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Yan Wan's eyes drooped slightly, and she couldn't help biting her lower lip.

"What exactly is it?" Seeing Yan Wan's troubled look, Bai Yin pondered for a while, "If you still don't think about it, then forget it."

"No." Yan Wan's voice suddenly became a little firm, and his dull eyes rolled slightly, "This matter really needs to be said. You, you didn't always want to know why I came back Is it?"

Bai Yin was stunned when he heard this, but he still looked at Yan Wan in disbelief: "Are you finally willing to speak?"

Yan Wan didn't answer him immediately, but Bai Yin keenly noticed that there seemed to be a smile on the corner of Yan Wan's mouth, that kind of sneer, Yan Wan seemed to like to do it very much.

"It's something to say, and I'm afraid you've already guessed most of it."

Bai Yin didn't speak, just looked at him like that.The sneer on Yan Wan's lips subsided, and she said slowly: "I came back to take revenge on you."

"Why?" Even though Bai Yin was already prepared in his heart, when he heard such words suddenly, his heart was stabbed fiercely, "Why do you want to take revenge on me?"

"Why do I want to take revenge on you?" Yan Wan repeated Bai Yin's words, his expression was a little dull, but he continued, "You asked a good question, but I actually want to ask myself, why? When you asked me to elope, would I agree to you?"

"At that time, I was Prince Jing of Beiming Kingdom. Although my origin was controversial, everyone knew at that time that the late emperor loved his younger brother far more than the crown prince. Moreover, the crown prince was disabled at that time. He was hated by the late emperor and fell down. Huxun scattered. The people in the court, except you, the Dongmen family, and the Sun family, all supported me. According to the power at that time, it was clear at a glance who would inherit the throne. Born in Royal family, who doesn’t know that it’s good to be an emperor? As long as I’m thick-skinned and hard-hearted! As long as I don’t care that I’m actually the son of the first emperor! As long as I don’t allow you to elope! As far as I am concerned, being the emperor is nothing but easy But why did you say I agreed to you?"

After hearing half of Bai Yin's words, he couldn't help blurting out: "What did you say? You belong to the late emperor, the late emperor's..."

"Yes... I am the son of the first emperor, the product of his adultery with his concubine mother. Axia is older than me, not a few months older, so it should be my emperor's brother, but it's a pity that by mistake, I feel wronged He called me my uncle for many years." When she said this, Yan Wan's expression was extremely calm, it seemed that he had calmly accepted his embarrassing background.

But Bai Yin, who heard this kind of words for the first time, couldn't accept it very well. He felt that his tongue was a little knotted: "You, when did you know? How did you know?"

"On the night you beat Yingru to death." Speaking of Dongmen Yingru, Yan Wan expressed a little sadness, "Dongmenzhe told me."

When Yan Wan said this, she paused for a moment: "When I first heard the news, I was as unbelievable as you, but Zhao Zhongcheng also admitted... I may have been shocked at the time, so I never let it go. My god, you came to me the next day and wanted to take me away, but I still didn't react and scolded you away. You are stupid enough to run away because of me."

"I..." Thinking of the past, Bai Yin's old face became hot.

"Later, I went to the late emperor to seek proof of this matter, but the late emperor was already in poor health at that time, and my marriage with Yingru fell through, which was even worse for him. These, I just ran to his hospital bed, cried and asked him, "Do you think I should call you brother emperor? Or father emperor?" When he heard me ask this, blood came out in a mouthful of anger, holding on I didn’t have much energy left to ask me, who was talking to me, he must pull out that person’s tongue! I told him, even Zhao Zhongcheng admitted it, so stop pretending! Then he knew he couldn’t hide it Yes, he vomited blood while explaining to me.

He said that the person who had taken a fancy to my mother and concubine was obviously his, and it was he who led my mother, who was still a prostitute, into Beiming's deep palace.Originally, he led my mother and concubine to his father, wanting his father to give the woman he likes an identity, but before he opened his mouth, his father asked him with a smile,' Song'er, this woman is so beautiful, are you bringing her here as a gift to my father? "

Speaking of this, another smile appeared on Yan Wan's sad expression, but this time the smile contained some irony in it: "When encountering such a problem, Lord Bai must also feel that it is a blow to the head. It’s ridiculous that he knelt on the ground and wanted to ask for the seal. When he heard his father ask this question, he said abruptly, “Father is wise, that’s exactly the case.” It must have been the expression of my mother and concubine at that time , must be very embarrassing. And it was only after he said that that he realized that he had just given up his favorite woman to others, so he was busy explaining, "Unfortunately, this woman was born as a prostitute. I'm afraid I'm not worthy of entering the harem'. As a result, his father was really determined to beg for a woman from his son, and he even told him, what to say, a hero, regardless of his origin, enters the harem, and his honor depends on my favor. Son, just give her to me, if this woman can give birth to a royal heir for me in the future, I will definitely make her a noble concubine!"

"After a year later, my concubine mother was really pregnant, and later my concubine mother really gave birth to me, but the emperor didn't make my concubine a noble concubine, but rewarded her with an iron skirt... Because my concubine was only pregnant with me for less than eight months. Oh, it’s actually my fault, why didn’t I stay in her stomach, and when I was born, I was white and fat. Yue'er. Anyone with a discerning eye knows that I am not the emperor's child."

"Later, the first emperor told me everything. I didn't know until then that all the good things he did to me were not because of any brotherhood. It was just a father who wanted to make up for himself. That's all.

What's even more ridiculous is that he was about to die, and he held my hand and said to me, 'A Si, all the good things I have done to you are because I feel that I owe your concubine mother and you.I only have two children, you and A-Xia, in my life. You know the rules of Beiming. The one who takes the throne has always been the eldest son, the child of the combination of Wenren's family and Dongmen's family.I have been kind to you for so many years, not for anything else, but to hope that you can live a happy life, and will continue to be happy in the future.The royal family is not suitable for you, you should withdraw as soon as possible, the throne will definitely be left to A Xia.I know that you are more powerful than A-Xia now, but I beg you, I beg you, after I die, because I have loved you for so many years, don't make things difficult for A-Xia.I know you like Bai Yin, it doesn't matter if you are a man, as long as you like it, as long as you are willing to let go of the throne, you can go far away, I will not stop you, I can arrange for you to go to the distant Kunlun, where is a world of ice and snow, a paradise, When you get there, you will definitely, definitely live a carefree life'. "

Yan Wan sniffled, as if he couldn't stand it anymore, but he still said: "I was so angry when I heard his words at that time, do you think he is stupid, since I was born to be People in the royal family, why don’t you know the benefits of being the emperor? I was so powerful at the time, why didn’t I want to take a chance! Besides, the disagreement between me and Axia is well known, even if I am willing to give up the fight, even if it is true If I can be with you, Axia won't let me go easily! He told me to give up like this, isn't he pushing me into the fire pit?"

"I just remember that I ran out crying, but when I ran out, I bumped into A Xia. At that time, his mother was bringing him to pay his respects to the late emperor. I will never forget the look in A Xia's eyes at that time. Since the breakup between the two of us in the ninth year of Rende, his eyes were either full of resentment or hatred, and he wished he could eat me. But that day he looked at me with such shocked eyes, even with some pity Inside! Looking at his expression, I knew he heard everything. From that day on, both of us knew that we were cheated: it turned out that we were brothers, not uncles and nephews, and that the person most loved by the late Emperor was still A-Xia, it turns out that all the good things the late emperor did to me were only out of debt and mercy!"

"You don't know how embarrassed I was at the time, and I didn't have time to say sorry to him, so I continued to cry and ran back. On the way back, I kept thinking about Axia, the late emperor and the queen mother, I thought , those are Axia's father and mother, the three of them are a family, so what am I? I'm just a bastard who destroyed other people's happy family. Without me, the three of them should have a good life How harmonious and happy? I have been in a state of despair for more than ten days. All I think about is about Axia, and I am completely decadent. Until you came to me suddenly. I remember you were waiting outside I spent almost one night. When I opened the window, I saw that your hair was frozen, your eyes were red, and you couldn’t speak clearly because of the cold, but you still insisted on holding on to my window and told me, Take me to Kunlun. You said, 'Asi, you come with me, we will never come back'. Maybe it was that sentence that brought me back to reality. I looked at you and thought, Why would I give up on myself? Don’t you still love me? In this world, in this life, as long as there is such a person who loves me, it is enough. I thought of this at the time, and it made me so happy at the time. I didn’t think too much I thought, I ran with you."

"Actually, I also thought about it later. Why did you take me to Kunlun by such a coincidence? You said that it was because you were going to Kunlun to get medicine for Axia, but what kind of medicine would Kunlun have? But then I thought again, although Bai Jingxing is selfish, domineering, and likes to beat people, but he always likes me, so he won't lie to me.

But not long after I made up my mind, we met people from the Wen family. Because of the Wen family who rushed out suddenly, I was separated from you. Later, I fell into Wen Zhongzhong's hands. She tortured me in every possible way and wantonly **.But even at that time, I thought, these people are only bullying me because you are not around, and when you wake up that day, you will come to save me.

But I waited for you for a few months, but I waited until you were going back to Beiming with Wen Zhongzhong to get married!People from the Wen family laughed at me, saying that I was cheated by you!I didn't believe that you would lie to me, so they brought me to you. At that time, I was by your side, and you could see it. I even called your name, but because my voice was already hoarse And you left in a hurry, and in the end you didn't realize that I was by your side.Wen Xinzhi knew that I was by your side, she even asked you to help her get on the horse on purpose, but you did.Both of us are obviously blind, and I am also very wronged, but you didn't notice me at all!I can only listen to you and her just leave. "

"I wanted to chase you, but your horse ran so fast, and I couldn't see it, so I couldn't catch up with you at all! Later, when you were far away, the people from the Wen family handed me over to other horses. People, those people were sent by the Queen Mother to 'respond' to you and me. They took me to a brothel and sold me for ten pennies. When they left, they said, 'Lord Jing, your good The days are coming to an end, we can only send you here, Mr. Bai returned to the palace this time to receive the reward, what kind of man do you want? Although the quality may not be as good as yours, the quantity is definitely guaranteed'. Heard that kind of words , I finally realized that it turned out that all of this was your trap, elopement, and liking were all used to deceive people, and I was so stupid to write a letter! Do you know how regretful I was at that time? I only blamed me for thinking that you said you would take me away, but I forgot that you are also A-Xia's master! You are also A-Xia's person, and you are willing to take me away, but it doesn't mean you like me. Maybe you and the late emperor Similarly, all the good things you do to me are because you pity me."

"I stayed in a brothel in Kunlun for two years. You don't need to expect me to be as good as a jade in that place. Then one day, I was sitting at the door of the brothel to pick up customers. A client who drank too much wine insisted on me. In the end, I struggled a few times, and he beat me with a horsewhip... Aren't you always curious about where the scar on my neck came from? That's when it came! I was beaten badly, and I subconsciously called out to you My name, I want you to save me. But how can you hear me calling you. Just when I thought I was going to die, someone suddenly came up and beat the person who beat me away. They were Alian and Ji Ruo. At that time, I remembered that Ji Ruo came up to me and asked me, "What's the name you called just now?" I don't know why he cared so much about your name, but at that time I thought He saved me and told him it was nothing, but after I told him, he asked about your background in detail, and he bought me back only after confirming that you belonged to the Beiming Changbai Bai family."

"I thought that Ji Ruo was your old acquaintance, maybe you didn't abandon me, maybe Ji Ruo was sent by you to save me." Yan Wan stopped, and suddenly shivered, "But I didn't expect, Ji Ruo is a pervert, he is your old acquaintance, yes, but he knows you, and you may not know him, he is a pervert. He has lived in Beiming for a long time, and he is still in your Bai He lived at home for a long time, and during that time, he fell in love with Bai Ying, but due to various reasons, he couldn't get together with Bai Ying. It's fine if they didn't get together, but he settled the account with Bai Ying On my head, I can't understand it! He always asks me why I am also a member of the Bai family, but you can be seduced by me, and Bai Ying is not willing to go with him? My mother can't know about this kind of thing Why are you blaming me! I have been with him for nearly five years, and I am dying to wait for you to save me! And these innocent disasters I suffered are all thanks to you! You say I should not I should hate you! If there is no you, maybe I can use the power in my hand to fight for the throne with Axia. If there is no you, how can I lose my dignity in those seven years, miserable like a pig and dog! Just because of this , You said, do I want to kill you, do I want to take revenge on you!"

"But, but I came back after all kinds of difficulties and dangers, and I came back with a heart of revenge on you. In the end, in the end, I found that things were not what I thought. In fact, you didn't lie to me! Not at all! Those years supported me to survive! What are they! I might as well die! Why did things become so ridiculous!"