[Comprehensive Manga] Live with a smile

On Saturday, April [-], light rain was accompanied by light breeze in some areas.

"Ugh..." Woke up from the bed with her mouth covered, the strong dizziness and nausea made Xi Ji tremble all over, and she curled up into a ball.

It took about half a minute for her to catch her breath and noticed that she was already drenched in sweat.

After taking a shower early in the morning, Xi Ji looked at the mirror in the bathroom. The girl with light yellow shoulder-length short hair had a yellowish complexion, and there was a layer of black and blue around her eye sockets, which could be seen at a glance. Did not rest well.The girl has been panting softly, but the ordinary washing action seems to take a lot of effort, even a grin is difficult.After a while, the sweat came down again.

Wiping off the sweat with a towel, Xi Ji took a few deep breaths, sat down in front of the dressing table in the room, and put on a simple makeup to cover up her bad complexion and dark circles under her eyes.

Looking at the girl in the mirror at this time, she unconsciously grinned a sunny smile, completely different from her in the mirror just now, like an ordinary girl who loves to smile.

"Goooooo... No..." The next moment, Xi Ji lowered her head while grabbing her hair, maintaining her strength and gently pulling it, feeling a faint pain on the top of her head, her mind was a mess, and her face was twisted in pain .

There was another familiar feeling of nausea, followed by a heart-warming fear, her hands began to tremble, the strength in her hands became stronger and stronger, and her head lowered lower and lower.

She didn't dare to look up at her face in the mirror, for fear that there would be another face she didn't know.

He took out his mobile phone and clicked on the familiar avatar. The information was still on the inquiries sent by Xi Ji, all of which had been read but had no reply.The blond mysterious girl was also here today, and I haven't heard from her for more than a week.

"knocking"

"Is Miss Xi Ji awake? The hospital said that Heizi is awake, do you want to go and see together?"

"He's awake? Wait until I get dressed!"

Seijuro withdrew his hand knocking on the door, and waited at the door for about half a minute. The light-blond girl hurriedly put on her clothes and opened the door. Seijuro looked at her speechlessly, and showed a smile on his face. Silly smile.

"You... don't worry about it," Seijuro glanced at Yuki's messy hair after probably tidying up Xia Yuki's coat, "After you tidy it up, the hospital said that the sunspot is fine, just in case Stay in the hospital for another day for observation."

Xi Ji nodded quickly, "Okay, by the way, Seijuro, you got up really early."

Usually, the black snake wakes her up at six o'clock in the morning. At this time, Seijuro has already got up and cleaned up his face, so the time to wake up must be quite early.

Hearing this, Seijuro looked at Yuki strangely, and said, "It's already ten o'clock in the morning. You are the one, why did you get up so late today?"

"..." Xi Ji opened his mouth in a daze for a few seconds, blinked, and exclaimed as if reacting: "You must have found out that I stayed up late yesterday to play games!"

Seijuro poked his finger on the foundation that covered the dark circles on Yuki's face, and said in a disgusted tone, "What happened yesterday, it's a good thing you still have time to play games, you really are a heartless person, there is no need to worry about you I'm sorry about the broken relationship." He withdrew his fingers and looked away.

After the incident of Kuroko being swept into the sea yesterday, Seijuro himself almost forgot that the original purpose of yesterday's trip was to let Yuuki get out of the shadow of broken love.

"It's okay, I'm already bearish. Don't they all say that first love is a tragedy? Besides, I'm only 14 years old, and it's really not true to think about love and love now." While sighing, Xi Ji retreated to her room, facing Seijuro smiled and waved his hands, "I'll go clean it up, you can wait for me at the door."

"Ah."

After closing the door, the smile on Xi Ji's face disappeared instantly like a blooming flower.

She stood in front of the dressing table, with a conspicuous fruit knife among a pile of expensive cosmetics.She even forgot when she threw it there, it seems that she bought a pineapple after being bullied by Mukugenjutsu, and that pineapple was deliciously dismembered and distributed to Seijuro.

Picking up the fruit knife, Xi Ji put his left hand in front of the dressing table, holding the knife high, thinking about something.

"...I know, I won't do that." She murmured as if she was talking to someone, and then put the knife back on the table.

Seijuro who was at the door didn't wait for long, and a few minutes later, he saw Yuki running over with his daily makeup covering his complexion, his face still had a cute smile that reminded people of sunshine.

Seijuro said with a little disgust: "The next thing is to go to the doctor, don't laugh so obviously, did you clear all the game achievements last night?"

"Eh? Ah, yes!" Xi Ji smugly said, "Sure enough, the game series is the most enjoyable to get all platinum trophies. Qian Xu and I are really right. She also recommended me a few online games last time. , Said that the holidays can still take me to pretend to fly!"

"……Oh."

Thinking about whether to limit his silly sister's circle of friends, Seijuro opened the door.

Seeing Heizi lying in the hospital, Xi Ji felt complicated.

She was always beaten until she was covered in blood and thrown into the hospital for ten days and a half months. She never thought that one day she would come to the hospital to visit others, and no one around her was sick and injured enough to be hospitalized.Of course, Peng Lie's group of people is different, and the protagonist team of the young comics does not need to be dragged down by being hospitalized!

"Feeling better?" Seijuro, who had brought a bouquet of flowers for the time being, asked the security guard to pass a vase, and put the flowers on the bedside.

Heizi sat up from the bed, greeted the two of them, and focused on Xi Ji: "Akashi, you..."

"Ah, wait," only to realize that this name is easy to confuse, Xi Ji raised his hand to stop him: "You can either call Akashi's sister, or just call him by name, one Akashi and another Akashi, it's easy to get confused. "

Nodding, Heizi whispered, "Student Xi Ji."

Forget it.Xi Ji, who knew Kuroko's temperament, came in, sat on the stool next to Seijuro, and asked, "Do you remember how you got into the sea? I was shocked when I found you." Said Seijuro next to him glared at Yuki.

"No, I don't have a very clear impression. It seems that I heard some singing and lost consciousness." After thinking for a few seconds, Heizi replied calmly.

Singing, did the mermaid synthesize a siren?Thinking of insignificant things, Xi Ji also recalled (made it up), "When I saw you, I saw you floating on your back in the sea, and saw a few seabirds. It would be troublesome to drag you back from the sea. I must learn to swim next time."

"Sister Xiji, can you review the others?"

This incident sounds a bit mysterious, but no matter how many investigations there are, no reason can be found out.One of the parties involved couldn't remember, and the other ran the train with his mouth full of words. In the end, it was treated as an ordinary drowning incident. Except for Heizi who had to stay in the hospital for a day, no one was injured or injured.

Yawning at the entrance of the hospital with her bag in her pocket, Xi Ji thought about whether she should have a good talk with Mu.

Last night, Xi Ji had been burying his body well in his dream, but Mu forced his way into the dream, and the two had a very big conflict and had a big fight.In the end, Xi Ji was so angry that the black snake threw Mu out. Before he left, Mu still had an angry face that he would never come back again. It was the first time Xi Ji saw him so angry in the six months since he knew him.

She didn't know how to treat Mukuro, she just wanted to bury these things quietly by herself.But as soon as Mukui came, he mocked Xi Ji for just sticking to his incompetence, and didn't know why he was angry, so he came in and scolded Xi Ji, and even Xi Ji became angry, and finally the two broke up unhappy.

However, after Mu let go of his harsh words and left, Xi Ji felt something was wrong when he faced those cold tombstones and stared at her corpse with empty eyes.

Cold, disappointed, and a touch of loneliness.

So she lay down on the bed and fell asleep, having her first dream after death.In the dream, there are clips of her getting along with her mother, her own screams when the car overturned on the cliff, the dialogue where Natsume rescued her from the river, Lily's smiling face when she patted her head, and the dream with Muji The scolding when we first met, Seijuro's surprised eyes when he saw her, and...

It was a long and short dream, and it seemed to contain all the joy and fun she had lived so far.

She used to have everything, parents who loved her deeply, inexhaustible money, and a younger brother who was always there to help, an impeccable young lady's life except for her weak constitution.

Then I lost everything before, and in the life of poverty and desolation, I kept looking for a way to die, and I collapsed again and again in the painful cycle and chose to continue again and again.Even if he met Natsume, the time after that was still full of his own corpse and the pain of the soul. If there is no turning point, maybe he will fall into that crazy hell again.

Although she has no parents now, she knows that her father still loves her mother and herself.With a younger brother who loves to worry, and a lot of wealth, he understands the two biggest secrets of his body, holds powerful power in his hand, knows that the black snake is just a child, and Lily stands up to understand her, There are also many friends who are willing to watch the rainbow in tears together, and there are also people who are tempted for the first time.

Everything looks so beautiful, so beautiful that it is like an illusion, and it will be broken at the touch of a touch.

Xi Ji didn't know what was wrong with her, she wanted He Mu to explain her thoughts clearly, and don't refute them all in one breath.As Natsume said, there is nothing that everyone can't solve together, maybe it would be good to make it clear.

"Care to talk?"

A bandaged man in a light brown long trench coat stood in front of Xi Ji.

"Where's Luanbu?" Xi Ji asked.

"No." Dazai replied.

"Oh." Xi Ji stuffed the candy that had escaped from his pocket back into his pocket.Without Ranpo present, she didn't bother to feed Dazai.

Dazai was not annoyed, and stood beside Xi Ji, looking at the same scenery as her, watching the people coming and going in the hospital, with a faint smile in his tone: "Look, so many people get sick every day in this place. Injured, it would be great if one day I have a terminal illness or something. Ah, but it seems like it will hurt for a long time and let it go."

Xi Ji, who was chewing candy, stopped, frowned and looked sideways at Dazai, whose expression had not changed, "Do you really want to know?"

"What do you want to know?" He also looked at Xi Ji, obviously smiling, but there was no smile in his eyes, only coldness and a trace of inquiry.

"..." Xi Ji chewed the candy twice and swallowed it, sighed, and said, "It seems that you were very happy at that time. Anyway, thank you with a relieved expression on your face, it scared me to the bone. .”

Dazai said "Oh", nodded, clenched his fist and lightly tapped the other palm, and asked again: "Then Xiao Yuki, you hate me so much, why didn't you let the reality of my death come true?"

"…………"

The silence lasted longer this time, and Xi Ji looked back at Dazai's deliberately playful face expressionlessly, and then sighed after a long time and said, "Who knows, maybe I just don't want Dun Dun to fall for a scum like you." Tears."

"Oh, it means that if I die, only Dun will cry, and everyone won't cry? It's so sad!"

You laugh like you won 500 million, so sad.

"So," his voice lowered, as if he finally became serious, "when is it?"

"I guess what the fuck are you still doing?" He took out a new candy, opened the package and stuffed it into his mouth. Xi Ji didn't bother to talk nonsense to people like Dazai, "After three days of living in the detective agency, Come over to me with a stupid face and say that you want to die, so I will send you to die, that's all."

After hearing these words, Dazai smiled again, raised his hand to stroke Xi Ji's hair, and then put his hand down again.

"Xiao Xiji, you are really a contradictory person... If you are in a bad mood recently, remember to go out and find friends. If you hold back for a long time, you will get wrinkles."

Leaving those words behind, Dazai waved his hands and disappeared in front of the hospital.

Xi Ji threw the candy wrapper in his hand into the trash can, as if he was trying to throw Dazai's trash into it together.

She knew that Dazai was a sensitive person, and she also knew that his world-weary behaviors were all because living in the world was boring, so she used that kind of behavior to find things that would allow her to live.Xi Ji didn't dare to say that she understood Dazai, but as a similar person obsessed with 'death', she could barely keep up with his brain circuit.

It's not uncommon for Dazai to guess that he let him die, and even Xi Ji suspects that Dazai guessed that he died in front of him yesterday, and dealing with such a person is really troublesome.

But no matter how smart Dazai is, no matter how fast his brain turns, it is impossible to know that Nashiki actually repeated that day again.

When she was about to kill Dazai for the second time, she stopped.

At that time, Dazai showed a sad smile, as if he had given up, or despaired of everything, his eyes were filled with the darkness like a swamp.At that time, Zhao Xiji laughed a few times, then switched back to the usual mode of playing tricks, nervously began to say that he was joking, and went to talk to other people with a smile and a haha.

Xi Ji, who stayed where he was, was stunned for a long time before retracting the gun used to kill him.

Compared with Dazai's relieved "thank you" when he was really killed, the sad smile when he found out that he would not be killed made Yuki's hair stand on end.

She is the same kind as him, so will she become like that in the future?

So she made another loop, following Ranpo to the murder scene before Dazai even mentioned killing him, avoiding Dazai.Afterwards, Dazai never mentioned that incident again, as if it was really just a whim that day.

"Xiao Xiji? I got a call saying that Xiao Heizi woke up, so I rushed over here. How is he?" Wearing a peaked cap, sunglasses and a mask, Kise, who had just rushed over from the studio, saw him at the door Xi Ji ran over panting.

Xi Ji turned around, with the same smile on his face as before, and handed Huang Lai a candy, "He's fine, just in case he stays in the hospital for another day."

This smile seems to make this cloudy day lose its color, like a little sun, making everyone who sees it feel happy.

"Well, that's good." Kise hesitated a little, and asked after considering his words: "Well, are you familiar with that man yesterday?"

"Have you actually seen it all? I saw you sneaking around the door. You are so suspicious!"

"Eh?" Kise wrinkled his nose and defended, "I'm a public figure anyway..."

"Hahaha, don't mind, I just said it casually. Let's go, I'll take you to Heizi's ward." Seeing that the subject had been successfully changed, Xi Ji patted Kise on the shoulder and walked into the hospital first.

Huang Lai looked at the back of Xi Ji alone, she seemed to be far away from him when she stepped into the hospital gate for some reason, he opened his mouth and asked, "Little Xi Ji, do you really have nothing?"

"Nothing, nothing, don't talk about that, let's go first."

Looking back, standing under the light at the entrance of the cold hospital hall, the girl still had the same smile on her face.

The author has something to say: My impression of this article has changed from "20 words of random writing" to "smiling depression patients get sick and get cured". God knows, I only have a rough outline, and the rest are all free. It became like this, I didn't expect that the stalk of "smile as always" is still used from the beginning of this article, and it scares me more and more.

I didn't write all the '杨（さん）' and '君（くん)' in this article, but 'xx classmate' and 'xx miss' are both sang, so it's good to know.

Dazai didn't touch Yuki's head when he saw Kise at the door.

Muku is temporarily offline. The next future battle is 690. When we meet again, school will probably start.

Huang Lai is not cold yet.

Normal update, there are 7 chapters left.I feel that there are fewer and fewer people watching, and I am even a little secretly happy...