Official You's Family in the Red Chamber

Wanshi

Wan thought that she was probably an unlucky woman. When she was a girl, she didn't have a good pregnancy. She was thrown into a merchant's house. In the womb, my aunt is not favored; when she was about to get married, her fiancé died after she first got engaged, and if someone wanted her again, she changed from marrying to accepting her; She gave birth to two daughters, and her life seemed like a tragedy.

But it’s a blessing in disguise, in fact, she is also lucky. Although she has a powerful mistress as a concubine, her aunt is not favored, so she has never been targeted. A nice family.

Later, although her fiancé died, her father was a kind man despite being a merchant, so the family did not send her to a nunnery. In the end, her father took the opportunity to find someone for her. Although she became a concubine, she also had a home. And because he entered an official family anyway, he got a generous dowry instead.

As a good concubine, she met the most dignified and virtuous mistress, she didn't have to be afraid of being tortured, she didn't have to be trembling, and her food and clothing were no worse than noble concubines. She only gave birth to a pair of daughters, but they were the most favored children in the whole house. She is neither capable nor qualified to teach her daughter, so she let the children get close to the mistress, the mistress is benevolent and educates herself, her daughters are so outstanding, even though they are concubine daughters, they have a marriage dowry comparable to that of concubine daughters, and in the end When she closed her eyes, her daughter was already a third-rank imperial order, how many prostitutes could finally have a third-rank Fengguanxiapei!

Because of the You family, her natal family developed rapidly, and finally changed from a small merchant family to one of the best imperial merchants. After she got married, even her aunt and brothers would try to curry favor with her. Everyone in the family said she was a The best daughter married by the Wan family, yes, she is the biological mother of two third-rank officials, and the only concubine of a first-rank official...

Snow was falling outside the room, as if mourning that the woman in the house was about to come to the end of her life, Wan raised her hand with the last of her strength and stretched it in one direction, You Qingwan and You Qingyan noticed it, and quickly reached out to grab her Hand, it's a pity that the hand that was just raised fell down heavily, without a trace of cushion.

"Auntie!" The sad cry was the last she heard. It was her daughters' voices and it would only be her daughters' voices. A bitter smile appeared on the face of the dying person, and outsiders might still hear it. Feeling peaceful, no one is paying attention, there is a tear on the pillow of the woman who always closes her eyes...

In the end, I still couldn't hold that person's hand tightly... Her husband...

At that time, when she learned that her fiancé died unexpectedly, her whole heart felt like she was dead. She had never met her fiancé, and she didn't love him, but he was her hope, her future, and if he died, she couldn't escape. Koff's reputation.

She thought that she would spend the rest of her life with the Qingdeng Ancient Buddha. How could anyone want an unlucky woman who was engaged but lost her fiancé.

Perhaps, as some sisters said, even though she is a rare girl in her family who has arranged a good marriage early, she is not that lucky.

While she was waiting for her fate to come, an accident happened. On that day, her father came home smelling of alcohol and told everyone that he promised her to someone else.

She was surprised who would agree to have her, and she was numb, and would have a good family if she was wanted. The next day, her father woke up and made it clear that he was serving as a concubine.

Concubine, just like her aunt, but it must be a blessing for a concubine from a merchant family to be a concubine for an official family, at least Fifth Sister gave her a glare.

What kind of person she will marry silently, probably an old man, maybe there are already a bunch of concubines and concubines, I don’t know what kind of person the mistress will be in the future, she wonders if she was not sent to the temple. Li is already pretty good, she shouldn't be favored even if she is not pretty, so as long as she lives in peace, she will be able to survive this life.

After she entered You's house, she thought she was probably the luckiest concubine. There was no group of Yingying and Yanyan in her imagination, and she was the only mistress in the entire backyard, and there was no room for the mistress. Easy to get along with, compared to living cautiously in the boudoir, after getting married, it is like a dream.

Her husband is much older than her, but he is very handsome. He is not the old man she imagined at all, nor is he a vicious person. I've only seen him get angry once, for their daughter, that cold aura made her feel like he was not a scholar but a general who came down from the battlefield, maybe that was his hidden true face, she thought.

Day by day, she has been living well, except that she almost died when she gave birth to two daughters, everything is fine.

But the more time passed, the more she felt how ridiculous it was to be an unmarried self, and she could live a peaceful life in peace... Yes, she did live her whole life.

Her husband is handsome, her husband is gentle and elegant, her husband is knowledgeable... But he never set his sights on her, she knows that she is not beautiful, she is cowardly, she is illiterate, she never From the beginning, she knew that she didn't have anything worthy of his love, but she still fell into it unknowingly.

He will warn her that Feng usually wears two clothes; he will tell her not to be afraid when she wakes up from a nightmare; he will take her to eat together; he will gently answer her questions that others find ridiculous; Looking through the books for a few days to find their daughter's name; he will patiently teach her how to write their daughter's name; he loves their daughters so much...

Her daughters, the pride she suppressed in her heart, the only thing she surpassed the mistress, even though he liked the mistress so much, but she gave birth to heirs for him, her daughters are the most favored, he loves her so much Their daughter should like her to some extent, she thought to herself.

Although she had seen the way he looked at the mistress, there was only that person in his eyes, he had never looked at her like this, not even once.

He would play with the mistress, and if the mistress was unhappy, he would find ways to please her, and he would also be sad and angry, and then lean on the mistress's shoulder waiting to be comforted, like a child.

She also saw how the mistress took her daughter with him, how like a family, as if she was simply superfluous.

Maybe she was redundant, she had noticed the guilt in his eyes when he looked at the mistress, because of her.

When she first entered the door, she could feel that he seemed to be separated from everything around him. She thought it was because he was an official, and he naturally had official authority, but after a long time, that feeling gradually dissipated, but it was just a pity. The people on the other side disappeared, and he and the mistress became more and more intimate, and he became less and less willing to mention her, and even when he came to see his daughter, he talked less and less with her.

She personally pushed her daughters to the mistress. As a concubine, being close to the mistress and being raised by the mistress will be of great benefit to her children in the future, and it will be more convenient for him to look after the children, not yet in the way.

She knew that if she kept the child, she would be able to see him more by virtue of his love for the child, but she didn't want that, she wanted him to be happy, and she didn't want to bet that if she kept the child, would it be because she gradually Polish his love for children, those are their children!

She used to wonder over and over again whether she had done something wrong to make him unhappy. Later, she gradually understood that it was not that she was wrong, but that she shouldn't exist at all. between.

She sometimes feels that she is really a vicious person. She is thankful that the mistress is barren. She even prayed countless times to the Buddha to bless the mistress never to have the possibility of pregnancy. She cannot imagine what will happen if the mistress can bear children.

Except for the first few years, he almost forgot that there was her in the mansion. In fact, they often passed each other, but unfortunately he never knew, and what she saw was his back forever, because in 30 years, he never Turn around and take a look at her!

She remembered that the mistress once asked her, do you hate?She said she didn't hate, Yan'er and Wan'er had such a good life, she had nothing to hate.

No hate, she really doesn't hate, it was the mistress who saved her and her daughter's life when she was in difficult labor, food and clothing, the mistress never treated her badly, and it was the mistress who spent more than ten years teaching her Her daughters, they can marry so well and live so well.

She doesn't hate him either, when she was in despair, because of him, she had the second half of her life, and the second half of her life was colorful because of him, she didn't hate, because it was him.

When she closed her eyes, she saw his eyes, those eyes were full of guilt, he seemed to know something about her guilt, but in the end, he had only guilt towards her for 40 years.

Tears wet the pillow, she wanted to speak, but she didn't have the strength, he didn't need to feel guilty, he never owed her, she was just a concubine, she wanted too much from the beginning, he never did anything wrong.Everything in this life was chosen by herself, and she has no regrets, but if there is a next life, she should not meet him again!

The love didn't know where it started, and it went deeper and deeper. In this life, she spent the rest of her life depicting his back, just waiting for him to turn and look at her; she spent her life praying, only wishing that there would be a small fragment of his memory that contained her figure.In this life, she has no regrets, but she is really tired. In the next life, she just hopes that she will not meet him again, and if she does not meet him, she will not be deeply sad.

After all, the Wan family was buried next to You's ancestor's grave as a noble concubine. Standing in front of the grave, You Wende felt that his throat was dry. At 60 years old, this woman is actually still very young, and she opened her mouth with a hoarse voice: "Wan Shi is actually a good man. woman?"

Mrs. Li didn't look at him, and after a while, she said, "She is a good mother!"

The author has something to say:

Thank you for your concern, the author's cold is much better. ^O^/