healer love letter

The new restaurant was doing well. Gao Le invited Chen Er for a drink on Saturday night. The two of them sat in the utility room of their own restaurant with only one table. They drank peanuts, beef jerky and whiskey.

"How can you leave when you're drunk?" Xiao Ke has moved and hasn't found a new apartment yet, Chen Er let him live in his own house first, the two of them go to and from get off work together, and Chen Er can help him drive as a substitute driver when he's drunk .Today Gao Le came by himself and didn't drive. If he couldn't go back, Chen Er wanted to see him off.

"It's okay." Gao Le squeezed a piece of beef jerky and chewed it in his mouth. This year's beef jerky was very chewy, and his cheeks hurt after chewing a few pieces. "Dr. Li will pick me up later." Gao Le and Li Ying have been together for a long time. At first, it was to show respect to Dr. Li. People still call him Dr. Li.

"Okay." Chen Er has been brooding since he talked with Li Ying that day. He wanted to tell Gao Le but didn't know how to say it. He went back and forth and wasted a lot of time.Today I got a little tipsy from drinking, once the wine got into my stomach, I became more courageous, and said all the things I would be reluctant to say on weekdays, in a few words.

"That, Gao Le." Chen Er poured himself another glass of wine. "The two of us are classmates. It has been 20 years since we met in high school. I have been with you for 20 years. I know what you are like best. I am one year older than you. I am your brother. I am sincere. I hope you are well. So I will make some things clear today, and you don't mind."

Generally, you don't mind saying this kind of thing, and it must not be a good thing to say any further. Gao Le subconsciously wants to reject Chen Er, wanting to say that I mind, please shut up quickly.

Chen Er raised his head and drank all the newly poured wine in the quilt, his eyes were bright, the distance between the two of them was drawn closer in this small space, and Chen Er's words fell into Gao Le's heart more.

"You and Dr. Li are so together, have you ever thought about telling him about Song Yan?"

Until now, when he heard Song Yan's name from other people, Gao Le still subconsciously refused, unwilling to talk about him.

"What are you talking about him for? It's been years." Gao Le poured himself wine, his wrists were so flimsy that he almost couldn't hold the bottle.

"Yeah, it's been so many years." Chen Er looked at Gao Le, raised his head, and looked at the light bulb on the ceiling, and the circles of his eyes suddenly turned red. "You said that so many years have passed, have you really let go?"

"About Song Yan's death." Chen Er stared at him.

"I put it down a long time ago." Gao Le tried to keep his tone relaxed. He wanted to laugh, but he didn't quite laugh, so he squeezed out a smile that was not a smile.

"Let it go long ago." I remembered a famous saying, "Don't think about the past, don't be afraid of the future."

Live only in the moment.

But sometimes some people's heart hurts too deeply, they can't just live in the present moment, the old people always fall into a dream.

"I'm not trying to force you to express your opinion. I just think that Dr. Li is so nice. He is with you. If you can't let go of the past and treat him wholeheartedly, it's unfair to him."

"When it comes to love, when you meet an opponent, you must always pay attention to fairness."

Later, Chen Er's words were drowned in alcohol.

Li Ying came to pick him up after eight o'clock, and called him while sitting in the car. Gao Le took his coat and asked to go down.Before going downstairs, Chen Er stood at the door to see him off, and said that you should think about what I said today, and don't worry.

Gao Le didn't nod, turned around and walked into the hasty night.

When I went downstairs, the elevator went down, as if I was falling with my own heart, sinking continuously, sinking to the silent bottom without a trace of sound.

When Gao Le got out of the elevator, he was still in a dull mood, and his steps were heavy. Li Ying saw that his eyes were dull, so he honked the horn, and Gao Le followed the sound to look over.

There was a person sitting behind the windshield, looking at him through a glass.

Gao Le's mood suddenly pushed through the clouds and saw a little sunshine.

He hurried a few steps, ran to the car, opened the door, and sat in.Li Ying was still looking at him, with worry and doubt in her eyes.

"What's wrong?" Gao Le preemptively buckled up his seat belt and asked Li Ying at the same time without making eye contact.

"It's nothing." Li Ying withdrew her gaze and started the car.With the roar of the engine, the vehicle body vibrated, and the wheels began to move forward slowly. Li Ying stepped on the accelerator, and the two of them merged into the flowing vehicle.

Li Ying’s favorite music was playing in the carriage. On New Year’s Day, I heard a song sung by the young people in Lao Xu’s Bar, which was very nice. Later, Gao Le specifically asked about the title of the song. It was a song by a Korean band called noonetoldmewhy, Gao Le I like to listen to it, and Li Ying also listens to it well, so I downloaded it and uploaded it to the car, and it happens to be playing this song right now.The light and soft tune flows slowly, like sitting in front of the fire and drinking a glass of gin and tonic.

sing in the lyrics

It's not our battle to fight

I want love just stone love

cuzlifeisfullgrownon

bluetearsandsorrow

and I had the menough

weboth hadthemenough

Gao Le hummed softly.

are they happy

are you happy

am I happy

Sitting in the carriage, Li Ying, who was driving around her and staring straight ahead, was surrounded by the brisk music she liked, and Gao Le suddenly understood the lyrics

The core of this song should be the sentence, Iwantlovejustonelove

I just want to win someone's heart.

There is no war, no blood, no painful past and ties, I only want to have one heart, and the white head will never be separated.

It seems that I suddenly found my way in the mist. The fog in front of me gradually dissipated, leaving behind a small mountain village with beautiful mountains and rivers, peach blossoms and apricot leaves, and spring breeze. Everything is a scene that can only be seen in dreams.

"Li Ying." Gao Le said suddenly, it was Li Ying who didn't call Dr. Li.Now he is finally willing to put him in an equal position, no longer treat him as a treasure that needs protection and care, but treat him as a mature adult.After Gao Le drank, his eye circles were red and there were sparkles in his eyes. He leaned his head completely on the car seat and tilted his head to look at Li Ying.

"Would you like to hear about Song Yan?"

Li Ying seemed to have suddenly fallen off a cliff, and almost stepped on the brakes.It took him all the calmness and composure he used to treat visitors to calm down his violently beating heart.He didn't dare to look at Gao Le, so he could only look at the road ahead, trying to keep his tone as calm as possible, and said, "Let's talk when we get home."

Ok.

Gao Le turned his head and closed his eyes.

Let's talk when we get home.

When they got home, Li Ying made warm tea for Gao Le and asked him to drink the water first. Gao Le took the tea and put it on the bedside table. Gao Le took his hand and asked him to sit next to her.

In the bedroom, only the orange floor lamp was turned on, and it was unbelievably lazy.The curtains were drawn, and it was just the two of them in this private space.

"I don't know how to open my mouth to tell you, and I've avoided the important things for so long, saying that I don't want to bring up the past, but I'm actually afraid, and I dare not mention Song Yan's name." Gao Le leaned on the sofa with his head tilted He leaned back, as if this was the only way to stop the tears from overflowing his eyes.

"Today, I thought, if I keep not telling you, this matter will not be a scar in my heart forever, and it will not be healed. If you get into trouble with me because of this matter one day, I will be very sad. I am afraid that when I turn around There is no one there, and I am very afraid that you will leave me, no matter what form it takes."

Li Ying took Gao Le's hand and held it tightly in her palm, as if she wanted to tell him in this silent way that I was always here.

"So I decided to tell you everything about Song Yan."

The lights are dim, and the night is gentle and the tea is still steaming.

Gao Le talked about his acquaintance with Song Yan, how he met a Chinese in London, the surprise of meeting an old acquaintance in a foreign country, and how the two became roommates together.Song Yan doesn't like cooking, and is very picky about food, so Gao Le has to consider his taboos when cooking.

Later, the two began to fall in love, and Song Yan's taboo suddenly disappeared. He began to try chopped green onion and coriander, began to eat some very greasy Chinese food, and began to eat hot dogs with thick cheese.If Gao Le didn't go back to cook for him alone, he would smile, show a dimple, and say, it's okay, just cook what you like.

Later, I returned to China, opened a restaurant, and started a business together.

then to...

car accident.

The car accident happened unexpectedly, which disrupted all of Gao Le's plans. He had almost no time to react at that time, and obeyed other people's commands like a robot.

Chen Er said you should go in and have a look at him, Lao Xu said you fucking sign it, Yu Lei said don't worry, Fang Li said the insurance company came to claim.

All he could think about was the eyes he didn't open when he went out that morning.Originally, he should be the one to do the shopping at the time he had negotiated, but he just didn't want to get up that morning, lying on the bed like a rascal, refusing to get up.

So later, Gao Le blamed all this on himself.

"I was supposed to go shopping that day, but I drank alcohol the night before and didn't want to move, so I let him go. He has always been considerate. Although he muttered a few words, he still went. If I knew that he might go I'm never coming back, and I'm not going to..."

Li Ying gently embraced Gao Le's shoulder and patted his back.His strength is very light, like a mother who puts her child to sleep at night.

"It's not your fault." Li Ying said.

"I know." Gao Le whispered.

"No, you don't know." Li Ying pushed Gao Le's shoulders away and looked directly at him.The two were so close that one could see the red bloodshot eyes in Gao Le's eyes.

"There is stupidity and altruism in love. The two people who love each other will make seemingly unreliable eachother because of passion, and because of these passions, altruistic emotions are generated. The specific manifestation is that I would rather suffer for myself than let the person I love suffer. , He went out for you because of this kind of mentality at that time, and something bad happened, and it happened suddenly. You couldn't calculate the consequences in advance. But you should know that no matter the moment he went out or the moment of a car accident, he He won't blame you, he might even think, it's a good thing you didn't go out today, this is where the blindness of love lies, and it's these blindnesses that make love more beautiful than other emotions." Li Ying's tone was very calm, his The eyes are firm, firm and bright.

Tears were already in Gao Le's eyes, but he still moved the corners of his mouth to force a smile.

"Is Dr. Li giving me psychological counseling?" Gao Le sniffed. "What counseling techniques were used?"

"Try empathy."

"Would you put yourself in my shoes and experience my feelings?" Another sniffle.

It was already a completely silent night at this moment, the two of them sat on the bed and only turned on a warm orange lamp at the head of the bed, and faint spots of light fell on the bed.There is a wind outside the window that carries the clouds and floats across the sky. When you open the door tomorrow, you will see a clear and cloudless spring morning. In spring, a hundred flowers will slowly bloom.

"No." Li Ying said.

"Empathize with Song Yan."

Gao Le was slightly startled, and forgot to sneeze, and stared blankly at Li Ying.Even if he is a layman who is a psychological counselor, he also knows that to help people solve psychological problems, one needs to put oneself in the other person's shoes, so as to better start from the other side and propose reasonable solutions.

Why to help Gao Le relieve his emotions, we have to empathize with Song Yan, and put ourselves in Song Yan's shoes to consider Song Yan's feelings.

"Why?" Gao Le also forgot to blink, and stared blankly at Li Ying.

Li Ying looked at Gao Le, and started slowly. He crawled to the bed, stretched out his hand and took out a tissue from the bedside table, folded it into a square to help Gao Le blow his nose, he stuck it, and now the distance between the two of them was zero. .

Gao Le saw the warm light in Li Ying's eyes, which was the most beautiful night sky full of stars he had ever seen.

"Because I'm like him."

Li Ying wiped the paper and took it down again, her fingers flying, and the toilet paper was folded into smaller cubes again.

"Love you as much as he does."

As soon as Gao Le's nose was sore, tears fell, slowly, slipped out from the corners of his eyes, flowed down the side of his face, to his chin, shook a few times, and hit the bed sheet.

Gao Le has said many love words and heard many love words. Never before has a sentence hit the heart as much as it does now, and it shocked him so much that he wanted to cry.

Under Li Ying's touch, Gao Le finally let go of the scar that had been in his heart for four years. He finally understood that it was time to move forward.

Song Yan's name, it's time to heal.

I thought that time is the greatest healer, but now it seems that not all scars will fade with time.Perhaps time has never been the greatest healer, but love is.

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