posed for the cover of the magazine.

[2] Regarding titles: Japanese pays great attention to the use of honorifics.For those who are unfamiliar or respected, suffixes such as: Jun (くん) (peer/junior), Mr. (さん) (superior/elder) will be added to the name, and those who are familiar with them will be called by their first names. , so the response to light is so large.