[Comprehensive Manga] Live with a smile

The young man did not describe all the major events in the past ten years, and his opening chapter was three years ago.

"After I was admitted to Dongdae University, my father asked me to go abroad to learn more. Sister Xi Ji also entered the same college as me, and then went to the United States together. The customs there made her a little uncomfortable. But soon after getting familiar with the language, all kinds of girls suddenly gathered around, often appearing in various social places, but they can never retreat unscathed.” No matter where he went, his sister’s miraculous hormones emitted could not be consciously To win the favor of women.

"Then she met a boy named Irie Masaichi at the friendship venue, and then met Bai Lan through that boy. This is how I know the two of them met." Without any explanation to Bai Lan and Irie Masaichi, the young man seemed to be Knowing that Xi Ji already knew the two of them.

But cognition is just cognition after all, and the relationship is superficial.In addition, Xi Ji is not as good as his younger brother in studies, and spends a lot of time studying. Most of the time in the United States is either with girls or with his younger brother, which is not much different from when he was in Japan.What is worth reassuring the young people is probably that people abroad are more open. If you like it or not, you can tell me directly. Xi Ji rejected a lot of them, so that the onlookers don't have to worry about watching the stomach medicine scene.

Until one day, when Seijuro was out with his friends, he encountered a shootout between the mafia and died on the spot, but Yuki was not by his side.

Hearing this, Xi Ji clenched her fists.

The young man continued: "This is what she told me later. She said that on the first day, she slaughtered several mafia gangs that participated in the war, and then reluctantly accepted my death, and stepped into the second time."

The second time, not the next day.This familiar name made Xi Ji feel the pain of pinching flesh with his nails.

In the second time, Yuki took Seijuro away from the scene of the shootout, and stayed in the study room of the school to read all day.She thought that she would definitely be able to escape in this way, and then she only needed to report those gangs to the police.

Then that night, after the two returned to their respective rooms, Seijuro was electrocuted to death in the bathroom of the room.

"..." Xi Ji pinched the back of her hand and tried to calm herself down. She nodded slightly trembling and motioned for the young man to continue talking, convincing herself that it was just something that happened to someone else, not her younger brother. sit in front of your eyes.

"I don't know the specifics. I don't dare to ask her too much, but it seems that I have experienced it many times..." The young man sighed and took a sip of tea, and continued: "You and her are the same person. , do you know how many times at least you said 'I don't remember how many times'?"

The young man's tone was full of regret and inquiry. He couldn't face the future when Xi Ji asked this question. Once he studied it carefully, he would definitely get an answer he didn't expect.At least that's the case for Future Xi Ji.

Xi Ji, who was still trembling, turned pale and sweated on her back. These words shook her spirit, making her unable to react to what the young man said for a while.

She was stunned for a while, biting her lower lip and thinking for a few seconds before she said slowly: "...I repeated a day for more than a year, and now I live four years longer than I actually did."

"That is to say, there are at least four hundred times...or more, right?" The young man groped his chin, a little surprised and sentimental at this number, his eyes showed sadness, and he sighed again.

And Xi Ji was still sorting out his thoughts.

With the events of Mayuri before, it is not difficult for her to understand what Seijuro said happened to him.

The world line ends.That is, in the case where something is predetermined to happen, no matter how it is, it cannot be avoided and absolutely will happen.What happened to Mayuri and Seijuro two years ago is such a desperate death situation.

But Mayuri survived, and Okabe's friends used black technology to return to the very beginning and directly changed the entire beginning, making the world line deviate from the world line where Mayuri must die.

It's just that Xi Ji can't refer to this method, because the black technology of Okabe's friends is not available to her.

If there is no more powerful external force forcibly intervening in this matter, it will be a dead end.

To put it simply, it is to play the game until the end, and find that no matter which option is selected in the end, it is BE, but when I read the file, I find that the most recent file has been overwritten, and it has become a dead file.Only by returning to the original saved file and taking other options can the BE be avoided.

"What happened later?" Xi Ji took a deep breath and asked, "Why did she tell you this?"

The young man paused, and said with a wry smile: "The last time she came to me, she looked in a trance and made me feel that something was wrong, so I asked her. She told me this long story, and finally asked me, what should I do?" how to choose."

"I asked her, did I survive so many cycles? She said yes, there were vegetative people and amputations, they were all disgusting things." His eyes were full of nostalgia, "She told me , as long as I don't want that ending, she will keep trying until I am successfully rescued."

"...Why didn't you choose that?" From the corner of Xi Ji's eyes, she caught a glimpse of the empty right leg under the wheelchair.

He hesitated for a moment, and said with a bitter smile, "It's probably because of her expression at that time, which made me unable to say it."

Even now, two years later, when he closes his eyes, he seems to be able to see the sister who asked the question that day.

Her face was pale and her eyes were dull, and she was clearly the same as when she saw it yesterday, but there was a heavy and gloomy atmosphere around her. Just looking at her, I could feel her helplessness and unspeakable despair.She knelt on the carpet, her eyes were flushed, and the corners of her eyes were full of haggard marks. When he said these words, he thought his sister would cry, but he could only hear her heart that was so empty that it could not be reached, full of bloody screams .

Before that, Seijuro had never heard his sister mention this matter. He didn't believe it at first, but after seeing her like this, he completely trusted her without the slightest doubt.

Because people in this state cannot tell lies.

People who are really pushed to the extreme, hovering on the edge of madness and despair, cannot tell lies, at least they can tell what they believe deeply.

His older sister was sitting kneeling in front of him and speaking dryly, what Seijuro could hear was the countless desperate and helpless cries in his sister's words.

"You... You clearly knew that you might die, but you still didn't let her continue to save you?" Xi Ji asked after taking a deep breath.

The youth shook his head.

"She's my sister, and I can never let her continue to do something that hurts her," even if it hurts himself, "and I have a hunch that if the cycle she said is not stopped, she will Something might go wrong. You should understand, right?"

"Eh?" Xi Ji was taken aback.

If the same thing happened to her... She closed her eyes, frowned in pain, and resisted this thing with all her heart.

It seems to contain the malice and dark despair of the world, the pain and fear of not being able to reach out to anyone, the depression and helplessness that no one can save even if you ask for help, the hope that was finally regained, and the cherished things that were regained. The madness of taking away, and... self-loathing and incompetence so intense that it drowns out all cries for help.

In a daze, she remembered what Bai Lan said when she first met.

[In this future, you may experience all kinds of nasty things, but please don't...hate yourself. 】

What...isn't this, there is someone who understands you later...

With red eyes and hot nose, Xi Ji sniffed her nose to tell herself not to cry, rubbed her eyes and asked, "Then what happened?"

The young man drank his tea and continued, "I was surprised and curious about what Sister Xi Ji said about the black snake. Compared to what she said, I was very likely to die today. I didn't think too much about it at the time, nor did I I hope she will continue to sink, so I asked whether to go back to Japan to pay homage to Xi Ji's mother's grave."

And this is, the end of one tragedy, but also the beginning of another tragedy.

According to Seijuro, Mirai Yuki at that time acted as if he had been to Japan many times.She knew all the flights from the United States to Japan that day, and even the passing flights, which made Seijuro very puzzled at the time.But she didn't explain, just with a tired smile on her face, she reluctantly accompanied him to Japan with a smile.

Nothing went wrong in the beginning, but all the way to that cliff.

"I was in a car accident. When I woke up from the pain, I saw my whole body being crushed under the car. Sister Xi Ji lifted the car up beside her while crying. But the car was burned red, and her body was covered with bruises." I was injured by sparks, but I was pushing the car as if I didn’t feel it. Of course, I was successfully rescued afterwards. According to her, the car exploded a short time after pulling me out, so she saved my life.”

"But my right leg was the deepest and heaviest part of the pressure. When I was sent to the hospital, I had no choice but to amputate it..." As he spoke, he touched the vacant place under the blanket unnaturally, sighed and said: "Compared with the death and huge cost of other 'me', this is already the best result."

Xi Ji said in a daze, "But she's still crazy."

On the familiar cliff, she encountered a familiar car accident, and her relatives were still injured, and her incompetent self who couldn't change it was still standing there.

Even if Seijuro said he would forgive and forgive, he might not be able to experience the fear of being stripped of the psychological trauma and then stabbed hard, breaking the last remaining straw.

"...Maybe." He said, staring into the distance.

Probably because of the blow he received too much, Mirai Yuki dropped out of university and also thanked Seijuro's father.After destroying the fighting mafia at the starting point of everything by himself, he left the sight of the Akashi family and walked into the darkness.

When Seijuro got news of her again, it was already after she married Bailan.

"Tell me, why did she become a mafia member? Didn't she always say that she wanted to be a partner of justice?" With a smile on his lips, he asked Xi Ji as if he knew the truth.

Xi Ji trembled all over, avoiding the young man's gaze, and said submissively, "Because...you don't believe in the rules."

When the light and rules you believe in can't save what you want to protect, then it's better to pull back all the curtains that are hidden, and really go to the darkness that will embrace you, and then fall into another world that hurts others.

Those hopes for the light that Natsume had given her, and the approval of the status quo and the future that Lily had given her, all disappeared without a trace after this incident.All that is left is the self that has been stripped away, full of darkness, pain and despair, and as repayment for being "betrayed by the world I believe in so much", this darkness is unreservedly imposed on others .

Now Xi Ji felt that she might have made a mistake.

When she encounters such a thing, she will indeed fall into the mafia. Compared with other garbage, she can barely accept the semi-cleaned industry of Vengley.

There is actually nothing at the end of this darkness, but the future Xi Ji at that time must have felt that he had nothing left, and he didn't want to hurt anyone close to him, and continued to fall in this spiral of self-loathing, and kept falling like this into the abyss.

Then, she met Bai Lan.

Two people who are burdened with a darkness that cannot be told to others come together.A man who is destined to destroy the world, and a man who believes in the future but is betrayed by the world is really full of drama.

But even so, Future Xiji's depression has not been cured, and he still needs to keep hurting himself in order to keep calm.Judging from her physique ten years later, when it was time to put medicine and bandages on it, it might have been a bone-deep wound when the knife was cut.Only in this kind of pain can I constantly remind myself of my incompetence, and remind myself how easy it is to lose everything that is hard-won.

...just like what she is doing now.

"...What about you, do you regret what you did that day? Without your right leg, your life will be difficult." Xi Ji asked uneasily, clutching his palm.

The young man shook his head indifferently and said, "I don't regret it, I'm glad. If she hadn't agreed at the time, she might still be in that cycle until now. To me, it's just that more than half of the plans in my life have been cut off. It's a big deal to rethink. But there is only one sister, and she must not have an accident."

Hearing this, Xi Ji opened his mouth to say something, but in the end he still couldn't say it.

Look, isn't there someone who cherishes you so much that he is willing to spend the rest of his life in exchange for making you a good relative...

After talking for a while, Xi Ji learned that now Seijuro has inherited his father's family business, and his father handles all superficial matters, and most of the rights have now been transferred to him.Although the loss of a leg caused a lot of troubles in his life, it did not reduce his charisma. He still has a high popularity in the group, and many people with different ideas seem to think that the disabled Seijuro It is easy to control, but in fact he is controlled by him.

This conversation gave Xi Ji the biggest impression: her younger brother seems to be getting darker and darker when he grows up, but her younger brother is cuter.

"How, have you solved your doubts?" He ate a piece of yokan, acting like a young master recuperating at home, not as tough as he said.

"Almost, a lot of things have been clarified." Xi Ji nodded with a wry smile, picked up the yokan and ate it, then was shocked by the shocking sweetness, took a sip of tea, and found that the tea was extremely bitter, The two flavors are intertwined and balanced.

According to what Seijuro said, the last piece of the jigsaw puzzle about the future Yuki is also closed.

The last two paragraphs of the most problematic diary so far, the first sentence "If only you get hurt, obviously there is nothing easier than this" should be in this cycle, Miki Yuki wants to replace Seijuro The injury thing.Whether it's death or pain, she definitely hopes that the last victim is only herself, and the protected people don't know anything, just keep what she expects.

This must also be a major reason for Yuki's self-mutilation in the future, let's use pain to warn himself of the suffering Seijuro suffered in the cycle.

And the second sentence 'revenge me'...

"Aha……"

She looked at the clear blue sky and let out a long sigh.

To take revenge on the world that betrayed her...

If there is something that Yuki cannot do in the future, but what Yuki can do ten years ago, it is probably to avoid the Seijuro cycle directly in her world line, follow the example of the reasoning event, and stagger it from the beginning world line.

As for whether this sentence meant for Xi Ji to take revenge on the fake Bailan who took the real Bailan away, she didn't know.

But no matter if there is or not, Xi Ji will definitely make that Bailan pay the price.She hates other people's crying faces, even the crying appearance of her future self that she can't see.

While thinking, both of them remained silent, watching the scenery in the yard and the sky quietly.

Suddenly, a sense of shaking came, quickly fluctuating through the entire mansion, and spreading to a further place.

"Earthquake?" Seijuro put down the material he was reading in doubt.

Xi Ji shook his head, stood up with a long sigh of relief, stretched his arms, took a breath of the air here, and relaxed, "It's just that an underground base has been bombed."

Calculating the time and place, the timed|timed|bomb|bomb planted by Kikyo and the others should have exploded.

The author has something to say: I said it, it's not abusive.

In the future of this line, Xi Ji has a younger brother who gave up a leg for her, and a lover who gave up destroying the world to protect the world for her (Bai Lanzhen only cooperated with Youni after meeting Xi Ji), and she is really happy That's right, she also acted very happy to sprinkle dog food, which made Xi Ji very confused.

All the fake Bailan knows is the plausible memory shared by the real Bailan, so in his view, the future Xiji is caused by his younger brother being affected by the mafia.

Yokan is really sweet, Japanese matcha is really bitter...

This is the end of the future puzzle solving, I hope everyone understands it, and I will write in detail later if there are any doubts.

Don't ask if Ranpo and Zai can solve the problem of the cycle. In the future, Xi Ji is very familiar with the matter of returning to Japan, and he made it very clear that he failed, which is why he collapsed even more.

10+ Natsume is also normal, Mirai Yuki protects him so he became a cat cafe owner with integrity (no)

Normal update, too lazy to update, ready to lose weight in the Chinese New Year.