The ten-year trace of the soul of chess

The automatic door slowly moved away, and when Miss Shihe saw the person coming, she couldn't help exclaiming: "Xiao Liang?!"

The excessive movement at the door quickly attracted the attention of everyone in the clubhouse.

Seeing that it was a little teacher whom I hadn't seen for a long time, there was a lot of commotion in the originally quiet clubhouse. Amidst the endless greetings, the surprise on the faces of the chess players was beyond words.

It wasn't until this time that Liang suddenly realized that since Guang moved in to live with him, he didn't seem to come to the club very much.

Standing at the door and looking in, the interior decoration of the clubhouse is the same as before.

Looking around, Liang felt a sudden warmth in his heart when he noticed that the seat he used to sit in was still vacant in the clubhouse that was nearly [-]% to [-]% full.

According to the custom, after depositing his coat and briefcase at Miss Shihe's place, Liang walked towards his "exclusive seat" step by step.

On the seat at the next table, before Liang approached, Mr. Bei Dao couldn't bear it and said, "Little teacher, you are counting here. We have always reserved your seat for you!"

Before he finished speaking, he was glared at by Mr. Hirose who was sitting opposite him.

Realizing that he had said something wrong, Mr. Bei Dao was obviously embarrassed, but what he said was too truthful, and there was no room for repayment.

Although he had already guessed in his heart, when Mr. Bei Dao said it himself, Liang couldn't help feeling a deep sense of guilt.

—he shouldn't have forgotten.From childhood to adulthood, he has received too much warmth and care from the Go Club.

——It’s been too long...he hasn’t been here...

Seeing that Liang fell silent, as if seeing through Liang's thoughts, Mr. Hirose simply continued the conversation: "Although you haven't come for a long time, Mr. Bei Dao and I have been paying attention to your game. The little chess master challenger a while ago It’s a pity to compete, but congratulations on finally getting your wish to win the celebrity title! The big guys in the clubhouse were still discussing it before, how can I help you celebrate!”

Hearing that he wanted to bother everyone again, Liang hurriedly waved his hands to thank him.

At this moment, an unknown person said in a low voice: "Why didn't you see the Jinto chess player?"

The air in the clubhouse was suddenly subtly quiet for a second.

In the short silence, before Liang had time to say anything, Mr. Bei Dao snorted coldly from his nasal cavity: "That boy Shinto—"

But in the middle of the conversation, when he raised his head and glanced brightly, Mr. Bei Dao suddenly paused unnaturally, and changed his words: "Well, Shin-Shinto-kun... what is he doing lately? How could he make such a speech?" Stinky chess!" While talking, he still didn't forget to observe Liang's reaction, "How can you be a competitor of the little teacher like this?!"

Seeing Mr. Bei Dao's discomfort, Liang frowned and smiled softly: "It's okay, Mr. Bei Dao can just say what Mr. Bei Dao wants to say. It doesn't matter to me."

"Uh..." I don't know whether he was dazzled by Liang's smile, or he understood the meaning of Liang's words, Mr. Bei Dao, who was always sharp-tongued, suddenly got stuck, so he had to look at Mr. Hirose for help.

After receiving the help signal from Mr. Bei Dao, Mr. Hirose nodded to him invisibly, and then said: "It is true that I haven't seen Shinto-kun for a long time, and we have heard more or less about him. After talking for a while, I don’t know how he is doing recently? If he is willing, please ask him to come and walk around more, everyone in the club is very concerned about him, and they all miss him.”

As he spoke, his eyes still glanced at Mr. Bei Dao intentionally or unintentionally.

Enter the rattan chess player.That boy Shinto.Also, Shinto-kun.

In a short period of time, listening to Guang's name being spoken by different people with different names, Liang didn't know what was wrong with him, and all of Guang's side faces suddenly occupied all his thoughts, whether it was a smile or a smile. Yes, happy, angry, sad, he suddenly misses him very much, wants to know what he is doing now, wants to teleport to his side immediately and hold him tightly in his arms.

Probably gone mad.Liang smiled, then lowered his eyes slightly.

"Just him..." Liang hesitated for a moment, as if he wanted to say something, then shook his head lightly, "I don't know either. It's just that what I said last night may have hurt him..."

As a frequent visitor to the Go Club, Mr. Hirose and Mr. Bei Dao have witnessed Mr. Hirose and Mr. Bei Dao's calmness and self-control.

Even if the little teacher and Shinto-kun had a quarrel, in their view, they would definitely reconcile quickly afterwards.

What's more, the little teacher always pays attention to propriety when speaking, and Shinto-kun doesn't seem like a person who would get angry because of a quarrel.

They really couldn't imagine, under what circumstances, and because of what kind of words, the little teacher would say something that hurt Shindo-kun?

Seeing the faint shadow cast over the elegant face of the little teacher, and after looking at Mr. Kitajima, Mr. Hirose asked tentatively: "So, did you have a dispute with Shinto-kun last night? "

Did he fight with Guang?is that so?

Looking up at Mr. Hirose, Ryo just smiled bitterly.

Even he himself doesn't know.

They seemed to have had a quarrel, and they seemed to reconcile quickly, but Yi Yiliang knew it well—they didn't talk about it last night.

He was the first to choose to escape, and it was also he who first chose to deal with it coldly.

The hands on the table couldn't help but slightly curled up. Mr. Hirose's words seemed to wake him up. When he spoke again, Liang turned slightly and said to the two elders at the next table in a very humble tone: "Maybe it's a bit presumptuous. , can I ask the two of you some questions?"

——Maybe he is indeed the teacher of Mr. Kitajima and Mr. Hirose in Go, but in the big lesson of "life", the experience of the two elders must be much richer than him.

It's like finally finding the perfect listener for a story.

In the next few minutes, the outline of what happened last night and the distress buried in his heart were slowly told by Liang in the world formed by the two chess tables.

At the end of the conversation, Liang looked at the two elders, like a bewildered child, and said to himself: "I didn't expect that these few words of mine would make Guang react so strongly. I said that, didn't I? Too much?"

After listening to Liang's narration, neither Mr. Hirose nor Mr. Bei Dao answered immediately.

After thinking for a while, Mr. Hirose laughed loudly and said, "Actually, none of you are wrong, it's just that under the circumstances at that time, you only considered the issue from your own standpoint."

While talking, Miss Shihe happened to come over and put a cup of brown rice tea on Liang's table—Liang might never know that during the time when he was discharged from the hospital, Guang once made a special trip to the Go club just to Free a bag of brown rice tea.He said that Liang's stomach is not good, and if Liang comes to the club again in the future, please make brown rice tea for him, because brown rice tea has a stomach-warming effect that green tea does not have...

She also accidentally listened to it when she was approaching just now, and when she turned around, Miss Shihe said hesitantly: "I have something to say, would Xiao Liang listen to me?"

Liang immediately raised his head and met Miss Shihe's gaze: "Please tell me."

Miss Shihe: "Do you know what your biggest 'shortcoming' is, Xiaoliang?"

Bright:"?"

Miss Shihe smiled and said: "Xiao Liang, sometimes you worry too much and are too considerate, and you will be self-defeating instead."

Seeing that Liang's expression seemed to be getting more and more confused, Miss Shihe put the tray in her arms and continued: "When you have doubts in your heart, don't guess, but ask, and communicate with the other party in person. Especially when you are facing someone you care about very much. Because no matter how familiar you are with him, you will never be him. Blindly guessing what the other person thinks will only waste your time and distance you from each other the distance between."

"But, what if he doesn't want me to know?" Liang asked contradictoryly, "What if I don't get the answer I want, or even arouse his disgust?"

He really didn't want to force the light...

"However, if you don't ask or try to communicate, how do you know that the other party is unwilling to answer you?" Miss Shihe immediately shook her head in disapproval when she heard the words and denied, "Back ten thousand steps, even if you ask him Tell you, but at least you've sent him a clear message that you care about him, don't you?"

Miss Shihe softened her eyes unconsciously, and said softly: "Xiao Liang, you don't need to worry about exposing your uneasiness in front of people who care about each other, because "worry" itself is because you put him in your heart performance!"

Bright:"!"

It's like a gust of wind blowing away the heavy haze in front of you.

Homecoming is like an arrow.

Liang glanced at the time, and couldn't wait for a moment to rush back.

Just as he was about to leave, the phone rang suddenly.

As if there is a tacit understanding, it is light.

However, when he picked up the phone, the expression on Liang's face immediately dimmed a bit.

"Um... Liang, I have something to do tonight, I have to go back later, I won't come back for dinner."

He listened to the ambiguous words on the other end of the phone. His long-standing habit made him instinctively choose to nod and agree first, and then he remembered to ask: "You..."

But when it came time to speak, he hesitated again.

Because she was standing next to Liang, she could clearly see that Liang opened his mouth to speak, but Miss Shihe mouthed to Liang, "Go ahead!"

Facing Miss Shihe's eyes, and under Miss Shihe's encouraging gaze, Liang clenched the phone tightly, and then followed up with a question: "Then... when are you coming back?"

It seems that Shindo-kun gave Xiaoliang the answer.

Before closing the line, Miss Shihe listened to Liang and said on the phone: "Well, I understand, be careful on the road, I will wait for you at home."

at the same time.In front of a traditional Japanese restaurant.

After picking up the call line, he opened the shoji wooden door of the Japanese grocery store. As soon as Guang entered the store, the boss behind the bar shouted energetically: "Welcome!"

The wooden door was closed manually again.

Naturally, he didn't tell Liang that he would go back late just to come to this restaurant for dinner. It's just that he was not in a calm mood, and happened to see this restaurant, so he walked in randomly.

However, after nearly an hour of "wandering" just now, the original anxious mood has eased a lot.

Walking to the bar, stepping on the bar under the high stool with one bare foot, propping up the table with one hand, jumped up and sat on it.

After looking through the menu, Guang quickly ordered a bowl of tomato beef udon, plus a fried dish - when people have a bland mouth, they always subconsciously want to eat food with a strong taste.

I didn't think so before, maybe because I was used to Liang's company, when all the meals were served and I was eating udon noodles alone, I felt a little bit lonely.

But proper loneliness can help a person settle down and think about things independently.

For example, why did Liang himself do well when he was hospitalized?

Thousands of thoughts go back to the depths of memory like spider silk.

Just thinking about it, maybe it was because I was alone and helpless at that time.

The repression of being shunned by other chess players, the distress of not being understood by Liang, and the guilt of concealing his parents, all piled up into a huge stone and pressed heavily on his chest, making him hold his breath tightly, no matter how hard it is. Tired, he must prove to Liang, his parents, and everyone who doubted him that no matter what happens, he will not be affected in the slightest.

But now, he is no longer alone.

There are so many people behind him supporting and encouraging him, but precisely because he has received so much love and companionship, the breath he was holding was suddenly relieved.

These warmths are like a double-edged sword, which can make him invincible, but it can also make him weak.

This was the first time that Hikari felt such loathing towards himself since Zuowei disappeared.

It is also being debated and expected, why can Liang do so well?

Why does he keep stepping into the same river every time there is any trouble?

Eating udon noodles almost one by one, when Hikaru accidentally glanced at a table for two in the corner by the wall, he couldn't help but stay for a few more seconds.

At the table for two, only a grey-haired grandfather sat next to him, and the other side was empty, but on the table, there were two bowls of udon noodles, two bowls of tempura, and a platter of sashimi , and a plate of sushi combination.

Is it because the person that grandpa invited hasn't come yet?Or is it a temporary walk away?

With doubts, Guang glanced at the table from time to time.

But seeing that the udon noodles in the bowl were almost eaten by him one by one, the other protagonist of the table for two had not yet appeared. Did not move the chopsticks.

Just as he was curious, Guang suddenly saw the silhouette of the old man who seemed to raise his hand to wipe his eyes.

For some reason, seeing this scene, Guang felt a sudden tug in his heart.

Perhaps because of the doubts of seeing the light, the boss behind the bar said in a low voice: "There is a 'person' sitting across from that table."

At that moment, Guang suddenly had a bad premonition in his heart.

The next moment, the premonition came true.

While making hand-rolled sushi, the boss glanced at the table and said without hesitation, "Can you see a small white ceramic bottle on the empty table?"

Jianguang nodded slowly, and continued: "That's another guest at today's table, Mr. Endo's wife." "It's been five years," the boss looked up slightly as if lost in memory. Looking at the ceiling, "Five years ago, Mr. Endo's wife died unexpectedly. His wife liked our udon noodles very much. For a while, the couple often visited our shop, and Mr. Endo was seated now. Later, for unknown reasons, they seldom came. Only once or twice, Mrs. Endo came to our store alone, looking a little haggard.

"When I saw Mr. Endo coming to the store again, I heard that Mrs. Endo passed away. Since then, every Valentine's Day and Mrs. Endo's birthday, Mr. Endo will bring Mrs. Endo here to order A table of dishes. He always said that if his wife failed to treat her better when she was alive, he could only make up for her as much as possible after her death. "

But the person he wants to make up for will never know.

Stories like Mr. Endo's are not uncommon in Japan.

I've heard some of them here and there before.

But maybe it was because what he saw today touched him too much. When he just listened to the story and went to see the table for one person, his nose suddenly felt sour.

From this to that, he thought of his pale face and dim eyes last night, making it difficult for him to breathe.

Bright, bright...

Silently reciting the name of his lover in his heart, he looked up at the wall clock pointing to seven o'clock in the evening, and then realized belatedly that he was only focused on self-pity just now, and he forgot to ask others on the phone Where, have you eaten on time?

Like now, I would rather carry everything alone than communicate with Liang, wouldn't it be no different from what that idiot Liang did before?

There are only more than 3 grids in a person's life.

In the limited time, there is still not enough time to do what you want to do and spend time with the one you love. What is going on with him being a mother-in-law and mother-in-law in a grocery store all by himself? ! !

Why did he not understand such a simple truth until now?

Really stupid stupid stupid - dead!

It is as if an ignorant person suddenly became enlightened, and the light could not sit still at all.

He ate the bowl upside down, stuffed all the fried chicken nuggets into his mouth, paid for the bar, mumbled "Thank you for your hospitality", and opened the door Rushed out of the grocery store.

When I came here just now, I was confused all the way.

Now that he was outside the store, Guang carefully looked at the surrounding landmarks.

Fortunately, this area was not far from the apartment he and Liang rented, and it was only three stops away by subway.

But he couldn't wait for a moment.

After confirming the location of the subway station, Hikaru started to run.

While running towards the nearest subway exit, he dialed Liang's phone.

On the other end of the phone, the answer was almost instant.

"Hey, Ryo! It's me! Where are you now? Are you at home?"

"Well, you're home, what's the matter?" Hearing Guang's rapid breathing on the phone, Liang's heart tightened inexplicably, "Guang, where are you? What happened?"

Guang subconsciously shook his head, realized that he couldn't see, and shouted into his phone while running, "I'm fine! It's you, have you had dinner yet?"

"Oh, good! That... I'll tell you something, I'm back now! I'm already on my way!"

"Just wait for me at home! Don't go away!"

"By the way, remember to open the door for me later!"

"But you must come!!"

Please let me reach out and hug you the moment the door opens.

The author has something to say:

Everyone, don't learn from a certain light.

After eating, it takes at least half an hour before strenuous exercise, otherwise it is easy to get appendicitis XD