wife addiction

I lowered my eyes, made up my mind, and said to Zong Xian with difficulty: "Zong, Xian, you don't have to force yourself. There is no need, because I sacrificed you, the happiness of your life. You have been, to me, very good I can't drag you down for no reason, although I have said that I like you, but that is only my own business, you don't have to be responsible for my feelings."

Zong Xian listened patiently to my words, frowned slightly, and then smiled brightly: "Xiaoying, you misunderstood, I am not as noble as you think, the reason why I want to be with you is mostly because My own selfishness."

"Selfishness?" I took a breath, very puzzled.

Although Zong Xian has a split personality, I am sure that he is not the kind of scheming person.

Seeing my stupid look, Zong Xian squeezed my face, feeling a little helpless.

"Xiaoying, you are really slow, no wonder Gu Xun is always worried that you will be taken advantage of."

I am baffled, where does this follow?

Seeing that I still didn't understand, Zong Xian simply dragged me out of the bed and hugged me into his arms. My face was pressed against his chest, listening to his strong heartbeat and smelling the faint scent of his body, my face blushed again and again. .

For the first time in six months, we embraced in such an intimate position.

Zong Xian rubbed my hair, and whispered into my ear: "Xiaoying, the person I like is you. Haven't you found out for so long?"

I was taken aback and suspected that I had heard it wrong. Zong Xian licked my earlobe and continued: "I have liked you since I was a child."

as a child?

I'm even more surprised. When I was young, I basically played alone, and I didn't go out of the gate. How did I know Zong Xian?What nonsense is he talking about?

Could it be that he regarded me as someone else? !

Zong Xian kissed my ears, his breathing gradually became a little rough, and an inexplicable throbbing stirred in my heart, but at this moment, Zong Xian suddenly shuddered, let me go, and then placed me on the pillow Get up and get out of bed.

The air conditioner in the room was turned on a little low, Zong Xian turned it up a little, went back to the bed, covered me with a blanket, and lay beside me: "Sleep."

I took a sneak peek, no more, no less, just a punch away.

I smiled wryly. Sure enough, I guessed right. He must have married me because he regarded me as someone else. After marriage, he found that I was not the person he wanted, so he kept a distance from me.

By the way, when he first met me a year ago, didn't he treat me as a girl and put me in a princess dress?

Could it be that I look very similar to the person he likes, and if he can't get that person, he treats me as a substitute?

Otherwise, how can we talk about empathy?

However, even if he regards me as a substitute, why does he deliberately keep a distance from me?

Could it be that the person he likes has started to like him again, and he wants to get back together with her, but he hinders me in the middle?

The more I thought about it, the more dejected and sad I became, and before I knew it, I started to cry.

I suddenly thought, if I recovered miraculously, maybe I wouldn't have to be caught between the two of them, and everyone would feel better.

I like him, it’s true, I also had fantasies about him, it’s true, but I know how much I have, although he sometimes has a split personality, but overall, I don’t deserve him at all, Being with him is nothing but wishful thinking.

I think, the distance between me and him is basically the distance between a dick and a male god. Even if we are together, we will not be happy if we are all different. What's more, he still has someone he really likes, just because of my love. Injured, had to compromise.

I sighed softly, looked in Zongxian's direction in the dark, how I wished I could stand up suddenly, like a normal person, and then pretended to calmly tell him, I'm already normal, you go find your true love.

But even this is just wishful thinking.

I was thinking wildly, and fell into a dream hazily, in a daze, I felt that the seat next to me was empty, and Zong Xian was no longer beside me, until I fell into a deep sleep, and I didn't see him come back.

I felt extremely bitter in my heart, and sure enough, I was not the one he liked.

I lay there silently, tears flowing freely.

I'm not afraid of being seen, but in this room where I'm alone, I'm afraid it's as hard as going to heaven to be seen.

At dawn the next day, I felt my eyes were swollen. When I opened my eyes, there was only a small gap, as if I was peeping into the world through the crack of the door.

Zong Xian had already finished washing and got up. Seeing me open my eyes, staring at me for a while, he touched my eyelids with his hands, as if he felt a little distressed: "Close your eyes, let me give you a massage, what sad things did you think of yesterday?" Is it? Crying so hard."

I felt a little bit in my heart, and thought to myself, no, I was discovered, but then I thought about it again, I didn't do anything shady, why was I nervous, and besides, if I didn't say it, Zong Xian probably wouldn't be able to guess it.

I relax and close my eyes.

Zong Xian's massage technique is very sophisticated, and soon my eyelids stopped puffing up, which may be due to his careful care of me this year.

You know, this year, he hardly went to work. At home, he gave me massage three times a day, just like three meals a day. to hire him.

The so-called genius is what they are like. In any field, as long as they study a little, they can make achievements.

As for me, this is elusive. Even if I am the best at painting, I still give up halfway, not to mention those things that I am not good at. of.

After my eyes were comfortable, I opened them again.

Although Zong Xian was smiling, his complexion was not very good, and Xiao Qian, who walked in at some time, had an even worse complexion.

I didn't hear him knock on the door. I don't know if it was because I was distracted or he didn't knock at all. I just think that he, like Zong Xian, has also started to become elusive.

Xiao Qian was still wearing pajamas, hugging the pillow, standing beside my bed, looking extremely tangled: "Zong Xian, didn't you say that Brother Ying can't sleepwalk? Why did I see him again last night? Please be honest Tell me, am I really hallucinating? I am not afraid of hallucinations, I just want to know the truth now."

I was startled and couldn't help opening my eyes wide. How could I sleepwalk like this?Is Xiaoqian really sick?

Zong Xian gave Xiao Qian a look of embarrassment, and shook his head: "Xiao Qian, you didn't experience hallucinations, Xiao Ying did indeed sleepwalk last night."

"how can that be?!"

Xiaoqian and I opened our eyes wide at the same time, I was particularly surprised, not because I didn't want to stand up suddenly and walk around, but, given my physical condition, how could I sleepwalk?

Zong Xian frowned, didn't speak for a long time, and finally decided to take me to the hospital for a comprehensive examination immediately before eating, to see what's going on with me.

I realized that my sleepwalking was not as simple as I imagined, and I couldn't help but feel uneasy. I recalled my family's distant and near relatives several times, but I didn't find anyone who had a similar disease.

I thought, maybe what I know is not comprehensive. Even if this kind of weird disease is acquired, it will be secretly hidden by others. No one will publicize it, let alone record it in the family tree openly and show it to future generations. However, , my parents are at home all year round, and they should have some understanding of these things during the chats with relatives in the family.

Thinking of this, I hurriedly asked Zong Xian to call my parents and ask them if anyone in the family had sleepwalking.

The answer my parents gave me was that there was no such symptom in my family. However, I was very frightened when I was a child. After my brother was picked up by my grandparents, I would sleepwalk for a long time. , They took me to see several hospitals, and the doctors all said that it was caused by my congenital deficiency and stimulation, and that I would be fine if I adjusted my mood, other than that, there was no better way.

"Congenital deficiency?" Zong Xian was very surprised, and I was also very puzzled. I never knew that I had congenital deficiency.

"Yes, the reason why Xiaoying was congenitally deficient is that when he was four months old in the womb, his brain suffered from ischemia. If it wasn't for that ischemia, his body should be much healthier than it is now." My mother sighed Take a breath.

"Cerebral ischemia? How could this be? I see that your body is quite healthy. Why is Xiaoying suffering from ischemia?" My mother's answer caught Zong Xian unexpectedly, and he always thought that I was just in poor health. .

What my mother said next seemed to give us a blow to the head, and I was shocked from ear to ear, because she said: "Xiaoying originally had a twin brother, but when I was four months old, I got twin-to-twin transfusion syndrome, Later, Xiaoying was saved after surgery, but because of the insufficient blood supply, Xiaoying still left sequelae."

"What about my brother?" I heard this, and couldn't help asking from the sidelines. My mother never told me about these things.

Zong Xian immediately relayed my question for me, and my mother was silent for a while before replying: "Xiaoying's twin brother, I couldn't keep it."

Zong Xian exchanged some pleasantries with my mother, then hung up the phone, and then explained to me what twin-twin transfusion syndrome is from a medical point of view.

After I heard this, I felt very uncomfortable. I never thought that the moment I came into this world, I would kill the person who was supposed to be closest to me.

Zong Xian touched my head, sighed softly, and said to himself after a while: "However, the one who survives this disease should generally be the one with excessive blood supply, and your situation is exactly the same. On the contrary, it's kind of weird."

After finishing speaking, as if he was afraid that I would think too much, he immediately added: "I have no other intentions, just talking about the facts, I always feel that you can stay by my side is the greatest gift from God to me, wait until tomorrow I go Buy some tribute, pay homage to his old man, thank him for not taking you away from me, otherwise, there will be another bachelor in this world."