sick white moonlight

In the autumn of 1958, in a fit of anger, he left Beijing, brought his nanny to a small town in the south of the Yangtze River, and became a high school teacher.

At that time, he never thought that he would spend the rest of his life in this small town in the south of the Yangtze River.

The ordinary teaching life and the innocent children made his heart gradually calm down, and he stopped thinking about those messy things that made him unhappy.

In 1663, in March of that year, he was exactly 30 years old, almost half of his life had passed.

The nanny who has been with him for many years, who is like his biological mother, woke up early in the morning and cooked him a bowl of longevity noodles. There was a white round egg on the clear soup surface, and a little green onion sprinkled on it, which looked quite appetizing.

After eating, he walked to school in a good mood.

That day, the principal who took care of him a lot called him to the office and arranged a transfer student into his class.

Later, Shen Yu recalled that in the early spring, the sun was shining brightly, the grass was growing and warblers were flying, and the students' reading and playing noises were so innocent and lovely.

Coming out of the principal's office, he was walking in the corridor, wearing a white shirt, black trousers, with round eyes, and holding textbooks for class in his hand. He looked like an old intellectual, but with a bit of elegance and gentleness.

Looking at the tall student beside him, Shen Yu couldn't help asking curiously.

"How old are you this year?"

The tall student was very silent, didn't say a word, lowered his head slightly, appearing extremely restrained.

Later, pull out the roster.

Only then did Shen Yu know that his surname was Xu, his name was Xuchang, and he was only 15 years old, exactly half of his age.

What a wonderful time, but at the age of 15, he was so pale.

Fifteen years ago, his father took his new wife and left for Taiwan; 15 years ago, he saw his abandoned mother hanging from the beams of the house without saying a word.

The mother who gave birth to him was a woman with small feet. After marrying his father, she lived her entire life in a law-abiding manner and kept the house thrifty. In the end, she was abandoned early because she was illiterate and had no interest, and was inferior to those gentle and pleasant newcomers. them.

His father, a high-ranking official with a generous salary, has reached his generation, although he is no longer what he used to be, his life is still nourishing.

But all of this has nothing to do with him and his mother.

That winter, when he was 15 years old, his mother died and his father left. There was a big family, and he and his nanny were the only ones who lived together.

That night, he knelt alone in front of the lonely lobby, looked up at the coffin and couldn't help but burst into tears.

People are like flowing water, they will leave when they say goodbye.

No matter how beautiful it is, after all, it is still not enough to dissipate and forget.

Standing on the podium, facing his students, he concealed those old memories, smiled again, looked at the students with green faces, and resumed the lecture.

Then there is a long shot, first drifting past the students in the class, then slowly focusing on the transfer students in the corner with their heads down, then poking out from the paper window, and turning to the green big next to the classroom The tree, and then the chirping bird on the tree, with light gray and red feathers, and a cheerful bird, flipped over, and the camera went straight into the blue sky, with layers of white clouds, thickly piled up, and a green hillside in the distance.

The director nodded in satisfaction and watched this passage for a long, long time.

This long shot has been taken for several days, the light, the sense of the picture, and the layering of the sky, with a slightly hazy artistic conception.

The production crew is being repaired. Both Xu Zhou and He An are sitting on a small bench, looking at the script in their hands very seriously.

This is their daily screenplay script, which is very detailed. Of course, sometimes the progress will be delayed a lot due to the director's request.

Wang An is a delicate and demanding director.

Every small detail of the shot did not meet his standards, and he would do it all over again. The assistant director Yu Renshan is also a meticulous man who is immersed in his work. From time to time, the two will discuss about the layout and arrangement of the scene.

They pay great attention to the small details and layout of the scene, and check carefully before each shooting to ensure that there are no accidents.

The script placed in front of Xu Zhou and He An, in addition to the newly arranged scenes and lines every day, there is also a script with a novel nature, which was sent to them by the director Wang An after joining the group.

In this script, the description of emotions will be more detailed, and the perspective of the characters will be even more different, which is a bit different from the one they read before.

The script they got in the audition at the beginning, Xu Xuchang, who was a student, had more roles, but now, the one they hold in their hands has a bit of a novel-like memory. As a teacher, Shen Yu is a well-deserved protagonist.

On the day of joining the group, the director talked about the source of inspiration for "Homecoming" for the first time.

He was sitting in the box that day, watching the two leading actors, the assistant director Yu Renshan, and several main characters, put down the chopsticks in his hand, and began to talk lightly.

"Many years ago, one day, I heard a story. A friend of mine told me that he once had a teacher and never married in his life."

"His teacher, in this life, he was young and rich, middle-aged and peaceful, and his old age was peaceful. In a trance, this life of a person has passed like this."

"At that time, I suddenly remembered that when I was young, the school was closed and I was bored, so I desperately looked for books to read." Speaking of this, Wang An smiled, very kindly.

"After returning home, I couldn't fall asleep in the middle of the night, and suddenly I got inspiration. I got up in the middle of the night, found my notebook, and wrote all night."

"The next day my eyes were wide open, and I wanted to sleep, but I just couldn't close them. When you are old, staying up all night is no different from dying." Wang An said humorously again, with a bit of emotion.

"In my whole life, I used to be flustered, I didn't know what to say, and wasted time. Later, when I encountered movies, I got into this circle with all my heart, and I haven't come out until now."

"Nowadays, when I'm older, I want to take advantage of how much strength I still have, do something I want to do, and make the movie I want to make."

At that time, He An also smiled lightly.

In this life, being able to do what one likes and wants to do may be the greatest luck.

When I was young, I wanted to be prosperous and stand above others; when I was old, I realized that being ordinary is true, and that life is a blessing.

……

"Brother, I heard a piece of news recently."

"About you..." Luo Yixuan's tone was broken, he couldn't believe it, he just wanted an answer.

Is it true that the older brother would like men as much as he does?Still, that is just an illusion, a deception.

What's more, it was his own, Luo Yixuan suddenly couldn't say it.

In the end, he just said so.

"You've gotten very close to Li Ke recently, haven't you?"

Luo Yixuan had to admit that the tone of his words was extremely weak, even because of the anger in his heart, he didn't even want to address him as "brother", he grabbed the phone, just begging for a reply.

The voice on the other side fell silent, Luo Yixuan couldn't tell what he was feeling at the moment, he was both angry and ashamed, how could his brother do this, that was what he used to be...

"You're lying to me, brother!" Luo Yixuan suddenly shouted, his voice even trembling a little.

"I didn't lie to you." After a long time, the voice came from the other end of the phone, a little weak, but with a bit of lightness, as if he took a deep breath and let it go slowly.

After a long time, Luo Yixuan spoke heavily.

"Brother, you should know that it is impossible for parents to accept you like this."

"I know." The reply on the other side was quick and calm.

"Brother, why are you bothering? This road is too tiring and bitter, and it's too difficult to go on. I'm rebelling against my parents, I want to chase the love I want, but until now, I'm really tired. In the sea, I met my love, got acquainted with each other, and finally broke up due to discord."

"I let it go." Luo Yixuan said, "I don't want to hurt others anymore."

"Brother, your parents are good to you. They hope you will be well. Live your life well."

"Yixuan, they are treating me well." He spoke very slowly, as if every word came out of his throat.Luo Yixuan only felt that there was a lot of irony in these words, as if he had suppressed them for a long time.

"But I let them arrange it for so many years, I don't want to go on like this anymore." Luo Shaohui said.

"I don't want to go until I die, and still follow their ideas."

"I am a living person, not their puppet and doll, I can only follow their ideas."

Luo Yixuan was silent.

What kind of weather was that? It seemed like the sun was shining brightly. He had just returned from visiting Li Ke in a foreign hospital. When he returned home, he found a gloomy scene. Like the noble lady who always maintains her image, the father is silent and doesn't say a word.

Luo Yixuan only felt that the atmosphere at that time was too dignified.

After seeing him, his mother looked panic-stricken and cried.

"Yixuan, you are the only child left, Mom."

Luo Yixuan was stunned, he hesitated for a moment, and then asked, "Mom, what are you talking about! Isn't brother all right?"

"Your brother, he, he..." The mother burst into tears suddenly, and didn't say anything, just covered her face and wept.

It wasn't until later that he accepted that fact.

His brother, the night before his return, took sleeping pills and fell asleep, and then suddenly left this world.

According to the inspection, the sleeping pills taken are normal and will not cause harm.

However, after his brother closed his eyes, he never opened them again.

He left this world, forever.

As for Li Ke, Li Ke and him, Luo Yixuan only felt his head go blank.

What happened during that time was so chaotic that Luo Yixuan didn't dare to think about it.

"Yixuan, help me!" Luo Shaohui said in a low voice.

"I know, you can. You have enough vision, what you lack is care and prudence."

"I'm tired, really."

"This burden is too heavy, and I don't really want that much."

"That's not what parents expected." Luo Yixuan replied.

"You don't need to use your parents as an excuse, Yixuan, tell me if you would like to come over."

There was silence, Luo Yixuan finally changed the subject and spoke.

"Brother, I don't want to argue with you, and I don't ask for so much. It's just that I want to tell you."

"Li Ke, he is not suitable for you. Brother, what he needs is someone with equal status, who can really care about him and love him."

Speaking of this, Luo Yixuan paused, as if he was trying to organize his thoughts, and then he spoke.

"You can't do it, brother, he needs a lover who can really live with him and take good care of him. Instead of meeting two or three times a month and eating a few meals."

"And with your identity, his identity, even if your parents don't care about it, will you be able to be with him in an upright manner for the rest of your life?"

Luo Shaohui was silent for a while, and then spoke. The voice was still rich and heavy, but it was so steady.

"Yixuan, I won't say anything about some things, but I have the courage to bear the consequences of the choices I made."

Luo Yixuan was stunned for a long time.

Yes, he did not have the courage to bear the consequences.

Li Ke, he killed Li Ke.

Luo Yixuan held his forehead with his hands, covering his eyes.

It's just, later, later on, what the hell happened.

It seems that the memory only stays there. My brother left. He took over a lot of things in the company and sat in a position that I never thought of.

Then, it's busy work.

Then, suddenly one day, he woke up and found himself back in the past.

However, where is the future Li Ke in memory?

Li Ke may be in a foreign hospital, but why can't he remember what happened to him afterwards?

Why is there no Li Ke in his mind? Luo Yixuan suddenly realized this problem.

He only remembered that the doctor once told him that regarding Li Ke's condition, the biggest suggestion was to stay away from Li Ke. What Li Ke needed was to start over and restore himself.

So, after going back to the past, Luo Yixuan was preoccupied with this matter.

It's just why he forgot what happened later.

Li Ke seems to have disappeared, completely disappeared in the later memories.