The World God Only Knows GS

Shizuo Heiwajima hates violence.

Shizuo Heiwajima hates hurting others.

Shizuo Heiwajima hates himself for having violence that hurts others.

However, Shizuo Heiwajima could not stop his hurtful actions.

Therefore, Shizuo Heiwajima occasionally thinks: Is it that he should not have been born at all?Or, should I give up this disgusting life if I only hurt others?

(It wasn't like this before.)

In the past, Shizuo was also a primary school student who would die if he fell from the fifth floor of the teaching building.Instead of the current monster who jumped from the top floor of the teaching building and would only break bones at most.

(Hate.)

"...Forgive me...Please forgive me...I-I don't want to die...! ! 』

The high school student who was called by his brother to help beat Shizuo was covered in blood and begged the perpetrator, but as the target of the beating and the perpetrator who is now beating everyone, Shizuo still swung at the high school student Iron rod in hand.

(Hate it.)

He hates violence to the bone, but at the moment of violence, Shizuo will feel an indescribable sense of refreshment.Every cell in the body is clamoring for destruction, longing for destruction, every nerve and every muscle conveys the impulse of destruction to Shizuo.

(I hate this.)

If there is one person in this world that Shizuo Heiwajima really wants to disappear, then that person must be Shizuo Heiwajima himself.

(…I hate myself.)

Along with self-loathing comes an irrepressible surge of destructive impulses.Holding the slender neck where he had pinched red marks, Shizuo once again pushed Dongyue down on the hospital bed.

"Xiao Jing,"

Dongyue, who was held by the neck, just crushed the milk candy in her mouth calmly, and swallowed it after chewing a few times.

"I don't want to die, and I won't die."

Fuyutsuki's words made Shizuo's fingers tremble slightly.

"lie!!"

"I approach Xiao Jing not to commit suicide."

Smiling relaxedly, Dongyue stared at Jingxiong whose eyes were about to split open: "It would be strange to approach Xiaojing for the sake of suicide, right? After all, it would be very painful to be crushed like a tomato by being broken by Xiaojing."

"If one day I really want to commit suicide, um... I will definitely commit suicide with charcoal~"

In the snowy winter, Dongyue once stood alone on the roof of the teaching building under the gray sky.The cold snowflakes fell on her hair, shoulders and eyelashes, but Dongyue herself didn't care at all.

Because it was winter vacation, there was only one elderly guard in the school.Dongyue, who told him that she forgot something in the classroom, easily entered the teaching building.Climbing to the rooftop without guardrails, Dongyue closed her eyes.She counted silently in her heart.From one to ten.

Dongyue thought that if she didn't fall off the roof at the tenth step, she would go down from the roof by herself and not cause trouble to the old guard.If he fell off the rooftop within ten steps... that would be a good thing if it was all over.

"Practicing charcoal to commit suicide is relatively easy ~ just light the charcoal to keep warm, seal the whole space, and then swallow enough sleeping pills to sleep well ~"

When she reached the third step, Dongyue subconsciously narrowed her steps.When she reached the seventh step, Dongyue couldn't bear it and wanted to open her eyes to see how far she was from the edge of the roof.When she reached the ninth step, Dongyue opened her eyes trembling all over.Looking at the edge of the roof where she would step into the air if she took another step, Dongyue shed tears.

"Because I'm a coward. So if I were to die, I would choose a comfortable way to die. But,"

Raising his hands, holding Shizuo's face, Fuyutsuki smiled.

(Now, I'm glad I was timid at the time.)

"I don't want to die!"

The games piled up on her desk, the posters on her wall, the novels, DVDs and CDs on her bookshelf appeared in her mind, and Fuyutsuki's hand holding Shizuo's face gradually slid down.

(Not just because there are so many classic games waiting for me to explore, so many comics, animations and novels waiting for me to read.)

"You..."

Winter Lion Lang.

"Dongyue sauce! 』

Kyoko.

"Winter Moon. 』

Qiwen.

"Thanks……"

Dillumdo.

"Ms. Hoshino~"

"teacher. 』

Chihaya and Taichi.

"teacher! 』

And Huang Se.

(If you're dead, you won't be able to meet them, right?)

Hoshino Fuyuki didn't know what kind of people he would meet in the future, and he didn't know what he would encounter in the future.But life is interesting because it is impossible to predict what will happen in the future.

(It would be foolish to give up a life without knowing how many levels and rewards there are.)

Firmly grasping Shizuo's hand holding her neck, Dongyue looked straight into the depths of Shizuo's eyes.

"Until my life runs out, until this body is hopeless, I will—"

"Do your best to live!"

Compared to Shizuo's strength, Fuyutsuki's strength is pitifully small.But the determination and persistence in Dongyue's eyes made Jingxiong shake.

"Life is full of painful things, but even so, I will not give up my life, I want to end my life! I will not die! Nothing can kill me!"

"Lie—!! You clearly...!!"

The fragile ones will suffocate to death as long as they use their hands hard.Even if you don't do it yourself, this body will lose all its warmth in a few months, and lie cold under the white sheet.Shizuo couldn't understand why such Dongyue could say that she would not die, that she would not be killed.

"Soon it will be—…!!"

"I won't give in."

Grinning at Shizuo, Fuyutsuki's hands clenched into fists.

"Whether it's illness, or people I know or don't know."

With all the strength in her body, Fuyutsuki swung her fist towards Shizuo's face.

"Even if it's this world, no, even if it's 'fate', I will definitely not succumb to 'fate'!"

This punch did not exaggerate and sent Jingxiong flying, nor could it dislocate Jingxiong's jaw.Dongyue's full-strength punch just tore the corner of Shizuo's mouth a little bit.

"So, Xiaojing."

The fist turned back into a warm and soft palm, and Fuyutsuki turned Shizuo's face to her.

"Don't admit defeat even if you die with me."

"Not surrendering to a world that treats us heretics, not to a 'fate' that doesn't make sense. Also,"

Hugging Shizuo who let go of her neck, Fuyutsuki smiled briskly.

"Don't admit defeat to the weak self-destructive self-defeating self."

"..."

For the first time in his short 12 and a half years of life, Shizuo Heiwajima kept his mouth flat like an ordinary child, letting hot tears pour out of his eyes endlessly.

"Xiao Jing can't kill me. The proof is that I'm still by Xiao Jing's side."

Let Shizuo lie beside her, hugging Shizuo's weak-looking body, Fuyutsuki kisses Shizuo's forehead.

"Xiao Jing will not kill anyone. Because Xiao Jing is not a monster with nothing but violence."

The sky outside the window is a lonely dark blue.The color that is close to black but gentler than black is dotted with shining stars.There was a slight wind blowing, and the hot tears on Shizuo's face quickly turned cold.

The meteor shower in the Perseids is continuing, and thin, bright traces of light cut through the sky, fleeting.But Dongyue, who had always wanted to watch this grand meteor shower, was looking at the boy's face instead of the beautiful night sky.

"Xiaojing is a human being, a gentle human being. But no matter how gentle a human being is, she will still hurt others intentionally or unintentionally."

Staring at Shizuo who was stunned by her actions and even held back tears temporarily, Fuyutsuki closed her eyes and pressed her forehead against Shizuo's.

Shizuo, who previously felt that it was too embarrassing for him to cry in front of Dongyue, suddenly forgot all the feelings such as "shame" and "shame".At this moment, the only thing in Shizuo's mind is Dongyue in front of him, this woman who doesn't know where she came from, what she is thinking, and what she will do.

"Xiao Jing, don't be afraid."

Holding Jingxiong's hand covered with small scars, Dongyue said softly: "Hitting others is also the proof of Xiaojing's being a human being."

"and also,"

The corners of the mouth were raised, and the corners of the eyes were curved upwards.Dongyue smiled and said: "If people all over the world hate Xiao Jing, then I like Xiao Jing more than the sum of all these people who hate Xiao Jing."

Dongyue closed the corners of her eyes as she spoke some words that were not logically smooth but could make people understand her intentions.

"..."

Eyes widened in disbelief, Shizuo couldn't say a single word to Fuyutsuki whose delicate face was magnified in front of his eyes.

A kiss as light as a feather fell on Shizuo's lips, and a wind suddenly blew outside the window.

No one needs to be reminded, Dongyue also knows that the moment of parting is coming.

(...a little lonely.)

Letting go of Shizuo's hand, leaving Shizuo's lips, looking at Shizuo who seemed to want to say something with his eyes wide open, but immediately his whole body was wrapped in strong wind, Dongyue smiled wryly.

——Dongyue has experienced many partings, but no matter how many times she said goodbye to the person she likes, Dongyue still can't get used to the loneliness brought about by parting.

"...!!"

Not knowing what happened, but feeling dizzy, Shizuo instinctively reached out to grab Dongyue who was isolated on the other side of the wind wall.But after all, his hand still failed to touch Dongyue.

"Goodbye, Xiaojing."

(What……?)

When Jingxiong heard this sentence, he no longer knew who said it to whom.In the next second, Jingxiong completely forgot that he had heard this sentence.