To my dear Miss J [Korean]

The author has something to say: ——The following side story, which is somewhat different from the main text of this article, because this is a non-responsible side story!The author's selfish work, spray my words...please be gentle——

I heard that when you are drunk, you can see whoever you want to see.

Quan Zhilong shook the wine glass in his hand, then drank it down in one gulp, he wanted to have a try.

Many people know that Quan Zhilong's alcohol capacity is very poor, and he rarely touches alcohol on weekdays. Compared with alcohol, cigarettes may be his favorite.But today, the wine glass in his hand has never stopped. Although it is champagne, no matter how low the alcohol content is, it cannot withstand his drinking like this.

"Don't drink anymore." Yu Yongpei couldn't stand it anymore, so he had to stop him with a loud voice, and then gave Komatsu Lainai a look at him.

"You'll get drunk, don't drink." Komatsu Lainai nodded to him, and said softly while holding Quan Zhilong's arm.

Quan Zhilong didn't respond to their advice, he pursed his lips tightly, and unnaturally moved his hand away from Komatsu Lainai, ignoring the flicker of weakness in her eyes.Quan Zhilong lowered his eyebrows and said nothing, he really wanted to say "I'm sorry" to Komatsu Lainai, but he couldn't say anything.

This kind of alienation and indifference is not like Quan Zhilong's attitude towards Komatsu Lainai.Speaking of which, the two of them dated for a while, during which time Quan Zhilong had rare stability.Komatsu Lainai's temperament is softer, and she is simple and obedient. Even though Quan Zhilong is very busy with work and can't take care of her, she still doesn't have any complaints. As a girlfriend, she can get full marks.And Quan Zhilong treated her with a little sincerity, and would try his best to spend time with her after busy work, with a lot of tenderness and care. If it wasn't for this, they could probably be called a perfect couple.

It's just...the other people couldn't help but frowned. For those of them who knew the inside story, there was an indescribable feeling in their hearts, because today is really not a good day for Quan Zhilong day.

In September, Quan Zhilong always had such troubles every year, especially in the first two years, when Jin Jiner had a boyfriend.

A few people don't know the specific situation. They only know that after that day, Quan Zhilong was depressed for a long time, and his work was delayed a lot. Everyone was worried but also a little emotional. In order to be completely freed.

Until last year when Bigbang was active in Japan, under the introduction of friends, Quan Zhilong met Komatsu Lainai, and for some reason, he unexpectedly did not show polite alienation as usual, but seemed a lot more casual. Seeing that there is something going on, they each try their best to create opportunities between them.After getting to know each other for a period of time, it didn't take long for Quan Zhilong to go along with the flow and agree to date, and it has been up to now.

The overall process of dating was smooth. People like Quan Zhilong, who would completely forget to eat and sleep once they were busy with work, naturally couldn't care less about taking care of their girlfriend. Although Komatsu Lainai was relatively young, she was very obedient and obedient. The two of them There is not even a quarrel between them, which is a bit enviable.

Just when everyone gradually began to relax, thinking that Quan Zhilong could finally enjoy a new life.

At the end of last year, she came back.Kim Jin Ah came back, but she left again.

Expecting something to happen?No, no, no, nothing happened to them, uh... I can’t say nothing at all, it seems that they met once, they only knew that that day, Quan Zhilong rejected the trip for the first time, and rushed over regardless .

No one knows exactly where they met and what they talked about.

Later, after that day, Quan Zhilong shut himself up for several days, and his good friend refused to agree to ask him out. As for Komatsu Lainai's girlfriend, she was also quite indifferent, and didn't even give her a reason for rejecting her. Thinking about it, he was also very self-willed, and completely lost his previous gentlemanly demeanor.

To be honest, the few of them have some opinions on Quan Zhilong's attitude. After all, the person he is dating now is Komatsu Lainai, but now everyone knows that he still thinks about her.This really makes people wonder what to say, and it’s not that Quan Zhilong treats Lainai Komatsu badly. He gave almost everything he could give except his heart.

However, what women want is a heart.

For example, the current Komatsu Lena.

Komatsu Reinai withdrew her hand in frustration, but she didn't say anything.In fact, she should be very satisfied with this. It was agreed between them at the beginning.There is a person in his heart who doesn't know when he can let go, and he doesn't want to delay her because of it. However, she knows the truth, but she just can't forget it. Even if the future is bleak, she has to try. At least the person beside him is her now. .It's just that his occasional tenderness gave her the illusion that she could hope for it. Maybe one day in the future, he could give her some place in his heart.

"I'm sorry, I want to be alone for a while." After being silent for a long time, Quan Zhilong said the first sentence. After leaving this sentence, he got up and left the room, and walked towards the balcony.

......

September in the United States should be about the same.

Quan Zhilong leaned on the railing, looking into the distance, the cold wind blows away the smoke from his hands, and the smell still slightly chokes his nose.

He didn't know why it became like this, obviously he had been doing a good job in the past few years, and he thought of her less and less often, from every day, every month, to this day of the year, her appearance was so important to him My heart became blurred day by day, and gradually there was only a shadow left.However, just when he thought he was really about to let go, she suddenly appeared in front of him again, with her original appearance, as if she had never left, holding his heart and soul with every move.

Why this happened, he didn't quite understand.

Two years ago, Quan Zhilong accidentally found out that she had a boyfriend, and his feelings at that time have never been forgotten until now.

The first reaction was that he didn't believe it, it should be said that he didn't want to admit that she finally learned to let go earlier than him.The second thing is that he is not reconciled, that woman who has been hidden in his heart for so many years, one day actually became someone else's.In the end, what made him unable to refute was that he could only bury these words in his heart forever and ever.

At that time, Quan Zhilong told himself that she had completely let go, and he had to get out of the memory.But it was too tiring to walk alone, and everyone he saw seemed to have her shadow.In the end, Quan Zhilong chose Komatsu Lainai, because he saw his own shadow in Komatsu Lainai, the sincerity that Jin Zhener took away from him a long time ago.For some reason, Quan Zhilong violated his conclusion that he would never fall in love with fans, and agreed to date her, but later when he looked at Komatsu Lainai's clear and clean eyes, he began to regret it again. This is how to treat a girl's sincerity.

A cigarette was slowly burning out in his hand, and the smoke in the air gradually dissipated.

......

"Nana, I want to talk to you." Quan Zhilong's first words came back to the living room.

"Okay..." Komatsu Lainai had a bad feeling, always felt that this conversation would be the end, she didn't know whose end it was, it was between him and the person who couldn't forget, It's still his and his own.

"Just now, I'm sorry."

"It's okay." Komatsu Lainai shook her head, expressing her indifference.

Quan Zhilong was silent for a while, lit a cigarette and took a deep breath. It was really not an ordinary difficulty to say goodbye, but it was something he had to do, and he couldn't delay this little girl any longer. He's young now, so he will spend all his time with this uncle.Hmm...he was eight years younger, and he couldn't help feeling sorry for it.

"...Ouba." Reinai Komatsu tugged Quan Zhilong's sleeve lightly.

Quan Zhilong reached out and rubbed her head, his eyes looked very gentle, "I wanted to call Uncle, but I forgot."

Komatsu Lainai expressed her resistance in silence. Quan Zhilong always treated her as a child, and it was the same in the process of dating, never crossing the line between men and women.

"Nana, you deserve better." Instead of following him like this, she is still very young and should have her own love, instead of wasting time on him, his heart is no longer his own, and there is no way to vacate it give her.

"Ouba... It's not been three years yet," Komatsu Reinai said after a long time, her voice became softer, because she knew that once Quan Zhilong said such words, it meant that everything had come to an end .She lowered her head, and the tears couldn't help falling. They clearly agreed for three years, "Can you tell me why?"

"The reason... probably is," Quan Zhilong set his eyes on the tall tower in the distance, but his heart was empty, "There is only one human heart, and it can only accommodate one person. I am at your age. At that time, I gave my heart out early, but I haven't been able to take it back until now."

"...That she must be fine, right?" Komatsu Lainai didn't know why, but felt that her throat was blocked, and there was an indescribable feeling. Why is he so sad? That person really can't forget .

"She..." She was not good at all, she took away his sincerity, but she was never willing to exchange her own.

......

"Will you go find her?" Komatsu Reinai asked the last question before leaving.

find her?

Quan Zhilong didn't answer this question until Komatsu Lainai left. As the night gradually fell, the last ray of sunset fell and the whole sky darkened.

He lit a cigarette, watched it slowly burn out, and then was blown by the wind and scattered in the air.

Quan Zhilong had always thought that as long as she could be well, he would be able to let go of it slowly over time, but the reality dealt him the biggest blow. Saying and doing are always two different things. He worked hard to do it. Everything, from the moment I saw her, turned into smoke at this moment, and the wind blows away.

Who the hell just wants to be friends with her, he never lacked friends from beginning to end, but only lacked her.

Exhaling a long breath, Quan Zhilong resisted the urge to swear, he looked up at the sky, raindrops fell on his face one by one, and then fell bigger and bigger, slowly soaking his face shirt.

Jin Zhen'er was like a heavy rain in his dry years, she fell so heartily, but he never got sick again.

"Heh, is your engagement serious...?"

Can he act as if he doesn't know anything, as if nothing happened.