[Entertainment] Atypical 'immigrant' daily life

What is Li Xiyan like in the evaluation of outsiders?

Colleagues like Luo Yingshi and An Junying will say that they are careful in doing things, especially care about details. Li Xiyan at work is like a machine that cannot make mistakes, and there are perfect backup plans for everything, even if everyone thinks carefully , she will come up with another backup plan.Even if this backup plan is useless from the first to the tenth issue, Li Xiyan can take the trouble to prepare the backup plan for No.11.

The benefits of working with such a colleague are obvious. You can rest assured that you will never have to worry about anything you entrust to her, as long as it is within the scope of her field.The disadvantages are also obvious. It is too harsh for subordinates, it is useless once, and it will not be believed a hundred times. .

Family members and friends like Li Deye and Liu Nanqing would say that Li Xiyan is good at everything, but she is a bit too independent.Independent Sometimes, when you see her in difficulty and want to help, you have to consider whether it will disturb her plan.She is too protective about herself, as if someone might hurt her at any time.

Boyfriends like Jin Xichu and Yin Zhiyuan would say that maybe at first, they liked Li Xiyan because of her uniqueness.Just like the flowers blooming from the almost invisible soil on the edge of a cliff covered with gravel, the rhizomes seem fragile, just like her appearance, as if anyone can bully them, and they seem to break if the wind is a little stronger.But the inside is so strong that it makes people feel distressed, and I cherish that she can relax sometimes, and she doesn't have to be so strong.

What is Li Xiyan like? She has a plan in her work, and she doesn't like accidents when she makes a plan.When doing things, you will first calculate the pros and cons. If the cost is within the controllable range, you can accept reasonable losses, such as her increasingly problematic health.Whether it's with friends or outsiders, I prefer to convince people with reason rather than with emotion.Life seems to be wonderful, but in fact it is dry, and it is all within the plan.

He has a strong control over his emotions, so strong that he can deceive himself and others when necessary, and he likes to self-abuse without knowing it, and at the same time achieves the goal in his heart through self-abuse.Just like when she found out that she could never go back, the great sadness was suppressed in the bottom of her heart, and the lid was closed and sealed completely, so that those thoughts that almost defeated her were hidden forever.

Li Xiyan lived a wonderful life, no matter before or after time-traveling, she was wonderful.However, Li Xiyan's life is quite tiring, so tired that even in the most relaxed love, she would open her heart, and as a complete bystander, she would watch herself sinking deeper and deeper while wandering outside.

It's so miraculous that, walking on the verge of a mental breakdown, he can always hit himself in the head and wake himself up when he is about to collapse.The living, independent, rational and cold-blooded Li Xiyan did not become the current Li Xiyan in a day, or even because of time travel.

Li Xiyan used to be a little girl who acted like a baby, lying on the ground and crying loudly, maybe just because of a candy.It's just that she maintains this period of time no different from ordinary little girls, much shorter than other people or most little girls, so short that she only lasts until she is 3 years old.

Li Xiyan, who is more than 2 years old, can eat by herself, and then picked up the first paintbrush in her life, and the whole world changed.The days when everything could be exchanged by crying, came to an end when Li Xiyan picked up the paintbrush.

The child's cognition of the world is not clear, Li Xiyan doesn't understand why she wants to start learning painting, she doesn't like it, she prefers to sit in front of the drawing board boringly, drawing lines, eggs, apples, still life She likes to go out to play, even if there seems to be nothing interesting outside, she also wants to go out.

But my mother likes it. Adults always think that children are so young and know something. In fact, children are more sensitive than any adults imagine.Sensitive, even if Li's mother just frowned, she would know if her lines were light or heavy.Even if my mother didn't say anything, she could know that the way she wrote was wrong.Li Xiyan learned to read words and expressions earlier than Mother Li thought.

Children probably need the praise of their elders more naturally, because in their narrow world, their parents are almost the whole world. A word of praise from them can make the child laugh out loud, and it can also make the child tell herself that she likes to draw and she likes to draw. She likes the way her mother looks at her when she likes to paint, and she likes the way her mother no longer feels sad when she picks up the paintbrush.

Li Xiyan probably found the so-called goal of life before many people. When she was more than 3 years old, Li Xiyan knew that she would become a painter, a world-renowned painter.And it is very clear that for this goal, she can endure all kinds of hardships, because her mother said that only by suffering among the hardships can one become a superior person.

4-year-old Li Xiyan was taken by her mother, across two countries, traveled to several cities, many studios, one teacher after another audited, re-examined, watched the works, and then interviewed. .Bai's first teacher was a racist with great painting skills, known as the pioneer of American Impressionism, a white supremacist who charged extremely high fees.

But it doesn't matter, racism is racism, a good teacher teaches painting, and mother Li can teach things like being a human being.Children can't learn well, so what if they are scolded a few times.The teacher compares you with other children. It means that others draw better than you. You should thank the teacher for his strictness. Only strict teachers can produce excellent students.Why doesn't the teacher talk about others, just talk about you, because he is optimistic about you, so he talks about you, don't be ignorant!

Four-year-old Li Xiyan doesn't understand why it is also red, still life, and curves, but she is not as good as those fair-skinned children in the classroom.Why is it that the paintings that the teacher has seen have made progress, only she has not, and only she has always had shortcomings.

She is the only Asian in the whole studio, and even for her convenience, there are only a few Asians in the place where they live, and because she leaves early and returns late in the studio, she basically cannot make friends outside the studio.Those who can spend a lot of money to send their children to the studio have basically a good family background, and naturally most of the tutors are online.This kind of thing like bullying will not happen, it will happen, it's just that the children who are very good at watching adults form a small circle automatically to isolate her.

Five-year-old Li Xiyan’s only good friend is a little rabbit bought by her mother. Six-year-old Li Xiyan’s best friend is a one-year-old little rabbit. Seven-year-old Li Xiyan owns half a room of toys. Everything related to painting, including various large-page and hardcover albums, and the same expensive ones can make the neighbors say that Mama Li really loves her daughter.

Until, the social worker found Li's mother from the school and suspected that Li Xiyan had autism, that is, the tendency of autism.Because she not only has no friends at school, but also basically does not speak, does not play games, does not participate in any activities, does nothing except draw, and has no reaction to the outside world.

Mother Li thought that the social worker had a brain problem, so she went to someone else's house and said that her child was mentally ill?You are mentally ill!He took Li Xiyan out of the studio with one hand and pushed her in front of the social worker. He talked and laughed when he had to, and there was no problem. Then he kicked the social worker out and called to complain.

Holding the complaint phone number in Chinese and English, Mother Li, who scolded the other party bloody, insisted that my daughter would be fine, and began to follow Li Xiyan to school in private. She only went to the studio before, or Waiting nearby.

And Li Xiyan, who is 8 years old, already knows how everything happened, and knows that she cannot change it.The teacher cannot be changed, the classmates cannot be changed, and she cannot be changed. If she chooses to integrate into the collective, she needs to give up the time for painting.The only thing she can change is to work harder on painting, because if everyone doesn't like her, then it's good that her mother likes her.

Li Xiyan became quieter, but also quieter and more cunning. The social worker came to the door a few times, and her mother began to suspect that she never spoke, and became a little girl who didn't talk much.A quiet, shy little girl who fits the perception of Asians very well.Then, my mother was relieved, and the social worker stopped coming to the door. With the perseverance to read at night, after sweeping the entire studio.

Ten-year-old Li Xiyan has returned to China.The reason is quite simple, mother Li's wallet is almost deflated.

Li Xiyan, who returned to China, was already sensible, so sensible that she could understand the gossip of her neighbors and why she wanted to paint. Then, a new round of worldview emerged.Because she also changed from an ordinary little Asian to a cute and beautiful girl, everything changed.

With grandma and grandpa, with schools and community compounds where you can have more playmates based on the number of people, with uncles and aunts who can be said to be really pleasing as long as the aesthetic standards are not abnormal, with everything that you didn't have before, no matter what Is it the attention of others, or the love she wants to get.

It stands to reason that with such a huge change, one should be a little proud and complacent, but Li Xiyan did not.It's not that she has strong control, ten years old has Mao's control, it's that Li's mother has strong control, should I continue painting and play with the children?Draw first.To talk with grandma?Talk while drawing.Want to watch TV?Look at the album.Suddenly, everything seemed to change back again.

When did Li Xiyan have her first planner? 12 years old. 12-year-old Li Xiyan already vaguely knows that her mother loves her, but her love makes her unhappy.

12-year-old Li Xiyan, for her own life, with herself as the starting point, the first plan she made was not to paint.She doesn't know what she wants to do, she doesn't know what to do if she doesn't paint, she just knows that she doesn't want to paint.

For this plan, Li Xiyan revised her strategy many times, using all available resources, such as grandma and grandpa, such as hurting herself.I fought for five full years, changed countless notebooks, suffered countless stumbles, and was suppressed by Li's mother countless times.Finally, she achieved everything she wanted to fight for.

At the same time, I also learned that there are no unsolvable problems in this world, only unsolved ones.

In the end, Li Xiyan became, everything is organized, the details must not be ignored in doing things, the territory is clearly divided, especially what you want, there are countless backup plans, and things that can be solved with your brain, don't try to impress others with emotion.Whether it is necessary or not, it is up to you.But it's best not to do anything that can't be solved by yourself.

Most importantly, don't, don't, don't.

Don't make yourself dependent on anyone.