sick white moonlight

At that time, the student's mother Xu Xiuyun didn't know why she was so frightened.

Later, many years later, Shen Yu barely pieced together the so-called truth.

His student's mother, Xu Xiuyun, met him in the capital many years ago before she became insane.

……

Perhaps because he had seen the most dilapidated and embarrassing side of the student, Xu Xuchang became more and more open in front of Shen Yu.

Shen Yu has never experienced the remote countryside.

He was born in an upper-middle-class family. Although the relationship between his parents is extremely bad, and his father rarely returns to his and his mother's home, compared with ordinary families, food, drink and clothing are absolutely indispensable.

My mother loves Buddhist scriptures on weekdays, and she had hoped for him when she was a child, hoping that he could turn back his father's heart.It's just that as time passed, he was not welcomed by his father, and it seemed impossible for his father to change his mind. The mother's heart gradually became tired, and she only got into the old Buddhist scriptures. manage world affairs.

The refusal again and again and the shorter and shorter time together made the relationship between him and his mother more and more deep. On the contrary, the relationship between the nanny who took him to take care of him from childhood and him grew deeper and deeper.

The nanny had a hard life since she was a child, and was sold by her family to be a child bride-in-law. From childhood to adulthood, she lived in other people's homes by watching people's faces.

After finally becoming a daughter-in-law, I had a relatively good time.But since she was pregnant with two children and miscarried one after another, she was kicked out of the house by her husband's family. An illiterate woman was weak and wandered outside without help, looking for a livelihood.

In that absurd era of chaotic forces, I have endured countless hardships, and after twists and turns, I became his nurse and settled down.

After the founding of New China, the family members disappeared.

Only he and his nanny were left to depend on each other. Over the years, the nanny watched him go to school, watched him grow up, took care of his life wholeheartedly, and regarded him as her own child.

There were also many people who had a good impression of her, but in the end they all disappeared.

When she was young, Shen Yu once asked her why she didn't remarry while she was young and find a good family for herself.

At that time, her mother was talking about her father every day, and Shen Yu always thought that all the women in this world longed for a happy family, and longed for the love and affection of their husbands.

But the nanny just bent over, sat on a fat round stool in the corner of the hall, focused on the sweater in her hand, applied the new pattern she had learned, looked at him and smiled, and said.

"Young master, you are still young. When you grow up, you will know that marriage is actually like that."

He didn't understand at the time, so he kept asking why.

The nanny just looked at him with a smile and shook her head slightly.

Later, as he got older and saw more, Shen Yu gradually understood the helplessness in this.

It's ridiculous to say that since I was a child, I have seen the feelings of my parents. For a long time, Shen Yu was dismissive of love. He inherited his father's romantic appearance since he was a child. There are many girls like him. He confessed his feelings, but he didn't accept any of them.

Until later, that person appeared beside him and did everything just to please him.

Xu Shi still had something in his heart that was difficult for ordinary people to touch. He and that person actually...

Maybe that time was too beautiful, too illusory.

Shen Yu thought they were different, and they could just join hands like this.

However, he was wrong.

That person wants to marry a wife and have children, to become a great success, and to become a master.

But he only seeks to love what he loves, to be ordinary and stay together for a lifetime.

Shen Yu once couldn't think about it, and only wanted to die.

At that time, the nanny was standing at the door, and she never came over. She just raised her head and looked at him who was standing on the table, holding the white cloth that had been placed in her hand, and said in a daze.

"Do you really want to go down and accompany your mother?"

That sentence was like thunder, and it completely broke his heart to die.

Later, he left the northern capital and went far to the south of the Yangtze River. Only then did he end everything in the past.

He didn't want to see that person again, and he didn't want to know everything about that person.

It's just that he never knew that next, he would encounter another catastrophe in this life.

……

Perhaps it was sympathy or pity, or a faint touch in his heart that no one knew, Shen Yu took care of Xu Xuchang a lot.

On weekdays, he advised him to study hard, and often brought him to his home for dinner.

The two are getting closer and closer.

One day later, Shen Yu went to the student's home again.

That time, he lived down.

Early the next morning, when it was still dark, Shen Yu was dragged by the students to the river near their village.

The white flowers of the reeds are floating, mixed with white and green, accompanied by the clear river water, it is a beautiful sight to see from a distance.

After walking in, he was dragged and wobbled onto the bamboo raft. Looking into the distance, there was light smoke by the river, and tomorrow slowly rose.

That soft and warm red, interspersed with light and shadow, is dazzling and eye-catching.

That was the most beautiful morning Shen Yu had ever seen in his life.

At that time, Shen Yu was so absorbed in the scenery he had never seen before that he didn't know the student sitting beside him at the moment.

She leaned slightly sideways and looked at him, only him in her eyes.

He looked at him as if he was the most beautiful thing in the world.

Apart from him, there was nothing else in his eyes.

……

In a flash, it was more than two years, and that time was so plain and beautiful.

Until the moment of fate comes, everything is so inconspicuous.

Suddenly, that day came.

The teachers were criticized and knocked down, big-character posters were pasted up one by one, and the school began to suspend classes.

Gradually, there were many Red Guards in the streets and alleys, and children wearing red scarves ran around.

The original order was orderly, clean and leisurely, and the sound of reading books disappeared.

Only the deep darkness remained.

On the day when the door of the house was kicked down, Shen Yu sat on a square stool at home, looking at the empty room, not knowing what to do.

Those books had already been destroyed by waves of people who came before.

He had just finished taking care of his nanny's funeral, and he hadn't had time to organize his thoughts and calm down.

All of a sudden, everything changed together, and it was so violent, like a storm, that Shen Yu couldn't even believe what her mentor in Beijing had suffered.

This mighty movement gradually spread from north to south.

Even the small towns in the south of the Yangtze River are like this. What is the situation in Beijing, which is far away in the north and is both a cultural center and a political center?

When the red guards stood in front of him, pointing at him and wanting to criticize him, Xu Xuchang, who hadn't appeared for a long time, appeared.

Shen Yu lowered her head and remained silent.

I only know what Xu Xuchang said while standing among the Red Guards.

Then, looking up, the people had already left.

He was the only one standing at the door with his back to himself, closing the door gently.

Shen Yu looked at his figure and wanted to speak, but retreated again.

I had no choice but to lower my head, put my hands together and cross them, and put them between my legs.

The man turned around and stood at the door, against the light, with a tall body and broad shoulders, as if he had matured like an adult in a short time.

He groaned heavily.

"teacher!"

Only then did Shen Yu raise her head, and looked seriously at the students who were gradually approaching with a steady pace.

The man crouched in front of him, brushing away the tears from his eyes with his hand.

Students and teachers have already changed their so-called identities.

In a short time, everything changed.

He is no longer a teacher who teaches and educates people on the podium, and the students are no longer students who listen carefully to the lectures.

When the tears appeared, Shen Yu had long been vague.

With the suddenly sinking figure and the light touch on the forehead, Shen Yu's expression froze.

What he had thought, he had to admit.

That kind of secret, unexplained rising affection, but he hid it tightly and buried it deeply.

He is 15 years older than him, and he is his teacher.

He is old, he is still young.

He didn't know the prosperity of the world, but he was riddled with holes.

How can such a self be worthy of him.

……

The crew has almost finished work. Wang An and Yu Renshan are still watching this indoor scene. Although the clothes they wear are very different, one is clean and exquisite, one is simple and simple, one is old and the other is young, the only thing in common is the tight eyebrows Lock.

"I didn't write the script for this kiss."

"No." Wang An shook his head.

"Improvising, it feels pretty good, and the actors can still collide with some unexpected things."

"The script is written, but the actors' interpretation often has a different feeling." Wang An smiled.

"Just this paragraph..."

Yu Renshan didn't ask for the next words, they all knew the so-called rules.

"Cut it into two edits." Wang An said lightly.

"According to the current progress, is it too late to catch up with next year's selection?" Yu Renshan continued to ask.

"It should be fine, but editing is a bit more difficult."

"When the time comes, we will roughly cut a complete and complete version, and then discuss the details."

Yu Renshan looked at the screen and suddenly smiled.

"I didn't expect Li Ke's crying scene to be quite..."

"Didn't think of it! I didn't think of it either." Wang An also smiled.

"On the camera, I was really shocked." Yu Renshan said.

"I filmed this section myself. The feeling at that time, I really couldn't express it all of a sudden. I just knew that I must film it."

Wang Anluo clenched his hands beside his legs, then slowly let go, and said.

"Ren Shan, most of us who make movies still love him in our hearts."

"Like when I picked up the camera for the first time, the beauty of the lens completely conquered me. Later, I picked up the camera and walked into another world. It was no longer a moment of stopping, but It is a flowing scene, so real, as if it happened exactly before my eyes, just now, the shock is hard to describe."

After finishing speaking, Wang An looked down at his wrinkled hands, and then looked up sideways at the young man's face that was still as smooth as fair.

"Ren-san, I'm getting old."

"This world belongs to you young people."

"Actually, I have known for a long time that I can't keep up with this era."

"The changes in the world are often only in a moment. When the film was first invented, it was just a joke, like magic."

"In just 200 years, it has become wider and wider, with masterpieces emerging one after another. One after another, the former masters were constantly broken, died, and replaced by successors. Some even became sought after by everyone when they were young, and became millionaires. Envious of the big theaters, but they were left behind by the times, the movies couldn’t be sold, the theaters declined, they were empty, and they still owed a lot of debt.”

"When I get old, I can only live by the peddler in front of the station. When I die, I don't make a sound, leaving only regret and a sigh of relief."

"Brother An." Yu Renshan's eyes were red, and he called out hoarsely.

"Don't say that, if it weren't for you, I would never have this day."

"In my whole life, I may only be able to play a role in third-rate dramas."

"It was you who gave me the chance to get the directing qualification, but now, you help me and let me come over."

Wang An just smiled in a low voice, and continued.

"Ren Shan, I'm not as good as you think. I let you come here because I like your skills."

"Brother An."

Yu Renshan shouted again.

He knew that was not the case.

In the beginning, he had a lot of skills, but he could only be suppressed by villains. He worked as a small cameraman in a third-rate drama, watched the faces of directors, producers and actors, and barely supported himself.

He who used to be famous on campus, who had a dream, has already been defeated by society and life one by one, and he is no longer what he used to be.

It was Wang An, who gave him a chance to join the big crew as a cameraman.

It was only later that he could display his talent, and even now, it was a great honor for Wang An to invite him to be an assistant director.

Cinematography and directing are worlds apart.

From photography to directing, some people even paid 20 years.

And although he is a little famous in the circle now, compared to Wang An and some directors, he is just behind the scenes and has no right to speak at all.

How could he not remember Wang An's support for him.

He is like a teacher, following the guidance and paving the way for himself.

Wang An just shook his head, his expression was profound, and he didn't know what he thought of.

After a while, he spoke.

"Back then, I gave you a hand. Just because, when I first saw you, I thought of a friend of mine back then."

"Kong has talent, but he can't use it, so he can only spend the rest of his life in vain, but there was nothing I could do back then."

Finally, Wang An stood up slowly, patted Yu Renshan on the shoulder, and asked him to sit down.

"Blue is better than blue, Renshan, the next stage is already your young people's."