sick white moonlight

"Going abroad, you said you want to go abroad." The voice was very surprised, even puzzled.

"Yes."

"But you are gone, what should we do? You are the eldest son of the family! Your younger sister and younger brother are still young, and we will have to rely on you in the future. You are the most promising one in our family, what should we do if you leave Do it, does the country really make you unable to stay any longer?" The mother with a sallow complexion and a lot of white hair in her hair was crying, and the sad expression on her face made Lu Chen speechless .

He is already a junior, and if nothing unexpected happens, he thinks he might be able to get the admission letter next semester.

Everything has been contacted, and even the teacher said that he has a high chance of success in the application, and highly recommends him to go out.

Father was wearing a plain gray coat, which was stained with a lot of dirt marks. He sat on the bench without saying a word, and his silent figure seemed even dwarfed by Lu Chen who was standing there.

He couldn't help thinking that when he grew up, his parents were also getting old.

"I heard that it takes a lot of money to go abroad, and we can't afford it at all. My child, look at home, isn't life better? Are you going to leave everyone in your family and never come back? Are you abroad?"

Lu Chen originally wanted to say that if he had no accidents, he should be able to apply for the full scholarship, so that he would not need to worry about his tuition fees.

And he also knew that it was impossible for this poor family who didn't even have a few pieces of land to help him bear the so-called tuition fees.

It's just that the mother seemed very excited and kept making loud noises.

"Are you going to be like the husband of Grandma Sun at the entrance of the village, once you go there, you never come back?"

"You see your grandma has been waiting for so many years. Until now, her whole life has passed like this. She has no daughter and no children, and she has no children around to serve and take care of her."

"A person can't be like that heartless thing, who only cares about his own good, and leaves others alone!"

Lu Chen only felt that these words seemed to be talking about him, blaming him, and he felt his face was hot, and he couldn't help but feel a sense of loss and guilt.

"Okay, don't talk about it. I went to cook, and the child just came back not long ago, and I haven't seen him for a long time. It's meaningless to talk about these things as soon as I come back." A hoarse voice, even with a bit of vicissitudes, rang out, The father who was the head of the family spoke.

Lu Chen watched his father's bent body slowly stand up, and walked out of the messy kitchen piled with firewood and some miscellaneous things.

The mother behind her sighed heavily, picked up the chopping board for cutting vegetables on the wooden board and put it down heavily.

There was only a loud bang, and Lu Chen stood there with his head slightly lowered, silent. He could feel his mother's sight sweeping behind him, he didn't need to look, but he knew that it must be With disappointment.

However, he didn't know that there was a touch of reluctance in it.

After all, mothers are worried when children travel thousands of miles.

His figure was quite desolate and lonely, he walked out of the old wooden door, and he looked up at the clear sky outside the house.

The lower angle of view is a deep green.

This mountain Lu Shen has seen big things since he was a child, and even became a habit.

The first time he went to City B, he was even a little surprised when the train passed the green and flat plains.

Such a vast scenery was something he had never seen before.

Shouldn't he go abroad?

Was the decision he made really wrong?Not only was his family opposed, even Zeng Xiaozhu, who is now a good friend, was not very supportive of his behavior.

He admitted that in the first place or that it caused him to make such a decision, as Zeng Xiaozhu questioned, he was because of that person, not for himself.

"Lu Chen, let me tell you, you must carefully consider this matter. This is your life, not that person's life. You can't just disregard yourself just because of him."

"You have to understand that it is very possible that everything you have paid is nothing to him at all, and he may even find it disgusting." The face of the once delicate girl was so heavy, even with some A little sadness.

At that time, Lu Chen was silent, with a calm expression, unmoved.

Seeing him like this, Zeng Xiaozhu felt a surge of sadness in her heart.

"Your family members are all in China. Do you want to abandon them? I know that you are not such a person, and there are great opportunities for domestic development now."

"You went abroad rashly, you don't know the place well, and you don't have enough friends, how are you going to gain a foothold there?" She tried her best to persuade her, but she didn't dare to say something buried in her heart.

The person in front of her, in her memory, had seized the opportunity of domestic development. With her sharp eyesight and improved strength step by step, the company gradually grew bigger and stronger until it finally became a behemoth.

Now, he is going abroad, and he may come back when he is uncertain. Isn't this just a missed opportunity for him?

Will the business he founded still exist?Will he still be able to reach such a height that ordinary people cannot reach as he remembers.

She thought she couldn't harm him, her rebirth changed a lot of things, just like a little butterfly caused a huge storm.

As a friend of the man in front of her, she felt that what she had done had affected his life.

She thought she might have hurt him.

If it wasn't for himself, he wouldn't have struggled alone on this tormenting road, let alone hesitating about emotional matters, bearing unimaginable pressure for ordinary people.

And she herself also got bad results, she lost what she didn't cherish before, but it was also her most precious and hard-to-get thing.

Thinking of this, she couldn't help but shed tears.

"Don't be afraid, this is my own decision, I don't think I regret it. After all, no one forced me to make such a choice." With a little bit of bitterness, he smiled and said.

"Besides, going abroad is also a trend now. Most people can't go out if they want to go out? Don't worry too much about me, I think." Lu Chen raised his head, looked at the girl opposite, and comforted him gently, "I still have the ability to bear, even if Without a good result, I think I will never regret it in my life."

Having reached this point, Zeng Xiaozhu really didn't know what to say, so she had no choice but to reply.

"Anyway, I still hope you will think about this matter carefully. After all, it is likely to affect your whole life. And I, as a friend, I don't really support your decision."

"This approach is too immature, do you understand? If you stay in China, I believe you will have a good development. No matter which direction you go, everything you have now will help you more. Abroad, everything will start all over again, and it will even come to a standstill."

"You are capable, I believe in this, but sometimes, some things are not as good as you think, or as simple as you think. When he knows everything, there must be a break between you. "Zeng Xiaozhu sincerely reminded that this is her sincere words. She once had a male friend who was obsessed with a fruitless emotional experience, and even couldn't leave for a long time, which not only affected her life, but also affected her life. himself.

Until a long time later, when he thought about it and let it go, he always complained to her that he was too stupid and naive back then, and he regretted not being clean at the beginning.

Lu Chen admitted that he thought about it for a long time, and finally decided on his idea of ​​going abroad.

Although I have already understood that I may not get strong support from my family.

But now, with such strong opposition from his parents, his heart is indeed lost.

He couldn't help thinking that he went out to make money under the opposition of his whole family, and then he got the opportunity to study. Step by step, he seldom complained or complained, just insisted on himself and worked hard.

"Brother, are you really going to a foreign country? Will you be able to meet a lot of foreigners? Then you will definitely be able to bring a lot of delicious candy, like Brother Zhao's home in the town."

"I really want to go abroad, so I can watch a lot of movies, eat a lot of candy, and live in a big house."

The immature child's voice sounded, Lu Chen turned around and looked at his younger sister who was still not very sensible, with a faint smile on his face.

"Brother, you must go abroad. In this way, I can talk about you with my friends. From now on, you will be a famous person."

When Lu Chen heard the kid's smile, he was comforted a lot.

In the days that followed, the parents were silent, as if they had discussed it, and did not mention this topic anymore.

Lu Chen originally wanted to have a good conversation with his parents and talk about this topic.

But with his parents' attitude, he couldn't open his mouth to break this ordinary but warm life.

On the day he left home, his father gave him a ride when he left the village.The two of them, one tall and one short, one old and one young, were walking on the muddy path. At first, both of them were silent and did not speak at all.

It wasn't until later, when he was approaching the place where he was sitting in the car, that he heard the elderly father beside him speak slowly.

"Son, you're grown up too, and you have to walk the road ahead on your own. As parents, we don't have much ability and can't help you too much. But anyway, I hope you can be well, safe and sound. I don’t ask you to have any big promises.”

"If you want to go abroad, we can't stop you. We don't know whether this is a good thing or a bad thing for you."

"The reason why your mother is so opposed is because she is afraid that you will never come back."

Father sighed a little, clapped rough hands on his strong shoulders, sighed, and continued.

"In short, everything should be fine. Your mother actually loves you too. You are usually not at home, and you praise you in various ways."

His father's slightly hoarse and rough voice sounded weird, but the corners of Lu Chen's eyes were slightly moist.

After getting on the truck, he stood on the truck, looking at the slowly disappearing figure standing in the distance, unwilling to turn around for a long time.

This is his hometown, his family, a place he will never forget in his life.