The ten-year trace of the soul of chess

"I'm sorry, Taya..."

A faint apology created a ripple in the air, and then it was engulfed by an even greater silence.From the room to the whole house.

Just leaning against the door panel, but couldn't hear a sound coming from outside the door.

Even if he couldn't see that person, he could clearly feel that fool standing on the other side of this door.

at this time.now.

The window in front of the desk melted a small crack, and the cold wind from outside kept pouring in as if taking advantage of the loophole.

The rationality of running away finally returned to its place, followed by waves of guilt overwhelming her heart.

Guang moved his legs, and from a drawer of the desk, he took out a book that had been deliberately covered.

The cold touch of the paper is in stark contrast to the scorching heat on the face.

A few days ago, when I went to the cashier with this book about homosexual subculture, I felt as if what I was holding in my hand was not a book, but an adult book that I was ashamed to talk about.

The author of the book is a Japanese American.Perhaps because he is a "similar person", he can so sharply and accurately point out the three stages that "this group" has been or will go through in the past, present and future: from "forced correction" to "disguised sexuality" to the final "Cover yourself".

And now, where will they go?

At the door, there were finally light footsteps.

Hikari stared at the door panel for a long time, as if the sound of the gradually fading footsteps stepped on his heart every step, and every step foretells that Taya is leaving him, going to a place that he can't reach with his hands.

Taya...

I meditated on that person's name in my heart, and wanted to rush out of the room to stop him. Now that I saw him, what kind of expression should I use to face him?The hand that had already clasped the doorknob hangs down again.

At this moment, the footsteps that had already left went back and stopped at the door of the room again.At this moment, Taya is like a farmer waiting for a rabbit.The difference is that as long as he waits, he can always wait for the "rabbit" that belongs to him.

With the slight vibration of the door panel, a note was stuffed in through the crack of the door.

After hesitating for a moment, Guang bent down and picked it up.On one-half of the A4 size paper, there is a chess question.With just a glance, you can see how difficult the answer is.Guang took a pen and quickly wrote the answer on the paper, then stuffed the paper back through the crack of the door.Soon, the second, third, and fourth questions followed.Guang didn't know what Taya wanted to say, but it seemed like a professional chess player's instinct, when he saw the question, he couldn't help but want to answer it.The difficulty of the questions continued to increase. When it came to the eighth question, Guang's pen poked his forehead one after another, and his mind kept changing the position of the placement, but his thinking fell into a deadlock.Intuition tells Guang that if you really put the chess questions on the board and try and make mistakes, you can easily find the answer.But if the board and pieces are really used, Jieqi will lose its original meaning...

Although I encountered a bottleneck in solving the problem, my originally chaotic mood gradually calmed down.

The person on the other side of the door seemed to know that light could not answer, and lost no time in handing in another piece of paper.This time, only one sentence was written on the paper: Can you solve this chess question that I have no clue for the time being?

Just looking at the "love letter" specially written in honorifics in his hand, I couldn't help but feel disgusted.The gentleman outside the door is really adhering to the consistent style of "swinging and turning" even in doing things. Can't you just say something? !

Guang was inexplicably angry, and felt a little funny, but smiled, and fell silent again, his heart seemed to be thrown into a pile of cactuses, and his heart was tied up all over the body.His right hand unconsciously clenched the thin paper until he realized that it was almost torn, then hurriedly flattened it on the desk and flattened it again with a paperweight.

The fingertips lightly rubbed Taya's handwriting, just like him, upright and majestic, the part that can write Japanese Kanji will never be lazy and replace it with a pseudonym...

This is really that guy's style, Guang thought.When two people have a dispute, it may indeed be the best solution to give each other a space to think independently and connect with each other.That person, he was not a farmer at all, but a professional hunter, who set up many traps in advance and waited for himself to fall into the trap step by step.

Guang glanced at the computer that had been forcibly shut down before, the bangs on his forehead drooped weakly, but he still didn't restart it.Taya's words were like a gust of wind blowing away the dark clouds between his brows, and gradually condensed an answer in Guang's heart.

The person outside the door, because he cares about himself, will never speak harshly to him, and will always behave calmly, which is exasperating.But because of this, I almost forgot that Taya is not a god, and that he doesn't refute doesn't mean he won't have emotions.

The person who said to be the eternal light of that person is obviously himself.Now, for those people who have never met before, a few broken articles have messed up the situation.Shinto Hikari, you are very capable! !Why don't you go back to kindergarten and have another fight? !

Someone likes such a bastard, what kind of vision! !

Ridiculously making fun of himself secretly, Guang suddenly couldn't restrain himself from laughing out loud.The irritability that was originally stagnant in the chest is also as clear as the first rain after the rain.

Hearing the knock of the door, Ryo stood up slowly.On the face looking at the light, there was a touch of uncontrollable joy, as well as a faint tiredness that hadn't been put away in time.His eyes lit up for a moment, then dimmed quickly.

"What do you want for dinner? Or, shall we go out to eat?"

If Taya hadn't asked, Hikaru would not have noticed at all, and the time would have pointed to seven o'clock in the evening.

Would suggest going out to eat, is it because you are afraid that you will feel embarrassed?At this moment, looking at his lover who is smiling slightly at him, Guang actually has an illusion, as if several years have passed since the last time we met.

"Let's eat it at home. In the refrigerator, unfinished curry is good." Guang really wanted to kiss the man in front of him, and wanted to see his panicked appearance, but after the unhappiness just now, his heart suddenly Several septal membranes were produced.

"It's a good thing you came out. I thought about climbing in through the window. Anyway, the second floor is not high. But after thinking about it, let's forget it." Liang Suo answered irrelevantly, and laughed as if he was amused by his own thoughts. up.

"..." It really is a big idiot!

On weekdays, Taya doesn't talk much when eating.This time, the light fell silent again.The atmosphere during the meal almost reveals ingredients that are not conducive to digestion at all.

Originally, the minimum requirement for dinner was just to "fill it up". When Taya brought out her favorite ramen, the contrast of "ordered fast food, but gave you kaiseki cuisine" caught my eyes. The picture is bright—since I took over my basic necessities of life, the right to eat ramen noodles has been deprived of eight or nine points by some powerful elements in the name of "eating too much is not beneficial".

Unable to enjoy the "bribe" from someone with peace of mind, I just thought about the topic, but regretted it as soon as I opened my mouth: "Taya, how did you know about 'this'?"

Liang looked up and smiled, but did not answer.

Just a quick search in my mind, there are only a handful of friends around Taya, and they are all elderly uncles.Interested in entertainment gossip, it seems that there will be no one else except that person.

So, when he lowered his head to eat the noodles, Guang said vaguely, "She's really well-informed."

Liang: "Yes. She knows about our business."

Guang: "Yeah, it's really troublesome for her to be so enthusiastic! No wonder she doesn't have a boyfriend yet!"

Liang thought for a while: "Now... there should be."

Hikari: "Huh? Sachiko Kobayashi?"

Liang: "Well. You should know that person too. It seems to be called He Gu..."

Guang raised his head suddenly, feeling the sound of firecrackers exploding in his head.

Kobayashi Xingko must never have imagined that one day, she would be honored to be a conversation piece for the two of them to adjust the atmosphere of the dinner table.

After his head cooled down, he still confirmed in disbelief: "Are you sure it's Hegu? Hegu Yigao? When did she hook up?" Does Yijiao know?A few days ago, the "she" in Hetaniguchi didn't mean...

Mou Liang's focus is obviously not here, he raised his eyebrows slightly: "Do you attach great importance to this chess player named He Gu, Shinto?"

Guang quickly glanced at the vinegar jar that was fermenting, and sucked the noodles with a guilty conscience.

At the end, don't forget to add a sentence: "The highest delicacy!"

In the kitchen, the sound of running water kept pouring into Guang's ears.

Leaning on the door frame and looking at the back of the man washing the dishes, he bit his lower lip and took a cautious step into the kitchen. Seeing that Taya didn't notice it, he walked behind him with confidence and put his arms around him. waist.

Taya's back could be felt slightly stiff, and the movements of his hands stopped accordingly.Calling him with some uncertainty: "Jin Teng?"

Putting his head on his back, Guang nodded lightly: "I'm sorry, Taya..." He hugged Taya even more tightly with his hands, as if to cheer himself up, "I'm careless and have a bad temper. I still always do things without thinking through my brain, but I will change..."

Before Guang could finish speaking, Liang had already turned around, clasped his lover's wrist, and kissed his lips somewhat domineeringly.It was just the touch of lips and teeth between the lovers, but it was like a spring of oasis, completely dissolving the last trace of depression entrenched in the hearts of the two.

"As long as Jinteng is Jinteng, there is no need to change it." It was an extremely gentle voice.

"By the way, Taya, what did you want to tell me before? Just..." Before I pushed you out.Guang hesitated for a moment, not embarrassed to complete the words.

Liang smiled knowingly, walked back to the living room with Guang, said "wait a minute" and entered the room.When he returned to Guang and sat down, there was a thick book-like photo album in his hand.

"I went home today and brought it with me."

"Go home?" Realizing that he asked another stupid question, Guang covered his mouth reflexively.Just think about it with your brain to know why.Whether passive or active.But it is also true to want to know what happened when Taya came home, and to know Teacher Taya's attitude towards this matter.Thinking about it this way, there is nothing to worry about.

Guang couldn't help asking calmly: "Then when you go home, Mr. Taya..."

Seeing through Guang's worries, Liang didn't want to hide it from him, so he said truthfully: "Yes, father knows. But he didn't say anything, he just gave me the cross-cutting chess."

There was a faint smile on the corner of Liang's lips, but it was already the warm smile that Guang was familiar with.

Guang was slightly taken aback: "That question was given by Teacher Taya?" He got up and was about to go to the room to get the question, but was dragged back to the sofa by Liangyan.

"Don't rush for a while, you can think about it later."

Guang pondered the meaning of this sentence for a while in Liang's arms, but he didn't feel anything for a long time, so he turned to look at the photo album on his lap.When he came back from the public welfare event, he just said something casually, but Taya remembered it...

The first page of the album is a family portrait of Zhang Taya's family.In addition to the three members of Taya's family, there were two other elderly people.

"Who are these two people?"

"They are my grandparents." Liang leaned over and explained softly, "I heard from my mother that when she married her father, his father had just stepped into the chess world not long ago, and he was only a low-level chess player. The matter of my father was strongly opposed by my grandparents. Although it is not to the point of severing the relationship, there has been no contact in these years."

It was the first time I heard Taya talk about himself.

Flipping through the old photos, Taya with baby fat on them, Taya laughing in her mother's arms, Taya holding teacher Taya's hand...every scene, every page is like Pull the light into the past time, and piece together the growth trajectory of Taya when he was a child.

"Taya, besides playing Go, what else did you do when you were young? Did you play baseball?"

The falling voice was like a falling stone, and after sinking into the water, there was no more words.

Hikaru raised his head, and saw Taya's straight hair near the temples drooping slightly, hiding his side face in the dark green hair, but he could still see a little uneasy expression on his face.

"Shinto, my life is all about Go, and I don't understand romance. When I was young, I didn't understand the games and anime that other classmates often talked about, and I didn't know how to get along with other classmates. You will feel bored with me like this ?"

Taya just heard what she said, but she still looked down at the faces of lovers she was familiar with but unfamiliar in the photos as if she didn't hear them.

If... I met Taya when I was a child, I would definitely not be able to help but want to bully him... Would Taya feel lonely if I couldn't join other students' topics?Or are you used to it, as long as you have Go?

Everyone felt that Taya was as indifferent as a wall, invincible, but only he knew that he was such an extremely serious and stubborn person. Confid in the deep heart.Having seen Taya like that, even if someone else found out about the relationship between the two, how could I let him stay alone in the world of Go?

"Hey, Taya," as if he had finally made up his mind, Hikaru closed the album, looking deeply at his lover with a pair of clear eyes.

The dark green pupils seemed to sense the gaze from his side, and looked over in response.There was a bit of confusion in his eyes.

Carefully observing the subtle expression changes on the lover's face, Guang's eyes were so serious that he wished he could cut his heart out for the other party to see: "Hey, Taya..." Guang swallowed nervously, "It's a pity that you are 12 years old. I didn’t have the opportunity to participate before, but you will definitely have me in your future life. I promise.”

Guang's pupils are like a pair of amber colored glass beads, clear and flawless, but like a whirlpool, sucking himself trapped in it little by little.

Liang's heart trembled slightly, as if he had a premonition, his lips moved invisibly.

Guang paused, then continued: "You said that your life is boring and uninteresting, it doesn't matter. Because you still have me. In the future, I will take you to many places to see different scenery, and I will be with you Create a lot of memories. Will you give me this opportunity?"

"..." Liang's eyes widened suddenly, trembling slightly as if experiencing a storm.After a long time, I stretched my eyebrows, smiled and teased my lover, "Can I take this as your confession?"

Hikaru just looked at Taya quietly.When he said the words just now, he stamped a string of barcodes on his heart, waiting for its only identifier to scan the codes for acceptance.

Liang's smile became stronger and stronger, almost overflowing from his eyes, but he had a thoughtful expression on his face: "However, I feel as if I have heard this passage before. So, in fact, you liked it a long time ago. Did you fuck me?"

Yes, maybe when I go to the playground, when I celebrate my birthday together, when I want to buy a mobile phone, I already fall in love with you...

Guang didn't speak, but his eyes moved down a few inches from his eyes.

Just when Liang thought the topic was about to turn over again, Guang suddenly pinched his chin, stuffed the photo album into his arms, and at the same time put his mark on his lips: "Yes, I like you."

Liang was confused: "What did you just... say? I didn't hear clearly."

Guang almost brushed his nose and approached his lover, and sighed helplessly in his heart. Unexpectedly, the noble son in the chess world has such poor hearing, but he repeated tirelessly: "I said, I like you. From a long time ago, I fell in love with you before I even realized it myself. This time, did you hear me clearly? If I didn’t, I can say it a hundred times, a thousand times, my Taya chess player.”

The last few words were spoken by Guang almost close to Liang's ear, like a fire, unknowingly igniting the nearest dry wood.

"Shinto."

Liang's right hand was grabbed somewhat roughly, and his body's center of gravity was unstable, so he was completely pushed down on the sofa.

"This time, you really can't escape, light..." Embracing the lover in his arms tightly, kissing the trembling eyelashes of the lover, the hoarse voice spoke a moving oath, "Even if the front is dark, as long as It is enough to have you. You are my light, and I will not hand you over to anyone."

Although he has long been accustomed to Taya's sugar-coated cannonballs, Liang's confession still makes Guang a little confused.At first, they struggled with refusal, but after noticing the subtle body changes of the two, they immediately settled down, leaving only the heartbeat "pound thump thump" so noisy that it seemed to jump out of the chest...

"Hey, Taya..."

Finding that the person covering his body had no intention of going down at all, Guang gritted his teeth, lifted the tassel, went into the room to get his clothes, and rushed into the bathroom as if fleeing.

Taya stood up with a wry smile, her pupils looking towards the bathroom were a little blurred, but the highlights in her eyes were astonishingly bright.There was a faint smile on the corner of his lips, his slender legs nimbly walked around the sofa, and then he walked slowly and quickly to the bathroom.

Nearly.

Pressing the bathroom doorknob with his right hand, Liang took a deep breath, pushed the door open, and walked in.