sick white moonlight

Fanwaiyi

What was it like to hear the news of the man's death?

In Xu Zhou's heart, the only word that can describe it is suddenly.

The man's personal assistant for many years sent a letter from a distant foreign country.

Said that before he left, he wanted to give it to himself.

Open the letter, the first line of words is those three words.

【sorry. 】

Xu Zhou smiled, his hair was already slightly white. For him, emotional matters are not worth it or not. I am sorry to anyone, but he is willing to do so without complaint or regret.

Thinking of him and thinking of him, knowing that he is doing well, is not that sad.

So day after day, year after year.

It's just that he didn't expect that such days would not last long.

[I was wrong, I delayed you.For more than 20 years, I calmed down by chance and always felt that my original decision was right, but before I was about to leave, I regretted it.Of course, it can't be said to be regret, it can only be said to be regret.If I were to do it again, I would still make the same choice. 】

[I have always held a suspicious attitude towards relationships. I don't believe in love that will never change and never fade. 】

……

Xu Zhou held the letter in his hand and lowered his eyebrows in silence.

He didn't believe it at first, and he didn't believe that this feeling had been preserved for such a long time.

I can't forget it even if I want to, just put it there silently.

Just like his elder brother, just watch him live well.

Occasionally, I have time to be like a friend, send him a gift, or fly to him to see him.

However, this is only a small number of cases.

After all, he has gone too far and too far, and many times no one knows.

Xu Zhou thought again, this letter must not only be sent to himself.

Xu Zhou actually thought that the eldest brother would go and accompany him well, but he didn't in the end.

Also, the eldest brother Luo Shaohui pretended too much in his heart, and it was too difficult to guess.

Xu Zhou actually didn't know what happened between them.

Did they have an agreement?Maybe, maybe not.

Xu Zhou sometimes felt that the man knew that he would not live long, so he flatly refused.

Based on that person's thinking, he must feel that he will change his mind, mature, have a new life, and a new lover.

Unfortunately, everything is not as he expected.

Now, he's gone, so early.

Then how long can I live before I can see him.

It's just that Xu Zhou didn't think about it.

His life is still long, and the days without him are so long, so long that he can't believe it.

It wasn't until he closed his eyes and understood the so-called truth that he sighed and realized the unclear look in his elder brother's eyes before he left.

Fanwaiji

It was probably the third year when He An went abroad. At that time, Luo Shaohui was indeed dealing with some of his own affairs.

But a phone call from his younger brother forced him to give up the idea he once wanted to realize in his heart.

"Brother, I remember." The younger brother's voice was so fragile, as if he had lost his soul, he just spoke clearly and directly.

"Do you know? I once had a dream. In the dream, Li Ke and I never broke up. I just watched him and stayed with him, like that year after year. At first I I was immersed in the deep feelings he gave me, but then I was afraid, I was afraid. When I was immersed in the joy brought by love and the response he brought me, I ignored, ignored What's wrong with him, he just sank deeper and deeper without my knowing. Until he fell into the abyss and couldn't get up again. "

"Brother, do you know? In that dream, I wanted to break up with him later, but he threatened me with a knife and hurt his body. This dream is really ridiculous. Li Ke, Li Ke without me by his side How good it is. Look, how smooth his career was in the past few years, but now that he has left this complicated circle and is abroad, he must have a very good life."

"How well he's doing without me by his side."

"Yixuan." Luo Shaohui shouted in a low voice, wanting to say something.

But Luo Yixuan didn't give him a chance, he just talked about that dream again.

"In that dream, it was so absurd. I took him to the hospital, and the doctor told me that he was sick. Then I took him abroad and took him to see a doctor. However, the doctor asked me to have less contact with him. He relied on me Excessive, this state of mind is completely distorted."

"I did it one by one, but Li Ke couldn't stand up anymore, he couldn't recover."

"Brother, do you know? After that dream, I looked at him and saw him like a child, who lost his ability to think, stayed awkwardly in the corner, and looked at me blankly."

"He forgot, forgot everything."

"Later, he seemed to have improved a lot, so I went back to China for a while."

"Brother, isn't this dream particularly detailed?"

"A few years ago, I kept thinking about the continuation of this dream. Maybe I woke up from the dream, so I forgot the continuation. It would be nice if I didn't know anything. It's a pity that I remembered."

Luo Shaohui heard crying.

"I thought he was fine, but the doctor told me he jumped off the building."

"Brother, this is just a dream, just a dream, right?"

Luo Shaohui was silent, he didn't even say what He An had told him.

That's it, everything is fine.

For the younger brother, it is best not to know anything.

Li Ke is still alive and well, instead of Li Ke leaving after the breakup as He An once said.

As for the things that Luo Shaohui had thought about and planned, Luo Shaohui saved them one by one.

A person's life may not be perfect after all, and he wants too much.

Will we be able to be happy together?Maybe not.

Instead of making him entangled in choices, it is better to quietly watch him grow old and see him live a stable life.

This is not a kind of fulfillment.

However, when Luo Shaohui got the letter later, he regretted it.

He regretted that he didn't leave everything behind, didn't care about so many things, just went to accompany him, and accompanied him through this short time.

Fanwaisan

A well-known emotional gossip forum that has sprung up in recent years, the post titled "The most legendary love-hate relationship in the last century-three brothers fall in love with the same man" is getting more and more popular.

Gossip Taoist: A new chapter has been turned today. On the first day of this century, the host of this post is very anxious. Let’s talk about what I think is the most ridiculous love story in the last century, a dog-blooded four-cornered love story, a man And the love-hate relationship between the three brothers.

Little Leaf Fly: Squat, it sounds very interesting

Garbled code gentleman: Code one, I feel like I know who it is, but let’s listen to what the host has to say.

Gossip Taoist: First of all, I want to explain that this story is ridiculous and magical. It is more TV series than TV series. Oh, no, no TV series dare to shoot like this.A family of three brothers never married for the same man, what else can I say besides miraculous?

Dong Minglang: Damn it, it won't be what I thought it would be!Don't slander my male god, really.

Gossip Taoist: Slander what?I'm just telling a story honestly.

Sleeve fluttering: Landlord update quickly! ! !

Gossip Taoist: In the last century, this man became the best movie star in China at a young age, and then he was lukewarm for five or six years. Then he became popular because of a drama, and then acted in a movie that is quite famous in the film history of his country. Movie, I won't mention the name.This is an emotional forum, and I'm just talking about the bloody emotional scenes in it!

Dong Minglang: Landlord, if you want to make an appointment, take my male god away.

Mr. Garbled Code: It’s no different from what I thought in my heart. The host is really gossiping about him, but the host has to remind you that one of them cannot be said to exist, so don’t mention the name.

Love to eat char siew buns: Can’t say?Interesting, squat one.

Bagua Taoist: Understood, I didn't mention my name, because I was afraid of being harmonized.

Gossip Taoist: I went on to say, this man retired after he acted in that very famous movie, and has never appeared in the entertainment circle since then.At that time, there were three outstanding men, three brothers, who had emotional entanglements with him.Well, the man never married, and the three brothers never married either.

Xiao Ye Zifei: Wow, host, are you sure that the three brothers really fell in love with the same one?

Dong Minglang: Take away the male god, hum! ! !

Grinding Knife Huo Huo: I seem to have heard this story...

Laughing idiot: Don't talk nonsense, okay?If the author is really talking about the people I think, I can only say that the author is talking nonsense, complete nonsense, nonsense, and no factual basis at all.

Gossip Taoist: I am talking nonsense, where am I talking nonsense.This is true, and many people knew it before.Recently, XX also published a biography to catch someone's popularity.

Sleeve fluttering: Landlord update quickly!come on, come on, come on!

Ye Zifeifei: I see that I have a predestined relationship with this post, so I came here for a visit.

Gossip Taoist: This man actually has two names, the latter name is more familiar to those who understand the direction of history, and the former name is basically known to movie lovers.

Dong Minglang: My male god! ! !Super super super super beautiful!His demeanor is off the charts, his looks are blown away, and the book he wrote is full of praise! ! !

Laughing idiot: Don't be foolish, spread rumors and make trouble.Be careful because it cannot be said to exist, the post will be blocked directly.

Little Ye Zifei: Keep squatting, the host will update soon!Stop whetting my appetite!Anxious to wait!

Gossip Taoist: Let’s talk about the three brothers again. The eldest brother can’t be said. In the early years NB was in the business world.

Xiudong said: Who is the eldest brother?Sounds familiar.

Laughing idiot: It cannot be said that it has appeared, be careful to be reported haha!

Dong Minglang: I don't really care about gossip, although I know everything about male gods, and I have watched every book and movie.

Gossip Taoist: The second brother's life is also legendary. He was living outside in the early years. In the early years, no one knew the relationship between him and the other two brothers.I also don't mention the second brother's name here, but only say that we are in the same boat, everyone should know it.The big man who has to be counted in the history of film has single-handedly controlled the film market and led the development of Chinese films.

Dingdang a drop of water: help each other in the same boat, understand and understand.

The sword points to hundreds of millions of rivers and mountains: help each other in the same boat, understand and understand.

Zhou Zhou is so cute: Zhou fans passed by, blowing my boat off, she was so good-looking back then, and I can't find a few who can fight anymore.

Gossip Taoist: As for the third younger brother, it’s also quite amazing. He was a dissolute son in his early years, but later he turned his back on his evil ways and became a famous bigwig in the business world! ! !What kind of development is this, I don't understand at all.These three men are all legends, and I just want to kneel down because of the magic of life.

Gossip Taoist: Of course, the most important thing is that the three brothers all fell in love with the one at the front. Because he never married, he is more novel than novels, and TV dramas are better than TV dramas. I think of a documentary recently broadcast by a certain station, talking about celebrities in the last century.As a result, the popularity was very high, and the novel world actually traveled to that era one after another, but it blinded my eyes! ! !

Xiao Ye Zifei: It seems that the three brothers almost know who it is, but that man, why am I still confused.It doesn't seem to be well-known... The landlord, you made it up!There is no one in front at all...

Dong Minglang: The popularity of the male god is beyond doubt!He became a monk halfway and entered the field of history studies, and the sensation he caused is unknown to outsiders.I have read "XX Kao", "Political Analysis of XX Period", "Eastern Dynasty Chronicles"... Every book he published in the field of historiography blows up.As for science popularization, travel notes are not good either.And the male gods later wrote books generally not in their own language...

Laughing idiot: This person shocked the history circle when he left, one of the best historians in the last century, emmmmm, he can’t say that I have doubts about the things between brothers, but this person’s achievements are indeed nothing to say, talent Astonishing, amazingly talented, a monk halfway through the world, traveling alone for ten years, and writing several books on world history in his later years, I have to say that they are books worth reading for everyone.

Blood Moons: The one upstairs who doesn't know probably only knows his previous name. Speaking of which, the last time I looked for a novel to read, it turned out that a lot of protagonists lived in that era, and there are still many who want to fall in love with him, um, Entering the entertainment circle with him, I suddenly died laughing... Although this man was very good in the entertainment circle in his early years, it turns out that he is even more nb in other fields. It has been so many years, and he has been talked about...

Dong Minglang: It's a pity that the male god is not known to everyone until he goes there. Not many people know about the low-key ones in middle and old age.

Laughing idiot: It's quite normal. He is low-key, and his knowledge is also very profound. He has been writing books under another name in a vest, and he is only famous in the academic circle.It's just that I went later, the vest was lifted, and because of the three brothers' affairs, it was circulated on the Internet, and it was suddenly torn out of the heat emmmmm because the three brothers are too famous, even with him in the small circle of people, abruptly tear out circle

Dong Minglang: I admire the choice of the male god, abandon everything in the past, and cultivate in a new field.The book of the key male god is really endless. Although he never wrote a biography or talked about himself in his life, I have read the only collection of short stories he wrote. The stories in it are really inexplicable and somewhat depressing...

Heartbeating signal: The upstairs is talking about his "Lamplight", the writing is fresh and natural, but the stories in it are all tragedies...

……

Extra episode four

In the endless void, an extremely calm voice said.

"This time, I seem to have lost again."

"A few years ago, I made a bet with him."

"Existences like you will also bet." Another voice asked.

"We're human too."

"Why bet?" the voice asked again.

"I said he didn't love me, and he said I didn't love him."

"It's not like a dispute between you. After all, you have cooperated for so long, and you are a rare partner among high-level partners. I have heard a lot of your deeds, which are amazing." The voice carried With a little emotion.

"Back then, I told him that I loved him. He only said it as a joke. People like me can love people."

"I don't quite believe it either. Since you have evolved into the most rational and highest-level existence, how can there still be love." The voice continued, "You think every minute and every second, like me and other existences It's hard to imagine."

"It took me a long time to be sure about this matter. He is my hand..." The voice was neither sad nor happy, extremely calm, without any emotion at all.

"I'm jealous of them being able to be with him." It was obviously a statement without the slightest emotion, but there was a bit of shocking absurdity in these words.

"Aren't they you?" the voice asked.

"They are just a part of me, they were never me. I can have their memories and feelings, but they are not me, or not the whole me."

"They are all thought bodies you cast," the voice stated.

"Yes."

"That kind of body can't bear too much." The voice asked.

"Of course, they are just an extremely small part of me. I can even watch them grow slowly without interfering."

"You are lying." The voice said again, "You can actually interfere with their actions, after all, that world is already under your control."

"No, I cut them off. They don't know I exist."

"They're just aspects of your mental body, aren't they?" the voice asked.

"Yes, I gave them the most ordinary and difficult choice. I just want to know if I can still love him in that situation."

"How did it turn out?" the voice asked.

"I know he will choose me."

"But this time, he refused." The voice said.

"No, he didn't refuse, he accepted."

"He didn't choose either of those two passages of thought you put into it."

"You don't know that if he chooses to refuse, he will not give any hope and response at all."

"Have you seen it many times?" the voice asked again.

"Of course, once in a certain world, I was his teacher when he was born. I saw with my own eyes how he dismissed feelings."

"You mean there were a lot of people who liked him?"

"Of course, he is the most perfect creation. Ordinary people will never forget him once they see him."

"What about his original body?" the voice asked again.

"Somewhere."

"What are you going to do in the next world?" the voice asked.

"According to what I have agreed with him."