healer love letter

In the evening when Li Ying came home from get off work, Gao Le had already prepared dinner, mixed bean porridge and cornmeal vegetable cakes. There was a little rock sugar in the porridge, which was sweet but not too greasy. The cornmeal cakes were baked golden on both sides, just out of the pan When served with a crispy skin.

Gao Le served him porridge, cut the cake into small pieces, and put them on the dining table.

In Li Ying's mind is still the sentence that Gao Le said at Lei's wedding this afternoon, would you like to go with me to see Song Yan on Qingming Festival?

To be honest, Li Ying didn't want to or not, but felt a little awkward in her heart.Li Ying has nothing to be afraid of. Being with Boss Gao is like picking up a treasure. Boss Gao is careful and patient, making him a perfect lover.But Li Ying was a little bit afraid. He was afraid that Gao Le had someone else in his heart, and that he would still not be able to forget Song Yan.

Now that Gao Le suddenly asked him to visit Song Yan on Ching Ming Festival, Li Ying didn't know what that meant, but since Gao Le had proposed it, he didn't want to just take advantage of Gao Le, so he agreed first.I agreed when I was in the car in the afternoon, but now I regret it a bit.

Alas, Li Ying sighed in her heart.

How to do it.

When he was eating porridge, he was absent-minded. He knocked the spoon on the table several times, and the sticky soup on it flowed onto the table, reflecting the light and shining brightly, like a small unsightly mirror, reflecting his heart.

"What's wrong?" Gao Le pulled out a piece of paper from the drawer and helped him wipe off the soup. "Why are you absent-minded?"

"Did the counseling center meet another low-level person?"

The spoon was pinched in Li Ying's hand, and his lips were pursed. The thought of pressing down several times just now came up again. He looked at Gao Le, his eyelashes drooped again, and saw that there was still half a bowl of miscellaneous bean porridge in front of him. , blinked slowly a few times before asking him.

"Actually, Boss Chen talked to me about Song Yan once not long ago, before you told me about him." Li Ying thought about telling Gao Le about this matter several times, but he didn't know how to say it. .What's more, he knew that Chen Er told him this out of kindness, and he didn't want to cause conflicts between Gao Le and Chen Er because of himself.So this idea was pressed again and again, until today.

Li Ying's fingers were getting tighter and tighter, and he didn't dare to look up at Gao Le.

The atmosphere was strangely quiet, no one spoke, and the TV was not turned on, otherwise Jia and Wanle, who were playing on the TV at this moment, could adjust the atmosphere for them.It's not like now, where the two are relatively silent to the point of embarrassment.

"Are you angry?" Li Ying asked.

Another long silence.

Li Ying raised her head and saw Gao Le's eyes. There was something hidden in them that he couldn't understand, but there was no sign of anger in them.

"No." Gao Le said, trying to adjust his mood so that his tone would not sound so depressing.The corners of his mouth moved, and his eyes were sour. "It's because I didn't think carefully and forgot to take care of your feelings. I'm sorry." What I said was an apology.

Gao Le blamed himself, why did he make such an unreasonable request to let Li Ying go to see Song Yan with him? Someone so insecure.

This request is enough to disrupt his position, and may even make him have some uneasy thoughts.

abrupt.

It was really abrupt.

Why do you have to let him accompany me to see Song Yan.

"Are you feeling uncomfortable because I asked you to accompany me to see Song Yan on the way back today?" Gao Le asked him.

Li Ying shook her head.

"It's okay, if you can't accept it in your heart, just tell me, I don't have to ask you to accompany me, I just, I just."

I just want to say goodbye to the past, and then move forward without any burden, with you.

He didn't say the second half of the sentence, because he saw tears flickering in Li Ying's eyes.

"Are you angry with me?" Li Ying asked amid tears.

"No."

"Are you mad at me?"

"Not really."

"sorry."

Gao Le was silent, not knowing what to say.He suddenly felt very sad, what a bad thing he did that made Li Ying treat him with such respect as a guest and friend, so polite that he was hardly like a lover.Gao Le thought, if Li Ying could be a little more proud of being favored, maybe he would be happier.

"It's me who should apologize. It's my lack of consideration. I forgot to consider your feelings. I'm not angry. Chen Er told you those things for my own good. He knows that I won't take the initiative to confess these things to you, so He did nothing wrong by trying to help me."

"I'm not angry because of you. I just feel that I'm not doing well enough to make things difficult for you. I'm angry with myself."

Li Ying put down the porcelain spoon in her hand, looked at Gao Le, and pursed her mouth tightly.

"I want to take you to see Song Yan. I don't mean anything else. I just want to tell him that I can't look back. I have a new life and a new lover. I need to move forward. I can't live in In place." Gao Le suddenly felt his eyes sour and hot, as if tears were about to flow out.

"It's my fault that made you feel uncomfortable." Before Gao Le finished speaking, Li Ying suddenly stood up and hugged him. His arms formed a circle, and Gao Le hugged him tightly.

"I'm neither uncomfortable nor angry. I'm just afraid that you don't want me." Li Ying's voice was very low, like a child acting like a baby with her parents when she was wronged. He couldn't say a word, but whispered an innocuous complaint in a slight voice.

Li Ying said that he was afraid that Gao Le would not want him.

Gao Le's already moist eye sockets became even more moist, like a thick fog. He walked in the thick fog for a long time, and he wore iron chains that he couldn't break free from.He walked for a long time, sleepy and tired, finally saw Li Ying's figure at a certain moment, he was ecstatic and wanted to catch up.But the closer he got, the more Li Ying retreated.The two of them seem to be playing a chasing game, chasing and retreating, without end.

Gao Le wanted Li Ying to stop and asked him why he ran away.Li Ying stood in the center of the fog, with tears in her eyes, and her eyes fell on Gao Le.

I'm afraid you don't want me.

Li Ying's trembling voice, almost like a heart-piercing Gu worm, penetrated to the deepest part of Gao Le's heart.

Gao Le stretched out his arms to hug Li Ying, and the hug became tighter and tighter, until finally the two of them were so close that they became one.

"Don't be afraid, I wouldn't want you." Gao Le's face rubbed against Li Ying's belly twice.

"It must have taken me half my life to be lucky enough to meet you."

Gao Le's claim that it was Song Yan's tomb was actually incorrect. After Song Yan was cremated, he was brought back to Canada by his parents and buried in the place where he was born and raised.There is no Song Yan under the tombstone Gao Le erected himself, but it is indeed Song Yan's tombstone.

Li Ying asked him what was buried under the tombstone, and Gao Le replied.

"It was the clothes he wore on the day of the car accident, and I bought them for him."

Li Ying didn't ask any more questions, and the two fell into silence.During the silence, the starlight gradually brightened, and the hazy moonlight shrouded the earth.In the afternoon, there was a light rain, which washed everything in the world, and there was a pleasant fragrance of earth in the air.

After dinner, the two of them took a walk in the community. The lights were dim and there were not so many residents in the community. It seemed that there were only the two of them left in the silence of the night sky. Gao Le simply held hands with Li Ying.

Gao Le's fingers gently rubbed Li Ying's palm, and the other hand was clenched into a fist nervously. He raised his head and glanced at the moon, immersed in this winding haze. "I want to take you to see Song Yan. In fact, I have another idea in my heart that I didn't tell you. I think it's a bit hypocritical." Gao Le paused for a while, and turned his head to look at Li Ying.

"I want to forget the life before I met you. I will start with you and end with you." His fingers suddenly clenched a little tighter, expressing his master's tension and anxiety.

Li Ying smiled in the dark, this smile flashed by, but it was a smile that could light up the night of Gaole.The air after the rain has a pleasant scent of green grass, fresh and refreshing. The fallen petals in the community are all over the ground, and some debris with water droplets will stick to the ground when you step on the ground.Their footsteps were very soft, falling on the quiet night.

"No need to do this." Li Ying gently held Gao Le's hand with his backhand, and passed his body temperature through the touch of the two people's skin contact parts. He shook his head slightly. "Your past life has unique meaning, you don't have to forget let alone deny it, it's better to remember." Li Ying's voice was very soft, with his unique tranquility and elegance.

"The past, experiences, sorrows and joys, successes and failures in the past are all worth remembering forever. It is those little things that make up who you are now, and who stand beside me, the unique and irreplaceable you."

He raised his hands, as if holding a unparalleled treasure, and gently and carefully placed them on his lips to kiss them lightly.Feeling the warmth on his lips, Gao Le gasped.

"It's just that from now on you will have me for the rest of your life. This is a new beginning. And I am very glad that I am with you in this new beginning. Although I am not perfect and have many shortcomings, I think that as a lover Still qualified, so, I'm sure we'll create a lot of good memories."

Gao Le smiled at him in the dark night, as if this smile took them through the foggy forest, and then held hands to witness the first sun rise tomorrow.

There will be a rainbow after the rain, and there will be a clear and cloudless sky.

"The rain has stopped." Gao Le looked up at the sky and said softly. "Tomorrow will be a sunny day."

"Ah."

The evening wind blows gently, gently taking away every piece of peeling sadness and anxiety, leaving them with a brighter, quieter and clearer future.

They went to visit the grave together on Ching Ming Festival and brought a bouquet of small white daisies.Originally, Gao Le wanted to bring chrysanthemums, but after thinking about it, it didn't fit Song Yan's temperament, so he chose little daisies, white, so elegant and so sad.

There are a lot of people who come to sweep the tomb during the Ching Ming Festival, and the green holly stands straight in rows, forming an orderly line anyway, like a solemn night watchman, guarding the peace and tranquility in his own way.

Gao Le and Li Ying, one in front of the other, were dressed in black, shuttling among the green pines and cypresses, with solemn expressions.Walking along the road, Li Ying raised her head from time to time, thinking that there was a soul resting under each tree, and she couldn't help but feel great sadness in her heart.

Human beings change and change, only the silent land remains unchanged, becoming a great witness.

When he reached a tombstone, Gao Le stopped. "It's here."

Li Ying looked up and saw a few simple block letters engraved on the black tombstone.

Tomb of Song Yan.

Next to it is a line of elegant cursive English, because after the wind, rain and years of washing, the dust is stuck on it, which is a bit unclear and hard to distinguish.Li Ying tried hard to identify which line of English, and finally saw that it said: loveismmorelongerthandeath

Li Ying's heart twitched violently.

At that time, they must really love each other.

He looked at Gao Le's back, and his eye circles suddenly turned red.

Boss Gao must have had a really bad time these years, just like what Chen Er described, his only thought was that he would be useless.

But fortunately, they met each other, pulled each other out of the abyss, healed the wound, and then went into battle lightly.

"Song Yan, this is my new boyfriend." Gao Le squatted down, put down the daisy in his hand, and then opened the plastic insulation box he carried with him. Inside were the little chaos and waffle crisps he made.

When Gao Le opened his mouth, he smiled, showing the kind of free and easy attitude that the past has finally been let go.He knows that the word Song Yan is no longer a scar in his heart that cannot be mentioned, but represents a memory that has passed, full of pain but has passed after all.

As Li Ying said, there is no need to deny the past, it is the bits and pieces of the past that make up who I am now.

"In the past, you always said, if one day you take a step ahead, let me not be sad for too long, come out quickly, find a new lover, and live your own life." Gao Le poured a glass of wine next to Little Chaos, Song Yan He doesn't like to drink alcohol with too much alcohol, and usually likes to drink some alcoholic beverages. Gao Le specially brought him juice wine today.

"I used to always say that you are worrying about nothing, living a good life, why do you think about such a long-term thing, because of this, I always scold you, saying that you are ignorant, that you are a fake foreign devil outside, and you have forgotten the traditional Chinese culture. Chinese people can't keep mentioning death, it's unlucky." Gao Le smiled when he said this, although the smile was extremely bitter.He tilted the wine glass, and the reddish juice fell on the soil, gradually permeating.

"It took me four years to get out of you, four full years, more than 1000 days and nights."

"I know, you won't blame me. You are always considerate and innocent. I brought him here today just to tell you that I have to say goodbye to yesterday. Life has to move forward. I didn't understand many things before. Trapped in a dead end, unable to get out and get through, maybe I have grown up a bit now, I understand."

He bent down, faced the tombstone, and bowed respectfully.A soft spring breeze blows over a pair of faces that are dependent on each other.The days are warm at the beginning, and the days are getting longer.The warm sun fell on the earth, and the ice and snow melted.Liang Jianyan whispered softly, and both of them flew under a white cloud in the sky.

"I'm going to keep going." Gao Le smiled again, this smile was bright and sad.But it will not be easy to say goodbye to yesterday, as simple as holding your right hand with your left hand.Forgetting the past is scraping the bone to heal the wound, gouging out the flesh to remove the poison, bloody sorrow and piercing pain.

But Gao Le is not afraid, because he knows that after the pain is a new beginning, and in the new beginning there is Li Ying and his lover.

He has visited Song Yan's tombstone many times, whether it is a festival or not, sometimes simply because he is in a bad mood, he sits in front of his tombstone, babbling like telling a story, telling his feelings word by word.After sitting for a long time, the mind is really quiet. There is no one in the cemetery, and the sound of the lone crow flapping its wings can be heard in the quiet.But if you sit alone for a long time, you will be lonely and lonely.

Gao Le thought before that maybe he would be like this for the rest of his life.Confused and lonely, I was drunk and dreamed of death, and I woke up tonight and Hexi and continued to sink.

But it is different now, today he came with Li Ying, he is no longer alone, nor will he be alone for the rest of his life.

"Song Yan." Gao Le called him to the tombstone, his eyes and tone were gentle. "Thank you."

Gao Le's eyes were red, and he grabbed Li Ying's palm in the next second, and found the courage and hope to start again on the skin of the person he was holding.

Spring has really arrived, the spring breeze blows through every inch of land, everything is gradually recovering, the spring breeze is blowing, and everything in the world is growing vigorously.

This is a great day to say goodbye.

"I used to hate words that sound sad, such as wasting all previous efforts, such as the decline of the river, such as the sunset." Gao Le looked at Li Ying with a smile on the corner of his mouth.

"I like to see happy endings, whether it's film or television works or written works. Because everyone's real life is full of unsatisfactory and then we are caught off guard and can't do anything, at least in the fictional world, through the characters' happy endings bring us A little hope about my own life."

"The words I like have vigorous vitality, and there are traces of vigorous growth in them. For example, a dead tree is in spring, and an old tree is sprouting. They are all life-saving, and the willows are dark and the flowers are bright."

"For another example, your name, for example, I met you."

A smile rises and falls into the wind, and with the fragrance of flowers, it floats to a place called the future, where birds are singing and flowers are fragrant, and it is bright.

When leaving, Li Ying squatted down again, said something to the tombstone, put the crooked bunch of daisies away, and bowed respectfully.

After getting in the car, Gao Le helped Li Ying fasten her seat belt, stroked the soft hair on her head, and asked him mysteriously. "What did you just squat down and say to him?"

Li Ying thought he hadn't seen it, but she was embarrassed when she was exposed. She blushed and looked out the window, pretending to appreciate the spring scene outside the window.

"secret."

In the past, it always rained during the Ching Ming Festival, as if to match the sentence in the poem that there is a lot of rain during the Qingming Festival, exaggerating the atmosphere of mourning for loved ones.Today is different. Tomb-sweeping Day today is a sunny day with blue sky and high sun, and the air is full of the fragrance of spring flowers.Looking up, everything under the blue sky is pure and transparent, the wind is clean, the chirping of birds is ethereal, and the air seems to be sweet.

"Okay, secret." Gao Le helped Li Ying fasten his seat belt, pulled his head and kissed his eyes.

"Going to go."

"Ah."

Inside the carriage was a pair of lingering lovers. Both of them were smiling, with healed wounds, and they drove slowly into the warm spring sun and into the bright future.Outside the car window is a clear day, insects and birds are singing, and flowers are blooming.

Although human beings cannot be as eternal as time, every day they know each other and stay together is worth remembering.

The two of them will hold hands and slowly grow old with the years.

The author has something to say:

This is the end of writing here. I have been entertaining myself for so long, and it is quite fun.

I will write extra episodes, about the wedding between Boss Gao and Dr. Li, about how Lao Xu chases his snail girl, and how he can drive on a whim? who knows

Next is business,

Comrades, I will go to the University of Mexico to study for graduate school in July this year, and I will go to Hawthorne to take a language class in May.

I'm so sweet, I can write a fandom for you!

Alumni, come and hook me up!Sweet love is waiting for you!

Well, above.

Grateful.

PS!

My sister asked me what is abo, and I explained to her that she didn't understand, so I said otherwise, I will write an article for you to understand it in depth, so I wrote a new article.

Everyone, please pay attention to me and read my new article. Abo can't buy it and suffer a loss and can't be fooled.

Hurry up while you can prostitute me for nothing now!

Interstellar, abo, military academy, um, maybe these things, but it’s really good to be in love when I write about it.